Chapter 169 – #43_Maria Kim Won’t Collapse!
One.
If you are a person with a certain level of intellectual sophistication, or if you are interested in philosophy, you will remember hearing these words.
“The limits of language are the limits of the world.”
These words, which represent Wittkenstein’s way of thinking about language, give a glimpse of his sharp insight into the nature of language and at the same time represent my philosophy of life.
Although the meaning I personally accepted would be a slightly different interpretation from the nature of the language he spoke.
For example, humans inevitably go through verbalization when thinking.
Even if you make your thoughts conscious through the sentence “I’m hungry when I’m hungry” And ask you to think of the sound of a flowing stream, you’ll find that the onomatopoeia “Gurgling” Sticks in your head.
Therefore, the more intelligent a person is and the more languages he or she has mastered, the clearer the analysis of the situation or the objectification of emotions.
For example, when feeling anger, a person who thinks ‘I’m just angry!’ The way they do it is bound to be different.
Whether it is the inner world or the outer world, the sharpened intellect is a weapon.
It is a shield that can protect one’s subjectivity without being buried in a chaotic world.
I would have believed that.
But lately I’ve been feeling the limits of my world.
Feelings that cannot be expressed no matter how hard you try.
Feelings that can’t be explained no matter how hard you try.
Emotions that have been classified according to clear standards are only seen as large, dark lumps.
I have lost my ability to objectify myself.
It is said that when humans are under extreme stress, their ability to think declines, and this may be part of it.
“Because he was young, he recovered quickly. The coloring is almost complete, and the skin will peel off like when it gets fat, so don’t scrape it off with your hands.”
“Yes, Dad.”
He stripped and washed me as usual.
If there’s a corner that’s different from usual, it’s that the way I treat my body has changed dramatically.
He kicked him, made him drool, slapped him on the cheek, pinched his chest, and pulled his hair. He washed every inch of his body with caresses and smeared ointment over the tattoos.
What really upsets me is that I feel grateful for that lively consideration.
It doesn’t fit the sari.
What is the gratitude of the victim to the perpetrator?
I couldn’t figure out the cause and effect of emotions with any language I possessed.
Is it because you call him daddy, and seeing him act like a dad actually satisfies the fatherly love that you couldn’t fill during your growing up days?
Or is it the expectation-violating effect of being exposed to unexpected kindness in a state of infinitely low expectations?
Or did endorphins in the brain begin to circulate as the mental stress that had been pushed to the limit was relieved?
Everything was questionable and hypothetical, but the feeling I was feeling right now was real.
That’s why it’s so unpleasant.
Well, in this state, even the unpleasantness was in a very blunt and ambiguous form.
“Are you ready to go out with Daddy?”
“Yes.”
Meditation masters say that out-of-body is possible.
It means that you can contemplate your body as if it were someone else’s work in any situation while treating your body as a shell that holds your mind.
Previously considered bullshit.
However, when these unknown and inexplicable emotions came to me, the first thing that came to my mind was the out-of-body.
Everything that is happening to me seems like someone else’s business.
The strange feeling of being a third person and looking down on me gives me peace.
“I’m just saying this just in case, but I hope you don’t suddenly run out or do something like that.”
“Nothing like that.”
“Can you promise me?”
“I promise.”
It wasn’t a deceptive operation, it was just telling my heart.
Reflecting on the process of arriving at the mansion before being caught and entering this place, it is unreasonable to evade his pursuit his and request rescue with the body of an ordinary woman.
Even if you’re on a bicycle, you’ll probably catch up easily.
Of course, I will follow him and find clues and ways to escape.
But what resonates most with me now is the anticipation of being able to get out of this prison, which I thought I might never be able to get out of, even temporarily.
-Gigigigigg!
Turning the rotary knob opens the thick iron door.
As I climbed the stairs in the brightly lit cellar, I was greeted by an old mansion.
My heart is full.
“It’s still a dust pit.”
“Cleaning wasn’t too difficult.”
It’s a great mansion to look at again, except that if you run your hand anywhere, dust will come out.
Arranging such luxurious furniture at random would make it look vulgar like a rich man bragging about his money his, but who knows, the majestic and magnificent gothic feeling was well preserved.
“Will you follow me for a second?”
After all, there is no room for refusal.
She followed him, leaning into his trusty hand that gently wrapped around her shoulder her.
The place he guided was the kitchen, which was exceptionally clean and organized.
There are three large refrigerators, two large countertops where you can prepare ingredients, and four stoves that can turn on the gas fire.
If you look at the wall, there is even an oven and a mini stove.
“Because Maria endured hardships well. I’ll lighten up today.”
If you really want to do that, please let me go, even if I tell you, no one will listen.
I decided to enjoy the limited freedom under his control.
Yuchan putting pre-prepared food on a tray.
A stainless dish cover was covered on a plate that was enough for 10 dishes, as if they had prepared a course meal.
“Come on, let’s go. You’re not hungry.”
When I silently headed to the place he guided me to, what I saw was a neatly organized library.
First of all, the room is very spacious.
It is probably the most spacious in this mansion.
The two-story bookshelves that stretched to the ceiling were filled with various books, and a ladder was provided so that you could select the books above.
There are rich curtains by the window where the warm sunlight permeates, and in front of it are two fluffy and luxurious sofas that would be perfect for taking a nap after reading a book.
And what surprised me the most is that this study is neatly organized without a speck of dust.
“Wow…”
“Do you like it? I made your own little library.”
If only he had really been my rich dad, if only I had been gifted a library like this as his birthday present his instead of being imprisoned by him.
I would hug his neck his and blow a passionate kiss on the cheek his.
I liked her that much.
I suddenly felt uneasy at the sudden favor, and I decided to play aegyo before he acted on his nasty whims of her.
“Dad, thank you so much. It is the best gift I have ever received in my life.”
He hugged his waist her and rubbed his cheek her.
What’s so hard about it? I wanted to, but I rubbed my cheeks enough to express my sincerity.
“Let’s eat first. In the future, I will also take care of rice.”
Yu-chan, who took me by the wrist and led me to a table in the center of the room, presented a nicely plated plate one after another.
The course type is French.
An aperitif, an aperitif that stimulates the appetite before a meal.
Cloud-like cream is topped with ruby-red liquor.
“It’s an apple cider that I made myself in the past. Above is whipped cream, drink it slowly without mixing. The alcohol content is very low, so you should be fine taking it on an empty stomach.”
“It’s sweet and sour.”
Amuse bouche, bite-sized food served before horses d’oeuvres.
As if playing a house, cute food is laid out beautifully.
“Canapes topped with veal meat. The next one is raw oysters, but if you can’t eat them, you don’t have to eat them.”
“I eat those oysters well.”
Appetizers and entrees that mark the beginning of a full-fledged meal.
The brown color with a soft texture is spread on brown toast.
“It’s foie gras spread well on toast. It has a strong butter flavor on purpose, so you should be able to eat it without difficulty.”
“Poie gras is animal abuse… Isn’t it?”
“Just eat.”
“Yes…”
Fish dish, Poisson, the first of the main dishes.
It consists of grilled fish that can be eaten in three bites and garnish served on the side.
“It’s striped bass. Served with garnish is Baba Ghanush, Olive Pickle. The sauce is made with lemon and Japanese rice wine.”
“It’s delicious!”
The meat dish that decorates the end of the main dish, Biande.
The sauce was drizzled over the medium-rare roast duck.
“It’s a sauce made with beets and cherry wine on roast duck. Cherries, beets, and duck go really well together, so try it even if it’s a little strange.”
“…Whoa… Whoa…”
After the roast duck, which could only be admired, dessert was served right away without cheese.
The combination of dark chocolate and strawberry mousse was a fantastic shortcake.
I knew that I was good at cooking, but I didn’t know that I was good enough to complete such a wonderful course.
I didn’t even know I was full, so I shoved it into my mouth and drank the cognac that came out as an after-meal drink, only to realize that I was full.
People say that when gastronomy reaches its peak, it can be described as pleasure. Today, I felt the true meaning of the word.
After the meal filled with ecstasy, he politely bowed his head to express his gratitude.
It’s not that I’m really thankful, and I have to express my gratitude well so that there will be another opportunity like this next time?
Coffee, the last of the long course, was decided to settle on the sofa we saw earlier.
“You can pick out whatever you like and read it.”
“I…Really?”
“Then~”
I ran to the bookshelf and pulled out about three books that I had been eyeing for a while.
I picked out a lot in advance because if I picked out just one book, I might be imprisoned again by the time I finished reading it.
Worried that he would not notice, he quietly sat down on the sofa, but Yoo-chan crossed the legs on the leg rest in front of the sofa and leisurely flipped through the bookshelf.
He always emphasized that everything comes at a price.
But now, while providing endless convenience, he doesn’t ask for anything.
It was unfamiliar, but fortunately, I indulged myself like licking the letters on a book I hadn’t touched in a long time.
The gentle background sound of the bookshelf rustling.
The sunlight through the curtains and the feel of the sofa warmly enveloping the whole body.
The aroma of coffee filled the room.
Everything is a small happiness that I thought I might never taste again.
It’s been a while, so the speed of reading a book is slow.
That’s an excuse, and in fact it was because he cared a lot.
What on earth were you thinking of planning such a surprise?
I’m guessing that the reason you told me wasn’t everything.
It looks like you’ve been staring at it for too long.
Yu-chan turned his gaze away from the book and faced me.
“Are you bored of reading alone?”
“Oh, no. So good. The meal was good too. Thanks Dad.”
“I thought I would never hear the word ‘father’ in my life. It feels new to hear it even after I ordered it.”
Well, who would want to have a baby like you.
I just saw it
I’ll just look at the book.
I hurriedly turned my head, but unfortunately, it seemed that Yu-chan’s attention had turned from the book to me.
“Come here.”
After hesitating, I gathered my heart and filled his empty seat half-lying on the sofa.
The word sofa is almost like a bed with a backrest.
It’s the same when you look at the size that two people can lie down comfortably.
Still, it was smaller than a real bed, and because of his size his, it was as if he were being held in his arms.
I can feel the sound of my heart beating right next to me.
Yu-chan’s arm his digs into the back of his neck.
Except for something a little stiff, it was as comfortable as a neck support.
“If you do not go against me and live well, I will allow you to come in the future. It would be difficult to come every day because of the circumstances.”
What he suggested was a ray of hope in the hopeless life of confinement.
Should I say it was a cigarette that was secretly given to smoke inside a prisoner of war camp?
It was the first time since I was caught by him that I could spend such a peaceful time being treated like a human being.
If you listen carefully from now on…
The reason he locked me up is to sexually exploit me.
Whether or not there was direct sexual activity, his behavior was closely related to sexuality and humiliation to me.
I haven’t given up yet.
Maria Kim has not collapsed yet.
So now is the time to do what he wants.
You have to give in, obey, and obey as Yu-chan wishes, and satisfy him.
They tried to tame me with carrots and sticks.
If so, she had better induce him off guard by showing him the image of a stupid woman obsessed with carrots.
It is right to plant the idea that things are going according to plan.
“Do … Maria wants to show her appreciation of her to her dad of her.”
After taking a few deep breaths, she gently caresses his body.
As she stroked his groin gently over her clothes her, she felt his already bulky breasts her swell.
“But Maria doesn’t know how to make her dad like it.”
Enjoy this moment to the fullest.
Get drunk with false obedience that defiles my body, insults me, and prostrates myself at my feet.
“…So… Dad, tell me.”
The moment you droop in its obedience,
It will be a great opportunity to pay back all this humiliation.
I put my hand inside his pants and carefully grabbed the hot object of Yu-chan.
