Chapter 202 – (Aware of Impoverishment) Ep.13 – Happy Ending (4)
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Where did I go wrong? How did you come all the way here?
You have whatever you want,
I achieved anything I wanted to achieve.
There was nothing to call it difficult,
It was just a life where there was only a difference between less annoying and more annoying.
A man lying below, unable to do anything, broke everything.
I don’t know how to do anything,
A man born inferior to a woman.
It’s funny. I’ve heard stories of idiots who get possessed by a man and ruin a country, but I never thought that would be my story.
“… “
Because of his body leaning forward, his face looks closer.
I see his swollen cheeks, his tear-stained eyes, and his young collarbone with large and small scratches.
So weak and shabby If you grab it with his hand, it looks like it will break at any moment. The soft skin that the breath can touch is exposed defenselessly.
“Stop, stop… “
In that state, he whispers to me to stop.
“Anyway, this is enough. So please stop… “
He was crying It wasn’t that she shed tears because she was bruised and black from being hit by me, but she was crying as if she felt sorry for me.
“… Under.”
From one to ten, I don’t understand everything. Everything he shows is so stupid and absurd that it makes my head feel weird.
Does it make sense? Even if you educate them like that, they can’t figure out their subject.
I was dumbfounded and stopped laughing. His illogical stupidity and unsuitable attitude just made me laugh.
Ah. It was more unpleasant than I could have imagined to laugh while holding a fragile heart that burst out through tears. It felt like phlegm was filling up to the back of my throat.
“Stop? Haha… Delrin, really… Incredible. Great. You still don’t know where you are.”
“It’s okay, so stop it… You know that this won’t change anything. You know everything! Please calm down now It’s over.”
I didn’t like the voice. The tone and voice that seemed to soothe a crying child.
I dug through my aching chest.
Just a few words, a stupid face, and weak tears ripped me from the inside.
“If you release me now, I will forgive everything, so listen to me. I’ll help you. I’ll tell the other noonas well.”
Do you help
I had to stop that cheeky mouth immediately. I couldn’t stand still any longer.
“Profit… !”
However, I couldn’t hit him anymore.
I could see his frail body, ready to collapse at any moment.
I couldn’t touch his body.
Something penetrated his heart and made him uneducable.
My body didn’t listen to me, as if under a spell.
I couldn’t hit him any more.
No more…
“… Nothing is done, nothing is released. It’s starting now. What I haven’t been able to do until now, what I’ve been through, I’ll return everything many times over. I’m going to make you regret everything you dared to betray me, and how you put me through all this with your fucking skills. Certainly… “
He lowered his raised hand again and wrapped it around the nape of his neck. As if grasping the leaves of a fragile tree, the strength in his hand was not working properly. I was worried about him, both physically and mentally.
“It’s mine now. I won’t lose to anyone… “
Even hugging him
While he was talking to him
I could feel the tears tickling my cheeks.
“Then shut up. Shut up, please… ! This stupid mouth… “
I grabbed his cheek and tried to squeeze his hand again, but my body wouldn’t listen.
Delrin’s eyebrows furrowed slightly, and her eyes shook in pain.
Those two took the power out of my hands.
I couldn’t hold him anymore.
He couldn’t keep his mouth shut. He could not bear to hold him with his rough, sinful hands.
“Please… “
Lips trembled,
He swallowed with difficulty the lump in his throat,
He closed his eyes so as not to shed any more tears that burst out even if he tried to hold it in. He was getting something out of his body that shouldn’t be getting out. The more tears shed, the more I felt like dying.
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“Please, love me… It’s not even difficult. What is it that you hate so much that you run away?”
Like the sand that is broken by the light waves, the queen sinks.
Her legs gave way, she could no longer sit on top of me. She can no longer hold my body, which she had been holding down so hard.
Her beautiful and noble body eventually just lays on top of me.
Not heavy. Like everyone else, the Queen’s body is soft and gentle after all. It just constricts me like infinitely sinking mud, and I can’t find anything different.
“Everything I have… I’ll give you my everything, Delrin. She will give you all the things she never dared to enjoy.”
There are indelible tear marks on the corner of the queen’s eyes as she frowns in pain. Her mouth, trying to imitate composure and composure, is contorted with uncontrollable tears.
“How is it? Yes… ? Our sweet dog… Hey, can you spend a happy time here with me, then go back to Albator?”
“You just have to nod your head. Really… ! Gee, it’s okay if you don’t like me yet. I’ll do my best. Delrin, I’ll do anything you like!”
“How much, how much! Delrin, do you know how much I love you? Huh?”
It’s a quiet space with only the two of us,
The queen is unbearably anxious.
She swallowed her saliva and tears with difficulty, and with each word she uttered, she embraced the queen more desperately.
“You will be happier with me. Really. Really… Me, what about me? I will do anything you ask me to do. Do those women do that? Yes? Did you do everything? Isn’t it? I know it can’t be. But I will be different. Really… “
She is like a crying child saying that she will listen to her mother carefully from now on. As if the world would collapse if I didn’t catch her here, she’s the queen, desperately trying to convince me.
And, like a child,
Doesn’t break her self-obstinacy.
“… You’ll find out while you’re here anyway. That we are destined to be together in the end, and that you have no choice but to love me.”
Her hands lift her body up. She sits on her so wet bed, leaning against her wall, and makes her lean against her own shoulder, as her lovers do.
However, her whole body still throbs. Even though her behavior has changed, her limbs, which were treated so violently just before, are still full of pain.
Once engraved, it does not easily disappear. Whatever it is, it dwells in the body and spirit and becomes an indelible curve.
So, eventually, all problems start with the wrong first button. Anything that leads to an already broken state is just a lump of pus that makes things worse.
“Okay? Yes… ?”
I feel her hand caressing her hair. She looks like she’ll collapse any moment, but she tries her best to pretend to be calm.
That’s what gets me in the end
The instinct to avoid pain
A weak and indecisive nature,
Even my whole life, which is not so sweet, is breaking through.
The lovely house where I lived,
All the memories I left behind in that house,
All the hardships I’ve been through here,
Even the new ties made in such shame. Putting it all off for a while.
Sometimes, really sometimes.
I often encounter something that is difficult to just pass by. Like this…
“… Queen.”
It’s just a story in a novel.
I was brought here, and I can go back home,
He knows better than anyone that this world is a world in a novel.
Even so, I can’t resist.
Now that doesn’t seem to make any sense.
A novel or something, did the writer put me in or what…
“The Queen, Her Majesty the Queen.”
“Ah, yes! Is it so! Are you ready to answer now? Did my sincerity reach you? Okay?”
I already knew.
I was realizing it a long time ago.
When convincing Rico noona,
Even when drying the neva,
When I hold Chichi’s hand,
When leaving Levi,
When comforting Eva from crying,
Even when meeting her eyes with Helen,
It was all the same.
Even when receiving the small leaves given by the World Tree,
Even when I noticed the loneliness in Nitocrio’s eyes…
“Sorry. I cannot be with you.”
It doesn’t matter where we are.
It doesn’t matter how I got here, nor does it matter the status window or save or load.
Only one thing really matters.
I live here now,
That everything I’m facing is real.
It may be a story in a novel, but
It’s a reality for everyone I face.
“Sorry. I’m so sorry. I have to go back now It won’t change no matter how long you stay here. I want to go back.”
I don’t know what the connection between my realization and my words is.
Just just,
I couldn’t lie anymore.
I couldn’t run away any longer.
I had to face this moment that I postponed and postponed.
Maybe this is what we call destiny.
No matter how much you push, the end that will eventually come
The coming end.
“Please let go now…”
So, I had to say it in order to end it myself.
I had to say what I had to say here.
“I have already come too far. Just let it go. Please… “
There was no other reason.
She just felt sorry for her in front of her eyes, and she just wanted to see the other sisters.
“I don’t love you, but I don’t hate you that much either. I will forgive you everything. I will forgive even if others don’t know, so please let me go… “
