Chapter 203 – Conflict With Mesgaki
The situation seemed to be getting more and more serious due to her sister’s slip of the tongue and the sudden appearance of Jaehee.
“Sister…?”
“Oh, no, Jaejoon, I was excited for a moment.”
“Jaejun, don’t listen. No, would you like to go up first? Right now, I think this person is a little excited.”
Call boy.
If you think about it, it wasn’t wrong. I showed others a smile and sold my daily life and appearance to viewers to get money and play the role of a pseudo-boyfriend.
Of course, she never sold herself, but others might think she was a real male prostitute.
Even I sometimes thought of myself that way.
But when I heard it from someone other than myself, it felt like it was hurting my heart beyond anything else.
I was told that I was a male prostitute by my girlfriend, the person I trusted and loved the most. Actually, did my sister look at me like that?
“…”
“Jae, Jaejoon?”
“I’ll go up first.”
“Wait…Ugh.”
“Hey, where are you going to follow? If you come in any further than this, I will report you as trespassing, so don’t cross the line.”
After Jae-hee stopped my sister who was trying to follow me, I hurriedly entered the house. I was suffocating, and I felt my face suddenly heat up.
Actually, was it not the right choice for me to go out with my sister? Did you originally look at me like that? Was I just a temporary plaything?
Although it was short-lived after coming to this world, it seemed that the memories of being happy with my first relationship were gradually being transformed.
“Fuck…”
I felt sick to my stomach from the disgust rising from within. I don’t know if this disgust stems from disgust for me or disappointment in my sister.
As soon as I entered the house with heavy breathing, I felt my throat burn as I spit out all the meals I had for dinner tonight.
Bitter gastric juices scratched my throat, causing pain. I was happy until now, but now I’m in pain.
It felt like the world lifted me up because it made me happy, and then dropped it back to the floor, saying that I was in despair.
“Ha ha… Ha ha.”
I could understand the identity of the heat I felt on my face earlier.
“Haaaaa.”
The identity of that heat may have been the heat I felt from the tears right before they flowed down my eyes.
I don’t want to cry anymore, but the tears that flow inevitably may be unbearable. More than the word male prostitute itself, I felt sad that they thought of me that way.
It felt like all the relationships up until this point were breaking in an instant.
If I knew this would happen, I wouldn’t have had relationships with other people. If it was like this, I should have just ignored everything and lived alone.
The pain I felt in my chest felt like I was crumbling.
“Ahhh…”
In my most difficult moment, Nero comes over and licks the back of my hand and acts as if telling me not to cry.
At first, I was just chosen, but now that I think about it, if he hadn’t been there, I might have already committed suicide.
She gently hugged this fragile child and shed tears quietly. The feeling of warm and soft fur.
“Nero… I’m having a hard time right now.”
“Aww.”
“Why does the real world turn like this? I’m such a fool… I’m an idiot who believes in people even though I know I’ll be beaten like this every day.”
I just felt like I shouldn’t trust people. I live to be as kind as possible and not to cause harm to others, but rather, it felt like this was becoming my weakness.
If this was going to happen, I just shouldn’t have trusted anyone. I felt so betrayed that I wanted to quit my life itself.
“Nero… Should I just die like this? No. Why am I dying when you’re there too?”
I want to die, but because Nero was there, I had to go on with this life. Because of me, I couldn’t damage this precious guy.
Should I just leave with Nero to a place where no one is? At that time, it wouldn’t be bad to stop broadcasting and live a quiet life doing farming.
Growing old together with Nero, later if this kid goes first, I will follow…
-Smart!
“Jaejun, are you okay? I’m just worried, but are you okay?”
“Yep…”
The voice I heard outside was not Jae-yeon noona, but Jae-hee, who is my closest friend, came to our house.
What did you come for?
“Can you open this door for now? Your voice seems a bit unstable right now.”
“Don’t worry… I’m not going to kill myself anyway. Do you think I’m a male prostitute? I just acted like a clown in front of people, and my girlfriend dated me a little while ago.”
“Stop it! Why do you keep trying to put you down?”
I was startled by the sudden loud voice, but as if lightning flashed in my mind, which had just been dizzy, I quickly began to recover my mind.
“Why are you saying that there is no good boy like you? Honestly, why are you so ugly? You’re handsome, you try to take care of yourself, you go through so many hardships, but you’ve endured it all.”
“…”
“And male prostitutes? Don’t be ridiculous. In the first place, there would have been many guys worse than you in this country. Out of all the guys I’ve ever seen, you were the cleanest and purest.”
I felt that I was getting more and more conscious at the words of praise, and my heart was loosening up as well. Now I need someone to support me.
Just like Jaehee who holds onto me when I am crumbling like now.
– Kik.
The door that had been firmly closed until just now opened wide, and the existence that stood in the way between me and her disappeared.
My sister’s face, standing outside the door, was filled with a bright smile and warmth that warmed me.
Rather, seeing her in her sad state, maybe she was trying to get rid of her resentment, but more and more tears flowed from her eyes, and her body moved first to hug her.
“It was hard, right? Now just cry as much as you want. I will always hug you like this.”
Tears flowed like mad at the kindness felt from within.
I cried to my heart’s content in her arms and continued to pamper myself on the porch until all my resentment was gone.
***
“Sniff… Big.”
“Are you feeling better now?”
As she hugged the blanket and Nero, she felt relieved as she began to calm down.
“It’s okay to cry more, but is it really okay?”
“Are you okay.”
But why does Jaehee look so pretty?
Originally, the original version was quite beautiful, but for some reason it looked so pretty today. Did Jae-yeon’s broken heart just had the opposite effect?
The way she cared for me and praised me kept making her more beautiful in her head and making me pound.
‘Come to think of it, except for Jae-yeon noona, she took care of me the most and the owner of Jeon also took care of me, right?’
“Jaejun, are you not hungry? Even if I’m not good at cooking, I still feel like I can make something today, right?”
“Yeah, just fried rice is enough.”
“Then I’ll make it delicious, so wait.”
I watched her behind as she started cooking and waited for the dish to be completed.
A narrow waist and bulging breasts and buttocks that cannot be believed by ordinary people. And the bone of the buttocks slightly visible through the cracks in the jeans made my heart pound even more.
I didn’t officially break up with my sister, but thinking about how she was thinking of me until today, it was something that we might break up soon.
“Now, try this.”
“Huh.”
Rice fried to a golden brown color and eggs shining golden in between. It was fried rice that anyone who came and saw it could say it was delicious.
“This is what I eat every day while living on my own… So I’m good at this.”
“Thank you for this food.”
-Am.
Every grain of rice that entered my mouth felt like it was filling my empty stomach. Maybe it was because I was hungry because of vomiting just a moment ago, but now, this meal was so delicious that it brought me to tears.
Jaehee patted my back and told me to eat slowly.
I missed this feeling and was so sad that I forced myself to hold back the tears.
“Don’t cry and eat. If you have tears, salt them.”
“It’s not like that!”
***
Full.
Like a medieval aristocrat, when I filled my stomach with food, which had been reduced by vomiting, my head was light and it felt so good to fall asleep.
-Ughhh… Ughhh.
As expected, there was a call from Jaeyeon noona on her cell phone. Of course, I have to receive text messages and phone calls right away, but I didn’t really want to receive them right now.
If I answered the phone now, I would probably get an excuse or an apology from her, but I didn’t want to hear anything right now.
Conversely, Jaehee, who was looking down at me in front of me, lay down next to me as if she felt sorry for me.
“Jaejun, don’t you… Pick up the phone?”
“I just don’t want to receive it.”
I didn’t want to get hurt any more.
If I just keep quiet like this, will everything just end?
“Then can I hug you for a second?”
“…”
I didn’t say anything and went back into my body like before.
The feeling of warm warmth and soft flesh. I just wanted to feel the warmth of people at this moment.
“Jaehee, hug me.”
“You’re hugging me now.”
“No, not like this.”
Slowly bringing my face close to hers, I whispered quietly.
“In a different way.”
I just want to give up everything.
