The Dark Academy Who Hated Her Juniors to Death 39

Chapter 39 – I Hate You to Death

Miss you.
I want to see my junior.

After thinking about it once, I, who can only think of one thing because of my bad brain, can only think of juniors in my head.

From that brilliant blond hair and green eyes, to that handsome face,

The sharp impression loosens up and laughs too much,
Holding warm hands,
That big thing stroking my head,
Kneeling and looking up at him,
To say that I’m pretty

My head was completely filled with thoughts of my juniors, just like a broken film that keeps showing the same scene over and over again.

What I hate is what I hate, what I hate to death is what I hate,
Because the feelings I want to see are different.

Therefore,
Smile quickly Give me a compliment. Hold my hand stroke your hair Look down, say it’s pretty…

I couldn’t contain my whining like a child, so I hurried my steps home.

After leaving the magic science professor’s lab, I found a straight path to my home, and I didn’t care whether there were many or few people in the meeting square, and with only the image of my juniors engraved in my head, I headed home like that.

Maybe halfway through?
Near the end of my field of vision, I felt that radiant blond hair was flying.

That color is something that only juniors can have, it shouldn’t have, so it was juniors.

I was a junior.

“Oh…”

I couldn’t hide my gladness, so I almost ran and tried to approach him.

But right after that, I had no choice but to come to a squeamish stop, like a fast-moving car suddenly braking.

Why why. It’s wearing a girl.
Why?

It gave off an air of maturity that was too mature to simply call it a girl.

Excuse… I know that, but her eyes have automatically sent information through her whole body.

The first one was a well-groomed body like a lioness.
First of all, he was tall and his legs were so long that he gave the impression of a model.

The blue pants that clung to her without any gaps, as if she were proud of her legs, and the bobbed hair that fell like a knife over her shoulder as if it had been cut straight, contributed to creating such an impression.

Her face is also very, very pretty.
She gave the impression that she looked a bit daunted, but she was rather a woman that suited her better.

Her style and dress are very good, and the accessories she wears, from necklaces to rings to handbags, are absurdly flashy and look tacky, but I digested it naturally as if it was nothing special.

And the color of her hair,
Brilliant blond hair like that, something that only juniors can have.
I was in shock.

The last time I looked at my juniors in front of me, confidently looking at me without hesitation at all, I was completely overcome with a sense of defeat.

Such a perfect woman
I intuitively felt that if I didn’t like any man, I wouldn’t be able to give up.

Moreover, decisively
The eyes that looked at the juniors were full of affection.

More crucially,
More crucial than that,
The way her juniors looked at her was also not very different.

“…”

Cooong.

It felt as if a large stone had fallen into my heart and crushed my whole body.

I hurriedly hid nearby, watching the two of them.

Why, why are you so fussy? You’re too close.
Juniors, you, have to be removed.

Why why? It’s a rumor, but so far no one has accepted it.

Is it the first, the first? Why? Why now? Now that I miss you a little bit, a little bit a lot, why are you showing me this?

“…”

Bubbling, bubbling, something was boiling inside.

I follow them as they head toward the house,
I kept stepping on him like a stalker.

“So, what happened?”
“Our Ian. I came to see if your academy life is doing well.”
“Your sister is doing well.”
“Are you already doing well?”
“Stop flirting with the girls.”
“Oh my, he is too. It will be a big trouble if anyone hears it.”
“Puha. You don’t care about anyone but your parents?”
“These parents are scary. Yumma.”

Month after month.
My body trembled so strongly that it started before I knew it,
The story of the two has not been heard well.

All I can feel is the strange air currents the two radiate to each other.
Why is there such a friendly and fuzzy atmosphere floating around?
Now I can’t pretend I don’t know, there was only one reason.

Yes, you are dating.
If not, at least you’re flirting.

I bit my thumb to calm my anxiety.

At first, I was obviously just biting the tip of my fingernail,
When I came to my senses, I was harassing my thumb so strongly that I could hear a cracking sound.

You shouldn’t be laughing like that
You shouldn’t be treated so kindly.
You shouldn’t be close enough to bump your body like that.
All of that, you have to do only for me. It’s mine Why why…

The desire to see the juniors evaporated in an instant,
Something unknown was filling the empty space.

Emotions soared in an instant as if breaking through the ceiling, far into the sky,
Emotions soared from a certain moment,
Just as an overflowed number turns negative out of nowhere,

In an instant, I sank, regained my sanity, and began to think extremely objectively.

Actually, is it natural?
It’s so pretty.
If I became a hundred times prettier, I wouldn’t be able to compete with her.

“…”

No, because I’m not pretty at all, because I’m an unattractive girl who’s not at all like that, so no matter how many times I multiply 0, it’s just 0, uh, it’s like that. As I thought, I felt my chest tingle.

Playing with each other is a term that is usually used with a bad connotation, but in this case it was different.
The junior and that girl really got along very well, and just having a conversation with the two of them standing there created a picture-like scene.

How I feel watching it
It felt like someone had put a hand inside my chest, grabbed my heart, and manipulated it my way.

And that,
It’s something I’ve always felt all my life.

Mainly, when I judged that something I wanted did not suit me, when my value was trampled on by others or by myself, the pride that was left in the form screamed evil and harassed me.

In the case of me who is badly broken somewhere,
Feeling some of that self-destructive suffering as a pleasure, and living life, I became addicted to it,
Whenever I felt like this, I would fantasize even more about things that didn’t even exist, hurt myself, and enjoy the feeling of my heart tightening.

Now, as much as now, I couldn’t do that.

It’s a grandiose delusion, and there’s nothing to do but sleep.
All I can see right now is just that, it’s over.

I don’t know if I’m an extremely rational person, or if I’m just weak-willed,
It was surprisingly quick to give up.

It’s clear to distinguish between what you shouldn’t have and what you can have. I have my own pride,
I wiped my thumb, which had been bitten so hard that bright red blood was oozing out, on the edge of my clothes.
I avoided the seat for the last time to see just that far.

I turned around right away, away from them just enough to be out of sight,
The way home in a straight line would have to pass through them, so I went round and round as much as I could to go home.

I want to call someone and have a drink, but there is no one to drink with.

Ah. I want to take medicine grunt It’s the worst. I want to feel better. If I don’t feel better right away, I’m going to get annoyed and do something.

“…”

But, because you can’t do it.
Because I promised not to.
I hate you to death because I promised

No, actually, it wouldn’t matter if I just broke a promise, but if I did, that disgusting bastard would take back the gift I received for the first time in my life.
That’s because it’s precious, and that’s why I absolutely hate it. That’s why I’m patient…

I ignored the screams of parts of my organs that had already been torn to shreds, and hurried my steps back home.

And when I arrived home after a long round trip,
The junior hadn’t come back yet.

I shuddered at the chilly air inside the house, and my body shuddered so much that I went into my room and covered myself with a blanket without even thinking about washing.

My head thumped and rang, my body went cold, and I was limp as if I had some serious disease, so I was dazed.

I hate you to death, to death
I hated my junior to death, thinking only of that hateful feeling, thinking over and over again, thinking back to my first mindset like that.
My heart ached, I felt unfair and annoyed, so I burst into tears as if my tear ducts were broken.

“Heh, hehe, heuh…”

I was so miserable for no reason,
I cried so much that my pillow was all wet and my face was a mess.

Ah, chest, tingling, feeling good…

I feel good, but I keep thinking about my juniors, I hate it, I hate it, I like it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Because it Because juniors are such shiny, shining, and proud people, so, you, you, will bring you down. Will make you like me Hey, I will definitely make you regret it. You who meddled with me that day, you who let me into the house obediently, you who foolishly treated me well, and all of your actions that called me pretty will make me regret to death.

I trembled all over my body at the intense pleasure that ran up my back.
I couldn’t stand the feeling of the whitening of my eyes, so I let out a lot of sounds out of my throat.
Soon after, I felt my eyes go blank,

I just fell asleep.