Chapter 176 – #44_Four Leaf Clover(4)
One.
Did you have any last words you wanted to say?
What did Seohae, facing death, really want to say?
Yu-chan wanted to hear that.
He didn’t want to listen at the same time.
Hearing her words of her, he was reluctant to change his resolution of her, even if it was one in a billion.
It’s not going to happen, but it’s nothing to waste if you do everything.
Yu-chan immediately took out her cell phone her.
All of her stories ended with her aunt her from Seohae, Hana Park.
There is an awareness that this is an act of trampling on the last dignity of Seo Hae and betraying her faith.
But,
The West Sea is my own.
And Yoo-chan still had no intention of allowing Seo-hae her death.
Nothing was going to allow her to take her away from her.
“That’s me. Please take me to the hospital right now.”
There was a heliport in the island village in case an emergency occurred on the island.
The ambulance helicopter waiting there in advance took the unconscious Seohae to the hospital.
Seo Hae’s legal guardian is her aunt her, Hana Park.
Surgery without the patient’s consent is judged to violate the patient’s right to self-determination, and compensation for damages may be requested.
In terms of fines, it is roughly 15 million won or 20 million won.
Yu-chan made a pact that if she ever had to pay fines or compensation, she would pay on behalf of the hospital.
It’s something you can’t keep secret anyway.
At least the entire surgical team would notice if a drug-induced patient suddenly got on the operating table.
Therefore, Park Ha-na’s cooperation was also required for this task.
Not long ago, at a regular checkup, Seohae’s physical condition was thoroughly examined to the extent that it required a pre-surgery checkup, and he and Yoochan walked around the hospital and lowered their heads to each member of the medical team to explain the situation .
A young nephew who has no parents, and the words that it is impossible to make a proper judgment because he has been weakened by illness since he was young,
If I leave her alone like this, it is the same as euthanasia for her, and if anything happens that causes her to take responsibility, I will take full responsibility.
It was roughly this repertoire.
It can be said that the 50,000 won bills filled with Bacchus boxes and the earnest emotional arms were enough to move the hearts of the medical team.
It did cost me a little extra, though.
Yoo-chan’s only role was to inject Seo-hae with the drug Park Ha-na gave her on the day of surgery.
All he can do in the future is to wait for major surgery, which is scheduled to take 12 hours.
She had some understanding of how harsh the surgery she was about to undergo.
Seohae is not an artificial heart or a circulatory device that assists the heart.
It is a complete artificial heart surgery in which the heart is completely removed and a machine is used for extracorporeal circulation.
I don’t know the details as I’m not familiar with the knowledge of the medical world, but I heard about the prognosis from Hana Park.
You have to lie next to a large machine 24 hours a day, and it is difficult to eat properly, and you have to manage your urine and feces nearby.
As it is an operation that has not yet been fully verified, the patient’s life cannot be guaranteed.
There are cases of death during surgery, and there are patients who died after 75 days in foreign countries.
Even so, Yu-chan thought it was a hundred times better than doing nothing.
No matter how painful and difficult it is, to endure it and wait for the turn of the heart transplant is far more valuable than giving up on survival.
Yu-chan asked for a cigarette.
Over the small island village, the snow began to flutter little by little.
2.
A week has passed.
Even after receiving a call from Hana Park that the operation was successful, Yoo-chan did not go to the hospital.
It seems that this bold aunt entered the operating room as a surgeon for Seo Hae’s operation.
Of course, it is not illegal to rob a relative or acquaintance.
However, how easy would it be to cut someone you know with a knife and perform a life-and-death surgery?
In fact, even the American Medical Association recommends not having surgery on someone you have a close relationship with.
That’s not an important issue.
Yoo-chan idled around in the camper until Seo-hae recovered and recovered enough to be able to visit.
I won’t be staying anymore anyway, so I packed up my stuff and finished preparing to leave at any time.
In fact, two days ago, Park Ha-na asked Seo-hae to come to the hospital because Seo-hae’s condition had recovered enough to allow him to visit.
And advice to prepare your mind firmly.
The reason why Yu-chan didn’t immediately go to Seo-hae was because he couldn’t even understand himself.
Somehow I don’t want to go.
Even this choice was embarrassing for Yoo-chan, who values rationality over emotion and hates going round and round.
Anyway, it can’t be delayed any longer.
To meet her her West Sea her, and to persuade and comfort her her, I set out in her camper early in the morning.
I was bored to go empty-handed, so I went downtown and bought flowers.
A beautiful bouquet of blue hydrangea flowers.
It would look better as a flower to decorate a vase in a hospital room rather than a flashy rose.
The steps from the entrance of the hospital to the single-person hospitalization room were light.
As a result, there is no immediate disappearance of the West Sea.
She was allowed to possess her at any time.
She said that fact alone made her feel good enough to hum her tune her.
Since she ignored her intentions her and proceeded by force, she will be somewhat angry at first, but if she learns that she has invested hundreds of millions of dollars and sincerity, she will soon look at her with her moving eyes her.
From her attitude so far, it was self-evident.
After adjusting her clothes once in front of the mirror in the hallway, Yu-chan gently opened the door to her hospital room.
The smell of freshly washed sheets and disinfectant.
A small buzzing sound comes from her extracorporeal circulation device, which serves as the heart of Seohae.
Two tubes extending from the machine were inserted into Seohae’s body.
This hospital room is a small cage where Seohae will have to stay for a long time.
“You have to stand.”
Seohae was looking out of her window with the back of her bed raised.
It wasn’t a beautiful meadow, a blue sky, or a lighthouse standing dazzlingly over the sea that hung on the framed window.
The thing that was pushed away and occupied the scenery that was like a fairy tale.
Gray barriers made of concrete and rebar and cars roaming around making a lot of noise.
How will you react?
Yoo-chan, who was looking at Seo-hae, approached Seo-hae, who did not answer, and handed her a bouquet.
“I didn’t know what kind of flowers you like, so I bought them in moderation. I’ll put it in a vase.”
“……”
Seo Hae treated Yoo Chan as if she had no one.
She doesn’t even look away when she pushes a bouquet of flowers right in front of her.
“How are you feeling? I’m glad it looks better than I thought.”
She whispers in a friendly voice that she would have loved if it was Seohae.
Seohae opened her mouth slightly.
“…Go…”
“What?”
“I’m leaving… “
It was the cold voice of the West Sea that I had never heard before.
This level of rejection was to be expected.
Yu-chan removed the wrapping paper from the flower and placed the blue hydrangea in a vase filled with water.
“Seoha, I know your heart well. However…”
“I don’t want to look like that, so I’m leaving…!”
Seohae lowered her head further, hiding her face her and shaking her arms roughly.
Yoo-chan slightly backed away from her and looked at Seo-hae’s reaction to her.
And she saw
Her black box was cut at her waist like the sunflowers I saw a few days ago.
It was already embarrassing to even call it a flower.
Yu-chan’s eyes narrowed.
“I have to stand…”
– Clink!
The first time Seohae showed her face was when she threw the vase from her bedside table to Yuchan.
Chapped lips and bloodshot eyes.
It wasn’t the kind of affectionate gaze she always had.
All she has left is disconnection and rejection.
The vase that Seohae threw with all her might did n’t even reach Yuchan’s feet in her.
Instead, sharp shards of glass tumble at his feet.
Yu-chan just looked down at the vase that could never be returned and the petals rolling like a corpse.
All of her actions that she saw were far beyond Yu-chan’s expectations of her.
The girl cries
“Like? That’s why you lie and play with people’s hearts.”
Screaming and screaming, gasping for her breath in agony,
He tore her hair and tousled it, spitting out her deep resentment.
“With what kind of heart and with what kind of feeling I was next to you… Knowing… Knowing everything!!!”
Something went terribly wrong.
It was overly optimistic.
It was only then that Yuchan could feel it.
“Not that… “
“How funny must I have been? I, who struggled and struggled alone, clinging to the old man’s lies… It was just fun, right?”
Not.
“I couldn’t be like this if you understood even a little bit of my heart. I couldn’t do this. This could never have happened… You…Just…”
I bury my head in his palms and sob.
Between Seohae’s hair her, her shoulders her trembled and her body her crouched down, her teeth her were tightly closed.
“What did you want from me? Why did you make me neither die nor live?”
“…..”
“I didn’t want to live like this. I don’t want to suffer anymore…”
“…..”
“Tell me, what do you want? My body? Do you have such an insignificant body?”
Yu-chan felt her heart throb.
Recognizing it belatedly, the emotion he defined,
It was nervousness.
The anxiety that this relationship might completely break down, that everything might end.
Incomplete, irrational feelings that you did not originally have.
Yu-chan did not reject it any longer.
He was neither afraid nor looked down upon as insignificant.
It’s a feeling that you have to get to know yourself in the future.
It is a complex conundrum that only the West Sea can provide an answer to.
“Do not die.”
Seohae, who was lowering her head, noticed that her voice her, which had always been uttered only in a slick show, had changed.
I raise my eyes and look at Yoo-chan.
What is that hanging from the corner of your eye?
Anticipation? Hope?
“Come back to me.”
Seohae’s eyes widened at his words her.
It was easy for Seohae to know that this was the most sincere confession of a man who had always been only a shell.
“Come and tell me. Who I am what I am.”
And the moment Seohae heard the last words, the last remaining emotions disappeared like bubbles.
The hope that disappeared in the foam left behind only bitter disillusionment.
Enough to laugh at himself for expecting him.
He always was
No matter how insignificant it is, the more you expect, the more you will be disappointed.
“Under…”
Seohae laughed.
“Yes, he was that kind of person anyway.”
In the end, what came out of his mouth was not selfless consideration.
Terribly obnoxious,
Narcissism.
Selfish desires.
Up until this moment, he was only himself.
“You know what?”
What did you want from such a person?
Even though he knew everything, did he not let go of the lingering feeling that he would change?
At least if his last words were truly meant for her,
Would something have changed?
“I loved that man so much.”
I was intoxicated with a sweet dream that was only a façade.
I was able to forget the fear of death a little in the illusion of love.
You might as well be grateful to him for that.
“But not anymore. You are no longer special to me.”
Yoo-chan looked at the West Sea.
“Go. I don’t want to see you again.”
Completely cut off
Her thin thread that used to connect her and herself.
Yu-chan opened his mouth to say something, but closed it again without uttering a single word.
Because I intuitively sensed that this was an ultimatum.
Seohae has no regrets in this miserable life,
She knew that if she did n’t listen to her, she would choose her own death her.
Seohae turned her head to her window again.
All she could see were tears dripping down her hospital gown.
It was Yu-chan who had quite a lot of experience going through a dissolute and dangerous life.
Instinctively, he came up with the best solution and overcame many crises.
But she didn’t know what to do for now, and he lingered beside her.
However, the seat next to Seohae was no longer allowed to Yuchan.
Yu-chan left the hospital room without even being able to utter the remaining words.
Feelings of defeat and helplessness echo through her head.
“Goodbye, mister.”
Seo Hae’s last farewell message sent his back through the gap in the hospital room door that was closing.
That was the last appearance of the West Sea.
