Chapter 13 – The Beginning of the End
Two months passed.
Miss Seria never showed the lack of enthusiasm she had shown the first few times after that.
At some point, Heina became the one I see every day.
The mind suddenly changed into a different type of emotion, and it soon became each other’s happiness.
However, as if happiness was not allowed to us from the beginning, that happiness passed by very quickly.
The day’s work
Would be happy for some
For some, it would have been despair.
Rather than explaining with additional explanations, this one word would be appropriate to explain everything.
Then, that day, after that, our relationship could never go back to the past then.
The seeds of tragedy began to germinate that day.
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Today, I had the feeling that my life was working out to the bizarre extent.
With the tutoring I am doing now, I have been able to cover my tuition to some extent, and recently my thesis preparation has been going well.
Have you been intoxicated by the relief of everyday life that goes by smoothly?
Lately, I’ve been feeling pretty optimistic about myself.
It was a life that turned out suspiciously well, but it was happiness that I found after a long time
In one corner of my heart, I decided not to attach much importance to feeling uncomfortable.
With those thoughts in mind, I was leisurely going to the meeting place.
Since seeing Heina often from a month ago, it seems that the psychological distance has become quite close.
Unless you really lack such nuanced conversations, subtle touches, and wit
It would be strange not to notice the crush.
Of course, it is very grateful and thankful that someone like Heina has a crush on someone like me, but
Thinking about what happened after the breakup gives rise to unknown anxiety.
I have a lover and no more friends, but even if the lover is gone, the friend doesn’t come back.
Each one has their own reasons for what I think or what she doesn’t say about her anymore.
Essentially thinking about it probably doesn’t make much of a difference.
Let’s arrive at the promised place in no time. I saw a person with a familiar color of hair.
It’s not comfortable clothes, but clothes that look like they’re dressed up.
The hair that fell naturally, not the hair that was simply tied up.
A piece of jewelry you wouldn’t normally wear.
She was the one who could say she was dressed up.
“I’m here?”
“Did you wait long?”
“No, I arrived a little while ago, so I waited for a while.”
“Then shall we go?”
Without anyone saying anything, I started to move my steps to the place where the festival was being held.
We didn’t say a word to each other as we went.
Normally, there wouldn’t be a problem with the words coming out.
Why is my clothes so heavy today?
Is it because I’ve seen things that were hard to see?
Or is it because today she sees her as her opposite sex instead of her friend?
If I knew you would come dressed like this, I would have cared a little more.
Things that I wouldn’t have cared about in the past have become more of a concern today.
Because it was the founding day, the streets were full of lively atmosphere.
The weather wasn’t as cold today as it was today, so I wondered if I had really used a wake-up magic for today.
“Shall we eat first?”
She even made an appointment a little before lunch, and I didn’t come out for anything, so I decided to ask her opinion.
“Instead, I didn’t go there normally today, so let’s go.”
“There’s a restaurant I’ve been to before. Shall we go there?”
“Wherever you go is fine… Instead, let’s do it for the first time.”
I thought of it right away, so I decided to walk for a while.
Since it’s the festival period, there will be temporary stalls.
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Our choice ended up being a stall.
It is a dish made by grinding wheat and making noodles with it to eat with soup.
In fact, I was more concerned about the sales lady’s words than the food.
He looked at the two of us and asked if we were lovers, but it was difficult to answer.
Seeing that, the lady said nothing more and only left four words when it was good.
After finishing the meal, which she did not know where she ate, we decided to enjoy the festival.
Together with each other, we toured outdoor performances, markets that were more crowded than usual, and places we would normally not be able to visit because we were too busy.
Is the reason why people become lovers from person to person to feel this way?
It’s a place I saw every day, a place I passed every day, but it felt very different depending on the day.
She had been seeing her for years, but she looked especially pretty today.
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Little time goes by
The two of us were sitting on a bench in a slightly flustered mood.
Could this be because of the wine I drank earlier? Or is it another reason?
It was never a bad feeling.
Heina’s expression is slightly relaxed, probably having fun.
Anyone who sees it can say how good it feels.
As someone I’ve known for about 10 years, I tend to laugh a lot at that level.
During my academy days, I never saw him smile, so I wondered if my feelings were hardened.
When you’re sitting there enjoying the atmosphere and doing nothing
She said there was one last place she wanted to go to.
“Let’s go see the fireworks.”
“Where?”
“You’re taking tutoring, but there’s a park nearby.”
Certainly there was a park near the Fellowes Mansion.
“Okay then let’s go there.”
As we went, we didn’t say anything to each other.
I’ve been walking around all day, but it’s not awkward
It was as if they had come to an agreement that they should not say anything now.
The park we arrived at was empty.
The lights and noises in the distance reminded me that today is a festival,
This place was filled with silence as if the space was isolated.
How long has it been like that
She opened her mouth as if she had made up her mind.
“Have we seen each other for quite some time?”
“Yes.”
“The first time I saw them, they were both really weird.”
Those who were not interested in academics and those who risked their lives only in academics.
Who would have known that a relationship like this would last close to 10 years?
“Then I think you talked a lot while telling me about the subject.”
“You still remember?
It was a time when I was not interested in the world.
Who would think that would come out of the mouth of a teenager?
“As a result, I graduated, went to college, and now I’m all the way to graduate school.”
When I first saw it, I was thinking of dropping out.
After all, don’t you know what people do?
“At that time, he was just a friend I thought I would see for a long time.”
“I felt strange because I couldn’t see you all of a sudden.”
“I thought you were just friends.”
Neither of us was speechless.
One for breathing, the other for not knowing how to react.
“Even if not every day, I just looked around a little bit.”
“Did I lose my preciousness because I got used to it? It was just like that for half a year after you disappeared.”
I had nothing to say. It was purely my fault for disappearing without notifying me.
“As in the past, there seems to be an issue. Is it so urgent that you can’t even tell us?
Or is it too personal to tell us? I thought so.”
“But he said he felt sad. I told him everything about me, but why didn’t you?”
“I have sadness and worries, but at some point the sadness disappeared. Why is this?
What is this feeling I’ve been thinking about it for another half a year.”
“I finally figured it out. This is love. I like a guy named Edward Weiss.
I really want to see this person.”
At some point, there was a tremor in her voice.
“By the way… I don’t even know where he went. Maybe he’s hurt? Maybe he’s in pain somewhere?
Then… Then… He died in an accident…”
She was speechless for a moment.
“I finally realized, I have the confidence to do the best in the world, but now I know what my heart is.
I feel like I’ve disappeared without even trying to do anything…”
A drop of water ran down her cheek.
“It felt like a corner of my heart had been torn…”
Drops of water became flowing water.
It was purely my fault. What is the excuse for disappearing without saying anything to someone you haven’t seen for a long time?
Even so, it was just an excuse. It wasn’t my part to accept.
I didn’t say anything, but somehow I felt like I should hug him.
The quiet park was filled only with the sound of someone crying.
After a while, he calmed down and started talking again.
“You said that when you met again after years at a bar a few months ago, you looked at the dead as if they had come back alive.”
“Isn’t that absolutely wrong?”
“Sorry.”
“There were so many things I wanted to say, but they didn’t come out as if they were blocked. In the end, I spoke again like the old days.”
Was it only me who didn’t change?
Almost 10 years have passed, but thinking that it will always be like that time
If it’s inconsiderate, it will be inconsequential.
Fireworks began with a roar.
She heard it and began to tidy up her hair and clothes as if this was what she was going to say after all.
Pop
“I like you.”
Pop
“I didn’t know at first, but now I think I do.”
Pop
“Will you go out with me?”
It was a loud fireworks display, but I couldn’t hear her or anything like that.
Rather, only her voice was heard.
Her hair was still a bit tousled and her makeup smeared with tears, but that didn’t matter.
Because now she looked more lovable than anyone else in the world.
“Yes.”
The taste on the lips was very sweet.
Tonight seemed a bit long
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The park where Edward Weiss and Heina Thorlern were checking their minds.
The two of them would have thought it was only the two of them there, but in fact, they wouldn’t have cared if anyone was there.
There was one more person in the park.
