Chapter 158 – 158. Joy (1)
“…”
I sat on the bed, quietly immersed in thought, looking at the old moon that seemed to sparkle somewhere aloof.
“Select…”
The words the red-haired girl pointed out were still lingering in my head.
Every time I thought of her red hair and eyes, I would sigh deeply and hold onto my complicated mind.
I knew it.
I don’t know when the time will come, but eventually the time will come when I have to choose someone.
No matter how much I get a second life, I am still a human being.
I am too weak to embrace all six of my romantic feelings.
Someday, I will turn into a shabby looking person and return to the dust.
On the other hand, among the warrior party members, Ariel is half immortal and Liliana is an elf famous for her longevity.
Even Isis is a creator god whose concept of lifespan does not exist in the first place.
My body alone is not enough to embrace everything.
Isn’t it difficult for a person to receive it properly?
To say that I would love all six people is nonsense.
Therefore, you must choose.
You have to make a choice and keep your distance from the other five.
Otherwise, it would be like hurting the people who weren’t chosen twice.
“… Ugh.”
Every time I thought about the six faces that came to mind one by one, only my indecisive self came to the surface.
When I imagined the look in their eyes that would be hurt by me, it felt like my heart was breaking because of something that didn’t even happen.
“What are you going to do with me?” …”
I can’t choose.
You can’t choose it, you can’t throw it away.
Even if it’s just a superficial relationship made in bed.
Even if it’s a love that bloomed late amid the infinite outpouring of affection.
Still, to me, all six of these people are so precious.
I grabbed my head.
It was the moment when I was giving myself a massage by pressing down on my aching skull.
There was a sound of something landing.
I instinctively recognized her identity when someone pretended to appear right behind me.
“… Hello, Isis.”
“Okay. Good night, Thesia.”
Isis waved her hand with a faint smile upon my greeting.
When she saw the casual outfit she always wore, her anxious mind seemed to calm down a little.
“I saw everything that happened during the day.”
Isis approached, holding something tightly in one of her hands.
The goddess’s expression, revealed under the silver moonlight, was frowning as if she had no face.
“It seems like you’re in more trouble because of me. I’m really sorry.”
“No, it’s okay. In the end, this happened because I was a person who couldn’t do anything.”
“You don’t have to force yourself to pretend you’re okay.”
“I’m not really forcing myself to do this…”
Without even trying to finish what she said, I closed my mouth.
She remained silent for a moment and then spoke, expelling the air that had built up in her chest.
“… Is it noticeable?”
“I’ve been watching you for years. “If you look at it, it just pops out.”
“Ahaha…”
“Is it very difficult?”
Isis, sitting next to me, spoke softly.
The black-haired goddess quietly laid her head on my shoulder and looked at me with her pitiful expression.
“I didn’t think much of it until yesterday, but a little while ago that incident made me think a lot.”
Took placed his hand on Isis’ head.
She ran her fingers through her hair, which was like angel silk, and continued speaking.
“Just date like before, look for delicious food, occasionally joke around, and then make love in bed… “I wish I could continue to live like that.”
“It’s the life everyone dreams of.”
“It is a life that can never be achieved.”
I laughed bitterly.
“I think I understand why there are so many ordinary couples in this world where polygamy and same-sex marriage are permitted.”
“Hmm?”
“Even if I devote my whole life, it is impossible to fully reveal this feeling.”
“Oh, that’s a really cool thing to say.”
While saying that, Isis mischievously stabbed me on the side of my chest.
Thanks to the usual pranks, the atmosphere that was supposed to be heavy became a little lighter.
“Still, Tessia.”
“Yes?”
“There’s no need to think too deeply, right?”
Isis pressed closer to my side and spoke in a calm voice.
“Me and those kids too, and I will respect and support you no matter what choice you make. “I made that determination a long time ago.”
“Lord Isis…”
“Well, I have no intention of giving up on you in the first place.”
Isis laughed out loud and looked up at me.
“Even if you end up with someone else, I will only have eyes for you, Tecia. Even if you return to nothing but dust, Teshia, you will always be the only one in my heart.”
Isis, who spoke in a soft voice, suddenly lifted her head.
After hesitating for a moment, he carefully unfolded something he was holding tightly in his right hand.
“This… ?”
What was revealed was a black crystal the size of my fist.
The elaborate and beautifully crafted jewels were hung on a thin gold chain.
Isis slowly lowered her gaze toward what had taken the form of a pendant.
“I was originally going to give it to you as a gift a while ago, but somehow I ended up not being able to show it to you until a long time later.”
Isis mocked herself, saying, “I didn’t mean to do this.”
I stared blankly at the pendant and the face of the goddess.
Isis, who was looking at me with a smile on her face with a lot of question marks, soon closed her eyes.
——Jjook.
“Yeah…”
What follows is a sweet kiss.
A slight fever mixed with comfort and affection touched my lips.
After lightly exchanging breaths, Isis took his mouth away.
Hehe, he smiled slightly and held out the black crystal pendant near my neck.
“Do you see this text here?”
As the saying goes, a word written in runes was engraved on the black crystal that sparkled and absorbed even the moonlight.
“Pleasure… ?”
“I made it with you in mind, Teshia.”
Isis smiled.
He slowly stretched out his arm and placed a golden chain around my neck.
“All the time I spent with you and will spend with you in the future is a treasure that shines brighter than jewels to me.”
A sincere confession reached my ears.
Under the dusky silver light of the old moon, the blush on Isis’s cheeks shone vividly.
“This happy heart I received from you will not disappear no matter what happens. Even if I’m not chosen by you.”
“Lord Isis…”
“I told you, right? I’ve made up my mind to that extent. Otherwise, there is no way the God of Creation would give love to a mere human, right?”
“Ahaha… That’s also true.”
“Hehe.”
Isis, who was laughing along with me, made eye contact with me for a moment.
It seemed as if my golden eyes were reflected in the deep dark brown eyes.
Joy surged.
The respect and admiration for Isis began to mix with the love that was softly lingering in my heart.
“Teshia.”
As if she had peeked into my heart, Isis eventually hugged my body warmly.
My lips touched his plump chest.
The goddess’ body, which became infinitely similar to her human counterpart, sent the beat of her lovely heart directly into my mouth.
“My precious daughter.”
“Isis…”
Why is it so touching to hear that it is my daughter?
It felt like I was recognized as a member of Isis’ family, and my heart naturally started pounding.
That’s why I also wanted to express my gratitude and words of love.
I smiled with all my heart at my ‘mother’ while tightly holding the pendant around her neck.
“Thank you. “For giving me a second life and for loving me this much.”
“… Yes.”
Isis only responded softly to my words.
We made eye contact for a while.
The air of a midsummer night passed through the tightly closed window.
The moonlight was still dim, but the gaze of Isis and me as we gazed at each other had clear colors.
Excited, Excited.
The heart sounds were mixed.
It was difficult to even tell whose body the sound was coming from.
My vision becomes dizzy.
I felt like I was losing consciousness due to the fragrant scent of Isis.
All that came into view was the slightly flushed expression of the benevolent goddess.
Slowly, slowly.
Holding tightly to the black crystal of ‘joy’.
I stuck out my lips to Isis.
The mucous membrane that was curled up soon touched something soft.
As soon as I realized that those were Isis’ lips, I tightly closed my eyes.
“Umm, ok…”
Isis kissed the shallowly parted lips as if coveting them.
I almost lost consciousness for a moment at the feeling of the mucous membrane slipping so brightly.
I reflexively released my hands that were wrapped around the black crystal and hugged my very own goddess right in front of her.
“Lord Isis… Howup, eungchup, chup, chuup…”
“Side, side, side, jjooob…” … Phew. “Don’t you like it too much?”
Isis, with a smile on her face, hugged my waist tightly.
“Kya… !”
“Like this lewd saint.”
“Ah, ugh…”
“You don’t even think about denying it anymore?”
“It’s not wrong…”
Isn’t it true that people have been playing particularly lewdly recently?
Just deny the cancer.
Isis burst out laughing once more as I barely held back my embarrassment.
“Then, I will cater to the desires of our lewd saint. “It’s so intense that all the worries from before are blown away.”
“Please, please…”
As I spoke shyly, Isis left me one more kiss.
He pushed my body down on the bed and whispered with a sly expression.
“I can’t guarantee that♡”
“Ugh…”
Unfortunately, as soon as I heard that one word, I became so excited that my stomach started to tingle.
