Chapter 77 – The Ultimatum
“Let’s talk.”
Seria always asked for a conversation if there was something she wanted or was unsatisfied with.
At first, she wondered if she was like that, but now she used to think that everything was actually meaningless.
If you want something anyway, no matter what method you use, you get what you want
It occurred to her that those words were only to build a just cause.
She thought of just ignoring it because it was a meaningless conversation, but the only thing left was time.
This time, she decided to join the conversation, wondering what kind of novelty she would sound.
“Again. Do you have any complaints?”
She didn’t say that she was going to do whatever she wanted anyway.
“Let’s talk a little serious.”
“It’s a heavy story that you’re locking me up like this now.”
I said it close to sarcasm, but she didn’t show any reaction.
She kept staring at my face.
It was different from usual.
Am I finally going to change my mind and put an end to this condition?
It was the most hopeful thought and the most desired option, but the expectation that it would come true was not so high.
If it was going to be like that now, it wouldn’t have been like that a long time ago.
There was something different.
“Let’s talk about our future.”
I thought that Seria had really come to the angle with her face, which hadn’t changed at all since a while ago.
But my opinion was only one.
I wanted to finish all of this now and have my own time.
Don’t you still have a lot of time?
The longer I stayed in this house, the more I had negative thoughts.
When you can go out
Can you go out
Is it only when I die that I can go out?
Maybe even that, I don’t know.
“If you want to talk to me, let’s solve this first and talk about it. What kind of conversation in the world is done in this state.”
She looked a little worried, but her answer was firm.
“No.”
“Really? Then I don’t think there’s anything more to say.”
“Actually, there are so many things I want to say even now. What have you been doing? Why are you doing this? In the end, what do you want…”
Maybe it was a summary of my thoughts right now.
“But you tried to end everything with the answer, ’cause I always love you?”
He wanted to talk about something serious, so he thought he should hang out with him.
“In the beginning, it was okay, but it passed.”
“No, it was always good.”
Good thing it was true.
Although it was love and happiness built on top of lies, I was happy at the time, so I didn’t even want to deny it.
To be honest, if I said even that was a lie, I would really go crazy.
“Somehow I heard something.”
“There was this and that, but in the end it came down to one thing.”
“That our love was never normal.”
“And now I couldn’t believe anything.”
It seemed like it would be a long story.
“Is this all a coincidence or inevitable…”
“Or was it fabricated?”
It was bittersweet.
If the memories are all made up.
“At that time, I just thought it was strange. When I first came to this mansion, how did he know and call me? How did he know and call me, who was just a student?”
I looked at her face once.
It seemed that the answer I wanted would not come out of that mouth anyway.
“Since this family’s name is famous anyway. I thought I just crossed over and got a recommendation. Even when the tutoring was decided, I wondered what they believed in.”
“At first, he didn’t seem very cooperative, he didn’t seem to have any motivation at all, and he thought he’d quit soon. He wasn’t making fun of people, he was just doing something.”
“Has it been since then? At some point, I worked hard and my grades went up. It seemed that people also became a little brighter.”
It was clear that the cracks had started since then.
“The things you did before I was still dating you. You didn’t try to distance yourself when I was still dating someone.”
“At that time, it was just a little difficult, so I wondered if it was because it was a long time ago that I couldn’t measure the distance well. Looking at it now, it might have been intentional.”
It was kind of floating, but there was no response.
The more he spoke, the more relieved he seemed.
“Everything has changed since then.”
“A little undeserved favor, an undeserved heart.”
“You knocked on the door of my heart constantly… And we ended up dating.
Love is not one-sided.
And now, that one-sided love was really hard.
“I didn’t know it at the time, but looking back, your words, actions, and attitude were close to obsession.”
“Did you hate that? It was good. I heard that someone loves me that much, but who wouldn’t like it?”
“But at some point, I realized too late that I had crossed a certain line.”
“I only thought you had a difficult past. Even so, you were innocent. Should I say you pretended to be innocent?”
“But it wasn’t.”
I paused.
I suddenly wanted to eat.
It was clear that he had finally gone mad.
“I don’t know. What kind of life you lived. I didn’t see it with my own eyes. I just heard what you said.”
So maybe I made that choice.
“I don’t know where the feelings you have for me right now came from…”
“All I can think of is that it’s wrong now.”
My throat is burned.
It seemed like I was talking too long.
“I was happy.”
“I was happy just sitting and studying together. Even eating together, I was happy, and I was happy when I went on a trip.”
Everything was happy
“Happiness cracks and doubt blooms.”
He sighed.
Self-deprecating feelings made me bitter.
“At some point, it was painful to think that you were hiding something from me.”
“I was angry with myself for not trusting people just because of my heart, and I was also suffering.”
“I did…”
“It was more painful that there was no explanation. Why didn’t I say no?
You may think that talking like this itself is not good, but why can’t you just say no?
Rather not. If I had just said that one word, I would have been fooled like an idiot.”
Did I speak too one-sidedly?
“Actually, I don’t know if everything I’ve been told is true. Someone could have lied to me or just told the truth.”
“I’d rather be told a lie, but I keep thinking that everything I’ve heard, my feelings, and my current situation is the truth.”
“I wondered if happiness would finally come to my life of loss.”
“It was scary that that happiness itself might be wrong somewhere.”
“A twisted, one-sided, cruel love.”
Because there was no normal way to love someone by locking them up and raping them.
“And once you’ve been through it… You know that’s never a good thing.”
My stomach felt stuffy.
Emotions were boiling.
“You know what’s more painful?”
“I don’t know if it was difficult to realize the strangeness from the beginning, but it was more painful because it was happiness that I had already tasted once.”
“If I had known this from the beginning, I would have given up sooner, because it was already too late.”
“It’s true that the situation has already permeated enough to permeate.”
“You know my past. I think you’ve looked it up by now.”
She didn’t know that only she knew, her family didn’t know, and not everyone in this house knew.
It was just a thrown word. I don’t know if you really know.
“I’d rather not know, if I didn’t know what happiness was. I think I would have lived a steady life, even though it was dark.”
“If you know that the happiness that came by chance actually started from a very twisted love.”
“What am I going to be?”
I don’t even know what emotions the last words contained.
But what I had to say was over.
“You ate my happiness for yours.”
“You’ll be fine… Your father will be fine too.”
“It would be nice to bring a prize winner who will go down in history as a member of the family.”
“Ah, that’s right. I even thought of that once. Is it true that I won the award with my own abilities?
Even at the time I received it, I liked it because it seemed like it could fill a certain inferiority complex within me… But now that I see it, it doesn’t mean much.”
By the way.
“One … I don’t know where I liked it, but it would be nice if she could be with me for the rest of my life.”
“By the way, the man is dead? The man named Edward Weiss is dead now.”
“Since you can’t go out, you can say that you are socially dead, and since your emotions have already festered and rotted, you could be dead personally.”
I had a strong feeling that I wouldn’t be able to be myself in the future.
Because they needed a prize winner son-in-law and their favorite doll, not me.
It seemed like it was time to end it.
“I think it’s the price of greed for something that was too much for me… I don’t know.”
“So.”
“Are you happy now?”
I don’t know if I’ve told you what I’ve already said, or maybe it’s the first time I’ve said it.
I didn’t even want to say anything more.
Exhausted
It wasn’t without emotion, but my words were very calm.
“Ed.”
After hearing the long words, she called me.
“Don’t call me that.”
“Still…”
It was an emotionless voice.
“Do you still love me?”
Do you love me?
Love… I did
The answer to the question was fixed at some point.
“Not anymore.”
It was the end of a love that was neither long nor short.
Certainly today, we were done.
