## Chapter 187 – Mana Man Kim Kat
I immediately knelt down and bowed deeply, begging and pleading until I managed to calm Karin down. Or, was it really calming down? The look on Karin’s face after seeing what was splattered on the wall was ominous.
It was more like, “Since you’re my disciple, I’ll hear you out before I kill you,” that kind of vibe.
I hung my head low and followed Karin.
The place was on the second floor of the office, and it felt like a living space, perhaps Karin’s personal room. I sat on the sofa as instructed. She locked the door and approached me.
“…I’m sorry.”
First, I apologized.
I was a total scumbag.
“…”
Karin sat across from me.
…Her face was incredibly serious.
After a moment of silence, Karin looked at me and said,
“Could it be… because of me?”
Our eyes met for a moment, and I saw the deep cleavage above her tank top. Noticing this, Karin blushed again and covered herself with her hand.
“A, no! It’s not like that! Guild Master! You might not believe me, but please just listen to my explanation and trust me! There were circumstances!”
I quickly turned my head away. I heard a slight rustling sound. After waiting a bit, I looked at Karin again. She was wearing a top and had her hand on her chest.
“…G, Guild Master?”
“Kyaa!”
When I called out to Karin, she suddenly screamed and shuddered as if utterly disgusted. Th, this…! What have I done! If I had only done it twice, this wouldn’t have happened!
“G, Guild Master!!! Are you alright?!”
“U, uh? Oh, it’s nothing… just a little.”
I desperately flailed around, gesturing that I was harmless. Karin, watching this, relaxed her guard.
Seriously. Someone who could probably slice through hundreds of people reacted like this…
It’s a bit…
An awkward silence hung in the air.
“…Ugh.”
Karin was the first to speak.
“Ugh, it’s huge? I thought it was a blunt weapon… Ah, ahem! Anyway, that’s not what I meant! What the hell is that? Why do that instead of at your own place? If you can’t explain it properly, I’ll assume you’re an exhibitionist and cut you down.”
Karin, who had been flustered, cleared her throat and spoke sternly. Even so, as my master and Guild Master, she seemed willing to hear my side of the story. I was very grateful, and at the same time, I felt guilty.
I showed her something I shouldn’t have.
How shocked must she have been to see my hideous side…!
I did something unforgivable!
“That’s… it’s not really like that…”
“Don’t beat around the bush and explain. I’m not a very patient person.”
I gathered my thoughts and opened my trembling mouth. How should I explain this? Pent-up frustration? That frustration built up and up, and since there was a space where I was alone, I started doing it?
“…It was pent-up frustration.”
“What?”
“I couldn’t… relieve my urges… and I just thought that place was perfect for being alone… so I just lost it. I never had any strange thoughts. Please believe me.”
Tears streamed down my face. Looking into Karin’s eyes, which had become clear, she blushed and said, as if my true feelings had been conveyed,
“What, what nonsense are you talking about?”
“Hic… hic…! That’s exactly what happened. It’s just, recently, my urges have been building up… and that place was empty, wasn’t it…”
Karin, seeing me start to sob, took pity on me and listened to my excuses without saying much. I took advantage of that gap in her heart.
“Anyway… um, um. It’s not because of me, right?”
After I passionately rattled off all sorts of excuses, Karin, seemingly starting to believe me, summarized her thoughts. I could feel her relaxing her guard as she regained some composure.
“It’s definitely not the Guild Master’s fault. This is entirely my fault… more than that, why do you think it’s your fault? The Guild Master did nothing wrong.”
“Ugh, no. I mean, maybe my outfit or when I was correcting your posture earlier… we touched a little, right? I didn’t mind at all, but I was wondering if you felt anything.”
As expected of a swordsman honed to the extreme.
She pinpointed the core of the incident accurately.
That physical contact had triggered my desires.
“Absolutely not, so you can rest assured. There was definitely nothing like that. I’m just grateful that you believe me!”
It was 100% because of that, but I lied to ease Karin’s burden. Looking at her, it seemed like she was worried that her outfit might have stimulated her disciple.
If that’s the case, I should tell her it wasn’t.
Whatever the reason, it was my fault for jerking off.
“…Not at all?”
Karin narrowed her eyes and asked again.
I raised my voice and answered loudly.
“Yes. Not at all! I’m not lying, there was absolutely nothing!”
“…Really?”
“Of course!”
“You didn’t feel anything like that at all?”
“That’s right!”
“You didn’t have any thoughts?”
“That’s obvious!”
I was a little suspicious of her repeated questioning, but I answered confidently to ease Karin’s mental burden.
As expected, Karin is a good person. Even so, she was worried about whether she might have some responsibility, which was truly befitting of a martial artist. To practice martial arts is to practice the mind. Is that what it means?
“…”
—That was when the atmosphere changed.
In an instant, Karin’s energy began to change into something ominous. An overflowing, ominous energy… fear? No, bloodlust?
Huh?
What is this?
“…Guild Master?”
“Does that mean that I have absolutely no charm as a woman?”
“Huh?”
“Yeah… damn it. After packing my bags and leaving the Knights, I did a lot of mercenary work… men? What kind of men were there in that damn bunch? Even if I’m getting old, those guys are a bit much, aren’t they?”
Karin, muttering something unpleasant, suddenly began to ramble incoherently. It was an incomprehensible monologue, like she was talking to beings from the past.
I felt fear.
What the hell is this?
“But damn it. Even though I quit being a mercenary, there aren’t any decent men? And why haven’t there been any men who like me? Is it because I have no charm as a woman? Or is it because I’m mixed-race? What? You can feel my bloodlust? I look like I’ll kill someone just by looking at them? A murderer? Bullshit! I’m such a meticulous woman!”
Karin, having gone berserk, suddenly stood up and began to berate me!
Wh, what the hell is going on!
My mind was about to fly to a distant place due to this cosmic situation that transcended my understanding! C, calm down, Kim Kat! I don’t know what’s going on, but Karin, who’s completely lost it, might start stabbing people!
“Men are all idiots!”
The self-deprecation that followed eventually turned into hatred of men…! I don’t know how old Karin is, but it seemed like she had a lot of pent-up frustration as an old maid!
I had to calm her down!
“Am I really that unattractive?! All the men are blind! Damn it! I have to pluck them all out!”
I desperately clung to her calves to calm Karin down, who was trying to run wild, and showered her with overwhelming flattery! To calm someone like this, it was necessary to give them praise that exceeded the lethal dose!
“N, no! Guild Master, you’re really damn pretty! I told you before! You look like you’re in your late teens! I haven’t seen that many women in my life, but you’re definitely one of the top five most beautiful women!”
“Let go! I said let go! Didn’t you say you didn’t feel anything earlier!”
“Uwaaaaa! Centrifugal force, resist!!!!”
As Karin shook her legs, I, who was clinging to her calves, lost gravity and swayed back and forth. I put all my strength into holding on even tighter to her calves so I wouldn’t fall off!
“Uwaaaaa!!!! Yessss!!!! Guild Master has killed a lot of people!! And she’s really strong!! But where else in this world would there be a woman like Guild Master!!!!! She’s capable!!! Her face is pretty! Her body is great! And she’s youthful!!! It’s really unbelievable!!! Guild Master is beautiful!!!”
A space of zero gravity.
In that place, I spent a long time praising Karin and trying to calm her down. What is this? Wasn’t this supposed to be a confession about me publicly masturbating outdoors?
A sinister feeling, as if I had become a boy breadwinner tragically wailing in a third-world country, seeped into my heart due to the sudden genre change!
“Uwaaaaaaaa!!!!”
How much time had passed?
After wagging my tongue until all the saliva in my mouth had dried up, Karin’s rampage subsided.
“…Really?”
Karin asked me cautiously as I lay sprawled on the floor.
As expected, women are weak to compliments about their appearance.
“Really! Guild Master, you’re really pretty!”
I answered forcefully again.
There was no other way but to boost her self-esteem.
It was also true that she was actually beautiful.
Strictly speaking, Claudia had a better body and was prettier, but Karin was still a great beauty. She had a healthy and attractive body, and above all, her long, ebony hair was a good feature. A ponytail too… I should ask Claudia to try that sometime.
“…Really?”
Karin asked again.
“Of course! Wow, really! This is Miss Istvan! Why are you so beautiful! This is heavenly beauty! The beauty of a goddess!”
At that point, Karin blushed and began to give a strange smile. Damn, I thought I was going to die today.
I survived.
That should be enough.
“I, is that so… hehe. So that’s how it is?”
“Yes. Of course. Karin Bestarte is pretty! The Istvan Swordsman Guild Master is so pretty! Everyone in town! This person is so beautiful!”
“Hehe, heh. Hehehe! So you have an eye for beauty! Hey! I’ll just let the masturbation thing slide!”
Karin, with a smile on her face, picked me up and started hitting me hard on the back. “Debo-gek!” It was such a shock that I felt like I was going to vomit my esophagus out of my mouth. But it was a cheap price to pay for my life.
“Cough, cough.”
Karin, who had recovered her tension, started muttering something and laughing. The problem had been resolved in a slightly twisted direction, but it was settled for now. I swore that I would never do outdoor masturbation again and tried to leave the room.
—Thud.
“…Guild Master?”
Karin grabbed my shoulder as I turned around.
I looked back at her.
“But…”
She was hesitant, her face completely red, and she was avoiding my eyes. Did she have something else to say? Her grip was so strong that it felt like my shoulder was going to fall off.
Please stop!
Please! It hurts too much!
“…Wouldn’t you mind showing me once?”
“Pardon?”
“No. It’s your fault in the first place… and if you showed me… I’d be a little curious, and it’d be the first time I’ve seen anything like that on a man…”
If unease could be verbalized, this would be it.
The strength in my knees began to give way.
Could it be… no way?
“I just want to see it again…”
“Just a moment.”
My mind raced.
What? She wants me to show her?
What does this… imply?
“Guild Master. I understand what you’re saying, and it’s true that I was entirely at fault this time, and more than anything, it’s true that the Guild Master has an incredibly beautiful appearance and charm, but.”
I assumed the worst. I moistened my already dry mouth and thought about what to say again, searching for the best solution.
“Th, that’s a little unreasonable… wouldn’t you say?”
With a trembling heart, I said that.
“…Unreasonable? You did that kind of thing on the wall in my guild’s backyard and you’re saying it’s unreasonable?”
“Huh? B, but you just forgave me for that…?”
“This is a different story from forgiveness.”
I slowly backed away. —Thud. The doorknob touched my hand. Slowly. Very slowly, I grabbed it and tried to turn it without Karin noticing.
—Bang!
“Eek!”
What stopped me was Karin’s wall slam!
Restraint!
“Take off your pants. Let me see it one more time.”
With her chest and head thrust forward, Karin gave a shocking order!
“De, dedet?”
“What?”
“Lehu?”
“You’re dead if you pretend you don’t know.”
Bloodlust poured out.
I shouted reflexively.
“Just a moment! This isn’t right! It’s not something that’s good to show to others in the first place!”
“Then what are you? An exhibitionist?”
“I, I explained it all earlier!”
“I don’t care anymore.”
Karin, her face flushed, took a step forward and grabbed my waistband, exhaling hot breaths. What is this old maid doing!
“I’ll just look, okay? I’m just curious because it’s so big.”
“No way!”
“What do you mean no way? Don’t you trust the Guild Master?”
“Th, that’s!”
“I don’t know what I’ll do if you don’t show me. It’s your fault in the first place. You know that, right?”
“…Kuh!”
There was nothing to argue about!
No, even so, asking me to show her because she caught me jerking off… that’s a bit much!
But it seems like there’s no other way.
I rolled my eyes.
“Th, then you’ll really just look, right?”
“Yeah.”
—Gulp.
Think… Kim Kat!
How will you overcome this crisis!
