Chapter 247 – 247. Confused Mind (1)
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Know.
That I would never be able to defeat that abominable woman.
Allen was the type to base her thoughts on her instincts, so she knew she couldn’t beat El Cid no matter how hard she struggled with herself.
Could it be a first-class enemy?
No matter how hard I tried, I wouldn’t even be able to touch that woman’s fingertips.
“Have you come to ask for forgiveness for doing something wrong? Abominable bitch! If she’s going to die, she’ll bite her tongue and die. Why did she even drag her brother in!!”
But Allen glared at Elle as she vented her anger so loudly that a vein stood in her neck.
She was the culprit in everything.
She was and she was also an enemy who had terribly hurt someone I loved.
It wasn’t enough to attract the most precious person in the world, more precious than life, and even made her lose her arm. It was natural for Allen to pour out his blatant hatred on El. Who would be willing to forgive someone who hurt someone they love?
Forgiveness, tolerance.
It was a very difficult story for Allen, who values her own feelings.
“You are….”
“I’m the fiancée of the man you made into an asshole, why!!”
“Fiancee… , Are you….”
At Allen’s vehement cry, Elle lowered her eyelids and gave her a pensive expression.
Because she feels guilty
She also felt guilty for Yushin’s fiancee, Allen.
Yushin lost her arm due to the terrible disaster caused by me. There would be no way to free her from the shackles of her guilt, unless there was a way to restore her arm, which had been lost to her by the whiteness of her corruption.
L chewed her guilt and bowed her head without hesitation to Allen, who revealed that she was Yushin’s fiancée.
“I am sorry, my foolish actions have committed an unforgivable sin against Mr. Gilead and you, his fiancée. Everything is my fault and it must be my original sin. I have no intention of denying or covering up. I will spend the rest of my life atoning for Mr. Gilead and you.”
In her hard voice, Elle revealed to her Allen that it had happened through her own stupidity.
She didn’t ask for forgiveness.
Nor did she ask for mercy and forbearance.
Because I know that it is a sin that can never be washed away. That is why she did not dare to put ‘forgiveness’ on her lips.
“Bitch, who did you think would look after you if you fawned over pity like that?”
Allen vomited her expletives.
He swung her arm vigorously.
Her hand, which was swung with the sound of tearing her wind, slapped El on the cheek with precision.
El did not dodge. She maintained her immobility even though her eyes were aware of her palms pointing to her own cheeks. She understood Allen’s feelings, so she took it upon herself to release some of her pent-up anger.
There was a sound like hitting hard leather.
At the same time, El’s gaze turned to the side.
“Allen!!”
Yushin jumped up from his seat and approached.
Then, with her puzzled look on her face, she blocked Allen’s way.
However, the action angered Allen. It was because it seemed to be an act of covering the culprit that caused her to lose her arm.
The golden eyes that had been glaring at the light purple haired elf glared at Yushin like a beast. Yushin could see that her fiancée was genuinely angry with her at the pressure that seemed to choke her.
“Do I have to put up with it again? I’m right this time! Are you going to tell me I was wrong this time too? My brother lost his arm because of that bitch!! It made his arm asshole!!!”
Allen’s face contorted with rage.
Her sharp teeth snapped and her disorienting rage raged into madness.
Every time she tried to close her eyes to Yushin’s behavior around her opponent, as if being fooled, but this time it was different. She lost her arm, nowhere else. The most important arm for a prosecutor. Because it was Allen who had accumulated precious memories while learning her swordsmanship from her Yushin, her sadness and pity were unfathomable tragedy and pain.
“You, kill… I’ll throw it away…. There’s no way it’ll end with just one cheek… !! Even if you don’t cut off your arm….”
Allen gritted his teeth, she said. She stroked his swollen cheek, and El nodded her head.
“I will gladly accept it.”
If it is a way of atonement.
At Allen’s words, El stretched out her own left arm.
“No, even Sir El Cid, why are you doing this….”
“There is no way for me to regrow Mr. Gilead’s arm. If Mr. Gilead’s fiancée wants him, it’s a fair thing to be willing to do.”
The number of troublesome women increased again.
He seems to have been born with a knack for making people go round.
“Let’s calm down and talk later.”
Yushin wrapped Allen’s waist and hugged him.
But even when she held her in her arms on one side, her Allen’s body did not budge as if she were holding a huge rock. Rather, her Allen’s power began to push her Yushin’s two legs.
It’s not because of the presence or absence of her left arm.
Her Allen’s power already surpassed that of Yushin, who had reached the level of Seven Amber. Due to the powers of the gods obtained through the atavism of the Roxfield family, Allen has reached the heights of Yushin.
“What later! I have to pull out that bitch’s arm right now to feel better!! Do you think I’ll forgive you like an older brother while hee-heh like a fool?!”
“Ugh! Ughhh!!”
Yushin clenched her teeth and used her whole body to restrain Allen, who looked like he was about to attack El.
It feels like facing a wild boar.
It was as if he was blocking the wild boar with his whole body, which knew nothing but a reckless charge.
The beast with only its original nature flashed her eyes like a beast and cursed El as if it would kill her. In no way, even if my life was cut off, it was mixed with extreme anger to the point where I could feel the tenacity to take revenge.
“Even if you didn’t show up, this wouldn’t have happened! He appeared because he had some lingering attachment to the subject who kept living as if he was dead!!”
As if Elle had been stabbed in the face by her furious cry, she smiled bitterly and nodded her head as if she were revealing what she had been denying.
Allen was right.
It was an answer that couldn’t even make the slightest excuse.
If I hadn’t shown up,
If the existence of me had not revealed itself to the world,
It would have been a peaceful day without anyone getting hurt.
“… I’m so sorry, because of me.”
At Allen’s words that pierced her heart, Elle didn’t even make any excuses.
He just looked like he was about to cry.
And she disappeared
Like a spring breeze, a gentle breeze blew through her hair, and at the same time El, who looked solemn with her hand on her cheek, disappeared without leaving a trace as if it had evaporated on the spot.
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When the elf in her pale purple hair disappeared from her with her sorrowful expression on her face,
The blue-haired woman opened her mouth.
“I didn’t do anything wrong.”
As if she hadn’t felt something pricked, Allen gave her a sullen look and turned her head away.
It’s like saying to her mom, “You go home and see you.” Like her half-threatened child, she glanced at Yushin. She doesn’t know when she’ll hear her scolding, so her anxious look is like watching a big puppy.
“… You deserve to be angry It’s natural to be angry. But Allen, this is the result of acting against my will. Ultimately, it’s what I chose. So… I want you to take your anger out on me.”
“I don’t get tired of it and take the side of another woman. The subject of her one-armed status is still baffling her, really.”
At Yushin’s answer, Allen crossed her arms with a disapproving look on her face.
She radiated dissatisfaction and disapproval with her whole body.
She looked like she was going to pout any moment, no, she already had a pouting expression.
“I can’t forgive her, never. Even if the sky splits in two.”
“Don’t hate me that much.”
“Oh really!”
Seeing Yushin supporting El until the end, Allen gritted his teeth as if her outfit was about to explode.
With her hatred for El,
Her self-doubt and guilt over her failure to uphold the Yushin washed over her.
Even though she had the omnipotence of the gods in her hands, she felt that she could not protect her precious lover. The feeling that she was still helpless made her feel dirty. She was helpless, as if she had returned to the past, when she was rejected as a monster by the members of her family.
“… I really, really hate it. I really hate oppas who sell their eyes to other girls when I’m obvious, and I really hate oppas who put themselves at risk. And every time she sees her brother risking his own death for the sake of her blind girl, she hates her so much that she really wants to kill him.”
If she could kill people with a single shot, Yushin would have been killed dozens of times by Allen.
But even with such a heightened sense of vitality,
Allen never harmed Yushin.
She hates him to the point of wanting to kill him, but she suppresses her flesh because she loves Yushin with all her heart. Because she loves, even if she wants to kill the opponent, she pretends that she can’t win in the end, and she has forgiven her many times until now.
“… Oppa, aren’t you still immortal like that demon king’s wife?”
“Of course not.”
Allen, who leaned her head on Yushin’s chest, brought out her sudden question.
Why does immortality appear in this situation?
In response to Allen’s question, Yushin revealed that although he possessed the power and authority of the demon king, he did not obtain immortality.
To that, Allen replied.
“… Too bad. I want to kill him for once.”
“I’m scared because it sounds like a real thing.”
“It’s a joke. I can’t kill my brother Even if my brother becomes immortal, he will never harm me.”
No matter what happens,
No matter what happens,
As long as he is single-minded, Allen will not harm Yushin.
“Whoa!”
Allen slapped his cheeks with both hands as he blew forcefully out of her mouth.
It is a habit to calm the mind.
Sometimes Allen said that when she was angry that she couldn’t control her own emotions, she would control her mind in this way.
Although she, of course, was extremely seldom self-absorbed.
“I knew it just by looking at it. It’s clear that she’s just drooling over that woman, her brother. How can all the elves be impudent? How dare you look at someone who has been eating age for hundreds of years!”
Coniferous trees such as fir trees and spruce trees and elves who seemed to be the same age continued to flirt with Yushin, and Allen vented his sincere anger.
