Chapter 111 – Episode 111. Declaration of Total Defeat
“… Shit.”
The moment when the mind that was far away was corrected.
Realizing that I had already figured out the whole situation, the first thing I did was to vent my resentment toward Ymir.
“Are you insane!? Do you know what you’ve done!?”
I even tried to use hypnosis to get him off, but he resisted with all his energy and made me ejaculate on his own body.
Now it’s really irreversible. Even if you scrape out what’s inside, even if it’s in a very weak amount, it’s because a human being can conceive a life.
“Anyway, why is the boy so timid?’
But unlike me, who vomited out my fears about her future, her face as she breathed while lying on her bed was so relieved.
“Don’t worry. Because today is a safe day.”
“…Is it safe?”
“Um, maybe…?”
“Maybe!? Maybe!?”
“I don’t know, something like that~ I didn’t even live by calculating all those things in the first place~”
To my astonishment, Yumir shakes his hand.
He could feel a tantrum rising, but in the end no shouts came out of his mouth.
“You, really… !!”
No matter what I say to this guy, it won’t work.
At the point where she was hypnotized, she held onto her neck and exerted enough mental strength to move her waist, but no matter what I did afterwards, there was no way I could change that thought.
To the point where I feel pitiful for her past, who thought that she would train her and make her her slave.
“… Decomposition?”
Ymir gently lifts up his tired body as if he is okay with such confusion.
After she turned to me, she smiled and spread her own legs, meanwhile starting to point her fingers at the cracks in her organ.
“She was a woman who was in control, and she resisted the hypnosis he gave her and committed a gearcoil?”
A white liquid pouring down.
As the liquid that filled my insides poured down, I felt that my heart was being torn apart as well.
As much as I endured it to the limit, the amount that was cheap was no joke. Damn, damn…
“What about our Dave? I forcibly raped my wives and daughters, and now I even made them have children.”
“… I had no intention of doing it this far.”
“Are you still responsible? Should I be held accountable for this?”
Ymir smiles desperately, emphasizing repeatedly as if pressuring me.
Unlike her situation, her attitude seemed immature, but her feelings toward her were closer to worry than resentment.
“If you were resentful of me, wouldn’t it be better if you killed me right away when your memories returned?”
“… What?”
A chilling atmosphere.
But I couldn’t take back what had already been said. There is no need to wrap yourself up with pretense or lies when the situation is like this.
“You did this because you resented me. To do the thing I hate the most. Then wouldn’t it be more convenient to kill without using one’s own body?”
It happened in an instant that the words spoken out in a furious heart followed. I was aware that I had committed it myself, but I didn’t bother to gloss over it.
Because already I have committed her indelible sins on her. So I was thinking that it wouldn’t be strange no matter what happened to me afterwards. It is also prepared to do so.
But that’s just something I’ll have to endure.
It was never something she had to accomplish at the cost of herself.
“If it was enough to resist my power, it would have been possible to kill me, but why… Town!”
As if she didn’t want to hear even such a lament, she kissed her while holding my face.
Without sticking her tongue out.
The act of simply sharing warmth by touching lips to lips.
“… Dave.”
After continuing such behavior for a while, Ymir faced me and asked quietly.
“Are you sorry for me?”
My lies.
It seems that he is trying to confirm whether the current self-torture really stems from a sense of guilt toward himself.
“What you want to say to me from earlier. You’re sorry right?”
“…”
“… Tell me.”
Her intense emotions from before were overshadowed, and only tranquility was pictured in her eyes as she stared at me.
She looked at me with her straight eyes, without a moment’s faltering.
Even so, I drew a bitter smile on my lips.
“… Sorry.”
How could I not say a word of apology when I saw that face?
I committed her unpardonable sins to her.
I tried to use her for my own purposes, and I couldn’t stop there, intoxicated with the power she gave me, and greedy for her beyond my means.
Aiming for more than just my revenge.
The one who had the potential to enhance her power, humiliated her, raped not only her body but also her dignity.
“Because of my greed, because I did something bad to you…”
“Fool.”
Hearing my apology, Ymir burst into laughter.
Before I knew it, her fingers went up to my lips, and my mouth was naturally blocked by the power of hers.
Isn’t it strange? There’s no such thing as very strong power, but just such a light movement made my mouth stop.
“If you did something like that, you should be shameless until the end. I don’t think you’re a complete villain either.”
No, it wasn’t that he was blocked, he just forgot to continue talking.
Because the emotions drawn in her eyes as she looked at me were reaching so clearly in my heart at this moment.
“… No matter what, you’re a guy with extremely low self-esteem. That’s why you think that a guy like you shouldn’t be loved.”
Just as the calm current turns into waves.
Even with a gentle attitude, gradually increasing the momentum.
“When you see someone loving you, you think you deserve it. With such low self-esteem, he must have constantly suspected that people who approached him had dark feelings. I don’t think anyone will come close to a guy like me with pure kindness.”
“What, talk…”
“I understand, because you look like me.”
Yes, at this moment she is projecting herself from me.
Thinking that she will never be loved by anyone, she feels pity for herself made at the end of her life, which she had only run away from.
“Yeah, we look alike. I’m used to loneliness, but it’s not like both of them were broken from the start.”
After all, I just got used to being alone.
I was afraid that that kind of familiarity would distort when I met someone, and now it has hardened without realizing it.
Now it’s so intense that I can’t even feel the pain, but the only thing that started is fear.
“But I am. I don’t think this time with you or that kid is all that bad.”
As if to show that the direction of that fear had changed, the hand holding me gradually began to gain strength.
“A little more, I started to have a wish that this time would continue. The time that the child and you are together…”
Even though I know my identity.
Even so, as if we couldn’t bear to treat the time we had together as something that hadn’t been there, with sincerity.
“Is that the same for you, Dave?”
To her who induces her empathy toward me like that, I couldn’t immediately say denial.
Yes, at the point of silence, the answer was already decided.
Because if you wanted to leave, you could have left as many times as you wanted.
“You thought so too, so when we were in danger, you risked your life and ran to us, didn’t you?”
At least, the relationship would have ended if the Galbo-nyeon took advantage of the chaos when the two were attacked and disappeared.
Even so, I chose to go to rescue them, and I chose to stay with them even after that. Even though Verdia recommended leaving the party, the postponement prepared after that was to stay together.
Even though he wouldn’t have to use them for revenge anymore.
I chose to be with them even though I would no longer have to be with them for my own self-interest.
At least I thought that I should leave after paying for what I did to them.
“Really…”
And if possible.
After that, I wanted to have a chance to be with them.
“Really, are you okay with something like me?”
As I became aware of that feeling, I felt that the rejection gradually faded away.
Even though I don’t know if my seed left in her body will bloom.
I even thought that if the world would allow it, I might be able to use it as a stigma and dream of a future.
“… I still can’t believe it. Is the feeling I have towards you love or hate?”
When I confessed my feelings anxiously, she carefully hugged my body and leaned her head on my chest.
“I, who should have hated you as I learned the truth, why am I accepting this moment with such excitement?”
Pounding, pounding.
The sound of my heart beating from my chest to her ears.
As if obsessed with the noise, her eyes slowly closed, and her hands that hugged her body gradually began to feel tenderness.
“So I will never let you go, even to find out. No, even if I found out, I won’t let you go. Whoever you are, whoever you end up with, and wherever you are going…”
Both arms gradually began to squeeze my body with such weak force.
The power felt stronger than the shackles that had previously restrained my body, and even the thought of having to shake it off finally faded away.
“Even if the place you go is hell, I will be with you until the end.”
Even if I shake her off here, she will continue to pursue me.
Even if it erases her memories and tramples her heart.
Reminding myself that I was the one who decorated the beginning of that life that would never happen again, and repeating it endlessly.
“… Yes, you have to admit what you have to admit.”
I hugged the body of such a stubborn woman as well, and brought her mouth to her ear and whispered softly to her.
I realized how insignificant I am compared to her.
“It’s my defeat, Miss Archmage.”
Furthermore, only by her side.
Realizing that I can become more special than anything else in this world.
***
And, the late night that came after such a relationship.
“Dave, I’m back.”
As I waited at the entrance of her mansion, Heira, who had returned belatedly, greeted me right away.
“Oh, hey. It’s pretty late. What about Verdia?”
“He said he had business and should go back first.”
“Did the test go well?”
“Yes, he said that the parts that need to be improved a little can be accumulated in actual battle.”
Heira nodded her head indifferently.
She wondered if an elf, who was only 100 years old, might catch her by the tail, but luckily she seemed to fit Verdia’s standards.
“I’m glad. With this, she can safely settle into the party.”
Even if I’m gone with this, Heira will be able to do well at this party. Called…
If it wasn’t for the Galbo bitch’s attack not too long ago, she might have passed with relief, but unfortunately, she can’t do that now.
Just like Ymir approached me.
I also swore to approach Heira and be with her.
“But Dave…”
If I disappear from this party in such a yard, how will this girl who expresses her concern right now face me?
“… Dave, are you really leaving the party?”
Will you just choose to stay here promising the future, or will you give up everything and follow me…
But whichever one she chooses, it must be decided according to her own will.
Her giving for me, even for her.
“I have something to discuss about that, could she spare a minute?”
Yes, what follows from now is the necessary preparation for her choice.
Today, to those who give for me, I will tell my story, which I have never told anyone.
