Chapter 199 – First and Last (2)
Theorard hardened like wood and stone. It was because the confession of Benelia, who had become emperor, confused his mind. Theo Rad, who involuntarily swallowed his saliva, opened his words as calmly as possible.
“What you just said…….”
I wanted to dismiss it as a misunderstanding, but I couldn’t bear to say it behind my back. It was because Benelia’s gaze on her, straight as always, was shining brightly as if she would not tolerate lies.
Thanks to Theo Rad, he shut his mouth, and an awkward silence formed between them. As if it were one of her expected reactions to her, Benelia lifted the wine bottle with self-help.
“Have a drink or something. Because I want to see the end of what I said, even if it means borrowing alcohol. Take it.”
It was a drink personally bestowed by the emperor, and he could not refuse it. Theorard nodded calmly and raised the glass with both hands, while Benelia poured wine into the glass that was floating quietly.
“I want to tell you in advance, just in case…….”
After reaping her bottle of wine, Benelia fills her own glass with her wine this time.
“The wine was diluted with Simta medicine used by witches. If you drink it as an undiluted solution, it amplifies your evil tendencies, but if you drink it diluted, you’ll be able to relieve your conscience for a while. It would be a good fit for each other to confide in each other.”
The wine that was bouncing and filling the glass stops. Benelia, who had set her wine bottle down, raised her glass with a clumsy gesture. I didn’t feel her dignity or dignity of her, but that’s why it was a royal behavior.
“I will not force you. Don’t drink if you don’t like it. I’ll be the only one talking about it anyway.”
“I’m sorry, but I’m the one listening.”
You can’t let him drink alone. Theorard raises his glass and empties the wine at once. Since I don’t enjoy drinking alcohol, I naturally frowned between my eyebrows, but I managed to endure it by coughing once.
Benelia laughed lowly at Theo Rad and likewise emptied her glass of her. Tilt her glass moderately, smearing red wine on her lips and swallowing it all.
Then, an empty glass was placed on the table, and the two of them enjoyed the night sky again as if they had promised. Benelia spoke softly, holding the dazzling stars in her eyes.
“I know how you feel right now. It must be a perplexing feeling, not knowing how to deal with it. The place where you are talking to me right now can feel like a cushion of thorns. It’s funny even when I think about it. Confessing her love to a man who has her fiancee her.”
“Your majesty….”
“I have no intention of denying my selfishness. Because I know better than anyone that it is unforgivable. Nevertheless, the reason I openly express my feelings is to avoid leaving behind memories that I will regret later.”
Rather than suffering from heartache and regretting it for the rest of my life, it was better to express my sincerity and feel relieved. That was Benelia’s choice her.
“So don’t say it again. Theorad Deharm. I am in love with you.”
If she didn’t have a fiancée, she loves you enough to make her a government official. It was because the kindness and responsibility that Theo Rad had shown her so far had been deeply rooted in Benelia’s heart her.
However, a tree that grows with Benelia’s heart cannot bear fruit. It is because the tangled fate is pushing Theorad away.
“…… I can’t help but remain that fact.”
She was only an impurity herself to Theorard, who was truly in love with Essilie.
Of course, it wasn’t that there was no way to occupy Theo Rad. If you use the power of the imperial family, it was not impossible to make Theorard the secretary of state.
However, the Pelgarin family will not stand still. If the Pelgarin family rebelled and rose up, it was clear that other great families who were dissatisfied with the current regime would also join in.
If that happens, the empire will undoubtedly walk the path of destruction. For the sake of one man, he could not lead a country that had been at best stable to ruin.
In addition, Benelia did not want to earn her grudge against Esily for helping her, much less to see the shadow on Theo Rad’s face her.
So, the current conversation was the best Benelia could do. It was the paradoxical yet pitiful love of the emperor who had her empire her under her feet her that forced her to hold on to the unconnectable line.
“Soon you will have a ceremony with Esily. At that time, it would be impossible to even have such a secret conversation. This is because they will lead busy lives walking on different paths. So can I ask you a bad favor before it’s too late?”
“What are you asking for?”
“Simple. It is difficult to understand, but easy to understand.”
The eyes looking up at the sky come down. Whether drunk or embarrassed, Benelia caught her breath with her pale colored face her.
Benelia, who hesitated uncommonly, opened her lips with difficulty.
“Hug me. It’s something I can’t do after today.”
Theorard’s complexion turned pale. Theorard, more embarrassed than at the time of his confession of love, squeezed his hand in thirst.
I wanted to drink some water, but there was only an under-drank wine bottle lying on the table. Theorard, who was sweating cold and hesitant to answer, gently lowered his head.
“Your majesty. You are too playful.”
“Does it look like I’m throwing a joke?”
“Even if you tell me to be sincere, this is a position I cannot accept.”
“I can’t accept it. Let me hear what the reason is.”
The deep look in her eyes her urges her to tell her why she has no choice but to refuse. It looks like a lion playing with its prey, and it makes your back feel cold.
One should not be swallowed up by her desires her, crushed by her Benellia’s authority her. Theorard, thinking as rationally as possible, slowly explained the reason.
“As Your Majesty said earlier, it is because I have a fiancée. No matter how much you say that you are the emperor, in the end it is almost absurd to have a relationship with an extramarital woman.”
“There is a mess. Aristocratic men in this country call prostitutes or sex slaves to their homes to have sex with them in the sense that they have sexual experience before marriage so as not to be ashamed of the bride. Nor is there any blame for that. Am I wrong?”
“…… Your Majesty is not a prostitute, much less a sex slave.”
“Isn’t that something to think about?”
I am willing to be your sex slave for today. At that coy remark, Theorard let out a cough in succession as if he heard a tingle.
He couldn’t look at Benelia normally. Seeing Theo Rad lowering her head even deeper, Benelia seemed amused and asked the next question.
“So what are the other reasons? I would love to hear more.”
“Another reason is…”
Let’s stay calm. Should not be eaten Raising his head his, Theo Rad continued, habitually tying the brooch around his neck his.
“As far as I know, Your Majesty has the body of a virgin. If she loses her virginity through a moment’s prank, she is likely to experience embarrassment when entering into a relationship with her future secretary her.”
“Don’t object. The sound of asking you to hug me is not a word that I spit out as a joke of a moment. It was decided after much thought and reflection. Also, I will never get married and will be single for the rest of my life. Nothing in what you said is right.”
“Your majesty?”
Embarrassment doubles. I didn’t know what to say, and it felt like my mind went white. Theorard, who inadvertently grabbed his knee, looked at Benelia with a worried look.
“How can you say that you will live as a single person? Your Majesty is above all people and is the master of this empire.”
“Therefore.”
“It’s not like that. Of course, shouldn’t you give birth to an heir? If a succession is not decided, the future of the empire will be as precarious as a candle in the wind.”
“You are stupid. How do you judge the future of the empire as a single path?”
The temperament of a leader can be seen in Benelia’s stern face in her. The curtain of the white lion hanging on the other side of the bed showed off its presence belatedly her.
“Just because I overcame the ills of the empire, do you think it will last for a long time? In the distant future, when I die and the government is replaced, it will rot again from within. It is harder to bring back a nation that has once been corrupt than to bring the dead back to life.”
“One…….”
“Shut up. I will be the last Emperor of the Empire. After that, all the people will rule the whole country, check each other and cooperate, creating an incorruptible utopia.”
I am tired of the politics of the imperial family, where they criticize and bite each other to satisfy their personal interests. Benellia, who had lived in that hellish place, vowed that she would never give birth to her child her. She was also determined to root out the disgusting officials who bribed and ate.
“It certainly won’t be easy. There will be a lot of backlash. But as long as I believe it is the right way, I will not give up my opinion. Did that answer your question?”
“…… That’s right.”
I wasn’t sure what Benelia was drawing, but I could tell that she was unusual. So Theorard couldn’t refute any more.
Thanks to that, Benelia leaned her upper body in her triumphant spirit her. The image of her smiling subtly with her hands on the table is quite bewitching.
“Then you have one more reason not to have a relationship with me. What excuse are you going to make now? Viscount Theorard.”
“Your Majesty the Emperor. As Dori, who dared to become a servant…….”
“If you are my servant, you should listen to me, right? Or, in your eyes, am I not attractive as a woman?”
“That is not true.”
“Then why do you keep refusing? On the day of the coronation, raping a woman who became emperor would be one of the greatest luxuries a man could enjoy.”
Any other man would of course agree with Benelia. But Theorard was by no means a horny man who prided himself on increasing his female presence.
It was also not a luxury to rush into something that could not be experienced easily, so the current seat just felt uncomfortable.
Let’s think. Theorard, who was somehow looking for something to say no to, looked straight into Benelia’s golden eyes while making a bet.
“The reasons for refusing to sleep with Your Majesty are not simply limited to my circumstances and Your Majesty’s circumstances. It is all about my beliefs.”
“It’s a belief.”
As if caught, Benelia’s smile deepened her.
“Then there is nothing you can do. Use your wish.”
Wish. The fact promised in the conversation we had before the revolution.
Theorard couldn’t help but breathe in vain at the fact that the number of victories had become the number of self-killing.
“Certainly it wasn’t a promise to eat if it was sweet and spit it out if it was used. If you do not intend to scorn Jim, then you will be held accountable for your words.”
Venelia smiled mischievously as she looked at Theorard, who was stiff. She showed a clear and pure smile like a young lady of her age, not the emperor of everyone’s opinion.
“So, Theorad Deham. Because you have no choice but to hug me.”
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It was posted on the Nobelpia notice, but it is a life-size illustration of Lady Essili!
Really, the quality is ridiculous… It’s so pretty that I’m at a loss for words…!
It can be said that it is the result of the combined support of the readers. I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you once again.
