Chapter 73 – The Fox Beastkin’S Inner Thoughts
I had thought that perhaps, during our conversation, Juliana might get swept away by her emotions and reveal her true feelings to me.
“I hate it. Someone like you… I really hate you….”
“Juliana. I’m not exactly thrilled to be looking at you either.”
“……Yeah. I understand. You’re just going along with my plan to save Bell, right?”
“That’s right. Like you said before, if it weren’t for Bell, I would have tried to beat you to death a long time ago.”
“You hated me that much?”
“I didn’t expect you to be the first one to suggest sealing my power. I could forgive anyone else, but you shouldn’t have had such thoughts.”
“Wow…. It seems like what Aris said was true. She said you might have been eavesdropping on our conversation using the power of the demon goddess…. But you know, why shouldn’t I have such thoughts? Is it because I was all over you, saying I liked you? Because I was always acting friendly and clinging to you, I should have been on your side until the end?”
But as if it wasn’t the right time yet, she didn’t even try to wipe away the endless tears streaming down her face.
“I can’t do such selfish things…. If we could just erase the existence of one knight named Choi Si-hyun from the world… everyone could live without worrying about mana… I genuinely thought well of you, and that’s why I wanted to give you the option to remain a good knight to everyone in the South. Don’t you still understand my feelings…? Huh…?”
She couldn’t even look me straight in the eye, and even with her voice trembling, she only confessed endless lies to me.
Our conversation ended not long after that.
I quietly watched Juliana, who had pulled her rice bowl closer, continue her meal.
As if determined not to even glance at me, Juliana kept her eyes fixed on her rice bowl, burying her face in it and slowly licking up the semen.
The longer I watched her, the more complicated my thoughts became.
She doesn’t hate me, nor does she despise me enough to want to kill me.
From the start, this woman had no intention of harming me or those around me.
Then why is she refusing to reveal her true feelings?
Is it because she still likes me but doesn’t want to show it?
That can’t be it.
From the very first day we met, Juliana had shown me an excessive amount of affection.
Because of that, my disappointment in Juliana was a bit greater than with the other party members.
She must also know that I am greatly disappointed in her.
Yet, the fact that she’s reacting this way must be because she has a clear purpose.
Is it because I thought that?
I belatedly realized that it was a stroke of luck that my discernment skill was working properly.
If my skill hadn’t worked on Juliana and I had been in a position to observe her current reactions, I would have grabbed her by the neck and harshly pushed her until she gave me a proper answer.
Since I had thought of Juliana as a cunning fox mage from the beginning, I would have dismissed her tears and confused reactions as acting, and I would have tried to pressure her by any means necessary until she answered me properly.
But now that it was clear that all of Juliana’s words were lies, there was no need to use such harsh methods.
If her final intentions were the complete opposite of what I wanted, I had no intention of leaving this fox alone.
If a rift had occurred in their relationship while I was gone, and Juliana had come to me against their wishes, I needed to use this fox to the fullest extent.
‘So, you came all this way to kill me on behalf of everyone?’
‘…….’
More than anything, the moment Juliana nodded slightly after hearing my last question and refusing to open her mouth, the largest red aura I had ever seen from her was flowing out.
From the moment I saw that, there was no need for me to treat this fox harshly.
She’s not an ordinary person, and she’s a fox beastkin who values her purity more than her life.
Knowing through those around her that I was almost poisoned by mana, she left her own place and came all the way here, offering her body without any intention of killing me.
And surprisingly, her feelings for me, who had her eat semen instead of rice and had engraved my own mark on her mind, which could only record one man for life, were still the same.
Although it was very different from Bell’s case, and I had no intention of making her my bitch.
Now that I knew for sure that Juliana’s actions towards me in the past were sincere.
‘What do you want to do when you get a girlfriend, Oppa?’
‘Hmm. I haven’t really thought about it?’
‘I wanted to do things like that. Like holding hands while walking around.’
‘…Just that?’
‘Hehe. It’s very simple, right? But I’m a fox beastkin, not a human or an elf. From the perspective of a fox girl like me, such a simple thing is an incredibly great dream. So, if you have the chance later, would you walk around with me once?’
I wanted to know Juliana’s true intentions for sure.
“Finish eating and follow me, Juliana.”
“Huh…? Where are you taking me…?”
“Whether you like it or not, I have to see your face for the rest of the time. Going for a walk might make things a little better.”
“……Just the two of us?”
I nodded.
“Wear the clothes Seri gave you only in the room. Come out naked when we go out. Got it?”
“……Okay.”
Juliana, who had been showing her naked body all along, blushed deeply at the words to take off her clothes and come out.
It was a reaction that made it clear that she was feeling shame.
Seeing Juliana showing a much more dramatic reaction than I had expected, I thought that maybe this method might work.
*
For Juliana, it was the first time in her life that she had tasted a penis.
So, after being stopped by Seri from tasting it, she regretted coming here for the first time.
It wasn’t because of resentment, but because of great shame.
The fact that she had shown her obscene appearance to Si-hyun bothered her all day.
Because of that, she couldn’t even sleep well at night.
Of course, she was also busy going crazy because of the egg inserted in her pussy, but even in the midst of that, she was constantly worried about whether her appearance would leave a strange impression on Si-hyun.
“……I’m such an idiot. I’m already hated so much… why am I worrying about that?”
There were no more regrets.
From the moment she decided to come here, she had already made up her mind.
She knew that once she carried out her plan, she would never be able to remain a beloved younger sister to Si-hyun, but she had to do it anyway.
‘Juliana-nim. Are you really going to leave?’
‘Aris-unni looks very displeased? Does my decision not sit well with you?’
‘Yes. The suggestion to seal Si-hyun-nim’s power was the first one that came from you. I only suggested adding a safety measure to Juliana-nim’s plan, but you’re reacting so strongly…. It’s not like you.’
‘Think what you want. No matter what you think, I’ll do as I please.’
‘Why?’
‘The suggestion to seal Si-hyun Oppa’s power was only when everyone’s safety was guaranteed.’
‘Yes. Isn’t that the only way to guarantee everyone’s safety, as you said?’
‘You should speak properly, Unni. You left out Oppa.’
‘Hmm. So, in the end, you didn’t like taking away Si-hyun-nim’s freedom. But if everyone can be at peace with the sacrifice of one person, wasn’t that your way?’
‘…….’
‘Juliana-nim. I’ll ask you again. Please make a wise decision…….’
‘Unni. I won’t warn you twice. If you say one more ridiculous thing, not only will this place be destroyed, but your family’s house will be blown away too.’
‘……I’m disappointed. To think you would commit such a terrible act…. Is that all you are?’
‘Yeah. You misjudged me. I’m just a fox who’s only capable of that. I’m going to see Oppa now. So, don’t try to interfere with my plans. If you try to intervene, from that moment on, this order will disappear without a trace, so you better be prepared.’
‘I don’t believe that even you can do such a thing.’
‘Well, if you’re curious, try to move. But you know, don’t you? I’m willing to give up my soul to protect Si-hyun Oppa.’
‘……That’s certainly what you were like.’
‘Honestly, I don’t care if you get hurt or not, but I don’t want to see innocent people from the order die, so I’m warning you in advance. I hope you make a wise decision.’
‘……I will.’
She couldn’t just sit back and watch Aris Saintess’s absurd plan succeed.
She had come here and volunteered to be his prisoner for that purpose, so she had to endure and endure his hatred for the rest of the time.
‘I hate it. Someone like you… I really hate you….’
Saying the opposite of what she felt was very heartbreaking, but she was sure that she had succeeded, so she was confident that there would be no problems in the future.
But then…
“Ugh……♡”
Going for a walk alone with him was too embarrassing.
‘This is also a date……right…?’
It was because a thought that didn’t fit the situation at all came to mind.
