Chapter 232 – Later Story: The Warmest Winter in the World (14)
Despite Benelia’s name being called, Theorard did not show any reaction. No, she would be right that she couldn’t react.
Aside from Benelia putting on her makeup her and putting on her dress her, she did n’t understand why Benelia, who was supposed to be in the villa, was waiting in front of the Viscount’s mansion without her escort her .
Her mind her, flooded with her confusion, could not come up with any answers. A smile disappears from Benelia’s lips as she stares at Theorad.
“Jim is calling, but he doesn’t even move. Also, does that doorknob become your wife?”
“Yes? Ah.”
Theorard, realizing too late that he was still holding on to the doorknob, cleared his throat and let go of his hand. Theorard, who has closed the door, bows her head in front of Benelia and places her hand on her chest her.
“A lowly being dares to insult His Majesty-“
“It is not lowly.”
Theorard’s shoulders trembled while he was doing his manners. Before I could ask what Her Majesty’s intentions were her, Benelia arrogantly continued her words.
“Can’t you hear me? You’re not a lowly being, so I’m saying get rid of stupid manners.”
It’s a strangely angry tone. Benelia said this because she did not want to hear her distanced greeting her, but Theorard, who had only done what she was supposed to do as a subject, was not used to the situation.
Could it be that I have made a mistake that I am not aware of? When Theorard raised her head, unable to shake off her strange alertness her, Benellia let out a sigh and turned around and walked away.
“The moonlit night is bright. Walk a little.”
The sound of footsteps echoing quietly around. Looking down, I see women’s shoes with high heels. If it were Benellia, she wouldn’t have looked at it even if it was uncomfortable.
Today’s Benelia was somehow strange. But she had no time for leisurely reflections. Benelia, who was going ahead of her, stopped her steps her and glanced behind her.
“I’m not coming.”
“I will go now. Your majesty.”
After answering concisely, Theorard went down the stairs of the mansion and sat next to Benelia. Only then did Benelia’s halting steps begin to move again. In line with that stride, Theorard also moves slowly.
‘By the way…….’
Looking around, the escort was nowhere to be seen. The emperor of the empire went out and there was no escort. Benelia quietly opened the door to her, as she had lost her doubts in her in an incomprehensible situation.
“No wonder there is no escort. She came here secretly driving her horse.”
Embarrassed, Theorard looks back at her Benelia.
“You mean with that outfit?”
“We used side saddles. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s not a big problem.”
“I wasn’t talking about riding safety. Because she doesn’t know His Majesty’s riding skills. However, Your Majesty is the dignity of the Empire and she is the ruler who rules over all people. He was seen going out alone without an escort…….”
“Let’s sell our worries.”
Huh. Benelia narrows her eyes apprehensively.
“As you said, I am the dignity of the empire and the ruler who rules over all people. Are you saying that I can’t walk around the empire on my own?”
“…… Your majesty. I didn’t mean it that way.”
“It happened. I didn’t come here to have a boring table discussion.”
Theorard, who tried to argue that it was not lacking in nutrients, stopped talking. Benellia must have known everything and she came here, but preaching more would be foolish.
Then the place becomes quiet. In the silent season, grass insects do not cry and birds do not chirp, so when the voice of speech decreases, silence soon finds itself.
In a space where only the sound of each other’s shoes treading on the road echoed irregularly, Benelia, who did not like the awkwardness, summoned up the courage to speak.
“I.”
Simmer a little Benellia, uncharacteristically nervous, spat her words behind her with difficulty.
“I came here to confess to you.”
Confession. Unknown English words make me stop walking. Benelia also stands in her seat and takes a long breath.
The back of her back with her back exposed is pitiful for some reason. Benelia, deliberately avoiding Theorard’s gaze, exhaled her chilling breath.
“Viscount Theorard.”
What followed was a bit shocking.
“I am still in love with you.”
Enveloping stillness. For an instant, thinking stops and confusion increases. It was because she was embarrassed and afraid of how Benelia’s words of love would bloom.
Benelia also did not know what Theorard felt. She didn’t back down, because if she didn’t talk now, she might lose her chance forever.
“You can think of it as lame. Even if you criticize me for being dirty, I don’t understand. I have no desire to forcefully wrap this pitiful love.”
“Your majesty.”
“Keep quiet and listen. It is not too late to hear your opinion after the story is over.”
As commanded, Theorard did not answer. It comes willingly but with unspoken pressure. Swallowing her dry saliva, Benelia resumed her conversation after a brief silence.
“At first I tried to forget.”
Five years ago, when asked to allow an affair with Theorard, Essilie flatly refused.
It wasn’t an unexpected reaction, but when it came to her reality her, Benelia felt a part of her heart her freeze.
It was a truly miserable feeling. After reading the letter, she didn’t even move for half a day.
Realizing that re-reading her letters and re-reading them would not turn her refusal her into permission, Benellia tried to bury Theo Rad in her heart her.
By doing so, she renewed herself in state affairs and immersed herself in her political affairs. She spent her time doing random things in order to forget Theo Rad.
However, she couldn’t forget it.
“I was going to erase it next time.”
Benelia, who received Esily’s replies to her refusal her one after another, called an astrologer in a fit of anger. She wouldn’t have to suffer any more if she had her memories of Theo Rad removed through the astrologer.
But she didn’t mean to erase Theo Rad entirely from her memory. What Benelia was trying to erase was her memory of the moment she was trapped in her hallucination with Theo Rad.
She felt that if only her memories of her were erased, she would be able to look at Theorard as her pure friend of her. She was sure that if she erased that memory, she would never have feelings for her again.
As her confidence in herself grew stronger, she became afraid of Benelia. Her fear of whether she could erase her precious memories of her at will rose up.
After staying up all night with such worries, Benelia finally kicked out the astrologer who came to her on the same day she wanted to erase her memory of her.
She couldn’t bear to erase it.
“Everyone has failed, so in the end I only think of you.”
I can’t forget Theorard.
Theorad cannot be erased.
So…… She can’t help but love Theo Rad.
“You’ve got a place in the most important place in my heart, I can’t get rid of you.”
When looking at the rare items presented from all over the world, Theorard was the first thing that came to mind. Because I wanted to show it to Theorard. I wanted to smile with Theorard beside me, who was curious like an idiot.
Even when he saw the expensive accessories and clothes brought by the members of the Internal Affairs Department, Theorard’s thoughts were full in his head. I wanted to show Theorad that I was adorned with these beautiful things.
In this way, Benelia’s heart was gradually consumed by the disease of her love. Even when she ate something delicious, she encountered a nice view while going around town, or came across an interesting story, she always started to assume that ‘if Theorard had been by her side of her’.
To the point that, at the end of the day, even when reading her favorite romance novels her, she thought the main character was Theo Rad and she thought his lover her was herself. When her accident she reached that point, Benelia closed her book and made a decision.
She said she should meet Theorard’s wives and set up a deal for her.
“So today at noon, I miserably visited your wives.”
In the drawing room of the castle, in front of Linea and Esily, Benellia fell to her knees.
Benelia von Esteban, the emperor of all peoples who rules over all peoples and whom all princes pay respect to, fell on her knees for a man.
Benelia spoke with a serious face to Esily and Linea who were flustered. I love Theo Rad with all my heart and I will never forget him until the day I die.
However, she added that if one of you refused, she would never show her face again after today.
After listening to Benellia’s words, Essili and Linea agonized in silence for a long time, but in the end, they understood and accepted Benelia’s feelings for her. It was judged that her current behavior stemming from the past five years of courtship could not have been a lie.
“They are good women. Even though I asked for something rude, they gave me permission. But…….”
The wives’ permission did not lead to Theorard’s will. In the end, the most important thing is Theorard’s answer to his.
Low deep breathing. Capturing her trembling breath, Benelia slowly turned her body to look at Theorard. The confused figure of Theorad is reflected in the golden pupil.
“…… If you refuse, all of this will be for nothing.”
A wind blowing from somewhere makes Benelia’s hair gently sway. Benelia’s eyes her, bathed in her moonlight, shone noblely, but her uncharacteristically downcast appearance her made her look far from her emperor’s spirit her.
“Viscount Theorard.”
A trembling voice flows out with pure white breath. Benelia, placing her hands in front of her own chest, spoke in her crawling voice her.
“You are me…… Can I hug you?”
It was literally a confession. It’s hard to fathom how much heartache Benelia must have had in the past five years to make her confession what she is now.
Theorard’s gaze, as she exhaled thinly, was barely felt. It was as her nervous her Benelia lowered her head and bit her lip.
“Your majesty.”
A soft voice makes her shoulders tremble. Unknowingly, Benelia clenched her fist and answered in a small voice.
“Speak.”
“Is the current request the Imperial Palace?”
“It is not a name. I am asking you as a woman.”
“If so, when is the deadline?”
“How can you put a deadline on love?”
“It makes sense. So now what I have to say is clear.”
Is it still rejected? Her clenched fist she loses strength and her breathing she feels exhausted. It was the moment when Benelia, with her bitter smile her, lifted her head with difficulty.
“Benelia.”
Calling names without honorifics makes the heart pound. Theorard took a step closer to Benelia, who was shocked and unable to say anything.
“Love is not something that can be obtained with just one word. So now I can’t love you.”
Moisture formed in Venelia’s eyes her. It was quite close, so Theorard took out a handkerchief from his bosom her.
“However…… The future me may be different.”
The soft side of the handkerchief touches her eyes her. Benelia, staring blankly at Theorard wiping away her own tears, blinked her eyes as if she didn’t understand.
“What is that…….”
“You are slow to understand. It means that I will grant your request.”
“I-I really…….”
“Okay. Now, really, let’s meet so often that it’s annoying.”
The soft tone stimulates the tear glands. I’m happy, I want to laugh because I’m happy, but my eyes keep blurring. The expressionless face slowly begins to distort.
“The son of a bitch…… Heck, why suddenly,hehe, speaking plainly and fucking…….”
“Didn’t she say that she asked as a woman? So I am answering as a man.”
I wanted to refute, but I couldn’t. It was because she opened her mouth to tell her, but then burst out crying.
Benelia buried her face in Theo Rad’s chest her, then stretched out her arms her and hugged her tightly around the waist. As if she didn’t want to show herself crying, desperately.
However, the crying showed no signs of stopping. So Theorard made up his mind to treat Venelia as a woman rather than an emperor for a little while longer.
Under her starlit night sky, Theo Rad, raising her hand and wrapping it around her back and around her waist her, soothed her Benelia with her soft voice her. As if I understand the pain you must have felt over the past five years…….
