Chapter 250 – Eunseo, I Love You – 250
Episode 250.
Another month has passed. The fight between my father’s XX party and the OX party went in a structure where the XX party lost unilaterally.
Of course, the OX party was not alone.
The XX party and the OX party have been competing as the two largest political parties in Korea for decades.
It means holding each other’s weaknesses in hand.
‘This is the reason why the domestic political world has no choice but to become one regardless of political parties.’
If you hit one, you’ll get hit by one too.
It was our country’s political sphere to shake hands with the hand hidden behind while fighting on the outside because I didn’t want to get sick.
However, the balance was broken because of me.
The OX party ruthlessly exposed the corruption and weaknesses of its competitors.
As a result, five members of the XX party were investigated by the prosecution as suspects.
As many as 50 members of the OX party are under investigation.
Even 30 of them are in custody as ‘suspects’.
Thanks to the corruption data I provided, the XX party was able to hit ten with one hit.
‘It’s really easy to solve things because the big political party is fighting with double weapons.’
However.
Even though the plan is progressing more smoothly than originally planned.
Recently, I was constipated, and I was grunting as if I had accumulated a week’s worth of stool in my intestines.
The problem was silver.
“Eunseo, shall we go out after a long time and eat something delicious?”
I knocked on the door and whispered, and the door opened helplessly.
“I’m sorry brother. I have no appetite…”
“OK got it.”
Without saying a word, I closed the door. It was because I felt a little guilty just looking at Eunseo drooping.
‘Eunseo’s mood is still not resolved.’
Eun-seo is still in despair.
I refuse to go to play with Yuna, whom I have been so close to, to change her mood, and I just stay in my officetel.
For the first time in my life, out of love for me, I disobeyed my father and left home.
Soon after, as his father’s downfall begins, Eun-seo feels guilty that it may have been her fault.
‘Yes. You might think so because it’s a family affair.’
If something bad happens to the company on the day you take a vacation, it’s because you’re a human being.
From Eunseo’s point of view, it would be more because it is a family affair.
‘The problem is that I don’t know how to make a woman feel better and comfort her.’
Until now, though, she’d let her feel free by making her feel pleasure with random sex.
Eunseo is reluctant to have a relationship with me.
It was the psychology of the good kid syndrome, that something bad happened to my dad, but he shouldn’t be happy by doing good things on his own.
He tore her hair and threw herself on the bed.
“Oh, I’m going crazy.”
There is only one reason why I did all this.
Because Eunseo, whom I love, felt the urge to be loved by her father, whom she loves.
So, no matter how smooth her plan is, it is useless if she cannot take care of Eun-seo’s mental state.
‘It looks like I’ll have to help, but I can’t think of a way to ease Eunseo’s mood.’
It’s not that I refuse to have a conversation, so I think it’s okay to have a serious conversation and touch the heart with love as the topic or bring about a change in thinking.
I can’t think of any good comments.
‘I feel weird.’
Even though I have gained and achieved many things, I can do anything to make the woman I love feel better.
I still lack a lot.
But.
Even for Eun-seo, now is not the time to be overcome with a sense of self-doubt.
“If I don’t know the answer, I’ll ask someone who knows.”
I turned on the Student Earl app and found the professor number of the class I took.
It’s a waste of time to text and wait.
I called right away.
“Professor, how are you? Do you have time? My name is Song Yun-ho, who took the professor’s class in the first semester.”
***
The meeting place, a course meal restaurant near the school.
After waiting for a while in the reserved room, a person opened the door and came in.
A beautiful female professor who appears to be in her mid-30s.
This is the professor who taught the liberal arts class I took, the principle of love class.
‘In the end, love is the key issue. So this person will tell you the best answer.’
“Ah, Yunho-kun. It’s been a while. Nice to meet you.”
“Me too. I contacted you out of the blue, but thank you for coming out willingly.”
“It’s a student I taught, of course. Especially if it’s a memorable student.”
“Was I a memorable student?”
“Of course. When asked what love is, Yunho-kun answered that love is possessing the other person. It was an impressive answer, so it remains in my memory.”
And then I saw it.
At that time, I was in a state where I felt only sexual desire and possessiveness when dealing with others, especially women, before I had awakened my lust.
It’s not an ordinary emotional state, so it must have been impressive from the professor’s point of view.
While eating the food that was served one after the other, we talked about the past, and as the atmosphere matured, we brought up the subject, the purpose of today’s meeting.
“Professor. How should I comfort someone who is in despair because of being betrayed by love?”
“Hoho, it seems that there is someone among your acquaintances whose lover cheated on you.”
“No, it’s not like that. It’s hard to say in detail because it’s someone else’s business, but it’s not love between lovers.”
She gave the professor an interesting look.
“It’s an interesting subject. If it’s not love between lovers, it’s love between parents and children, right?”
“Yes… How did you know?”
“Because individualism is prevalent these days, it is difficult to see other forms of love. Love between friends, love between teachers, and other emotions in relationships. All of them have long since dried up.”
“That’s right. A friend of mine is having a relationship with his parents. To put it mildly, it seems that the parents don’t love their children. The children really love their parents.”
When I said that I wanted to comfort him but didn’t know how, the professor smiled at me.
“It’s the way to comfort those who have been betrayed in parent-child love… Yunho-kun. Did you know? The feeling of love never betrays us.”
The professor picked up a piece of food and continued.
“Even if the expectations created by love can be betrayed.”
Does it mean that the problem is the expectation of love?
“Humans are learning animals. Over millions of years of evolution, humans have chosen learning as their weapon and have become rulers of the planet as a result.”
As befits a professor who lectures at Seo-Eol University, he is eloquent, so I became immersed in the Word as if possessed.
“However, that choice created a fatal flaw for humans.”
“Learning. In other words, learning. Man, like cattle and horses, as soon as he is born, he cannot hit the ground. Like a tiger, he does not learn how to hunt just by growing up.”
“In other words, beings who can’t do anything unless they learn. That’s what humans are, Yunho-kun.”
“Then…”
The professor answered as if he knew what my question was.
“Parents don’t love their children, but children love their parents, that means it doesn’t make sense. How can a person who hasn’t learned love know love?”
“What if the person who becomes a parent played love?”
The professor laughed.
“Looking at you asking like that, it seems like you want to solve the problem your acquaintance is facing, rather than simply consoling you.”
I got goosebumps for a moment.
‘How did you know?’
“…You are correct.”
At a young age, I felt admiration that I had to be at this level to become a professor at Seo-Eol University.
“It’s not just comforting, it’s solving the problem. It’s a very difficult problem, but I can give you a clue.”
“I will listen.”
“Human beings cannot value someone who is not precious to them in any sense. It was designed and evolved that way. After all, the key is for parents to transform the feelings they feel for their children into love, whatever it may be.”
“…Can you call that true love?”
“There is no such thing as true love in the world, Yunho-kun. There are only various forms of love.”
The professor laughed hohoho and added.
“Before solving the problem, you should comfort your acquaintance, right? The biggest reason for your acquaintance’s disappointment is probably the fear of not being loved. Fear breeds anxiety, and anxiety is the cause of most problems in human affairs. “
Fear of not being loved.
Since I was young, I have had a strong desire for recognition and affection from others, and I am at an age where I have been twisted by desires that could not be satisfied despite my efforts, so the professor’s words are particularly relevant to me.
“The keyword is this.”
The following professor’s words were engraved deep in my head.
That’s how the meal with the professor ends.
I knocked on the door of Eunseo’s room once more.
“Eunseo. Let’s talk with your brother.”
“Brother… I’m a bit tired right now.”
Eunseo’s face through the slightly open door.
My eyes are red from just crying.
“Didn’t you eat dinner? I remembered that you said you didn’t like it, so my brother bought me ice cream.”
She held up the bag containing the Choco Choco combination of Vera 31 that Eunseo likes.
“So let’s talk to you while we eat this.”
“…I see.”
I made a promise as I turned on the fluorescent lights in the dark room.
After today, I will make Eunseo into a smiling child like before.
