Became a Saint of the Sexuality Church 116

Chapter 116 – Aria (3)

It was a fact I hadn’t even guessed.
That the goddess of eroticism and the god of the settled sun are the same thing?

Arya’s red eyes turned to me.
It seems that he is looking at my expression.

“Can’t you believe that the goddess of eroticism is the god of the sun?”

“It’s not unconvincing, but it’s shocking.”

“Because the name of God is bound to be misrepresented and distorted through the ages.”

Anyway it is
How could the god of the sun be transformed into the goddess of sexual love?
There is no scam like this.

With my thoughts roughly organized, I looked at Aria.
She looked at my face and decided it was okay to proceed with her story, but she opened her mouth again.

“I lost everything. Not just figuratively, really everything. Life as a woman, cherished relationships, and even the faintest hope. Even the will to live was castrated. It is empty.”

“… That’s.”

“Ah, it’s not just empty. Even a country like this could have some feelings. Do you know what it is?”

“…”

I couldn’t answer right away.
Contrary to what I said earlier, I guessed this one.
That must have been a feeling I had always had.

“I couldn’t forgive myself for being dirty. Me who broke Azazel and hurt Einstein.”

She is.
Arya wasn’t aloof or unconcerned.

It’s all tattered, rotten and festering.
Because it’s all black

She just didn’t feel any discomfort.
She filled her empty self with endless self-loathing.
She smiled self-deprecatingly.

“Even if they said they would turn back the time now, I didn’t have the confidence to do it properly.”

I lost my courage.
I lost hope.
I lost my luck.
At the end of it was a broken woman.

“I guess the sun god didn’t know that I would give up. Nara was an overestimation of human beings. He had no choice but to find a substitute. If he couldn’t use me, he must have intended to use my body. That alternative was XXX, you.”

“… Me?”

“Yes. It was you isn’t that The soul and body are surprisingly closely related, so if the wavelengths are different, the body rejects the soul?”

In short, is it like the feeling of putting on the wrong charging terminal?

“That’s something I didn’t know.”

“You and I are on the same wavelength.”

“… What do you mean?”

“It is the same. You and Me.”

Do you think I have the same soul as you?
It’s too cunning for a coincidence.

“Then what am I? Is it your reincarnation or something?”

“Wouldn’t it be similar? That’s not something I can definitively answer.”

It was an ambiguous answer.
I judged that I could not calm my soaring doubts, so I asked the question again.

“Then who do I ask?”

“You can ask the god of the sun who found it.”

Isn’t that an irresponsible avoidance of an answer?
I glared at Aria with dissatisfied eyes.

“I’m scared, can you stop staring at me?”

I squeezed between the eyes with my index finger and thumb.

“So in summary, because you gave up the process, am I where I am now?”

“Right.”

When I found out about the circumstances, my feelings became more complicated.
Because Aria gave up, she passed the baton to me.
In other words, isn’t it because of this woman that I became like this?

The resentment and anger with nowhere to go finally caught the target.
But is the target just bad?

Not necessarily.
She is the one who has gone through a devastating experience.
The words that she lost everything were not made up to get her pity.

An aria of human relations as narrow as Einstein’s.
Didn’t all of her human relationships with her fall apart?
As her anger grew, so did her pity.

Because I haven’t been there yet.
Also, in a way, didn’t Aria come out in the middle like this, telling her not to be like that?
She released her tightly clenched fist.

“Aria.”

I got up from the sofa and walked over to Aria.
At my movement, she blankly looked up at me.

“Yes?”

“It will sting a little.”

Shit.
A cool sound resounded, like rice cakes being pounded.
Arya, her head swung around, absentmindedly caressed her own flushed cheek.
Silence lingered for a while.

“Are you embarrassed?”

“… No.”

If she had said it was unfair, she would have beaten her a few more times.
A bit of sadness mixed with relief.
I sighed.

“I understand you who gave up. But since you gave up, I took over this job. Didn’t that cause and effect disappear? My point is that, after all, you are just an aggressor to me. With good intentions or with evil intentions.”

“… Yes. I know.”

“You must have had a hard time, but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t having a hard time.”

Those were painful days.
It’s a past I don’t even want to look back on.
There was never a time when I was happy.

“… Yes.”

She was Arya with a more shrunken appearance than before.
I hit him with a heart that would make me feel better, but it only made me feel worse.

Must be completely lost.
I got up and went back to the sofa.
He buried his back and said as if sighing.

“It’s done. I don’t have the feeling that it ended too easily, but I’ll just say it’s done. Even if I stay, it will only burn my insides.”

“… XXX.”

“Don’t even call me by my old name. Because I am Aria now. This is Aria who loves Einstein and loves Azazel.”

Arya widened her eyes at my words.
Then, he smiled softly.

“I liked them.”

I pursed my lips.

“Are you saying it’s not like that?”

“Because I abandoned them for my convenience. Even having such a mind is acceptable…”

“Don’t sound stuffy. If you like it, you like it. If you don’t have that kind of heart, you’re not qualified, so why do you decide those things yourself?”

“…”

“I know because I am too. I don’t know if that’s still the case. But it’s not all your fault.”

Pop.
Tears welled up in Arya’s eyes.
I was taken aback by the sudden change.
… Did I hit you too hard?

“To be affirmed by yourself is more like tears coming out than you think.”

Ah
How did it happen

* * *

Aria, who was sobbing, calmed down.
She couldn’t completely get rid of her negativity, but her face was lighter than before.
We resumed the story that had been interrupted.

“I thought this was the world of a novel. In my world, there is a novel about this world.”

Arya nodded her head knowingly.

“It is a medium. It is a device to make you, who are in another world, aware of this world and to call it.”

“… Ah.”

It gave me goosebumps.
Doesn’t that mean that even if you read the novel the wrong way, you can come over at your own pace?

“But not everyone can be like that. I was called by squeezing and squeezing the power of the god of the sun.”

“… Yes?”

Well, if I crossed the dimension just because I read some books, half of the population on Earth would have disappeared.
Arya looked at me with a confused expression.
Unlike before, it was a powerful eye.

“That’s why this divergence is so important to the sun god.”

Is this a watershed for him?
At the same time, it was also an important section for us.

“You said you don’t believe in the goddess of eroticism, that is, the god of the sun.”

“Yes.”

“But how can it still exist? It’s not like the sun god is helping.”

She learned when she was into sexual intercourse.
Excluding certain conditions, you cannot exert your strength only with your ‘soul’.
It is said that ‘power’ can be demonstrated only when the body and soul resonate…
The reason soon became clear.

“I was punished.”

“… Are you a god?”

“God basically doesn’t care what humans do. If I deviated from the norms he had set, he would only cast a hammer of condemnation, so the sun god punished me for disobeying his will.”

According to her, he was punished because he refused to return.
He is a humble god
Even though nothing helped.

“The contents of that punishment…”

“Watching by your side. And, interrupting Karelin at an important moment.”

As I was about to ask what punishment it was, I bit his mouth.
The point of forcibly digging up the memories you tried to forget or hide, giving you pain.
She also considered that she had been seeing Ain and Azazel over and over again, whom she tried to avoid.

Ah.
I’ll definitely make it, this.

“It is terrible.”

“… It wasn’t just terrible. Because there were moments that were good to see.”

Arya and I stared at each other.
Silence flows.

“Yes. XXX, no, aria. Can I ask you one favor?”

“I will listen and judge. Aria.”

At my words, she laughed.
Then I got up from the sofa.
She got up, so I got up too.

“I can’t forgive the sun god, the moon god, Karelin, Ronin, or Gina.”

“I know.”

“So can you kill them all?”

“Me?”

How can a one-tool buff without even a mediocre attack?

“A hero and a saint are conflicting beings. Do you think the saintess is powerless?”

“However, I couldn’t use all the attack methods…”

“Because the god of the sun made it that way so that the story wouldn’t get twisted.”

Come to think of it, yes.
I wouldn’t have known because I didn’t read the novel in the middle, but if I were to read the novel to the end.
I should have known everything that was going on.

What if I escaped on my own?
The sun god must have been in trouble too.

Because the story itself is wrong.
So you blocked some of the sex laws and put restrictions on my actions.

“That ends here too.”

The pure white light is dazzling.
I felt something flowing from inside my body.

“Now is the time to strike back, against all who have bullied you.”

Time to strike back.
She said so
I shook my head.

“It’s ‘we’.”

Arya laughs.
I laugh too.
I am Arya too.