Chapter 398 – I’ll Allow You to Hurt Me (3)
I want to help you who are suffering like me.
Just like my friends did, I also want to be a good friend to you.
‘The reason my brother helped me was in the end…….’
Ordinary people, those with a little bit of wit, will easily understand another true meaning mixed in the words.
However, the current Eun-yul was not ‘normal’.
‘Finally… !’
Dependence on Seo Joo-hwan.
I suffered from various mental illnesses for half a year.
Crucially, what was added to it was the amount of alcohol that was not enough to be called alcohol trash.
It was somewhat unreasonable to call Eunyul’s thought circuit ‘normal’.
‘Finally… It was because you liked me! My brother also me…!’
It is an absurd delusion and obsession in the eyes of a third person, alcohol… In any case, it came from far from normal, but she had her own grounds her.
Misunderstanding, shunning, and criticism received from people.
As a result, various mental illnesses, including panic disorder and social phobia.
The first meeting of these two by chance.
A seizure that subsides just by being next to it.
Coincidentally, a man who likes the self-composed song he wrote alone a few years ago.
‘It’s destiny.’
It was enough and overflowing to make Eun-yul feel her destiny.
“Black.”
Heartbreaking tears flowed.
“Brother, I like you.”
So he confessed
Thanks to the spirit of alcohol that has risen from just one can of beer.
*
A quiet silence flowed in the living room of Seo Ju-hwan’s house.
It was Lucy’s one word that broke the silence.
[They said that the emotional ups and downs of mentally ill people are unpredictable, so it’s true.]
“… I will turn.”
Seo Joo-hwan put his head on the table and looked at the fallen Eun-yul. She had just been preaching her fatalism and had just collapsed.
‘Brother, I like you.’
A sudden confession of Eun-yul.
Seo Joo-hwan, who recalled him, brushed his hair with a weary expression and spat it out again.
“I’m really going to turn.”
I clearly drew a line, but why did the favorability rate rise and confessions pop out? There’s even an absurd theory of fate. I never expected that Eunyul would be a believer in pseudoscience who believes in fate and divination.
‘Think about it. My brother and I have a clear destiny. I happened to live next door to his brother’s brother his. And coincidentally, the oppa I met on the day I left the house after months of absence.’
Seo Joo-hee came to live next door to Eun-yul because he recommended the room he lived in before returning. A coincidence that I met the day I left the house after several months? It was also because of the ‘blessing of the dream demon’, not fate.
‘There is another one. Even when I am next to you, my body and mind feel at ease. He’s more dramatic than when he was drugged.’
That’s the effect of the ‘pheromone’ and ‘hands of stability’ obtained through the system.
‘It’s the same with every step of my self-composed song. I heard that my song, which has only a few hits, is oppa’s favorite song? Is all this really a coincidence? No! The fate is clear!’
Originally, he found out about ‘one step’ not at this point, but when it had already reached #1 on the music charts before returning. At that point, he was rarer than anyone who didn’t know ‘one step’.
In conclusion, everything was just an illusion of Eun-yul, not fate.
[But I can’t explain that.]
‘Of course.’
You can’t say that it’s a regression or a system. It’s good that you don’t look like a crazy person if you say that. No, it doesn’t matter because Eun-yul is already crazy?
Seo Joo-hwan let out a self-deprecating laugh.
‘To meet a former lunatic and a current lunatic is fucking fate.’
[It’s a match made in heaven.]
Why are you so nasty today?
Seo Ju-hwan frowned and said to himself.
‘I’m sorry, Lucy. Don’t make weird jokes.’
[I was serious, but…….]
‘Then it’s more of a problem.’
[But Eun-yul still said he liked her owner after hearing that she had a girlfriend, right? She just wants me to stay by her side of her.]
‘… That’s why it’s more and more of a problem.’
Eun-yul. The woman who lived next door to her before returning. She is a future music chart-topping singer. A woman who is overly dependent on him. She is a retired former idol. She is a mentally ill person who has been hurt by misunderstandings and accusations.
Seo Joo-hwan looked at Eun-yul with her pitiful eyes. She was still whimpering in her sleep as she collapsed from exhaustion from crying drunkenly.
‘Yul, I’m not such a good person. There are people I’m dating. I’m sorry.’
She didn’t say that she was dating multiple women. However, she confided to Eun-yul, who preached the theory of fate, that she was dating someone in order to firmly reject him.
But her answer was truly spectacle.
It was only for a moment that I felt apologetic and regretful at the shocked expression. She said while crying.
‘Can’t I? Break up, I won’t. I just want to be by your brother’s side… Brother, you love me too. I like the second one too. Jealousy, I won’t. Even from the person I’m dating, I’ll never, ever, keep it a secret…….’
Who could have known that this naive-looking woman would make the second offer first? Seo Joo-hwan felt sorry for him and worried before he was embarrassed. She thought that her dependency her had grown out of control without her knowledge her.
[So you rejected even that.]
“Then what? To be honest, on the other hand, I wonder what kind of rice cake it is… People shouldn’t do that.”
She is none other than Eun-yul suffering from mental illness. There’s no way that she’s saying something that’s not normal, but I can’t accept that she’s right. At the moment of dating, it is obvious that the severe dependence will intensify.
‘Shit. Lucy, weren’t there any symptoms of addiction to pheromones and the comforting touch?’
[I’ve said it several times, but there are no addictive substances such as cigarettes and drugs in this skill.]
‘But why is dependence so….’
[There is no poisonous substance, but it has a beneficial effect on Eun-yul. It’s similar to wanting to drink water when you’re thirsty. They know instinctively that their master needs them. Since he was mentally weak, he must have felt the presence of the master even more.]
‘…….’
[As I think, even if it wasn’t for the skill, Eun-yul would have come to depend on the owner with a high probability. To Eun-yul, Master is like a sudden light. So she doesn’t have to blame herself.]
Is it consolation or simply telling the truth?
[It’s both.]
‘Stop reading your thoughts, Lucy.’
[If the master doesn’t like it, I can’t read it…….]
‘Anyway, I don’t lose a word. Like a cheeky helper.’
[Mmm. Can Lucy say a few more presumptuous words now that she’s being cheeky?]
If you can’t do it, won’t you?
[I will. I’m saying this because I think it will be helpful to the owner.]
‘Then Lucy, do whatever you want.’
[Whoops. The owner who listens to the helper’s advice must have a great personality.]
‘A dog passing by is making noises like peeing and peeing.’
[As expected, flattery was too harsh, right? I will research more.]
‘…….’
No matter how you look at it, it was clear that Lucy had already awakened all her emotions in her. That’s especially more towards making fun of people. If you think about it like this, you’ll say ‘because I resemble my master’. Now that I know it, I hope I can give you some helpful advice quickly instead of saying useless things.
Lucy, who had read her thoughts of her, cleared her throat and said.
[Hmm. First of all, please listen to me to the end.]
‘Okay.’
[First of all, I think the owner’s worries are too much. Again, Eun-yul’s mental illness is not the owner’s fault.]
‘…….’
But I wouldn’t say it’s completely unrelated. No matter how much I think about the main cause of the dependence, there was nothing else.
Lucy seemed to know.
[Of course, it must have had an impact on the dependence. However, other symptoms have definitely improved, right? Panic disorder is almost gone, and mutism is not noticeable unless there is excessive tension. The same goes for phobia. Although there are still only a handful of them, Eunyul is now able to get along with people other than Master.]
‘That’s right. I know. The problem is…….’
[The first problem is the relationship with the master. If that relationship goes wrong, in all likelihood, the mentality that has been recovered with difficulty will collapse. Is it because she was originally mentally weak, or because she suffered from a mental illness for several months, Eunyul’s mentality is very weak. Maybe it’s both, but that’s not important, so let’s move on.]
‘Okay.’
[The second problem is the ‘dependency’ that I kept talking about. In order to solve the first problem, the owner needs to establish an amicable relationship with Eun-yul. But that intensifies the second problem. Eun-yul already loves her master her, and if she accepts that, her dependence her will become serious.]
Lucy pointed out the problem, point by point, as if she knew what he was thinking.
[Going to a psychiatrist won’t help much. Her several visits have proven that Kim Hee-yoon is a competent doctor, but she can’t tell her every problem. In order to properly explain it, you have to explain the system and regression, which you won’t believe even if you tell it, but that’s nonsense.]
That’s what it says. Kim Hee-yoon is a skilled doctor, but she would have to know the cause and course of her symptoms in order to make a proper diagnosis. But that’s impossible.
Lucy continued in a soft voice.
[Okay, let’s go back to the second problem here.]
‘?’
[Why was the second problem, dependence, a problem in the first place?]
‘What are you talking about? Dependence is definitely a problem.’
[So, why is that?]
‘… Can’t I always be by your side?’
[Why is that again? Can we date each other?]
‘Why are you suddenly so frustrated? That’s right, Yul and I can’t go out together!’
[Then why can’t we date? Master has feelings for that woman too, doesn’t he?]
‘There’s no way Yul who is mentally weak can accept such a relationship… !’
[Did Eunyul claim to be the second?]
‘?!’
Seo Joo-hwan opened his eyes wide and looked at Eun-yul lying on the table. She had apparently told him that she did n’t mind having a girl, so she just wanted her to stay by her side of her.
Lucy let out a laugh.
[Then, the second problem, dependence, is okay? She just needs to accept her heart her. Oh my gosh, then wouldn’t that solve the first problem too? In the first place, the solution to the first problem was an amicable relationship between Master and Eun-yul. That amicable relationship is in the form of a lover.]
Lucy, are you a genius?
Seo Joo-hwan almost said that, but quickly came to his senses.
‘Oh, no, this is not it. Wait a minute. It’s easier said than done. He told Yul that he was dating someone, but he didn’t say it was multiple.’
[It doesn’t matter, does it? If it were her, she would probably ask to be accepted as one of them.]
‘… Can I really get rid of my dependence this way? No, it’s not a solution in the first place. I just want to carry it with me for the rest of my life.’
[It will be okay if the master does not abandon Eun-yul.]
‘…….’
That’s right.
But, but… Is this kind of solution really good for Eun-yul? Is there any better solution?
“…….”
Seo Joo-hwan looked at Eun-yul, who was sleeping, for a long time and chewed his lips. Soon after, he picked up Eun-yul and carried her to the bed and called someone.
Lucy laughed inaudibly as she saw Seo Joo-hwan.
[Anyway, my master is subtly soft, calling himself trash like that. I want you to take the easy way.]
Well, Lucy likes a master like that.
