Chapter 18
Hanamiya-san wants to call me…?
For a moment, I did not understand what was being said.
I stopped moving and froze, and Toramasa asked me, “If you don't want to, do you want to stop?” I was scared.
I was scared. I was afraid to pick up the phone. But I am also afraid to put it off.
I'm also afraid to talk to Hanamiya-san when I'm alone. Then I thought it would be better to pick up the phone right here where Toraga is right now.
I heard it's okay to pick up the phone on speaker.
Speaker? Does that mean that I should talk about something that Toramiya can hear?
If so, it would not be about talking about my past life.
But what does it mean to talk about things that are safe to put on speaker…?
I thought for a while and shook my head.
I shook my head, “I'll put you on speaker and we'll talk.”
I understand.”
After saying that, Toramasa put the phone on speaker and handed it to me.
I put it on speaker and handed it to me.
Hello, this is Hanamiya.
I hear a cute voice on the other end of the phone.
I heard it earlier, but now I clearly recognized Hanamiya's voice.
Very cute. The heroine's voice was not in the game, so I was surprised to hear such a cute voice.
“Um, you wanted to talk to me…”
When I said that, Hanamiya-san was on the other end of the phone, saying, “Well, you know…” I could hear her voice on the other end of the phone, thinking or mulling over what she had said.
I looked at Toramiya's cell phone with a tense face as I listened to his voice.
What on earth is he going to talk about? My heart aches and my brow wrinkles with pain.
Seeing me like this, Toramasa gently takes hold of the hand that is not holding my cell phone.
I am Hanamiya Shinjiro of Class 2A. My birthday is December 25. My blood type is O. My height is 163 cm. My weight is a secret. My favorite food is cake and curry. My dislikes are carrots and celery. My hobbies are visiting museums and talking to girls.
Hanamiya-san's sudden self-introduction made my eyes roll back in surprise. But after hearing her self-introduction, I realized something.
Ms. Hanamiya…the heroine's profile has not been announced. But there is one thing that caught my attention in what was just given.
This is something I know because I have a previous life. So I knew that Hanamiya-san was intentionally mixing things up.
As I listened to the conversation I could not get one thought out of my head.
As I listened to the phone call, I naturally burst into tears.
Without wiping away the tears, I listened to Hanamiya-san's voice.
My favorite song is “With You. My favorite color is yellow.
I understood what Hanamiya-san meant.
He said his favorite food is curry. Curry was Ki-kun's favorite food.
And then, the food he dislikes. Celery is Ki-kun's least favorite food.
Talking to girls as his hobby must mean picking up girls…that was also written in Ki-kun's profile.
The song is the opening song of the game. And yellow is Ki-kun's color, as you can see.
In other words, this was a phone call to tell me that Hanamiya-san likes Ki-kun.
When I heard the word “yellow,” I cried aloud.
Toraga was surprised that I suddenly started crying and asked me, “What's wrong? I shook my head as if to say it was nothing.
Then I opened my mouth to answer Hanamiya-san.
I am Mariko Takahashi of Class 2B. My birthday is September 21. My blood type is A…. My height is 156 cm. My weight is a secret. My favorite food is sweets, especially chocolate. She dislikes green peas and spicy food. Her hobbies are watching movies and exercising. …My favorite song is 'Youth' and my favorite color is…black.”
When I told Mr. Hanamiya in a tearful voice, he said on the other end of the phone, “Finally, finally, I found you. Her voice trembled as she said, “I finally found it.
I'm in front of Toramiya-kun's room right now…is it okay if I meet him in person?”
'Yes, me too, I want to see you.'
I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and looked at Toraga.
He looked at me with a wrinkled brow, not understanding what was going on.
'Toraga-san,' I said.
May I go out of the room? Before I could say so, Toraga moved his head vertically. Seeing this, I got off Toramasa's lap onto the floor and headed for the doorway.
From behind me, I could hear Toraya heading for the front door with me.
I put on my shoes and opened the front door to find Ki-kun and Hanamiya-san, whose eyes were moist, standing there.
Hanamiya-san!
Takahashi-san!
Hanamiya-san leaned over and hugged me tightly.
I'm sorry it took me so long to find you.
“No, thank you for finding me.”
We shed tears as we said this.
Hanamiya-san smelled so good, her hair was so silky, and her skin was so beautiful up close that even I, a woman, felt a thrill.
After hugging each other for a while, we naturally gently pulled apart and introduced ourselves again.
I am Mariko Takahashi.
My name is Shinjiro Hanamiya.
I felt lighter because I knew that Hanamiya-san liked Ki-kun, and I was able to look at him properly.
When I saw Hanamiya-san in front of me, it was as if a heroine from a video game had really appeared.
Wow, great, a heroine…. I put my hands over my mouth and involuntarily said, “Please shake my hand.” I said. Hanamiya-san smiled and shook my hand. I was so happy…. Your hands are so smooth…so cute.
Wait a minute. Do you two know each other?” Ki-kun, who was standing next to Hanamiya-san, asked us as we shook hands.
Hanamiya-san and I looked at each other for a moment and then said, “We just became friends. Hanamiya-san answered Ki-kun.
I let go of Hanamiya-san's hand, and this time a hand went around my shoulder and pulled me backwards. The actual “I'm not a fan of the way you do it,” he said, “but I'm not a fan of the way you do it, either.
Explain to me what's going on.
Toramasa looked at me with a puzzled expression and said, “Explain what's going on.” I didn't know what to say, so I mumbled something and glanced at Hanamiya and the others.
Then I turned to Toramasa again and said, “Please lend me your ears. Please lend me your ears,” he said.
As he leaned forward a little and his face came closer to Toramiya's ear, I told him, “I have found out that the person Hanamiya-san likes is not Toramiya-san.” I told him.
Toramiya's brow wrinkled deeply and he tilted his head as if he didn't understand what was going on.
Now that I knew that Hanamiya-san did not like Toramiya-san, I seemed to have forgotten the seriousness of the situation and could not suppress a smile from breaking out.
To me, Hanamiya-san called me, “Takahashi-san, can I have a word?” and calling me over, she asked me in my ear, “Are you dating Toramaga-kun by any chance?” He asked me in my ear, “Are you going out with Toramasa-kun?
I shook my head and told Hanamiya-san, who rolled her eyes and looked surprised.
I also asked Hanamiya-san, “Are you dating Ki-kun?” Hanamiya-san shook her head.
Apparently, our situations are similar. We made eye contact and tried to do our best for each other.
We exchanged contact information and promised that we would definitely call each other later. Hanamiya-san and Ki-kun left in front of Toramiya's house.
I saw them off until they were out of sight, and then Toramiya and I went back inside the house.
I had always thought that Hanamiya-san might be in love with Toramiya-san.
Huh?”
Toramasa sounded as if to say, “What's that?
Because you seemed to be talking to her in a friendly way…”
It's impossible for that yellow night-loving woman to like me.”
“Eh…, did Hanamiya-san confess her feelings to Saionji-senpai?
I'm sure you'll be able to find a way to get a good deal on a new pair of shoes.
“By the way, does Saionji-senpai know that Hanamiya-san likes him?
I don't think she knows. I'm sure she's hiding it in front of Huang Yao.
I'm glad to hear that. I was relieved to hear Toraga's words.
The game requires Ki-kun to fall in love with Hanamiya-san first before he can attack Ki-kun.
Ki-kun likes girls too much to be interested in girls who say they like him.
That is why he is attracted to Hanamiya-san, who has never shown interest in him.
Ki-kun will realize his love for Hanamiya-san after the sports festival, and Hanamiya-san will also realize her love for him after that, so it is not good if Hanamiya-san finds out that she likes Ki-kun now.
Well, this is just a story in a game, and now it is reality, so I don't know what will happen.
But as far as I can tell, the fact that Hanamiya-san is hiding the fact that she likes Ki-kun means that she is trying to play along with the game.
Then I remembered something else and put my hand over my mouth.
No, even though I know Hanamiya-san likes Ki-kun, there is a love triangle event in this game.
To capture Ki-kun means that Toramiya-san will fall in love with Hanamiya-san…
Toramasa-san, I want you to be honest with me…”
What is it?”
Sitting upright on the sofa, I faced Toramiya.
If Hanamiya-san had only raised the likability of Ki-kun, if Hanamiya-san had only raised the likability of Ki-kun, if Hanamiya-san had only raised the likability of Ki-kun, if Hanamiya-san had not gone along with the game because of my involvement with Toramasa, because of the fact that he had a previous life….
Do you like Hanamiya-san, Toramiya-san?
That's absolutely not true.”
Toramasa answered immediately as if he was covering my words.
I thought I heard him wrong because he answered so quickly, so I asked the same question again.
I asked the same question again, thinking I had heard him wrong.
I thought I had misheard him, so I asked him the same question again.
No, nothing.
“Really? The actuality is that you can get a lot more than just a few. I felt a little hazy when I saw Saionji-senpai and Hanamiya-san talking, and I was following Hanamiya-san with my eyes…”
I told you it's not there.
What, really…? So, does this mean that Hanamiya-san has only raised Ki-kun's favorability rating, and the love triangle event is gone? But wait, maybe she'll change her mind at the gymnastics festival… It's also possible that she just doesn't realize it yet…
Then, you may feel relieved when you talk with Hanamiya-san… “You're being a pain in the ass…” I'm sorry.
Does this mean that he really doesn't care about Hanamiya-san…? Is that right?
Then, no love triangle event? Hanamiya-san is only aiming straight at Ki-kun…? No influence from the game? I used to read about reincarnation with knowledge in a previous life, and there were things like protagonist compensation or trying to make the world go along with the game, but there's no such thing?
Wait, my brain can't keep up with the shocking revelation that Hanamiya-san has a previous life and that he's after Ki-kun…. I need time to think.
While I was thinking about it, Toraga, who was sitting in front of me, opened his mouth and said, “Well…” Toramasa, who was sitting in front of me, opened his mouth.
Why do you keep asking me questions that assume I like Hanamiya?
I froze again when he asked me that question.
Today, there are so many questions related to the game that I just can't answer them immediately.
My head screamed and throbbed with pain from thinking too much.
Hanamiya-san is cute, isn't she?
Is she?
Yes, Hanamiya-san is very cute, so I thought that Toramiya-san might be falling for Hanamiya-san too…”
I was waiting for Toramasa to open his mouth in the still air.
I'm not going to fall in love with him.
I see…”
I was still a little incredulous at what Toramasa said after a long silence, but I convinced myself that since Toramasa was saying it, it must be true.
I see, so Toramasa is not concerned about Mr. Hanamiya….
The hazy feeling in my heart gradually cleared up.
Hanamiya-san is not targeting Toramiya-san, and Toramiya-san is not interested in Hanamiya-san.
I have come to understand that in just one day.
That means that Toramiya doesn't like anyone yet, so I may be able to stay by his side until I graduate from high school.
Good. I can still stay by his side. I can still talk to him like this.
As I put my hand on my chest and smiled with joy, Toraya's mouth, which had been closed, opened again.
Let's go back to what we were talking about before the phone call.
My heart skipped a beat as he said this.
The conversation before the phone call…was it about the time he said he wanted to stay by my side until I graduated from high school…?
Come to think of it, Toraga was about to say something, and the phone call came right away….
I could feel the clouds gathering again in my clear mind.
I am afraid that Toraga will say something.
I already knew about Hanamiya-san, so I wanted to go home with this clear mind.
It's not that I don't want to be with Toramasa. It was just that I was afraid to hear what Toramiya would say.
I didn't want to hear them. I was afraid to hear what he would say. But I knew I had no right of refusal.
All I could do was quietly nod my head.
Seeing my reaction, Toraga let out another sigh and looked at me with one hand outstretched.
I can already tell what he meant by that hand outstretched.
I looked at Toraga's face, looked at his hand, and with a nervousness that made me want to vomit, I entered Toraga's arms.
Just like when the call came, I sit on Toraga's lap and he hugs me from the front.
Earlier, I was sad and scared and just wanted to cling to Toramasa, so I was not that conscious of the fact that I was sitting on his lap. But now that the Hanamiya-san situation has been resolved, I was extremely nervous about the fact that I was sitting on Toramasa's lap.
I felt again Toramasa's body temperature, his body shape, and the closeness of the distance, all of which I could clearly capture in reality with my brain, and my heart was jumping so fast that it felt like it was about to come out of my mouth.
Toraya hugged me tightly for a while, then loosened his arms and gently grabbed my shoulders to keep me at a distance so that he could see my face from the front.
Toraga stared at me from the front, his brow wrinkled. He was probably trying to say something, but his mouth was frozen in a shape.
My heart races with fear and the fact that Toraga is staring at me from the front.
My mouth is watering from the strain, and I can't move without being aware of Toraga's hand on my shoulder and his knee on my knee. I can't even look away.
In the midst of all this, Toraya opened his heavy mouth.
I will stop using you.”
I stopped breathing for a moment at those words.
Stop using ……?
Do you…don't want me anymore?
No.”
You love someone else?”
No, listen to me.
The temperature in the room did not drop, but I felt a chill in the air.
The most important thing to remember is that the best way to get the best out of your car is to get the best out of your car. Or have you already healed the wounds in your heart? Am I no longer of any use to you? Is Toramiya no longer using me?
Without blinking, tears spill from my eyes. My lachrymal gland is already broken, so I can cry as many tears as I want.
My mouth is dry from nervousness, so maybe all the water in my mouth is going into my eyes.
As my tears were overflowing, Toraga paused for a moment and then opened his mouth.
I want to like you.”
I stopped breathing again as he spoke with a pained expression on his face.
I may have misheard him.
I had never imagined that Toraya would say something like that.
Why…?”
That was the word that came out of my mouth without thinking.
I was not conscious of having said it myself, but before I knew it, the words had been expressed in words, and Toraga's expression became distorted again, as if he were in pain.
I don't understand why I can't think that way…”
No, no…it's not that, it's just that I don't understand why you would say such a thing, because…oh no…”
The most important thing to remember is that you can't just go out and buy a new pair of shoes.
Because really, I couldn't imagine why he said that, and I couldn't imagine why he would say that he wanted to like me, because… that's…
It's… it's terrible.
“…….”
It's hurtful to want to like someone and have them like you.
It sounded like he was saying he wanted to like me by forcing himself to misrepresent his thoughts and feelings.
I don't know what he meant by that, but if he said that he wanted to like me, it confirmed to me that he didn't like me after all, and that no matter how much I shouted my love, it wasn't reaching him at all.
I know that Toraga doesn't really understand love or romance.
But in the game, Hanamiya-san, the heroine, easily realized her feelings for Toramasa, so Toramasa fell in love with the heroine by accepting Toramasa without telling her that he loved her or that he was in love with her. I was reminded that I am no match for the heroine.
To fall in love with someone is not to fall in love with the intention of falling in love with them. You like her because you fell in love with her.”
…….”
“Don't try to force yourself to like me.”
I can't stop crying.
The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a look at the actual product or service and then decide to buy it.
I'm not rejecting you!
I didn't reject you! I want you to live your life the way you want, the way Toraga thinks! I want you to find someone you like and be happy!
Then isn't it my idea to want to share that happiness with you!”
For the first time, I shouted at Toramasa as if I was shouting at him.
The first time I spoke to Toraga, he shouted at me for the first time.
The tears that had been flowing naturally stopped at those words.
You are like that, you accept me but reject me.
It's impossible for Toraga to fall in love with me!
Why do you say it's impossible! You're the one denying my feelings!
I'm not denying your feelings! I'm not denying Toraga's feelings! It's absolutely impossible for Toraga to like me! I'm just a normal high school student with nothing going on…”
I'm just an ordinary high school student. What is your idea of normal?
Because Toraga is an attacker!
I almost forced myself to stop that word.
The actuality is that …… this world is not a game world for Toramasa, but a real world where he is living in the present. I'm not sure if I'm a high school student, or if I'm just a high school student, or if Hanamiya-san is just a high school student.
I don't know if I'm an attacker, a heroine, a mob, or something else from Toramasa's point of view.
Why do I somehow lump them together with games? Toramiya doesn't know. I am a mob. If it were true, I'm the kind of mob that you shouldn't even talk to, you should just look at me from a distance.
Just as I don't know how Toraga feels, he doesn't know how I feel.
I'm not playing a game, so I don't know Toraga's feelings or how he feels about me.
I can't stay away from Toramasa.
I had no intention of letting you go in the first place.
“Please, don't make me expect more from you…”
I'm trying to live up to your expectations…
Then….
I've been holding back, I've been trying not to tell you all this time.
The most important thing to remember is that you should never be afraid to tell your friends and family about your newborn baby.
It's terrible, this person is really terrible. But I love such a person, and I can't help but love him, so I put my feelings into words, thinking it was my last request.
I said, “Please like me….”
Toraga wants to like me now.
I am not happy to be told that by the person I love. In fact, I am very happy.
But I don't know how long that feeling will last. I can't complain if someone I love comes along and says that my words at the time were invalid. I just have to accept Toraga's words.
But if there is any hope, any chance at all, if there is no chance at all, I want Toraga to like me too.
I want the person I love to like me. I want Toraga to think I like him. I want him to feel the same way about me.
When I said that, Toraya hugged me tightly again.
My tears soaked into his clothes and stained them. I can see that I can't stop my tears from falling, so I'm pretty sure that Toraya's clothes have big stains on them. I think they are cold. But he didn't let go of me, as if to say it didn't matter.
I want you to wait a little longer.
“I'll wait, I'll wait as long as I have to…”
I'll wait as long as I have to…” “I'm sorry …….”
I shook my head at those words.
The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a chance and then not be able to do anything about it. The most important thing to remember is that you can't just take a look at your own personal personal information.
I'm not sure what to do with the rest of it. I don't need anything else.
