Chapter 108 – #29_Sunflowers and Milestones (2)
One.
Wake up and look at the clock. Late morning.
The clock, which was already well past 11 o’clock, gave me a sense of drowsiness.
The habit of ‘getting up in the morning’, which I had been following for the past three years, completely collapsed in two days.
Sometimes this isn’t too bad.
I was planning to stay here for the time being anyway, so unfortunately I rented a camper.
It must be because of Yu-chan’s strange innocence of his, which he hates living with others, that he insisted on using a camping car over a pension or other lodging facilities.
It was because hanging out with people pretending to know nothing was accompanied by inevitable stress.
Above all, Yuchan wanted a place where he could see the lighthouse.
It was once famous as a tourist attraction, but among the scenery of the island that has fallen behind, I thought only the lighthouse was worth seeing.
To solve the late morning, I fixed the cooking utensils of the camper.
Even though there are no people, it is a tourist destination and there is a high school that operates as a dormitory, so there is a small city.
I didn’t want to cook hard in a camper van with no cooking utensils, so I bought a lot of instant side dishes.
Microwave the packaged eel rice bowl and open the skylight for ventilation.
I put side dishes and rice on the desk in the middle of the living room and bedroom of the camper and sat on the opposite side.
What was visible through the skylight was a lighthouse overlooking a gentle grassy hill.
Indeed, he feels proud of his choice because the view is better than any other pension.
The grassy hill where the camper is parked is quite large, and from a distance it looks like it is floating in the light green sea.
Yesterday evening, she suddenly remembered the girl she had met at the lighthouse.
She was a strange girl
A girl who could easily see through this side to the point of being frightening, her actions and expressions that I could n’t tell what she was thinking.
Mirror-like eyes that could not read anything.
She felt a certain uneasiness and displeasure with the girl, but she could feel a strong attraction to her beyond reason.
It wasn’t obsession, egotism, or greed.
Just curious.
It is a strong impulse that has always whipped Yu-chan.
At that time, the shadow of a gray-haired person could be seen in the distance.
That girl yesterday
She is carrying a box, so her gait her is strange and more than half of her upper body her is covered.
Just by looking at her her body line her, she could tell that she was the same person as the girl she greeted yesterday.
She has no idea what she’s moving.
I wanted to know what she was carrying.
She immediately left the camper and headed for the lighthouse.
2.
“We met again.”
Wiping the sweat from the forehead with a polka-dotted handkerchief,
The girl responded to Yoo-chan, who approached quietly.
The cool-looking sleeveless dress and thin cardigan are the same as yesterday, although she additionally wears a wide round hat with a large brim.
The sun shines on the sea behind her, making her eyes sting.
She answered, covering it with one hand.
“That’s right. Isn’t the hat pretty?”
“Oh! Thanks.”
The girl stood under her lighthouse.
There was shade there, so Yu-chan climbed a little from her lawn and entered the shadow of her lighthouse.
Even if it is still morning, the summer sun is hot.
“Actually, I knew she would be from quite a distance.”
“I’ll be here around this time.”
She laughs, covering her mouth with the back of her hand.
It’s a little different from the truth, but I didn’t bother pointing it out.
“Are you always here?”
“No.”
At that question, the girl shook her head lightly, and her white hat her waved accordingly.
Then, noticing that she was still wearing a hat, she took off the hat, which she no longer needed to block her sunlight, and held it in her arms.
The round hat was quite large and covered the whole of her upper body without being completely wrapped around her bosom.
No matter how big the hat is, it’s possible because she’s so small.
“I’ll be leaving in about an hour. This is a place where morning, evening and night all look different.”
She commented in a calm tone, adding that she hadn’t come to the sea so often at night.
After hearing the words, it seems that I always drop by the lighthouse at noon and evening except at night.
In a world dominated by TV and computers, it was a surprising discovery in many ways to have a student who could maintain such a noble hobby.
However, on the contrary, I realize that it is more difficult to imagine this girl being buried in the media and indiscriminately flooding information.
Unreasonable thoughts keep coming out.
When there was no response, the girl changed the subject.
“Rather than that, it’s different from yesterday. It’s like a different person.”
Yu-chan inadvertently touched the corner of her mouth her.
She didn’t have that half-conscious smile she used to have when dealing with people.
Even though he did n’t act conscious of the girl’s words her.
It must be because her mask her, which she always thought was perfect, was pointed out.
She realized that her mimicry had no meaning in front of her, so she said.
I don’t want to do anything that isn’t efficient.
“Strange?”
“No, much better. It would be better if you smiled a little… But you can’t, right?”
She has come to the conclusion in her tone of her, but she has nothing to refute.
Again, I forcibly suppressed the irritability that suddenly erupted.
“Yes, you can make faces, but it’s not what you want.”
Yu-chan looked at her eyes her, asking her as if testing her.
Just like yesterday, hesitation, no shaking or intimidation are his eyes her.
It seemed to be a clean sleep in itself, so I felt that her inner thoughts were reflected as it is.
Two thoughts came to my mind.
I have a thought that I want to look around the world with a girl’s point of view.
One question is, if a girl like this is raped and her heart is trampled on, will she be able to have the same eyes as she does now?
I wonder why I even thought of this myself.
“But I’m sorry I said it. Because he has a hard expression, he looks five years older.”
“To behave naturally? You have to put up with that much.”
“But it’s not… It’s not a face that I can’t look at. I will be lenient.”
During the conversation, something caught my eye.
In front of the lighthouse storage compartment, the wooden bookshelf was small, barely reaching the waist.
“Bookshelf?”
The thing the girl was carrying wasn’t that big, so she probably moved a book stuck in there.
Taking her eyes off her book, Yu-chan reflexively asked.
For now, I aimed to close the distance between her and her.
Because she felt like she could teach her something she didn’t know.
Yuchan is second to none when it comes to her reading volume of her.
Common themes and topics are a very good tool to increase liking.
“Do you like books?”
“No, I thought I might like it from now on. It’s a pity to spend time here, and it’s nice to have a book, right? To build up food for the heart.”
“Is there any reason to read here? It must have been heavy.”
“Um, nothing really.”
Having said that, he smiled broadly.
While I was looking through the bookshelf for roughly what kind of book it was.
I saw her bag on the bookshelf.
In her gaze of her, which seemed to be flowing, the medicine bag caught her eye of her.
Following his gaze of her, the girl picked up the envelope and showed it to Yoo-chan before he even asked a question.
“Ah, it’s the medicine the hospital gave you.”
“What drug is it?”
“Painkillers, sleeping pills, and antidepressants.”
The medicine envelope was incredibly thick.
At first, I thought it was just a swollen piece of paper, but the shape of the heavily drooping envelope makes it look like it’s full inside.
“Are you taking all of that?”
It was an amount that was too much for an adult man to eat.
Just looking at it made me sick to my stomach.
“Actually, I rarely eat.”
“Then?”
“I’m giving it as fish food.”
The answer came in so stupid that the reaction was delayed.
Whether that was a joke or a serious matter would have been easy for the average person to judge.
It occurred to me that this strange girl might be real.
Seeing Yuchan’s serious face, he hurriedly continued.
“You didn’t think it was real, did you? I think I just believed.”
I wondered if my thoughts had been read to that extent, and I felt a pang in my heart.
At first glance, he looks like a strong child, but he has an unnecessarily sharp side.
Although it doesn’t seem to be at all about the sense of joking.
“Then what about the medicine you haven’t taken?”
“I’m feeding the seagulls.”
“Why don’t you do that? It’s not fun.”
I was annoyed at the continuous nonsense, and my voice rose unconsciously.
Immediately after making a loud noise,
Yu-chan felt embarrassed.
It is Yoo-chan who coped with a whimsical person like Shin Harin with a smile in order to win favor.
She was dumbfounded even by herself, that she had a sudden rash at a child’s joke.
However, the girl does not feel intimidated at all.
I just laugh and add words he would hate.
“Today, for the first time, you have an expression. Congratulations.”
I honestly had nothing to say.
How selfish
Yu-chan herself is proud to be quite brazen, but she is already being swayed by this girl.
“Oh gosh, my leg hurts.”
The girl sat down on a bookshelf in the shade of the lighthouse, as if she was standing still was tiring.
She patted the seat next to her bookshelf and gestured for her to sit down, so Yu-chan also walked slowly and sat down.
The girl who didn’t seem to know how to be suspicious of others didn’t even show her slightest sense of vigilance.
This is the same as easy prey.
“Throw away the medicines you are not taking. I don’t want to throw away things like sleeping pills, so I keep them. What do you want your uncle to have?”
He rummaged through the medicine envelopes, picked out a few, and handed them over.
Her transparent hands Her, like roses made of glass, were beautiful.
It’s useful, so I’m grateful.
“Why aren’t you eating? Are you using medicine?”
“Yes?”
The girl opened her eyes wide in her twinkling eyes.
Then she smiles only after one beat.
From here, she was able to infer that she was a pretty fierce woman, just like her first impression of her.
“No way, I’m not immature to that extent.”
She swallowed the words that she already looked like that.
“Then why?”
Some kind of silence.
Since we were talking and looking at the same place, it took about 10 seconds before I noticed the strange time difference in answering this question.
As soon as she turned her gaze to the side of her, her eyes met the girl who was staring at the side of her face.
The eyes of the girl with her smile are shining with curiosity or unknown emotion.
The light was brighter than the sun shining on the sea, so Yu-chan reflexively squinted her eyes.
She asks with an uncle-like laugh.
“Don’t you think I’m just asking too many questions?”
“Sorry, if you want to ask something, feel free to ask.”
“Yes, we don’t even know each other’s names.”
Only then do they realize that they didn’t even say aloud to each other.
I never thought I’d make a mistake like this
Because I’ve been swung around so far, I started beeping from the most basic part.
“It’s Yoo-chan. I don’t think she’s very curious. Use the character chan (燦) to shine.”
“I call it the West Sea. We’re both out. Can I ask you a few more questions?”
As she nodded, Seohae met her gaze with her pretty eyes.
He is a child who always looks directly at the opponent.
And he asked a question that did not suit his serious gaze of her.
“Do you have a boyfriend?”
“There was something similar, but it was dumped a while ago.”
When she dramatized her facts and lied, Seohae made a strange expression.
After that comes an inconsiderate extra hit.
“Then you went on a trip after being dumped by her girlfriend?”
“Is that so?”
Sharp speech.
Contrary to her first impression of being a natural girl, she is quite direct and even rude in a way.
But there was a strange aura about her that made all of her actions not offend her.
It was only her gaze that saw through everything that Yu-chan was displeased with.
“I can understand my girlfriend’s feelings about her.”
Seohae nodding her head while shaking her hair.
She has a serious expression on her small face her, so why not, she’s pretty cute.
“It’s because I don’t treat others with sincerity. Everyone doesn’t know it at first, but if you stay together, you’ll find out? How seriously this person treats me.”
“That is another opinion. Other than you didn’t notice.”
“No, I haven’t met many other people, but the one who was fooled to the end must be a fool. Is it so awkward? Didn’t you pretend you didn’t know everything?”
It hasn’t been long since we met, but an outspoken opinion came in.
She wondered why it was so unnatural.
I thought it was a better mask than my father.
“Surprisingly, your words are a bit harsh.”
“Anyway, he’s not the kind of person who would be hurt this much. If not, I will sincerely apologize.”
“No work. Instead, I will ask you a question. Why aren’t you eating?”
Seohae could not answer right away and hesitated a little.
The playful atmosphere disappears and changes to a calm and calm tone.
It is not easy to adapt to the suddenly reversed atmosphere.
Where did the attitude that pushed Yu-chan go?
A shy confession mixed with shame.
“I want to be at least a little bit more alive.”
It is a surprising answer.
“When I take painkillers or things like that, my mind goes blank, and at least three or four hours go by. Then it’s too expensive. I thought that if this pain is also part of the reality I live in, I shouldn’t just deny it.”
Her words seemed somehow to be heard by him.
It seemed like an answer prepared for Yu-chan, who had been ignoring her own deficiencies of her.
It sounded like something like, ‘If I were you, I wouldn’t have looked away like that,’ so Yu-chan naturally said sarcastically.
“It’s a stupid idea, it’s hard to buy.”
The girl laughs
Yuchan is always cynical,
The girl always smiled.
Speaking in her self-deprecating tone of her, the girl raised her hand a little and twisted her hair.
“It’s stupid, I know.”
“Where are you sick?”
“It’s a disease in which the heart weakens and then stops.”
“Is it? It must be hard.”
Of course, her confession
She didn’t give much inspiration to Yu-chan.
After examining her grave-looking Yoo-chan, Seo-hae bent over her on her bookshelf, stood up with a rebound, and picked up her bag her.
“In a way, you and I are alike.”
Again, nonsensical words.
The moment you hear the words that follow,
She was unresponsive and all I could hear was her footsteps her towards the grassy hill.
“I have a heart, and you have a heartache.”
That it was her whining and teasing at Yu-chan, who did not sympathize with her own pain
He realizes later
