Chapter 159 – Chapter 159. Most Toxic Woman in the World
“Like a lot of people, I didn’t have a very special body when I was young.”
Like many people, when I was young, my body was nothing special.
“I was born and raised as someone’s child, but I just ran around the yard without knowing anything… A girl like that is common everywhere.”
Born and raised as someone’s child.
An ordinary boy who was taken care of without knowing anything about it.
“… Isn’t it ironic? The fact that the great wizard at the pinnacle of mankind started out as just a girl with a nose.”
Isn’t that ironic indeed?
That the person called the head of the Anti-Human Alliance who betrayed humanity started out as an immature boy.
“If you see that I have grown into such an amazing being, it must mean that the trigger and the result are not always proportional.”
Yes, the beginning of anything is always trivial.
Even if you are a member of the party of warriors who will save the world.
No matter how many people he is, even if he is a wicked person, the beginning will inevitably come from a child who is powerless and immature.
In the end, as an existence that can only be pushed by the environment.
“Would there be a choice for such a powerless child? Being pushed around by parents who dreamed of success, and fearful of being the target of attention in such a place, I have been living in isolation, avoiding others. Whether at home or at the academy…”
Even when her mother left the city out of sight and went to her country, she remained silent.
It’s only natural that I, knowing nothing, follow her mother’s words. All I could do was trust that her mother would work it out no matter what.
“When the only friend who came to me when I was so timid was found in a slum with an inferiority complex and addicted to drugs…”
When my mother, who protected me when I was so weak, was captured and raped by witch hunters.
“… I couldn’t help but watch it in silence.”
I’m just speechless
I couldn’t help but watch my mother get fucked in front of me.
“I was scared.”
Because I was scared.
“Because I didn’t know what would happen if I reached out for something that had already been done, and I was also caught up in it.”
Because I, who is so weak, did not know what would happen if I reached out there.
“So I ran away and regretted it. Then she kept not reaching out her hand to him, on and on…”
But when I tried to turn it back, everything was already over.
“… But now, there’s no way it can be reversed, right? It was after everything had already happened.”
When I came to my senses and went to find her mother, the only thing that greeted me was ashes left after everything had been burned.
“So she thought in a world where he was gone and she was left alone.”
Why did my dearest person have to suffer like that?
“Is it because I didn’t have the courage to stretch out her hand to him?”
Did my mother end up like that because I was a coward?
“… No, in a world where even I can’t stand it properly, how can I take care of that child?”
So, in the end, the problem will be in the world, he said.
I had no choice but to run away from the tragedy, and the only thing I could come up with was such a forced ending.
“Yeah, it’s comforting to think that the assailant is the whole damn world. So, I decided to just ignore everything around me.”
That’s how I made everything in the world the object of fear and sought a way to protect myself while hiding my existence behind a pretentious smile.
“Being rougher and harsher with people who approach me.”
Deceiving everyone who encountered me with a made-up smile, a cunning gray tongue, and lies.
“… Because I was the one who chose to be slowly locked up in my own world.”
Because I was the one who chose to turn into an irreversible villain.
“Your existence, who freed me from such bondage, must have touched me.”
Even knowing my ugly true self.
Even in the form of her love and hatred, she whispered her sincerity toward me, and she couldn’t bear to get her out of my heart.
“Of course, the beginning is just your personal greed, but we’ve already been tired of it, right?”
Her heart that she couldn’t shake at that time has now become her sincerity.
The woman who laid her head on my head, having reached that conclusion, immediately withdrew her hand and began to step back from her seat.
“I used to be selfish, but now I am doing my best for you and the child. A cause is just fine, but at least I have the will to do something to take care of the people around me.”
Even though I walked through a different life.
In the end, he came to the same conclusion, showing his own self infinitely similar to me.
“… It would never have happened without your malice.”
The woman who should have hated me.
She had been whispering her love for me, content with the way she had changed from that hatred.
“It was only after mixing with you that I realized that I am truly a person who knows how to love someone.”
It wasn’t until after she had a relationship with her.
Expressing sympathy for me, finally being able to give to those who love me.
“… Dave.”
At the end of her story, she called me by name and said quietly.
“People can change.”
At the end of her life she has walked.
“Even I, the kind of human scum who thought the survival of mankind was no matter what, has changed like this, right?”
Her conclusions, which she herself can attest to.
“It is true that you did wrong to that child, and he has no obligation to understand your circumstances… Still, if you truly care about the child, you shouldn’t insist on correcting the wrong. If it doesn’t come in a form that the person concerned also recognizes, it will in fact be an act of self-satisfaction.”
If you really need to atone.
Rather than being swayed by emotions and being swayed by self-reproach that the victim is ruined, you must directly prove to the person concerned that you are trying to correct the wrong.
That claim was something I could understand.
She knew that running away due to her confusion should stop for a moment, and that if she really wanted to be for Celica, she would have to face her face-to-face and convey her apology.
Haven’t you been reminded of that all along? Just because the timing was a little bit earlier, she runs away unseemly, and even from an unknown place, watching the journey and helping…
“Really, can I?”
But it’s also scary.
Just because it’s the right thing to do, because something unexpected may happen that can’t be undone.
I wouldn’t know if the damage stopped on me alone, but if it spreads to Heira, Verdia, and even to Ymir in front of me…
“… It is said that we have changed differently than before, but a few words will not change people easily.”
Ymir laughs off even such anxiety.
His attitude seemed very light, but there was a caring feeling drawn on his face as he watched me.
“Then, if you’re going to run away, can you promise me this one thing?”
“… A promise, what?”
“If you really can’t stand it and want to run away, I want you to choose my side as the place to run.”
As if to teach you that you have already accepted and adapted to the words that will follow, without being prepared for anything.
“Then I’ll bring you over and over again and let you do your thing.”
I will be with you and handle the situation that I can’t stand.
In fact, she took responsibility for me… No, there is no difference between saying that we will carry it together.
“… If that happens, you will suffer too.”
It is only my share to bear my atonement.
Isn’t it the same as increasing the number of targets for atonement if someone else is prepared to suffer damage?
“If I was afraid of being harmed, I wouldn’t even start in the first place.”
When I tried to disapprove of it, she said firmly.
“Did you forget what I said last time? I will follow you wherever you go, even to hell.”
Before even saying this.
She was already preparing for the same fate as mine.
Because she was selfish, she prepared an opportunity for herself to love someone, and she changed herself so that she could not abandon me who was suffering.
“Then prepare for one more from now on.”
So, she urged the man who had already broken his heart to have a new resolution.
“If you collapse, it’s not just you that will end.”
If I break down, so will the girl I fell in love with.
“If you collapse, I, who fell in love with you, will suffer the same fate as you.”
Responsibility, dignity, and even that atonement teach me that I am no longer alone.
Yes, that was a very harsh word for me.
At least, if you handle it alone, you may have the option of sacrificing yourself in the end, but it means that someone more important than me is also added.
“… You, Ymir.”
Even though she might hate her like that.
Her own arm was reaching out to hug her again.
“You’re really, one of the toughest girls I’ve ever met.”
In the life that I thought I was alone all the time.
I feel relieved that there is someone who will do the work that I thought only I had to do alone.
Because I felt so grateful.
“…Then, did you know how light the obsession of a woman who became an archmage at this age is?”
Ymir smiled as he quietly accepted my gratitude.
After that, they just hugged each other and waited for the time to pass.
Even though he exposed his bare skin, he didn’t share a single emotion.
Just to carve each other’s warmth into each other’s body.
***
After that time passed.
I sent Ymir away first just in case, then returned to my room and had time to gather my heart alone.
After packing the necessary things and calming down my excited mind as Ymir said.
In order to directly face what will happen later.
“Dave. We have arrived at the Demon King’s Territory.”
“… Okay.”
Later, I left her room at the call of the escort knight, Dar Khan, who came to her room. I walked down the hallway with her and asked her quietly.
“How is Celica?”
“It’s a real state right now. And as for what happened before… She told me she didn’t remember Bell very well.”
“… That’s fortunate.”
If you don’t remember, you must have forgotten the words you said to me.
Afterwards, there will be no excitement again as long as there is no needless stimulation.
“By the way, Dave-sama, what about that mask?”
“… It’s something just in case.”
Still, while preparing to hide his face and cover himself with a hood just in case, the figure of someone waiting at the exit of the fortress caught my eye.
Argentina Alencia.
The leader of the Human Union, the owner of this fortress, and the guardian of the warrior party.
“The party has already landed. I have someone waiting for me, so I’m waiting on the shore.”
Even so, the reason why I’m the only one who sees off at the end, not the party, is it because he’s hiding his identity?
“… Are you leaving too?”
Maybe it was because I was anxious after hearing the news of Celica.
“Yes, because I have work to do.”
But if you don’t stop me, it’s just fine.
As I passed by him and took my foot to the exit, he let out a chuckle and started to walk to the other side.
Contrary to me trying to get out of the fortress, I head towards the depths of this fortress.
“I think it would be better if the greeting wasn’t too long, as it could mess up your resolve.”
But the way we go right now is different, and we will meet again someday.
After returning, he is still the head of the Human Union, and if I claim to be the head of the Anti-Human Union, then surely.
“I wish you a safe return.”
“… Yes, yours too.”
That’s how I left the place where I will return someday.
Following the party with me, I prepared to set foot in the world’s most chaotic land.
“I hope you stay well until I return.”
Demon lord.
To the land of chaos where the world’s most powerful being reigned.