Chapter 86 – Chapter 86
After that, Eun-sam harassed me for three more days before returning.
Perhaps he had researched ways to make people suffer, and when he got used to the way he spoke, he started reading novels, and when he forgot novels, he brought up another story and shook my mind.
Do-gyun wanted to tell me to stop going in several times, but she didn’t have the courage to say such a thing to her, who was so excited while talking with me, so she overcame him by suppressing the words that were about to come out into her. .
The thought of having to open her eyes and deal with her every day made her sigh deeply, and her blood pressure rose.
That’s why the return of Eun-seol was all the more welcome.
Do-gyun came out early in the morning and went into her hospital room, saw her sitting on her bed reading her book and opened her mouth.
“Mr. Eunseol?”
“Uh.”
Low-pitched tone. Eyes thick with fatigue.
Confirming that her Eun-seol had returned, Do-gyun felt a bright smile appear on her lips and approached her.
“You’ve been in for a while this time.”
When I said that with resentment about why she had been away for so long, she moved her gaze from her book to me and answered it.
“He said he wanted to do some overdue manuscripts.”
A tone that is uttered indiscriminately.
Startle.
Do-gyun shuddered as he felt the novel he had been erasing resurfaced in his head.
“Ah…”
I wished she hadn’t mentioned it, but Do-kyun, who recalled Eun-sam’s novel once again at her thoughtless remark, ended his words with a dark complexion.
“…I see.”
“…Yes.”
The answer to do it in the middle of the day.
Then, silence began to fill the space.
As Do-kyun examines her in her mood, she shifts her gaze back to her book and sees her as she reads it with an embarrassed expression on her face.
As he glared at her, narrowing her eyes at her unusual expression, she noticed her digging her head even deeper.
No matter how you look at it, it looks suspicious.
While pondering why he was doing that, Do-gyun felt a sudden realization pass through his head.
‘I knew it!’
She knew about the content of Eun-sam’s novel.
The feeling that followed was a sense of betrayal.
Do-kyun, who felt a tingle in the back of her head welling up deep in her heart, narrowed her eyes even more and spit out her question at her.
“…Did you know?”
I didn’t mention anything about ‘what?’ I couldn’t bear to say it because I thought the contents would pop into my head just by saying the title. Plus, she didn’t even have to say it because she would understand.
Just as Do-gyun thought, she was taken aback by the question she was being asked and trembled, letting the trembling spill over her face.
She didn’t open her mouth. However, the answer came from her actions.
The head digs deeper into the book. Her shoulders narrow slightly. The fingertips holding the book trembled and increased their strength.
Sure
Even after seeing the contents of Ko Eun-sam’s novel, she acquiesced to the fact to me.
Do-gyun felt resentment welling up at him.
‘Someone I know…!’
Did someone who knows what kind of novel it was leave me alone? Wasn’t it possible to give it a little bit? If Eun-sam recommends that I read a novel, can I at least tell me to decline it? As I glared at her with that kind of heart, she narrowed her eyes and let out her words in a stern tone.
“What.”
Flinch.
Do-gyun felt her body shrink as she looked at me intimidatingly, and turned her words away while avoiding her gaze.
“Oh, no…”
It was unfair. It was also disappointing.
He didn’t understand why he had to suffer like this. Moisture rose to the corners of my eyes.
I wanted to shoot at her injustice, but I couldn’t show her rebellion against her because of her fear engraved on her body.
Suddenly, the person who planted the fear of those eyes in Do-gyun’s mind came to mind.
‘Sung Geun-tae…!’
If it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t have shrunk so much. I wouldn’t have been scared by those eyes.
Do-gyun, who couldn’t bear to rebel against her, let go of her resentment by recalling her childhood when she wasn’t even here.
For a long time, she let out a deep sigh and opened her mouth.
“I couldn’t help it. Writing novels is the only stigma.”
At her words, the question of ‘Then how about communication?’ Crossed my mind, but soon she nodded.
As Eun-seol said, when writing the novel, Eun-sam had the most happy-looking face ever.
He twitched the corners of his mouth as if it would catch on his ears and stared at the screen with sparkling eyes. As if I was going to die of joy at that moment, as if I was going to die of fun writing, I wrote like that.
What’s surprising is that when writing, Eun-sam doesn’t really utter a single word. When a human who seems to be the farthest from the word concentration is writing, he demonstrates concentration to the extent that he does not even notice a fly flying in front of his eyes. It was then that Do-gyun knew for the first time that she was a human being who could keep her mouth shut.
Looking at him, I had a question.
“Is Ko Eun-sam a character born from novels?”
Eun-ah has been reading all kinds of books since she was very young. This was a fact that she could know through the books in the study and her diary found there.
Plus, it was her mother who made her read the book. She was a human being who had her personality ripped apart.
These are limited clues, but if we substitute Eun-sam’s behavior for them, we can infer that the reason she was created is related to her novel.
Questions to organize your thoughts.
To the question I asked to be sure of my reasoning, she answered with a small nod of her head.
“Yes.”
A cool answer.
Do-gyun felt that the new information entering his head awakened the old information all at once.
Thoughts expanded, inserting new information on top of existing information. The information that had been stored in a corner of my head began to form a set with a series of regularities. Subsequently, the pieces of information began to take their place by fitting different shapes together.
A puzzle that gradually takes shape.
However, this was not enough. The filled part was a small amount, less than half of the whole.
More information was needed, more central information to put the disjointed pieces together.
Do-gyun raised her head and looked at her.
She had to ask
The moment when Do-gyun, who remembered that thought, was about to ask a question.
Seruk-.
The soft sound of turning pages filled the silent hospital room.
Turning over the book and concentrating all the nerves there.
She wasn’t paying any attention to me.
Dokyun knew what that meant.
It is the will of refusal. She wasn’t allowing me to ask questions.
In an instant, Do-gyun felt stuffiness welling up inside him.
She did not give more than enough answers to questions about her different personalities.
I didn’t know what the reason was.
At first, I thought it was to use me, but now that I think about it, it was an unreliable hypothesis. If she was hiding the truth to take advantage of me, she wouldn’t have shown me the slightest emotion.
I wouldn’t have shown consideration for other personalities, nor would I have been subtly considerate of myself.
Of course, you could say that it was all her acting to catch me off guard, but Do-gyun thought it was not even funny. The emotions that filled her truth, the warmth she had ever shown, were of a kind that could never be imitated by acting.
Despite holding on to that cold windy attitude, she was always a warm person. She was infinitely gracious in giving, and infinitely tolerant of mistakes.
What I can say for sure now is that she is absolutely not against me. She said that her feelings for me were, if I had to insist.
So she couldn’t figure out why she was hiding information about the other personalities.
I don’t know what makes her silent.
When I looked at her with a frown on her expression in her frustrated heart, she glanced at me and spat out her words as if she were chanting lowly.
“…You don’t have to know yet.”
Yet.
It was an answer that seemed to see through my thoughts.
Do-gyun took a short breath and asked a question.
“When are you going to tell me?”
“When you are ready.”
What came back was, after all, an ambiguous answer.
After that, he focused on the book again.
Do-kyun nodded his head after reading the intention of resolute refusal in it.
She shut her mouth, feeling that if he told him anything more, she wouldn’t let him know.
As before, what followed was silence.
*
When I returned home, it was after the sky was covered with black light.
Do-gyun opened the front door and stepped inside, exhaling a deep breath. Was he just talking out of nowhere? The energy that had been hovering around the hospital room all day had choked his breath.
‘Still.’
Do-gyun took out his hand, which he had been putting in his pocket until the day before yesterday, and looked at his palm. On top of his hand was a key with a round handle that stood out.
‘I took it.’
It was the key to the workshop.
She always had it on her body, so she couldn’t even think of taking it out, but she took it out today, prepared to be found out.
Perhaps by now she would have noticed that I had stolen the key. You can question me about this tomorrow, or you can reprimand me.
However, even so, he could not give up this key.
I’ve been watching the situation and steadily gathering clues, but now I’ve reached my limit.
The clues I gathered were side branches no matter how hard I tried. More fundamentally, I needed a clue that would serve as a pillar for all the clues.
In order to get to know him, I decided to open the door to his studio after much thought and thought.
At least, there must be something there, as all the personalities use their energy and hide it.
Remembered the past
He himself has never achieved meaningful results against Ko Eun-chae. Even before and after knowing that she was her Eun-Ah’s alternate personality, she was always defeated by her.
Eun-seol said that he was doing well, but it had clear consolation.
He couldn’t stand doing anything in anticipation of those comforting words.
In addition, it was the same with Eun-ah and other personalities. I was always quick to respond because I didn’t know.
Because she didn’t fully know Eun-ah, she didn’t know how to make her happy on her own.
I didn’t know what kind of personality Eun-ji was, so I made her hide and cry alone.
Because she didn’t know what kind of personality Eun-sam was, she couldn’t properly deal with her actions.
He still couldn’t fully understand her because he didn’t know what kind of personality Eun-seol was.
It was an accident caused by my ignorance that she was doing her hospital life.
While walking, continuing his thoughts, Do-gyun arrived in front of the studio and stared at the closed door.
Opening this door will reveal more about her. Maybe I can find out what Eun-seol is hiding from me.
She said she wasn’t ready.
She might not.
With her candor, it would be a lie if she said that impatience did not work in her will to open the door now.
Today’s work was fueled by impatience stemming from not being able to achieve any significant results, and pathetic feelings towards herself for ignoring the door in front of her.
As she began her hospitalization, she had the opportunity to open this door to me, but she herself turned away from it. It was because of fear. It was the fault of fear.
The fear of the unknown, whether there would be a truth I couldn’t handle, became an unpeeled skin and imprisoned me.
Over the skin that covered me, I made up excuses such as ‘It’s a door that can’t be opened’, ‘I can’t help it’, ‘She must have an idea’, wrapped her around him like a very stylish coat, and averted her eyes from this door. Turned
However, no matter how nicely dressed, a fault was only a fault in the end. It was a remnant of the past that had to be thrown away in order to move forward.
In order to approach the truth, I had to shed the skin that covered me.
If you hide behind her back and do nothing like this, there will come a moment when you won’t be able to forgive yourself.
It was an absurd intuition with not even a speck of evidence, but Do-kyun couldn’t ignore that intuition.
I caught my breath again.
A slight tremor came from his fingertips.
Do-kyun realized he was nervous.
“Whoa…”
After taking a long breath, Do-kyun calmed down his hand again and inserted the key in his hand into the door.
