Chapter 157 – Untidy Mind and Mind (3)
Under the dim moonlight, white smoke spreads.
The smoke that spread thickly, like someone’s heart, was confused and confused.
Jeong Ha-yeon took another sip and sucked in the smoke with a disturbed heart. The smoke soon dissipated again with a self-deprecating laugh. She was thinking of the time when she was at Seo Ju-hwan’s house a while ago.
A smartphone that made a vibrating sound while saying “Giying”.
Seo Joo-hwan answered the phone with a happy face despite the sudden contact. A bright smile appeared on his face. It was the first time I had ever seen him smile like a child. Feeling different from the smile she had seen when dating, she inadvertently checked the woman on the screen.
A woman with short hair in a military uniform.
At first glance, the woman was a beauty. Even though she didn’t look very decorated. Are you a year or two older than yourself? From Seo Joo-hwan’s title of ‘sister’, I could tell that she was older. She felt relaxed from her expression and tone of her, and the way she treated him showed that they were very close.
Jeong Ha-yeon looked at him for a moment, then turned her head away.
‘There might be someone close to me that I don’t know.’
And no matter how close the two were, it didn’t matter to him. In reality, Jeong Ha-yeon didn’t pay much attention and immediately took her eyes off her. It’s a novel that I’ve been reading a lot lately, or I’m thinking about reading it.
– Oh, are you dating again?
But when the story of herself came out, she had no choice but to listen to her against her will her.
I could clearly hear Seo Joo-hwan’s voice her saying, “We’re doing well as friends.”
‘Friend.’
As the saying goes, Jeong Ha-yeon and Seo Joo-hwan were friends. They may have been dating before, but now they are friends. There was an awkward atmosphere for a while, but even that was brushed off by talking about each other’s past. And in the end, they became friends who could open up to their deep feelings.
Jeong Ha-yeon really liked that relationship. It may not be a normal friendship to mix bodies even after breaking up, but maybe that’s why it’s a special friend who knows each other more deeply than anyone else.
It was in the same context that I asked Seo Joo-hwan, who came after the call. I was just asking because I was curious about the relationship of a close friend. Since she was not selfish, she asked in a normal voice as if nothing had happened.
‘Looks like they were very close.’
‘It must have been a woman.’
It was an insignificant question.
I just asked out of simple curiosity.
I thought so.
‘I’m a bit ugly.’
Jeong Ha-yeon smiled rejectedly.
It was obviously a non-trivial question in a womanly voice, as usual.
However, even such a question has a different meaning if emotions are mixed. The emotions that I had been suppressing down there leaked out very little.
How did those emotionally mixed words sound to Seo Ju-hwan?
It was when Jeong Ha-yeon realized her own mistake when she saw his expression her, which was slightly troubled.
‘Not selfish.’
She believed that she did not contain any emotions, but now, thinking about it soberly, she could not deny that the feeling of ‘jealousy’ permeated her.
‘I still like Joo-hwan.’
Jeong Ha-yeon was fully aware of her own heart. In fact, she still wanted to go home and hug him right away. ‘I will do it when I want to. Because you did as I please.’She said something the other day, so he will simply allow her arms her.
But I couldn’t.
‘If I do it with the same mindset as now, I’ll like Joo-hwan more.’
So, once again, I pressed my heart into it. I made it smaller by squeezing the emotions that were about to bounce like rubber balls.
‘Don’t show off.’
Don’t be jealous
Because we are friends, not lovers anymore.
… Because she wants to be friends
*
How could I not love him? It became a matter of course for Jeong Ha-yeon to like him.
My initial interest in him was simply as a friend. Aside from Lee Seok-chan, he was the first member of the opposite sex, and a comfortable friend who didn’t need to be shy.
I became interested in that friend because of an incident that happened one day while watching a movie in his room. He wrote and joked, then misplaced his hands and collapsed on top of him. She immediately apologized and tried to get up, but for some reason he didn’t let go of her and hugged her tightly. In such a strange atmosphere, his face her came closer. She stood there blankly and hastily covered her lips with her hand. It was a reflex action.
There was a little bit of a fuss, but she and he have been friends ever since. Fortunately, it seemed to work as a joke. However, after the incident, he couldn’t help but feel a little worried. Except for his half-brother his, Lee Seok-chan, it was the first time he had been so close to a man he had a crush on.
In fact, what really bothered him was her behavior of her, which was oddly like hers. He has a bright and lively personality and gets along with the children, but his awkward and cautious attitude of his, which is often revealed, was noticeable. Upon closer inspection, there was something desperate about him because he wanted to fit in with people. Just like she wore weird makeup to hide her smoking fact her to fit in with her co-girls.
In spite of the awkward and cautious attitude towards the students, he treated himself friendly for some reason. It was as if he had known him from the beginning.
Of course, I had run into him a few times in the smoking area before entering school, but even considering that, it was a strange attitude. Is it simply an illusion that he seems to be kinder only to himself?
It was because Seo Joo-hwan had been helped by her before her return her, but it was unknown to her who he had not returned.
Jung Ha-yeon saw him gradually adapting to college life and understood that he was kind to everyone. I could tell when group activities started in earnest.
But during the empty, she changed her mind once again. How can she casually tell a woman that she is pretty? After the two of them were left to prepare for dressing up, he looked like a flirt. That would be the case, would n’t it be that he grabbed his strange atmosphere her again and pushed his face her closer? She asked if he really liked her, but got no answer. Is he, like Lee Seok-chan, a playboy who randomly meets women? Come to think of it, I mistook him for a hunting man at first. He thought it might not be a misunderstanding.
According to what was revealed at the drinking party, he was a mother-to-be single who had never been in a relationship. I thought he was an eternal flirt, but he is a mother-in-law solo like himself. He was very surprised.
Baek Jeong-gi, a sophomore at the time, was drunk, sexually harassed him, and even swung his fist. I was going to dodge his punches his and show myself, but he intervened and blocked his fists. His heart skipped a beat when he asked if he was hurt. Only then did Jung Ha-yeon realize that she already liked him.
So she confessed. He was also convinced that he had a heart. As expected, he liked himself. But he still hesitated. He was worried about breaking up even before dating. She could understand her feelings about her because she was also afraid of breaking up. But she, she didn’t want to let go of him, so she was a little forced. He spoke like he was proficient in a subject he had never dated with a man before. The moment he finally got to know him, he was so happy that he wanted to cheer him up. At home, I would have hugged a pillow and rolled on the bed.
The love affair thus established was very short-lived. What went wrong? She confessed that she wanted to be more than friends, but she ‘notified’ him of the breakup because if they stayed, they would be less than friends. Notice, yes. It was a one-sided notice. I did it even though I knew I shouldn’t. At that time, as if it was written on something, I thought that was the only way to stay together.
The day we broke up, the day I was burning a cigarette while crying alone, he came running in the rain and stood in front of me. The moment she saw him, she started to worry that she might have been very angry before feeling welcome. But instead he apologized. He apologized, saying that he had become this way because he was clumsy and lacking, and that he had done the wrong thing. Iljindae is the one who notified her of her unilateral breakup after confessing first.
Maybe it was because I cried so much that my eyes were swollen that day. She could be her friend her again without him. It was a bit awkward, but I felt more comfortable and closer than when we were dating.
The illusion was broken before long. On the day she decided to gather at his house her to study, the other friends did n’t come, so she was left alone. And I was able to understand We’re not friends like we used to be. It was as if the awkward air was suffocating. I couldn’t go back either. I thought it would be more awkward the next time I saw it.
He and she began studying for the exam in lingering silence. Because of the awkward atmosphere, I focused more on my studies. But was it too tired? She fell asleep without realizing it.
She had a dream One day, eight years ago, her mother passed away. At her mother’s funeral her, young Jeong Ha-yeon, 15, was crying. She was sad that her mother her, her only blood relative her, had left, and she cried because she felt sorry for her mother’s empty funeral her. She felt guilty for nothing at the thought that she had become a wolf raising herself alone, and sorrow for her father her, who did not even know her face her, came up.
The one who soothed her crying little girl was ‘Seo Joo-hwan’, who couldn’t be there in those days. Created by the image, the young Seo Ju-hwan hugged the girl, saying that he would always be by her side of her.
Everything was just a dream, but the images were clearly imprinted in Jeong Ha-yeon’s mind. When she woke up, she felt ashamed, but it was clear that her heart was warm. Her gaze her, looking at him as he slept, contained a feeling of longing.
I fell. It was over his body his, as it had been sometime ago. Lips collided, and he fell in fright. He pulled her back her as he fell, kissed her on the lips her, and held her in his arms her as she tried to run away. To her embarrassment her, she cursed, but eventually embraced him with all her body her.
The hot heat subsided. However, a faint lingering lukewarm lingering around. Curiously, the air that had been suffocating and awkward was released.
I remember his touch. His touch was very gentle as he dried his wet hair, saying he would act as a boyfriend he could not do.
Even the hands that caressed his body were warm. A massage I’ve never received except for the first time I mixed my body. Jeong Ha-yeon liked the massage he gave. When a warm hand caresses your body carefully, it feels like being loved.
All night long she talked to him. The past that started a little out of the blue was a story that had never been heard even when they were lovers. I could understand some of the misfortune he had been through. He found out why he had been worried about breaking up before dating, and why he was so obsessed with sex. And, how badly he had done to him.
Jeong Ha-yeon once again apologized for the breakup. He still said it was her own fault of her, but she could n’t hide her sorry feelings of her. She was all the more so because she knew how sad it was to break up.
Because he confided in her the trauma she was wrapped up in and all of her thoughts of her, she also talked about the past that she had never told anyone. Even the secret of being half-siblings with Lee Seok-chan.
So, the two became friends again.
No, we finally became more than friends.
‘I like you, Joo-hwan.’
So Jeong Ha-yeon pressed down on her heart her. She squeezed her heart that was about to jump out and landed it on one side of her chest.
Because she was more than a friend, she didn’t have to be a lover anymore.
Because a lover was a relationship that could break up at any time.
We had to remain friends, so we could be together for a long time.
*
Yoo Ji-kyung glanced at Jung Ha-yeon, who was already burning her third cigarette in her.
‘What is this older sister thinking?’
Does she regret what she said earlier?
‘Stupid.’
Yuji-kyung let out a deep sigh.
To her, Jeong Ha-yeon was a frustrating person. What if you get a little jealous? Even if we broke up, we didn’t break up because we hated each other. Even her Seo Joo-hwan still likes her, she said.
‘It’s his brother his who’s bad.’
He was a very mean man. Jung Ha-yeon likes Seo Joo-hwan, but Seo Ju-hwan also likes Jeong Ha-yeon, and she likes herself and other women.
You could see that in Yuji’s eyes her. She’s sure to like the woman she was talking on the phone with earlier. Or maybe she liked it.
‘How about complaining a little.’
How about paying attention to such a selfish man and complaining a little? If he can’t do even that much, he won’t be able to bear it. Well, even for that, you should blame yourself for liking that guy in the end.
‘It’s not like I don’t understand.’
She called Jeong Ha-yeon like an idiot, but Yoo Ji-kyung thought she was a fool too. In the end, she was also like herself in that she couldn’t confess because she was afraid of the end.
‘Shall I help?’
Yu Ji-gyeong owed Jeong Ha-yeon a heartfelt debt.
‘You must know that I like Joo-hwan oppa.’
Perhaps she knew that she had been approached because of that. No, you will definitely know. Even if she didn’t know at first, she must have realized at some point. The Jung Ha-yeon she knew was not a woman who was clumsy in human relationships, but she was not ignorant.
Even so, Jeong Ha-yeon gave her her affection and treated her as her close sister her. She’s not really a goofy person and she’s something. Had she been in the opposite position, she would have taken the opportunity and firmly supported him when she was alone.
Thanks to that, even on this side, she really fell in love with Jeong Ha-yeon, and it was difficult.
Yoo Ji-kyung glanced at Jeong Ha-yeon, who was shaking her cheeks alone.
Her tall, model-like height and snow-white skin her. Fine features and long eyelashes. A voluminous body hidden under puffy clothes. Even the atmosphere that strangely attracts people.
Her appearance of Jeong Ha-yeon was the wannabe she had longed for in her heart.
‘Well. I hate it too.’
Being her close sister made her feel too unfair to help. It’s ridiculous that she helps her rival her in the first place. No matter how much she likes her older sister, her world of competition her is a cold law.
‘Later. I’ll help you sometime later, sister. Aren’t I at a disadvantage right now?’
Even as she thought about it, Yoo Ji-gyeong’s heart ached. First of all, it was she who took advantage of Jeong Ha-yeon’s stupidly kind heart and poor interpersonal skills.
But he soon shook his head. Who sympathizes with whom and helps. The human now sees himself as a pet raccoon. He can’t even express his dissatisfaction his there, he’s so good that he’s going to die if you treat him to whatever he wants. Her reality was that she had to pretend to be cute in order to rub against this unfair sister.
Yu Ji-kyung pouted out her mouth and then clicked her tongue and said.
“Chit. Hayeon unnie, if you keep smoking like that, your lungs will rot.”
“Ah, yes. I also tried to stop smoking. But why are you so respectful all of a sudden?”
“I just want to do that now. Sister, I will go in first.”
“Is it okay if I go alone? I’ll take you.”
“It’s okay. Then see you later, sister!”
“Yes. Go in carefully, Ji-kyung.”
“My sister, go in carefully!”
Yoo Ji-kyung briskly moved her steps to her, but on the way, he turned her around. She was on her way to Seo Ju-hwan’s house.
‘What is a raccoon! Starting today, I am the master!’
Don’t teach me!
*
Seo Joo-hwan, holding a whip and a candle, kissed Yoo Ji-gyeong on the lips of her, who was handcuffed to her. Soon after, he parted her lips and sighed, stroking her reddened skin with her fingertips.
“Who is the master?”
Hearing the low voice of her, Yu Ji-kyung crossed her legs. Her water drips and flows down. She replied, looking at him with a worried look on her face.
“Joo, Joo-hwan oppa.”
“What are you?”
“I am the master’s slave…….”
“How do slaves cry?”
Yoo Ji-kyung gently bit her lip.
But it was impossible to resist the feel of her lower body. She urged, his hand stroking her flesh as if to speak quickly.
She responded with her eyes wide open to her kiss that followed once more.
“You…….”
Raccoons were already tamed by their owners.
