Became a Saint of the Sexuality Church 134

Chapter 134 – Reorganization (4)

I saw Ain’s visit.
I was very nervous.

You might ask why I am so nervous about meeting someone I love.
On the contrary, I will ask.

Isn’t it strange that I’m not nervous?
I took a deep breath to ease my stiff muscles.

Hueup.
Sigh.
He pats his cheek once and raises his head.

“Great.”

I said it out loud on purpose.
Have confidence.
I am a person who can do it!

Come on, knock.
Really do it
About a minute passed like that.

What will this tremble?
I know I’m stupid, but what can I do with my trembling?

Smart.
Knocked at last.

It is no different from a door installed in a royal palace.
A little brighter, a little more extravagant.
However, the reason why my heart is tight and tense like this is because you are on the other side.

Einstein.
It was a name that had never been called out of my mouth since I came to call her Ain, her nickname.
That’s why.

I called it once to give it a unique feeling.

“Astein, this is Aria.”

“Yes.”

It’s a low, blunt voice, but it’s not scary.
Rather, it just felt familiar.

Cause I know you’re not angry
That’s how much I’ve adapted to the person you are.

“Can I come in?”

“Whenever.”

Cool permission fell.
When I opened the door and entered, I saw you sitting leisurely.

She was wearing a light gown rather than her usual combat gear, probably because she had just finished taking a shower.
Moisture remains that have not yet been removed from the hair or parts where the bare skin is exposed.

It’s a moist child.
It was a strangely sensual landscape.
Doesn’t he look like a nobleman?

Breathing almost stopped for a moment at the strange pressure.
I managed to come to my senses and breathe in.
Is this what gap moe is?

Bad for the heart, this.

“What are you doing on such a late night?”

He asked a mean question, as if his blunt expression was a lie.
My heart just thumped.
When I open my mouth, I feel like I can hear my heartbeat.

“That, that’s that, don’t do what you did today, to keep your word!”

Well, there was a breakaway.
It was very embarrassing, but I continued talking without showing it.
As if I was proud of myself, he laughed.

“Shivering like that?”

To be honest, I never had a good feeling about sex before.
That’s right isn’t it

My first experience was rape.
How can it be good
It didn’t stop there, and I continued to be sexually abused.

I feel good when I reach the climax, but I can’t control the climax according to my will, isn’t it?
It is also painful in its own way to continue to climax.

Also, if the juice was dry, it would be extremely painful.
Sex on the day my period came was so painful that I felt like I was going to die.
It was one of the worst experiences a woman can have.

A state in which sexual activity itself is perceived negatively.
In that state, I read the real Arya’s memories.

The days of being raped and sexually tortured by Ronin.
The fear of sex, which was traumatic even without it, grew again.
Ain would never do something like that, but what can I do about being scared?

As I stared at Ain without saying anything, he finally stood up from his chair.
When Ain stood up, my head turned at a 45 degree angle.
I was also on the tall side for a woman, but as expected, Ain was no joke because he was a man.

He came striding
Is this how it feels to be eaten?

The body shrank naturally.
Ain asked smirkingly like someone who discovered something interesting to see.

“Is it holy clothes?”

It’s holy clothes, Rani?
It took me a while to understand what that meant.

I realized it only when his eyes scanned my body.
I was talking about the clothes.
I stupidly opened my mouth.

“Ah.”

Guess I’m an idiot
Being pushed back by Azazel and coming straight away served as a handshake.

There could have been more bold and challenging clothes.
All of a sudden, it’s a saint’s clothes without any mood or nudity.

Idiot.
You stupid.
Shouldn’t you show more sincerity to seduce him?

I won’t even stand like this!
I felt shame and sorry.
I have to put in the effort to please him, but what a stupid thing to do.

“I’m sorry. Yes, I’ll change into pretty clothes, so wait a minute…”

The moment you hurriedly turn around.
Ain restrained my actions.
To be precise, he grabbed my arm.

I see his black eyes.
His warmth ran down his arms.
My heart was beating like crazy.

“No matter what clothes you wear, it won’t change the pretty you, so don’t go.”

If anyone else had said that, he would have grown chickens on his forearms.
And I would have gently told him not to talk nonsense.

Einstein.
Unless it’s you
What about me because you said that?

It was a big deal, what.
Thoughts, accidents stopped.
Because it blows like a blown fuse.

What did you say about this?
Blackout?
White out?

What are you talking about, really.
Ah I don’t know

I like it so much, I’m happy.
Even if I die, there is no time left.
Looking at me in a state of confusion, Ain asks.

“Aria, have you eaten?”

I laughed and replied.

“Oh, not yet.”

“Then sit down. It’s cooled down a bit, but it’s still good to eat.”

His hands gripped my shoulders.
I couldn’t come to my senses because of the large hand on his shoulder.

The table was beautifully set.
Did you know I was coming and prepared in advance?

Where did the food get cold before that?
Steam is just coming up, this.

I was a little scared of his thorough preparation.
He seated me in a red velvet chair, and he sat down in the chair across from me.

“Why are you so depressed?”

“Ah, uh, something is different from what I thought.”

“No way, did you think I was going to have sex first? No matter how much the country demands it so coercively.”

“That, that’s not it. Most of what I’ve been through…”

I stopped talking.
Because it was stupid and masochistic.
I looked at him with gloomy eyes.

“I’m sorry for misrepresenting you. Aren’t you angry?”

“Why are you apologizing when I shouldn’t have cared about you?”

“Because I belong to Ain.”

I had no shame in saying that.
Rather happy

Wouldn’t it be strange to feel proud that I belong to you?
Good though

“You are not a thing.”

I shook my head.

“I want to be bound by Ain. Am I a burden?”

“If you keep talking like that, I might bully you.”

What does it feel like to be bullied by Ain?
A sticky feeling in the groin.
This is not good

Why do you feel

I haven’t even started foreplay yet, you fool.
Involuntarily, he tucked his thighs.

It’s under the table, so I hope he doesn’t figure it out, but unfortunately he has great guts.
It was a face that realized at once what action I had taken.

“I knew I had masochistic tastes, but it was a little bit wet with words like this…”

“Don’t play, don’t play!”

“No, I was trying to say that I liked it because it was erotic.”

“Oh, that’s tricky!”

“I? Who is it? Who is the real naughty one?”

“Ahhh! Yes! I am, I am the woman who reveals. That’s Okay? I hope you will be satisfied with this!”

“Ahaha, I didn’t know you would self-destruct like that. You must be very flustered, Aria?”

I pouted my lips like a duck’s beak.

“Azazel and Ain are the same. Why are you so anxious that you can’t make fun of me!”

“What if you like dirty things? Isn’t that a sin?”

“Of course I am sorry. I-I’m a really promiscuous woman.”

“Someone said you were good. Why are you so proud of yourself? Or do you think I might hate you?”

“… No.”

“It is natural to share affection with the one you love. You don’t have to make a fuss about it. Ah, but I might be a bit disappointed if the reaction was completely blunt. In that sense, Aria is perfect right now. It’s so cute just looking at it makes me die.”

“… You’re making fun of me.”

“To what extent?”

Was Ain such a good eloquent person?
I nodded her head as if possessed.

“By the way, Ain is very laid-back.”

“I thought a lot about what I said to you the other day. I guess you could say I’ve grown a little.”

He smiled fatally as he waved a half-filled glass of purple wine.
It’s strange, but I fell in love again.
Maybe a person like you makes my heart ache like this.

I struggled to keep my composure.
If I didn’t do this, I felt like I was going to get tangled up screaming that I loved him.

“What is that wine?”

“I did.”

“You don’t drink, Ain.”

“I always had to stay sober, so today is a small deviation.”

His smile resembled that of a young boy.
I blankly looked at Ain.
Like an onion, a new side emerges every time.

“… Is it alcohol?”

“I ordered an aria too.”

A permeating smile and demeanor.
I was startled when I received the wine glass he handed me as if possessed.

“Well, that drink is weak.”

I looked at the wine glass in my hand and didn’t know what to do.
There’s a chance that I’ll make a mistake when I’m drunk.

“I won’t force you.”

“Yes?”

“It’s a little disappointing though.”

“… Hey, did you expect it?”

“Little?”

Ain squinted one eye.
No, closed

It was an act that could be called a wink.
It was an aegyo that wasn’t like that.
Is that why?

The destructive power was crazy.
A lightning-like image appeared in his head.
My breath stopped, as if a round groove had been pierced through my chest.

Perhaps my hair turned red like a hot iron kettle.
I don’t want to disappoint him.

“I’ll drink, drink, drink, drink!”

I moved my arms, creaking like a machine that had lost its spring.
Then he poured all the wine from the wine glass into his mouth.

“No, you don’t have to force yourself to drink…”

Gulp.
It was an action that Ain took without even a moment to stop me from running out of control.
Soon, the scorching heat burned his esophagus.

An alcoholic beverage is an alcoholic beverage, even if it is a low-alcohol wine.
The unique taste of alcohol is very painful.
Before and now, alcohol doesn’t suit the spirit constitution.

“Uuuuuable possible can be possible.”

Thanks to that, I coughed loudly.
I seem to get drunk soon.

My head was dizzy.
Ain continued with a ridiculous expression.

“… Because it works.”

This is not this
I was the one who could see all the ugliness.

* * *

After about 10 minutes or so, I calmed down.
It’s not entirely submerged either.
At least I got better by using the sex method.

I am really weak
Ain did not comment on this.
I just gave you a caring look.

I want to know that there are days when that consideration comes to me inconveniently.
We started eating.
The sound of dishes rattling fills the room.

I ate my meals as discreetly as possible.
I didn’t expect to see the effect of learning the saintess’ proper manners here.
Ain asked as he cut the browned meat with a knife.

“Is it right in your mouth?”

“Yes I’m okay. Really.”

“I didn’t order anything greasy and irritating.”

Thank you too
I see a man who is adjusting to me all over again.
He spoke in a soft tone, perhaps interpreting my gaze differently.

“This is one of the few places where you can afford luxury, so if you want anything, just tell me.”

“It is what I want to be with Ain like this.”

“It’s fair. Me too.”

Yes.
It’s amazing.

When I see you, happiness spreads from the depths of my heart.
Can’t stop laughing

“Yes, Arya.”

“Yes, Ain.”

“Not long.”

I didn’t ask what.
His eyes were brimming with bitter feelings.

“If only.”

I waited for Ain’s backstory.
After taking three breaths, he continued.

“If everything is over, will you marry me?”

There were no metaphorical expressions, no old-fashioned or tasteful expressions.
It was just an honest statement without embellishment.
If you’re like Ajin, you’re extremely Ajin-like.

Proposal of marriage.
In other words, a proposal.

I wonder if I can be this happy?
No, didn’t you try hard to be this happy?
I tried to soothe my trembling body and mind.
But it was not enough.

“If I like someone like me, I will be happy.”

Be weird
Even though I’m happy, tears come out.
Ain stood up, wiped away my tears, and hugged me.

“I love you, Aria. More than anyone else in the world.”

Realized.
I realized.
This is where I will be
It’s yours

“Me too, I love Einstein.”

We whispered love
Just like fledgling lovers do.

It’s common love
But it was our only love.