Chapter 77 – 7. Snow Flush (7)
“Keugh…… !”
The palms are thrilled. It was because he held the arrow of lightning floating in the air with his hand. The so-called penetrating magic, unlike simple magical arrows, is the standard and perfect to hold and throw with your hands. However, my magic resistance hasn’t fully bloomed yet.
Thanks to that, my goddamn right hand trembles as if it had been electrocuted. I didn’t miss it because my muscles shrank, but I had to jump over this last step to get the name of the 3rd rank. By the standard of either Bernhard or Atlantic, it is a novice ticket.
“Kuheugh, keuheugh…… !”
The skin gets tight. It turns black like a lump of charcoal. You can’t even take your left hand and hold it together. If you do, you will be electrocuted without fail. I pushed myself to the limit at the boundary between life and death.
The remaining mana in the body is only dregs. However, I remember the fight to the death in the Bruhlin sniper battle. I remember the feeling of joining the ranks of the magic bullet shooter and making myself the forbidden sacrifice.
Chijik, chijik!
Mana in exchange for lifespan, even greater magic!
A green aura pervades the whole body. I called the thunderbolt once again. Even so, I wrapped it around this trembling right hand again.
And finally, with JJ, he succeeded in controlling it.
“Yeah, are you saying you didn’t learn anything?”
Said Beatrix. I replied with my charred right hand outstretched.
“Not yet…… !”
He may be weak in practice, but he is sharp in theory. In those days when I was between you, I studied all night because I wanted to be recognized. When I was only 2 ranks, it was difficult because there was so little magic I could use, but now that I have a wider range of choices, I can move forward.
Penetrating magic is the bridgehead to the higher level magic of each attribute.
“Shoot like an arrow, go ahead and pierce!”
Failure is not scary. Death to me is something I can defy at any time. So I will give my life as much as I can. If the mana is so full, what is the importance of cost performance? It’s best if you have power.
Again, I recalled the arrow of lightning in my image.
Great!
This time, the lightning was created underwater, not in the air. It took the form of a sphere, and eventually, following my will, it became a long shape like an arrow. Unlike the right hand, there was no burning, and the control was quite stable.
“…….”
Beatrix twitched her eyebrows slightly. But I didn’t stop there. I combined the lightning held in both hands into one and pulled out a long spear. I threw the spear of her thunderbolt at her with all my might.
Blasphemy!
Twice.
Blah blah blah!
In an instant, a spear grazed the queen’s cheek. It caused a very small cut and a small amount of blood to bleed. At this moment, I have clearly transcended my limits. Although weak, she had wounded that Beatrix Adler.
“It’s quite right.”
Shooting and throwing a spear made of lightning is an intermediate level magic of the lightning type. Even in terms of rank, it should be at the end of the 4th rank. It’s not a skill that a wizard who has just entered the 3rd class can use recklessly. Especially if it’s a chain.
“No, I will correct it.”
The successive strikes are the so-called continuous attacks. There is only a slight time difference, but in terms of power, there is not much difference between using the same technique twice. Nonetheless, if there is any significance to the enlightenment of this magic, it is the applicability of being able to use two magics at the same time.
So what if you hold two different attributes in one hand and throw them? It may be an expedient, but you should be able to show off skills comparable to that of an experienced wizard.
“…… Great.”
Maybe it was because I was relaxed, my whole body was losing strength.
“Well, where will that come go?”
I slumped back in my seat. He was drenched in sweat from head to toe. The muscles of the whole body convulsed and caused pain. Even his hands, black as charcoal, crumbled the moment they touched the floor.
In nine cases out of ten, he was seriously injured.
“It must be because of that determination that even with such a burdensome belief, you can produce these results.”
“Why didn’t you avoid it…… ?”
“Because it was special.”
Beatrix approached, rubbing the wound. He held out his chalcedony at me, who had completely fallen out, and radiated his mana to restore it.
Even though it was a small wound, seeing my body take precedence over me made me feel complicated in many ways.
“I never thought I’d apply the forbidden like that.”
“Did you know…….”
“The magic bullet shooter was a unit I planned myself.”
I was blown away without any refutation. The fatigue of the body was completely restored, but the mind was not. Fortunately, Beatrix took care of me and left me alone to rest.
“I won’t ask how you came to imitate it.”
Now, that’s not a surprising insight.
“I want power, but I don’t want to kill people, so I came up with my lifespan.”
“You really don’t know anything…….”
“All prohibitions reach me. I thought I was just spending time shutting myself in my room, but I would have thought I was sharpening my sword in my own way. I also like that the blade is quite sharp.”
It wasn’t sharp at all. Because the magic I use has been neutralized. Because every time that happened, all I felt was an overwhelming gap.
Wasn’t it possible that she brushed her cheek like this in the first place because she looked after her? Of course, it was a great development, but we must not forget that fact.
“Give me a prize. Is there anything else you would like to receive?”
“I have a question.”
“Tell me.”
“Can you answer me without a single lie?”
Beatrix sighed. She immediately nodded her head.
“I promise.”
I mumbled for a moment and then said.
“The lightning I just threw was my power in name and reality. But you could have avoided it. I could have stopped it.”
“Okay.”
“Why?”
“I don’t believe you have changed.”
The Queen was staring down at her sprawled blade. Unlike usual, the corners of her mouth went up slightly, and she seemed happy. The atmosphere I could feel by her side was also very gentle. Perhaps I was very satisfied with the outbursts I had shown just a moment ago.
“Obviously you have infinite possibilities. He had brains and mental strength that no one else had. If so, why is that talent so important? With those two things, there’s nothing I can’t achieve.”
“It’s me who was subdued for rest.”
“But the moment I mentioned them, you stood up again. Even while crossing the boundary between life and death several times, he raised the magic that he had been wandering about all at once, one step, and even two steps at a time.”
“Have I grown to that extent?”
“It’s an expedient, but it’ll be about 4 ranks. It’s a state that others can only reach after a few years of training.”
It was awkward. I had never received this kind of praise from Beatrix. Even in the days when her sesame seeds poured out, she was very harsh and strict in evaluating my strength and magic. But now, to hear such compliments.
“You have never had any motivation. Your life would always have been a pit of despair, and you would have naturally regarded success as the rock of greater failure.”
“Is that what motivated me?”
“So are the fools. While being infinitely lenient to oneself, they only set extremely strict standards for others. It’s a really intolerant act. Until now, you would have shrunk amidst those things and not be able to see the true worth of yourself.”
I bit my lip.
“I won’t say today’s achievements are phenomenal. It’s a lie that’s too obvious to see through.”
It was because a feeling of devastation came from deep within.
“But Jungwoo, you worked hard enough and you are also strong. I’m ready to grow even more. The possibilities created by your will are endless, and the struggle you showed me today was impressive.”
I have never received such a compliment from anyone in my life. Even though she was an enemy who had insulted her beloved wife and her daughter just a moment ago, and even though she had insulted me for being weak, her heart was moved.
Tears flowed.
And finally I realized To Beatrix, the two dead were not so important. What she disapproved of was that she was just me, this male prostitute, who had been caught up in the past and couldn’t get out of it.
“I used those two as my motives.”
“Not just the two of you.”
Beatrix sat lightly on the floor. It was a very informal attitude for a great Führer or a mighty queen. Even more so, the sight of her holding out her pretty hand and wiping my endlessly flowing tears really complicated my feelings.
“You asked me why I didn’t dodge your attack?”
The mad dictator consoled him with a benevolent touch.
“Because I wanted to tell you. That this body is not invincible.”
“…… !”
“It is infinitely close to it, but it is by no means invincible. Even if you don’t get sick, you can get hurt, and even if you don’t fall down, you can be defeated.”
“Why, do that to me?”
“It is the same. There is a difference between infinitely close to impossible and absolutely impossible. The former brings challenges, the latter brings frustration. I hope you don’t get frustrated. I want to live a more healthy life. I hope you will enjoy everything from the sweetness of power to the pleasure of pleasure.”
She could sometimes see in her a fair absolute and a devoted courtier. Mostly at the same moment. From the attitude that you can do anything for yourself or others.
“Make your hate for me the motive of your life.”
“…… !”
“I mean keep going until you can kill this Beatrix Adler.”
As with Victoria and Cecilia.
“What the hell, why…… !”
Beatrix expressed that she was ready to give up her life as well.
“Why are you so mean to me…… !”
“Because I Love You.”
Even if it was just words.
“I once loved you too! There was a time when I thought my miserable life was hardships and trials until I met the blessing that is you! But who kicked it all? It was you!”
My emotions crossed my mind, and I let out a feeling of being overwhelmed.
“Sometimes cruel, sometimes benevolent! What kind of rhythm am I supposed to match? If you really love me so much, why did I do something I would avoid? I loved you so intensely!”
One day, I begged for affection and earnestly. Please give the minority of those extermination camps a chance. It is not necessary to completely abolish discrimination, so please stop meaningless killing.
However, Beatrix flatly refused my request.
I ignored it.
“I-I don’t love you anymore…….”
“Know.”
“I hate you…… !”
“Know.”
It is because you do not have confidence in him that you dare to speak hatred. If this is her intention to dilute her feelings for her and confuse me, then it’s a huge success.
“There is nothing complicated about it.”
I could neither love nor hate her. Like the saying that love and hate intersect, it just happened that way.
People are really cunning. Even though he vowed revenge so much, he was only shaken by these words and actions. Even now, I wonder if there is any way to go back to the old days.
But there’s no way.
“You just have to keep hating me like that.”
A good but distant cause is buried by an evil but close favor.
“I will still love you.”
It would have been better if you had hated me too.
“Forever.”
The Queen’s affection is unchanging.
