Chapter 21 – Mesgaki Broadcasting Day 3 (Beware of Drug Abuse)
[Warning! Warning! Warning! If you do not like drug abuse, please run away immediately if you see ***.]
“Ah~ I enjoyed the sponsorship!”
-[Aren’t you a wild animal]: Isn’t this bastard catching an indulgence?
-[Not Eunje with big breasts]: You fucking male prostitute, did you try to launch a lunch because you ate money?
-[Umji Umjihye] : This bastard eats money and runs away?
Hmm? Didn’t you intend to indulge?
Do these guys think that I’m self-indulgent, seeing that I’m a bit tired, that I’m a bit tired, and that I’m usually self-indulgent before 10 o’clock?
Puff… How did you know?
To be honest, I didn’t intend to be self-indulgent, but I’m really thankful that you made your own self-indulgence… This is honey, isn’t it?
The current time is 9:20.
Originally, I went to bed at least at 10 o’clock in order to somehow grow this small height.
So, before 10 o’clock, I hit the indulgence because I always have to be a kicker, and I went to sleep while drinking milk.
“Ah? Um… I was going to be self-indulgent~ Then I’ll just drink milk and be self-indulgent~?”
-[Duuraara]: Milk? Is it a breastfeeding broadcast?
-[Dkwl321]: Breast milk? A bit chubby
-[Not Eunje with Big Breasts]: Breastfeeding? Are you sure you’ll pull it out if I just get you pregnant?
-ㅗㅜㅑ
– Breastfeeding granddaughter?
– I want to touch Juji.
Crazy bitches like this… Are they only like this on my broadcast? No, is it right that they can live a daily life in the first place?
If you look at this image, you should be a kid who distances himself from society, not distance from society.
Doesn’t it make sense to live normally in everyday life?
Even as I glared at this disgusting chat, I slowly began to drink the milk I had brought from the fridge earlier.
“Gulp… Gulp…”
[Teeling!]
[Geoyuyang Eunjea donated 1,000 won.]
My Meki, does my breast milk taste good?
“Gulp…Um?! Big… Big heck..!? Pew…”
Is it normal to suddenly ask if your own milk tastes good while drinking milk?
No, what the hell do these guys believe in chatting like this?
If it was another broadcast, I would have already sued and collected the settlement money…
“Are you going to get sued? He’s a real fucking bastard.”
-[Not Eunje with big breasts] ; Thanks for the award!
-[Dotjoayo] : Real meeting ㅗㅜㅑ.
-[Best Da Jae-hee] : Is it a date?
Crazy boys.
If those bastards later think that the money isn’t enough, I’ll just sue them and run away.
“Gulp… Ha, anyway, it’s 10 o’clock, so I’m going to bed. Are you tall? Anyway, I’m self-indulgent.”
-[Turbo]: Key? Because you’re an adult
-[Not a wild animal]: Even though I’m an adult, if I’m tall, I’ll probably take a picture of 180 or more.
-[Dot Joayo] : Our meki is the best to be short…!
-Key?
-Keoyeopnong~
Ah… The longer I turn on this broadcast, the more I think my mind will be destroyed as well.
Gotta indulge quickly and go to sleep.
If I continued talking with the broadcast turned on like this, it didn’t seem like it would end, so I ended it abruptly.
[The broadcast has ended.]
‘Ugh… I’m dizzy… I’ll have to make the broadcast shorter tomorrow.’
I shook my head back and forth to wake up from the rush of sleep and slowly put away the leftover dalgona, ladle, and gas burner.
Ugh… It’s such a waste of money.
The ladle was already charred and seemed unreasonable to reuse, and the chunks of dalgona were too disgusting to eat, so I had to throw them away.
Fortunately, the gas burner only had to remove the fallen sugar or dalgona pieces.
“But… I’m glad there’s a lot of profit today.”
When I checked how much I had earned today, I saw an amazing amount that made my eyes pop out.
325,000 won is an amount that exceeds 100,000 won and is three times that amount. I, who had to starve because I didn’t even have 10,000 won, earned over 300,000 won in just one broadcast.
Compared to other broadcast streamers, it was hard because I didn’t make money, but today is a very good day because I made more money than I thought.
‘Hmm? It’s already 10 o’clock… Let’s go to sleep.’
As if her sleepy eyes were tickling, she rubbed them with the back of her right hand to get ready for sleep.
I can sleep, but I can’t sleep on the ground.
There is no bed, and there is no cold bottle to cool off the heat, but fortunately, a fluffy pillow to take care of my sleep always welcomes me.
Good thing… I have a pillow.
A pillow is actually the only happiness that an angel gave me…
Feeling the touch of the soft pillow, I accepted my eyes as they slowly began to close.
When I close my eyes before going to sleep, it feels like something is greeting me from far away.
Thank you sleep fairy…
***
“Jaejun, mom will always love you.”
“Dad will always support you.”
What was it
It was something I had heard a long time ago, but I couldn’t remember exactly what it meant, but it was a word that spoke for my current situation…
What was it
“Huhhhhh…”
Oh I remembered
Was it a dream?
One deep autumn night, the disciple woke up crying.
Seeing this, the master thought it strange and asked the disciple.
“Did you have a scary dream?”
“No.”
“Did you have a sad dream?”
“No. I had a sweet dream.”
“Then why are you crying so sadly?”
The disciple said softly, wiping away the flowing tears.
“Because that dream… Can’t come true.”
Can’t be done
The happy self I saw in my dream does not exist in reality and disappears in an instant like a midsummer night’s dream.
“Mom and dad…”
Even in my dreams, I had a happy dream with my family.
As usual, he jokes around with his mother and eats delicious food, and sometimes runs around the house too much and gets punched in the head by his father.
Like everyone else, I was happy and loved by my good parents in a family that didn’t even know the word stress.
I, who studied market economy for stocks and coins, to be filial to my mother and father.
The me who waited for you to be happy now.
All gone.
Does not exist.
I had my happiness taken away from someone else.
That’s the unfortunate me in another world.
Just notice without permission or understanding.
My body was taken away suddenly without any warning.
That I was robbed, not possessed, my body, my happiness, even my head that I had studied hard.
Now I am stupid, stupid, unhappy and have no money.
“Fuck…”
As soon as I woke up, the first words I said were just curse words.
Useless words without any meaning, emotion, or emotion, just uttered dryly, without any emotion.
I wish I had someone to listen to this curse.
Would it have been better than it is now?
Was it not an idiot crying alone in his room over a dream, but someone hugging him saying it was okay?
“Whoa, whoa…”
My throat was dry like crazy.
I don’t know if it’s because I shed a lot of tears or because I sweat a lot, but I’m just thirsty.
He wanted water so much that he thought he wanted to make it rain in the dry desert.
– Knocked up.
There is no water purifier at home, so I bought bottled water and shared it. It was uncomfortable at first, but still better than tap water from the sink.
Gulp.
He took off the loose lid, brought it to his mouth, and lifted it up.
Like a typical company water purifier, I let it flow down my throat as if I was drinking water from the water purifier bottle little by little.
Not enough
No matter how much I drank, my thirst did not go away.
Gulp.
I swallowed one more time, hoping the thirst would go away.
Didn’t go away.
Thirst did not go away even after drinking half of the 1.5L water.
It was a thirst like burning in the throat.
“Restroom…”
The thirst didn’t go away, but rather, I ran into the bathroom in a hurry to urinate like crazy, as if the water I drank was going to come out again.
I hurriedly lifted the toilet seat cover and threw everything out without holding back the feeling of urine.
I feel a cool sensation, but I still feel the thirst in my throat.
I touched my thirsty neck with my finger.
It tickles… Like crazy.
It’s tickling, it’s tickling… It’s tickling.
I couldn’t stand the tickling feeling.
Scratch
It’s crazy too.
“Ahhh…!”
I looked in the mirror thinking that I had scratched my throat because it was itchy.
The mirror was dirty with mold and moisture, but strangely, it showed me in the center without missing a single one.
‘It’s not me… This isn’t me…’
There was a little boy who was choking his neck with both hands while shedding tears.
“Ah…”
I realized that what I had felt up to this point was not a normal thirst.
That thirst was not a general thirst, but a thirst for affection and jealousy toward me, who had been deprived of all the love and happiness I should have received from my parents in another world.
Am I Shin Jae-joon?
In fact, everything I knew was just a midsummer night’s dream, and wouldn’t I be real?
Was it right that I felt happy in the first place?
In the mirror, I was laughing and crying with an awkward expression, exposing my reddened neck.
Do I deserve to be happy in the first place?
