Chapter 128 – #33_What I Don’t Need Now
One.
The West Sea hardened as soon as the door was opened.
It was a familiar face, a welcome one.
But she was also a face she never wanted to meet.
It was like an lingering attachment to the past that was pulling her ankles now that she was ready to leave everything behind and run away.
“You have to stand. I’ve been looking for you for three years.”
Tears welled up in the boy’s eyes, who had grown taller than before and whose face he had become more manly.
Behind him, precious memories that he wanted to keep only as memories pass by in an instant.
The memory of helping Seohae, who was first assigned to middle school and couldn’t adapt.
Memories of eating lunch together.
She remembers going on a school trip and preparing a talent show to do.
Memories of going to school together and chatting about this and that.
I remember sitting next to her when she was out of PE class.
When Seohae’s illness wasn’t severe yet.
That is, when her condition was thought to be simply functional heart failure.
There was a boy who was especially close to her middle school life her in Seohae, where she got along well with many of her friends her.
New state.
Thinking about it now, it was a fresh and childish feeling, but what Seohae had for Gyu-tae and Gyu-tae for Seo-hae was clearly her simple kindness towards the opposite sex.
If Seohae had continued her school life, she would have developed a relationship where she would be teased by the children around her.
“Ah…”
“I asked the kids for their contact information, but no one knew, so I searched the country every vacation, asking here and there.”
However, Seohae escaped.
When she ran off, cutting off contact with all her acquaintances, friends, and acquaintances of her, she thought she had ended the relationship with him as well.
Just as she only occasionally recalled Seohae, Gyu-tae also thought that she had forgotten about him.
That will be too.
Wasn’t she just a light flutter in her immature days?
But no.
He was still looking for the West Sea, and he finally found it.
“You were still looking for me?”
There was a small joy blooming in Seohae’s voice, which he uttered in a daze.
Someone is still remembering him intensely.
The emotion spreads through the heart without a chance to refuse.
A heartbeat rang out in her small chest.
“I told you. I’m chasing you everywhere.”
However, seeing Kyu-tae open his arms to embrace Seo-hae, Seo-hae felt his hair her turn white.
I was terrified.
“Go away!”
Seohae unknowingly cut off his arm her.
I wasn’t sure what I was afraid of.
However, the moment I was held in that arms, it seemed that the heart I had barely built up would collapse from the foundation.
A selfish mind that will suffer alone so as not to hurt anyone.
He was afraid of being destroyed in front of the boy’s upright good will and goodwill.
“I have to stand…”
I could see her gyu-tae’s face in her, which had been visiting her for years, contorted with her disappointment in her.
For him, this moment would have been the reunion he had been dreaming of.
The image of Seohae, trembling as if it were about to be eaten, must not have been in his imagination of her.
“Why why why. You came for me… I, I have to leave… Alone…”
It was okay to laugh at her for playing a tragic heroine, calling her unsightly.
There is also the awareness that one’s actions are nothing but self-gratification.
Seohae stepped back into the dark camper.
However, the boy reached out his hand again while watching the West Sea’s struggles.
“I won’t let you suffer alone.”
The early autumn sunlight shining behind him was dazzling.
Brightness that is fundamentally different from Yuchan’s.
It was a white hand that drew out the urge to squeeze the outstretched hand of his.
Seohae hesitated for a while.
In the end, he could not choose anything and looked at the West Sea, which took a step back, and the boy shyly lowered his outstretched hand.
“Well, maybe you forgot me. Strictly speaking, we weren’t even dating, so it might be a little gross.”
“It’s not like that.”
Seohae shook his head and found tears welling up in his eyes.
It is an indescribably complex mind.
Sad but happy, relieved but anxious, resentful but thankful, scared but wanting to rely on them.
“Would you like to talk a little bit with me? I’m sorry for suddenly trying to hug you earlier. It’s so nice to see you.”
The clumsy boy’s hand enters Seohae’s gaze his, which was bowing his head.
Her Gyu-tae’s hand her, which greeted her with her confident voice, had a slight tremble.
That too is scary.
Even though there was no way to know how the years of meeting had separated the two, he courageously reached out.
Seohae made that a small excuse.
She can’t do anything about letting the friend who has found her over the years be ruthless.
That’s how I convinced myself.
“I’ll change my clothes and come back.”
“Oh! Oh! Yes!”
Was it only then that he noticed that Seohae was wearing only one shirt?
Gyu-tae’s face turned red when he saw Seo-hae’s legs stretched smoothly under the hem of her shirt on her.
2.
So the place I found was a lighthouse.
She didn’t insist on the camper and went to her lighthouse, maybe because she didn’t want Yoo-chan to see her talking to him.
Seohae carried shrimp snacks and passed them on to the flock of seagulls one by one.
“It’s a great view. It’s hidden in a place like this, so I can’t find it even if I look for it.”
“How did you get here?”
“I found out that your aunt works here, so I searched all the islands around here. Sorry for coming to you without permission.”
If it had been someone else, it might have been a little creepy, but as far as Seohae knew, Gyu-tae was just a good friend.
Standing side by side with Seohae, giving sweets to her seagull, he stared at her side profile of her.
She is the look she has been searching for for years.
“I haven’t grown at all. You drank a lot of milk.”
“It was all nonsense. What did you eat and grow so big? Even though he was just like me.”
“I do not know. He suddenly grew up after becoming a sophomore in high school.”
Is this what it feels like to be friends after a long time?
Even though it’s been a few years since we’ve had a conversation, there’s no sense of incongruity.
It’s like an extension of the day when we went home from school together and chatted.
Even if you don’t bother to pick a conversation topic, the story is connected smoothly.
Being friends was like this. Come to think of it, the uncle almost always says what he has to say. Occasionally, when he had conversation-like conversations, it was just a strange argument, and the concept of small talk didn’t seem to exist to him.
“How are the kids? Soyeon, Dasom, or Gyeongcheol.”
“Everyone lives doing what they do. You worry too much.”
“What are you worried about? I’m enjoying this leisurely exile life here.”
“What is it. Oh right, did you know that Dasom went to study abroad? I went to the Philippines to learn pole dance.”
“What? Really? What is it?”
“So-yeon is studying hard for the entrance exam, and Kyung-chul dropped out and started music.”
“Is it Gyeongcheol? Before, they made a fuss about being a programmer.”
These silly gossips.
How are the friends you hang out with? Stories about how everyone lives.
I always wanted to know, but let’s easily find out the things I’ve been holding back. I felt strange.
After asking each other about the current situation that they had been curious about for a long time, Gyu-tae suddenly became quiet.
Coincidentally, the shrimp snacks were also eaten, and the seagulls that had flocked to them fluttered their wings and disappeared.
Seohae suddenly looked to the side.
Her boy’s face her comes into her her eyes her, looking down at her with her anxious, young eyes.
It was as if she could no longer tolerate the questions she had been putting up with her because of her consideration for her.
“Are you still not feeling well?”
Gyu-tae knows why Seo-hae left her so quickly.
She is such a foolishly kind child that she made such a stupid choice.
If she was feeling better, she would have come back and apologized.
“Yes, I will die soon.”
Her aunt her seemed to be trying to hide it, but Seohae could feel it.
Now, the time allowed for her is not that long.
That is why she wanted to face a humble death at the hands of her loved one, rather than tremble at the unexpected death.
Besides, if she’s the uncle, she’s sure she’ll be okay with leaving herself.
Where can I find such a lousy story?
“I only need to be sick.”
Because she has seen the people around her suffer whenever she goes through a long struggle with illness, these words were like a mantra that Seohae obsessively recited.
“Where is that!”
She felt a strong grip on her shoulder her.
And in her hand, she felt the warmth of a warm person.
If she had been an uncle, she would have just looked at me with incomprehensible eyes even after saying this.
She wouldn’t have reacted so enthusiastically.
“What is that? What’s okay if you’re the only one hurting? If you are sick and tired, you can lean on the people around you. At least you could lean on me!”
The moment she wanted to be by his side the most, she suddenly left him.
She left to the point where she couldn’t do anything.
The boy, who was always angry about it, vented his emotions at the girl’s murmur.
“What do you know?”
Beyond the sight messed up with tears, the shockingly cold voice of Seohae penetrates.
Seohae, who pushed her hand away with her strong arms, glared at the boy with fierce eyes she had never shown before.
“Have you ever seen people having a hard time because of you alone? Have you ever heard the gossip that treats you pitifully without knowing anything? Or have you ever felt guilty about relying on others?”
“I don’t know! Still, maybe I can help you!”
“You are stupid. You are still a child.”
Clearly, in Gyu-tae’s memory her, Seo-hae was also a hot-tempered child.
He was a child who couldn’t stand to see what was wrong and pushed his stubbornness forward.
“Why did you come to me in the first place? Didn’t you think that it would make it harder for me? No, you just wouldn’t have thought of that. Because your heart that I want to see was more important. It didn’t matter at all with what kind of determination or determination I left you.”
“That, it’s not like that.”
“I’m sorry if you expected a touching reunion. But honestly, it’s creepy. You came to me with a job from a few years ago, still dragging along? Haven’t you had a girlfriend in a while?”
In front of Gyu-tae, who was flustered by Seo-hae’s reaction to her, which seemed to be frosty, Seo-hae laughed at him.
I roll up the hem of the flowing dress.
Above the transparent skin, bluish veins passing through the inner thighs and light blue striped panties are revealed.
“Or, what did you want to do with a girl who became weak from a fatal disease? Why, do you think it will be easy for you now?”
Gyu-tae is a good kid.
These bad words will definitely leave him scarred.
But don’t you see a lot of scenes like this in dramas?
I thought I could understand why the main characters were saying such nasty things in the face of death.
It would be less painful when the moment of parting came if you let go of everything.
“Then I’ll give you special permission. Touch it It doesn’t matter where you touch it.”
Disillusion, contempt.
Seohae passed by lonely Gyu-tae, who looked as if the world had collapsed.
This much can be done casually.
“I’ve been through a lot of work in vain. Seeing that she couldn’t even eat the table that was set for her, it seems like she’s falling short. Goodbye. I will not see you off.”
Every word I say is like poking her in the chest with a hot awl.
After falling more than ten steps, Gyu-tae’s shout was heard.
“Hey, you stupid gibbae!”
And that shout made Seohae stand tall.
Behind her, Gyu-tae was stomping her feet in anger as he trampled her turf.
He stomped his feet so hard that it seemed as if the ground rumble was transmitted all the way here.
“Are you afraid of acting? Who believes lines like those in a 2000s drama!”
The boy who ran up and started hitting Seohae on the back.
It didn’t have much power, but it was a little heavy for Seohae to handle.
“Anyway, I only learned bad things from somewhere! Of course I will be sad when you leave! Still, I never asked to leave! I never asked that I not be sad because of you! You left on your own, so can’t I do it on my own too?”
“Ah! Don’t pull on your clothes! It’s growing!”
“Irregularities are stubborn and stubborn, and who would dare to say that! You have to be a bit upset I will tell my aunt everything!”
“No, I… “
It’s not like this.
I have to send it now.
Through the gap of hesitation, the boy strode forward.
It hurt so much that Kkulbam kept hitting his head his, and Seohae felt tears welling up.
