Chapter 85 – Episode 85. I Want to Be With You.
‘Leave.’
That was last night These were the first words Ymir heard when he entered the tent where Heira was staying.
‘All the people by my side, leave.’
In a very melancholy voice.
He was usually quiet, but the words he said at that time had a particularly gloomy color.
To the point where I think it’s strange that it changed so much in just one morning.
‘… I want to be with you.’
But he also spits out words because there is such a thing as wind.
Although she did not know the details of her circumstances, Ymir did not ignore the girl’s sorrow and took the time to listen quietly.
‘Everyone, together… I want to stay together.’
Even though she has lived many times longer than herself, she vomits out a voice that seems to collapse at any moment.
‘What should I do?’
Even after more than 100 years, she has not been able to find an answer to the situation she is in…
‘To keep Dave from leaving… What am I supposed to do?’
Rather, she felt the desperation of a girl who had no choice but to be more careful in finding her answer because she had lived that long empty-handedly.
“… So, did she just come out after hearing that?”
“Don’t expect anything like consolation from me. Because it was the best I could do, at least putting on my lap pillow until I fell asleep.”
If I made a mistake and it backfired, wouldn’t it be the responsibility of not only myself but the whole party?
Above all, Ymir can’t regard Heira as just another person.
It was for that reason that she called Celica personally for consultation.
“Anyway, I’m guessing based on the story she told me, but she seems to have been mindful of her breakup with her family, with whom she used to live.”
“If you were separated from her family…”
“It means she didn’t just break up, she went away to a place where we’ll never see each other again.”
The sadness of losing such a family member has been filled by belonging to this party.
One month may be too little to attach affection to someone, but if you lack a corner of her heart, the story will be different.
Especially since his origin is far from a normal elf.
‘I didn’t think it was an ordinary elf, but I thought it was an elf raised by humans.’
She didn’t mention it herself, but it wasn’t without reason to speculate.
How to be protected by other elves for at least 200 to 500 years after an elf is born.
Even so, as an elf who has only lived for about 100 years, he has shown that he has adapted very well to human culture.
That would mean that he may not know how to adapt to society itself, but it does not mean that he has never been involved with humans in his life.
‘In short, for some reason, when he was just born, he fell away from the group and was raised by humans.’
Perhaps the grounds were burned in the fight against the demon king’s army, or it was the work of illegal slave traders.
The child who was separated from the group was raised by human hunters, lived a life as a human, and developed his skills as a hunter.
‘A short-lived species that cannot live even 100 years for those who were considered parents. No wonder the young elf can’t stand it.’
Of course, the emotions of elves are different from those of humans, but that was more a result of hundreds of years of education than a lack of racial emotion.
In the first place, the childhood elves are beings who live through the ages of eternity with everyone around them.
The young elves who mingled with them could live hundreds of years and learn to bury all the sentiments they felt during the time they passed through.
As a result, although they may have an emotionless and relaxed tendency, they will also have the mindset for the separation they will feel while living with other races.
However, Heira, who was taken over by King Dan Myeong-jong, experienced separation before she even learned such an education.
She spent time alone without learning how to endure the pain, and even buried it in her years with her own power, she came down to human society in search of new encounters.
And if you foresee that the man you chose will leave you at the end…
‘… The situation is very troublesome.’
Ymir, who had sorted out his speculations after last night, frowned and complained of frustration.
To summarize the story so far, it would mean that Heira, like Celica, is obsessed with Dave.
Two people obsessed with a guy at the same party.
The guy wants to leave for this party soon and he’s making up his mind. Is it possible for him to endure the chaos that will happen after that?
“…”
No, even if it’s Heira, it’ll end in a depressing way, so there won’t be a big accident.
What I care about is the woman standing in front of me. After hearing that Dave was leaving, she became a bomb-like girl who stood there blankly, as if something in her head had been cut off, and it wasn’t strange when it went out of control.
“… Are you okay?”
“Are you okay, what do you mean?”
Still, you answer my call right away.
In a calmer atmosphere than expected, Yumir scratched the back of her head and continued talking.
“Even Heira, Dave leaving the party.”
“… Well, that must be unavoidable. Because it was a temporary job in the first place.”
The bitter smile drawn along with him taught me that I had my words in mind from beforehand.
It is natural.
In the first place, the warrior party is the beings who have to compete directly with the Demon King’s Army at the forefront of mankind in the future.
When you start your activities in earnest, you have to get the attention of many people and become their idol.
A porter who does not have the ability to do so should not join the party in public.
Dave’s withdrawal from the party was something he’d been thinking about ever since he brought him to the party.
“Still, you’re just leaving the party, but you’re not completely saying goodbye, are you?”
Even so, I can stay calm because I don’t think his leaving the party will lead to a complete breakup.
“We’ll be busy running around, but we’ll be able to exchange letters, and since we won’t have a lot of time to rest, we’ll be able to meet in person.”
“… You little boy.”
“And after really defeating the demon lord…”
While imagining the time he would spend with him and gradually smiling, Ymir, who took him seriously, directly mentioned the part he was uneasy about.
“Do you know where that guy is from?”
“… Yes?”
“I asked if I knew where my hometown was.”
A question raised over and over again.
In some sense, I wondered if she was asking such a question, but more than that, I was more concerned about her mood.
“… No, I just know that there is a dungeon near my hometown.”
It was as if the question she was asking now pointed out something she didn’t want to pay attention to.
“Then what about family relationships?”
“…”
“Who did she learn her skills from, and who did she hang out with or hear about before she came to this party?”
“… Why are you asking that?”
It was only for a moment that the atmosphere, which had only expressed bitterness before, was disturbed.
She tried to smile to somehow disguise her composure, but there was no way that a forced smile that only lifted the corners of her mouth could calm her emotions.
“I want you to be careful.”
But it should not be overlooked.
She is a warrior, and a warrior should be a hero for everyone.
“Because he has rarely told his personal story until now. Looking at the current situation, he made up his mind after leaving the party and disappeared…”
Even if she was just a woman before being a hero, if she was blinded by her individual targeting and overlooked important parts, everything would be wrong.
“… Would you really be able to handle something like that?”
Celica clenched her fists at the question that persistently dug into that part.
However, the emotional outburst she had been prepared for to some extent did not happen.
It was a surprise to Yumir, who was controlling her mana with the thought of going wild right away.
“I am…”
After such silence, Celica opened her mouth and immediately spoke to Yumir.
If, at least once in a while, she would be honest about what she would do if something like that really happened.
***
And, by the time I finished all the tidying up of the tent.
“I, master…”
Heira carefully approached me.
Even though he hadn’t given any other instructions since last night, Heira took the initiative to approach me first and give me things.
The vibrating patch used in her training and its device. With her own hands.
“I kept it in case you need it.”
“…”
Holding the item in her hand, Heira quietly examined her complexion.
The saliva she swallows to moisten her trembling eyes and dry throat.
Even though she herself brought her things for her teaching assistant, Heira was swayed by her anxiety as she thought of what would happen from now on.
“… Didn’t you hate it?”
Didn’t she even burst into tears because she didn’t want to go through that in front of them?
In that case, it would be better for you to remain calm until I give you direct instructions.
“I don’t like it, I don’t.”
Even so, Heira said to me.
“If the master wishes, I will endure to the end.”
Without averting his gaze toward me. Looking at each other clearly.
Those pupils are trembling dangerously, but the fact that they are not avoiding it means that they have made a lot of determination.
“…Why are you doing that?”
I couldn’t understand Heira.
Just one night
What is the reason for trying to overcome the sadism towards yourself in the enchanting time that was given for just one night?
“I want to be with you.”
Heira said to me like that.
Aside from his fearful attitude, the reason for that was unstoppable.
“I just want to be with you. With you…”
“…”
“… Shouldn’t that be?”
Is it because I’m worried about not getting an answer back?
Soon she began to examine my complexion carefully, uttering her anxious voice.
“It’s just that I met you, even by chance… Is it not okay to try to be by your side with just that?”
As if I was more afraid of leaving her side than what would happen next.
That’s right, so he must have given himself even the things that made him suffer.
“Oh… !”
Realizing that, Heira shrank her body as if she was afraid to stretch out her hand.
It would have been natural since she had always been regarded as an object of abuse, but the place I touched was her head, not her body.
“… Rest for today.”
“Yes?”
“I told you to rest.”
In such a state, she realized as she stroked her hair.
No matter how many things you lose, even if you try to kill your heart.
The fact that I, too, am just one person who is weak.
