Chapter 73 – I Was a Beast
The evening after seeing a new side of Ha-eun at Ha-eun’s dorm.
I was sitting at my desk, eagerly building up my stockpile of novels.
Whoops. Whoops.
… Is it Gia? Haeun?
The name that popped up on the vibrating phone screen was an unexpected person.
“Cha Seon-yeong?”
What happened to the woman who never answered the phone when I called from this side?
She thought that even if she met her, she would meet her because of the goddess, but she did not expect direct contact from her.
“Hello.”
-That… Is it okay to talk for a second?
“Yes. Please tell me.”
-I’d like to meet and talk…
Is it difficult to talk on the phone?
Seeing that the voice is subdued, it seems there is no need to ask.
There was no reason to refuse, since I also intended to meet her and talk about her Jia anyway.
“Okay. Today?”
-Huh… Can you come over to my house? I will send you the address
After calling her, I went straight to her address.
The address points to a high-end residential-commercial complex.
It was a famous place introduced in the media as a residence of celebrities and celebrities.
… The building is really big.
The apartment is so high that just looking up at it makes my neck ache.
Just when I was wondering what to do because the entrance was closed, a man came up to me and asked.
“What have you come for?”
“I heard that the person I was supposed to meet lives here.”
“Sorry, but I’ll check your ID.”
Hearing her words, she remembered Cha Seon-young’s words to bring her ID card, so she hurriedly took it out.
“Here you go.”
“Has confirmed.”
Instead of returning his ID, the man handed over a card he had never seen before.
You must have this card to use the door or elevator inside the apartment.
He said he would return the ID card when he returned, so he replied that he knew it and went inside.
Luxury apartments were unfriendly to common people like me.
After wandering through the maze-like streets and going through complicated security doors several times, I was able to arrive in front of Cha Seon-young’s house.
“Wow, are you here?”
After Cha Seon-young opened the door, I went inside and couldn’t help but admire.
Excessive interior space, large windows and blinds instead of walls.
There’s even this floor that goes up the stairs.
It was a visual that made you pay for each night rather than a house.
“Sit here.”
Following the recommendation, I sat down at a table in the living room.
It must be a house where people live, but it feels like being in a cafe.
… Oh, I didn’t come to see the house.
I looked at Cha Sun-young, who was sitting across from me.
It is a one-piece homewear, and unlike the comfortable outfit, it does not look comfortable at all.
For some reason, it seemed better to listen to the other person’s business first rather than mine.
“What did you call me for?”
At my question, she hesitated as she patted one side of her arm, then carefully opened her mouth.
“…I want to.”
“Yes?”
“I want to… With you.”
“Sex?”
“…”
I knew that the other person learned the taste of sex late.
Enough to admit her babe is a bitch with her mouth.
But I never dreamed that I would contact her privately and ask about her relationship.
“I don’t think it’s normal to ask her daughter’s lover to do it.”
Cha Seon-young flinched as if he had hit her head, but she did not remain silent.
“I know that it’s a no-brainer. But I can’t forget the feeling when I’m hugged by you…”
“I heard that you’re different from people who can’t deny their desires.”
“…I was wrong. I’m not someone who can insult anyone.”
My thoughts have finally been conveyed.
“I apologize for speaking carelessly to you in the meantime. For swearing at that child… So hug me one more time.”
Desperation is evident in his trembling voice and eyes.
As I stayed silent, an urgent request followed.
“If you want anything, I’ll do it for you. I can buy anything for you. So please…”
“You’ll do what you want?”
“Yeah. Just say anything.”
“Then meet Jia.”
“What…?”
It looks at me blankly as if it were an unexpected request.
However, there was only one thing I wanted from her from the beginning until now.
“I don’t mean to get close to Jia right away. Just meet her and listen to how much Jia is working hard and how much she cares for her mother.”
Previously, she said that Jia was the daughter of a beastly man, and had no intention of even having a brief conversation with her daughter.
But now my mind may have changed.
As I expected, I didn’t hear the words of rejection right away.
“…Are you serious? Is that what you want?”
“Yes.”
After hearing my answer, I asked because he was lost in thought for a long time without speaking.
“Why? Don’t you like it?”
“It’s not that I don’t like it… I didn’t know you would ask me for something like that.”
“That was all I wanted before.”
“…I see. To be honest, I didn’t know you were that serious. I thought she just wanted to enjoy playing with girls, not having a daughter as an excuse.”
“…”
“I was a beast. I was the only one who thought like an animal.”
To say that my sincerity has finally been conveyed to me, honestly, rather than being happy, I feel empty.
However, Cha Seon-young seemed to feel a greater futility than I did.
“Jiado… Am I wrong?”
“Of course. She thought that Jia was hated by her mother because she was lacking in herself. She said that she would be recognized for that, and she has been working hard.”
“…You don’t resent me?”
“Yes. If you resent it, what is the reason to work so hard?”
In her frustrated heart, she confided everything about Jia she had been watching.
The first time I was taken by the goddess together with Jia.
The fact that Jia somehow tried to keep her distance from me.
Up until now, not only studying at school, but also the fact that he has been working hard in various fields.
“The memorandum was also what Jia asked me to write. The fact that she had a relationship with a man might prevent her from being accepted by her mother.”
“… I knew, of course, that Jia would resent me. She’d never treated me kindly. I couldn’t treat her like her daughter anyway, so I thought keeping her distance would be good for her as well.”
“I bet she has no resentment. She still has a picture of her with her mom when she was little.”
Cha Seon-young’s eyes widened.
“Photo? Did I take a picture of him and her…”
“A picture of the three of her with her grandmother.”
“Well, I don’t remember…”
“Anyway, meet Jia and talk.”
“…Okay.”
She finally got the words she wanted out of her mouth.
“Really? I promise.”
“Yes. I’ll call you tomorrow and meet you. Hey, today…”
He blurts out the end of her words and sends an expectant look.
I must have liked my cock quite a bit.
Still, it didn’t look like he wanted to meet Jia because of that.
In the short time she has spoken here, she seems to have had a pretty big change of heart.
But it was no light matter for her, and she wanted to remain discreet until the end.
“I’ll talk to you again after you meet Jia. I’ll leave for today.”
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Any classroom.
Jia could hardly calm her pounding heart.
While attending her seasonal semester class, she got a call from her mother, not from anyone else.
She left her classroom for a moment and when she answered her phone, she was dumbfounded as if she had just heard the news of winning the lottery.
It had to be.
It was the first time her mother ever contacted her, she remembered, and she even offered a meal.
It was a very happy news for Jia, who had never sat across from her mother and had never had a normal meal.
‘What are we going to talk about when we meet? How am I going to dress her?’
I can’t calm down at all because of the thrill and tension.
In the end, she couldn’t pay any attention to her class that day.
—
“Whoa…”
In the private room of a restaurant, she took a deep breath like Seon-yeong, a trainee preparing for an interview.
She’s nervous because she’s never found her daughter before.
After a while the door to the room opened and the figure of her daughter appeared.
“Go, thank you.”
Jia politely greets the employee who guided her as she enters.
Seeing Seonyeong, who was already seated, she shyly greeted him.
“Oh, Mom. Long time no see.”
“Yes. Sit there.”
“Yes…”
“I just called to see if you’re doing well. If you want something to eat, order it.”
“Ah Okay.”
“…”
As soon as we finished ordering, there was silence at the table.
Seonyeong tried to pretend that nothing was wrong, but it was not easy for her to come up with what to say to her daughter whom she hadn’t seen in a long time.
“That… How are you today? Is it worth it?”
“Yeah. It’s worth it.”
“Isn’t the cost of living insufficient?”
“It’s okay. Thanks to mom.”
“I see.”
I don’t know what kind of conversation to have with her daughter.
Her daughter spoke to her mother, who was contemplating what to say, whether to say it was fortunate.
“Isn’t Mom hard at work?”
“Because it’s my job.”
“Ah… Mom, you know. I did very well in this midterm exam.
“…Well done.”
A word too short for a compliment.
Even praising her daughter was awkward for Seonyeong, who had given up her motherly role.
But as if she was happy with that awkward compliment, her Jia smiled brightly.
“Right? Hehe.”
Seonyeong thought that her smile had been embellished.
Just as the man in middle school was kind to Seon-young for the sake of her body, his daughter, Jia, is also acting calculatedly.
But maybe it was after meeting Dohyeon, she only looked so innocent now.
The appearance of a child who couldn’t hold back his laughter because he was happy just by being with his mother.
When her face made her feel complicated, Seonyeong finally remembered something to talk about with her daughter.
“Did you ever have a picture of us together…?”
“Yeah. Wait… Here.”
Without hesitation, the daughter hands over the picture that was stuck in her wallet.
A small sigh escaped Seonyeong’s mouth as she accepted the picture.
“Ah…”
‘It’s this picture.’
As soon as you see it with your own eyes, memories of the past come to mind.
The mother dragged her to the photo studio saying that there should be at least one picture of her mother and daughter.
In the end, she couldn’t break her mother’s insistence, and her young daughter and the three of them were forced to take a photo.
In it, she doesn’t even look at the camera with a dissatisfied expression on her face, and young Jia is smiling brightly, wondering what she likes so much.
“It’s a picture that’s well over ten years old… Do you still have it?”
“Yeah… This is the only picture we took together.”
For Seonyeong, that day was not particularly memorable.
It’s not worth remembering even after that, I’ve completely forgotten about it.
But how could this child be so cherished?
“…Jia.”
“Huh?”
“You don’t resent me? You kept treating me harshly.”
“Yeah. Because I think every mother has a reason. I just thought I should do better.”
“…”
Seonyeong couldn’t continue her words.
The moment she realized that the thoughts she had brought so far were nothing more than prejudice caused by her personal grudge.
Her heart broke at the sense of shame that she had done to her one and only daughter for decades.
“Mom? Why, why?”
“Jiaya…”
“Why, where does it hurt?”
“…Sorry.”
