Chapter 257 – Choice (2)
Blue sky wall.
In life, lightning strikes happen.
Even if it’s not necessarily making money, in many aspects of life.
Suddenly, I had two children.
Although not yet born, my seed was growing in the wombs of the two women.
In one, the second child was growing in the belly of my beloved wife, Seung-yeon, whom I thought of as her lifelong companion.
And another person, Jian.
One day, Jian suddenly came and shook my heart. Just as Cha Jin-woo shook the heart of my wife, Seung-yeon, so did Jian.
It was quite a shock to me.
Because she made me change. As if someone threw a stone on the shore of a calm lake. The wave shook everything.
Not only does her heart beat when she sees Jian, but when she thinks of her, her future together naturally comes to mind. Was the picture drawn?
Except for my wife, Seung-yeon, I thought there would be no one like her…
Ji An was that kind of person to me.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes, I think it was because I was so surprised. It will get better if I rest a little.”
Ji An smiled faintly.
Lying in the hospital room was so desolate, it felt like tears were welling up in my eyes, just like Ji-an, who still had tears in her eyes.
“For now, rest a bit, and when Jian is discharged… Let’s talk slowly.”
All I can do is pat Jian. Of course, it was also because I couldn’t think of the right way.
“Then take a break. I’ll pick you up again tomorrow.”
“Mr. Jinwoo…”
Ji An caught me trying to leave. White and delicate fingers touch my fingertips.
“Because it’s Jinwoo’s child… I like it.”
“Yes…?”
“I knew. That my guy couldn’t get her pregnant, he didn’t tell him… But he knew.”
Jin’s voice started to tremble slightly.
“I think that’s why… I think he actively accepted other men. He wasn’t angry with him…But I think he vented that anger by meeting other men.”
Was that why?
Jian, who was devoured by seven men in front of my eyes.
Despite the strain, she spread her legs and spread them again. Jian gritted her teeth and endured it, even though she was crushed by other men and her cunt was getting thick and swollen.
I thought Jian was just having fun…
She was taking her anger out on Jin-Woo, the seedless Cha, on herself.
“But Jin-woo was different. He thought he wanted to have Jin-woo’s child for the first time while receiving numerous men.”
Jian bit her thick lips. She couldn’t bear to look me in the eye, but she could see that she was sincere enough now.
“I don’t know if Jinwoo believes it… It’s the first time, really. The first time.”
“I believe. When I said that Mr. Jian was pregnant, I vaguely thought it might be my child. And it really happened. I also really… Like it.”
“Jinwoo-ssi… I really want to have a baby.”
I nodded my head in silence at the big eyes staring at me, those earnest eyes.
People passing through my head at the moment.
I thought of Cha Jin-woo asking to have an abortion, and I also thought of my beloved wife, Seung-yeon, and her first son, Seung-woo.
“First of all… I’m taking a break for now. Come back tomorrow and we’ll talk.”
I hugged Ji-an tightly. Her soft skin was palpable in her thin hospital gown.
At this moment, I was also sincere towards Jian.
***
“Are you alright, Mr. Jian?”
That night. Seungyeon and I lay in the same bed for the first time in a while.
The seat next to my wife was empty because Cha Jin-woo went into the room saying he needed to put Su-ah to sleep.
It was awkward.
It feels like Cha Jin-woo’s body odor is buried in Seung-yeon’s bed where she’s been lying down for the first time in a while, where I was the owner until a few months ago.
“Yeah. I thought I’d be fine with a little rest.”
“I’m glad. I was wondering what to do if there’s a problem…”
Seungyeon couldn’t even spit out the word ‘child’.
A woman pregnant with her husband’s child. How is Seungyeon feeling right now?
We fell silent again.
We were too far away to hold her in her arms and exchange her kind words as she normally did.
I just organize my complicated thoughts and lay my tired body down. Still, I couldn’t sleep for a while.
“There you are, honey.”
After a while, Seungyoun took her words out with difficulty. She knew the other wasn’t sleeping, even from the sound of their breathing.
“The child in Jian’s belly… What do you want to do?”
Warble.
In her voice, it was clear that Seungyeon was holding back tears.
“I haven’t thought about it… Yet. I’m so hectic today… I’ll think about it starting tomorrow.”
“Jian… Wants to have a baby?”
“…Huh.”
“Ha…”
Tears leak from her impatient wife’s eyes. The sound of heavy breathing. Her wife buried her face in her blanket.
I couldn’t bear to put my hand on my wife’s body.
If I pat her, she’ll push my hand away. Perhaps Cha Jin-woo’s touch, not mine, was needed.
“I haven’t decided what to do with certainty. Let’s wait a little longer.”
“I am…”
Seungyeon continued her words with difficulty.
“I’m fine.”
“Uh…?”
“I fully understand Jian-san’s feelings. Both me and Jian-san, she is a mother with a child… How will she get rid of the child already in her belly?”
“…”
“So… Do as Jian tells you to do. Because I’m fine…”
“Seungyeon-ah…”
It’s deep inside.
How much trouble and worry did you have before you said it was okay? Seungyeon was now trying to understand her mother’s heart through her mother’s heart.
“Whoa… Thanks for saying that, Seungyeon-ah.”
It was sincere.
What would she do if she told her to delete her child like Cha Jin-woo, and what would she do if she hated Ji-an because of her unborn child?
Just like I did to Seungwoo.
Whenever Seung-yeon thinks of her child’s face, her deep shame and anger will creep up on her.
Her wife was more open-minded than I was.
“I will convince Jian’s husband.”
“Cha Jin-woo?”
“Yes… Jin-Woo will be having a hard time too.”
“Cha Jin-woo… Will he be persuaded?”
“…”
“Sorry.”
It was a stupid question. Because no one can talk about how each other’s heart is.
“I’ll do it.”
“Yes…?”
“I’ll talk to Cha Jin-woo. He doesn’t have to step out on his own. It’s right that I should…”
She did not want to burden her wife any longer.
What I did
Both Seungyeon and Jian have my seeds growing in their stomachs. It was a problem that I, the father, had to solve.
“What are you going to say, wouldn’t it be better if I did it…?”
Her wife was worried.
Wouldn’t the relationship between me and Cha Jin-woo possibly go wrong, and wouldn’t we, walking on thin ice, collapse suddenly?
“Anyway, that’s what I’m doing.”
The choice is my share, and I will take full responsibility for it.
***
Jian is back
When she returned to her house, her pale face and her heart troubled even more than before.
Jian’s unique lively energy also feels a little calm today. I don’t know why she was out of her mind.
The four of us took our seats at the table again.
Heavy silence. Like people who know that the end will come soon, no one of us could say it easily.
Whoa.
I took a deep breath and clenched my teeth.
“I… Can’t give up on both of my kids.”
Breaking the cold silence, my voice rang through the living room.
“Huh… Did you finally make that decision?”
Cha Jin-woo’s eyes flashed. I even got down on his knees and asked for a favor, but he seems quite unhappy with my decision not to turn around.
“Because you can’t erase the life that’s already settled in your stomach.”
“Ha. I didn’t know that Jin-Woo values children so much.”
“What is that…”
“What is certain is that one of them will grow up without a father’s love.”
“What are you saying, Jinwoo?”
“Because you’re human. Because Jinwoo is also human. You won’t be able to give the same affection to both children from different boats.”
Cha Jin-woo’s voice was clear. Perhaps because of anger or a sense of betrayal, he was far from his usual gentle appearance.
“Honey, don’t say that. Jinwoo isn’t that kind of person…”
“Poop. You’re really crazy too. Don’t you know when you see Seung-woo?”
“Huh… How can you carelessly talk about someone else’s child!”
Again, a fire broke out between Cha Jin-woo and Jian. They used to be a married couple, but now their voices were sharp as if they were crossing a river of no return.
“I’ll be fine if I leave.”
Cha Jin-woo spat out as if he were reciting.
“What…?”
“I’ll take Sua with me. You take good care of the child in your belly.”
“You… Are you crazy!? Why are you taking Sua! You’re not Mr…”
“What…!?”
“Stop! Stop…!”
Promptly. Right before it exploded, Seungyeon intervened.
Her wife took a moment to catch her breath and spoke with difficulty.
“Please stop fighting. Stop hurting each other. Even if we fight, nothing will change.”
The wife spoke slowly, but she spoke her words clearly. The atmosphere that had been boiling in an instant stopped for a moment.
“So is Jin-woo, I think it’s irresponsible to leave so suddenly. Su-ah is there too…”
Seungyoun paused for a moment.
“I’m there too.”
The wife stared straight into Cha Jin-woo’s eyes.
For some reason, she seemed to have a strong will to never give up on Cha Jin-woo from her eyes.
“Then… What. What are we going to do?”
Tears welled up in Cha Jin-woo’s eyes. His voice trembled, as if he had been moved by the affection Seungyeon showed him.
Now… It was my turn.
“Nobody needs to leave here. Let’s… Live together.”
“Of course I… Want to live together. Happily with Ji An, Seung Yeon, and Jin Woo. But… What about the children? If we live together, the children will grow up not knowing who their parents are.”
It’s a legitimate concern.
The two of us were a match made in heaven, and we got along so well. I was happiest and perfect when the four of us were together.
But the problem is children. The same was true for Seung-woo and Su-ah, including the two children still in their wombs.
They will grow up confused about who their parents are, and it will definitely have a big impact on their children’s growth.
I nodded.
“I know. So Jin-woo, you don’t have to leave alone. We’ll all go together.”
