Chapter 218 – Side Story) May All Lost Souls Be Happy (8)
”Uuuk, whew…! Huh, huh…!!”
I stain the red carpet with bitter gastric juice and barely find a breath of fresh air.
Disgusting memories and emotions like pain are boiling inside my head.
What have I done so far? Why did you think such things were nothing?
I slowly raise my head to find the starting point of the contradictions in my memories that remain blurry but clear.
The smile I saw that night when I was drinking with Sujin last month.
A shadow looking down with that smile on a day when I was struggling with unknown pain.
She was a ‘nun.’
“Your head hurts a lot, right? It’s because all the memories and emotions I blocked were released at once.
If you wait just a little bit, you’ll feel better soon, so why don’t you move and take a slow, deep breath?”
A kind and gentle nun who remained beautiful even in repressed memories.
It didn’t take long for me to realize that she was the culprit behind all the things that happened to me.
Sujin’s mood changed, the church where she spread her strange teachings, and the things I did in the name of ‘prayer’.
It was all done by this woman standing in front of me.
“Ha, ha…”
Her voice is not coming out properly because her mind is a mess due to anger and confusion.
The black shadow is gradually narrowing the distance, but my collapsed legs do not have the strength to stand again.
I have to run away, I have to resist.
‘I’ realized the reality and gave up everything.
Strange eyes that radiated two lights, golden threads that swayed beautifully.
That woman was something else in human form, she realized.
No matter how desperately she tried to run, she realized that she couldn’t.
“Oh, don’t come… Don’t come…”
“Phew, this is always the reaction I get when I release the brainwashing.
“I explained several times that I didn’t mean to harm you.”
Even with a barely uttered voice, I couldn’t stop the monster’s small steps.
Ttokak, ttokak, the beautiful, clear sound of shoes echoing inside the cathedral.
Finally, the nun came right in front of her and slowly began to extend her hand.
“Ugh…!!”
I close my eyes tightly against her grasp that is blocking my vision and try to make a meaningless resistance by turning her head.
I covered myself with pitch-black darkness and prepared for the imminent hand of the monster and fear,
The warm hand that gently rested on my cheek only touched the dirty gastric juice left around my mouth.
As I opened my eyes to this completely unexpected development, I saw the nun smiling as she wiped my mouth with her handkerchief.
“There’s no need to be so nervous, right? Hyomin can choose everything from now on.”
“… Yes…?”
“If you want to run away, you can run away. I will never chase Hyomin.
If the teachings you received in the past were painful, I can help you forget everything.
At this moment, I swear in the name of my master that I will only act according to Hyomin’s choice.”
Now she could somehow see that there was not a single lie in what the nun said.
I knew that she couldn’t mention the name ‘Master’ and her lies.
“Well, then, if you ask me and Sujin to be released…”
“That might be a little difficult. Hyomin hasn’t made a choice yet, but Sister Sujin hasn’t.
Sister, you chose to be embraced by your master, and you are here of your own free will.”
Maybe I can go back, it was only for a moment that I saw a ray of hope.
As I glance at Sujin, who has already crossed the river that she should not have crossed, I am filled with an unknown emptiness.
Sujin decided for herself to become a slave to the ‘master’ that this monster serves.
“Uh, something like that…!! Boo, you must be Sujin, just like me…”
Just like me, Sujin got strange because something happened to this monster.
I definitely believed that would be the case, but the moment I looked at Sujin, that belief was shattered.
“…♡”
“Sujin, ah…”
Sujin didn’t say anything, and she only smiled faintly.
A cruel yet happy smile, as if whispering to me, ‘Don’t disturb my happiness.’
“You can’t do that, Hyomin. Sister Sujin, you chose her as a woman?
A person with enormous strength and heart to embrace him. So please respect that choice.”
“Ah, you… I’m sure you are Sujin…”
“Yes, I brainwashed and taught you just like Hyomin.”
The nun’s voice was so clear and clear, unlike my own voice that trembled with uncertainty.
She continued her words while gently smoothing my matted hair that was wet with cold sweat.
“It is true that Sister Sujin was brainwashed, but it was for the sake of those who were repulsed by her pleasure and desires.
Think about it carefully. Why did I, who can manipulate people’s minds at will, return my self to you?
If it had been to sacrifice you to the god I serve, I would not have even given you the opportunity to ‘choose’.”
“That, that, that’s why…!”
I couldn’t refute the nun’s words.
Why? Why can’t I be ‘sure’ even at this moment?
I’m anxious, I’m scared, I want to run away from this place right now.
But why──
“──And why doesn’t Hyomin choose ‘reality’?”
“… Eh…?”
“If you couldn’t understand the teachings you’ve received so far, you can choose right now, right?
If you just say one word, ‘Please release me,’ you can throw away all that fear and hatred.
You can go back to a normal, happy reality, so why don’t you choose?”
Sweet breath and whispers blowing in my ear.
She was right.
If you really wanted to run away from this cathedral, you could choose to run away as she said.
I could get out of here whenever I wanted, and I knew that.
And I learned it thanks to her words.
The fact that it was I who was putting off making a choice using Sujin as an excuse.
What I was really scared and anxious about was the reality that I had to return to.
What I wasn’t sure about was not the present moment, but the future that would come after I ran away.
Even though I knew everything, I wanted to deny it.
“You know, Hyomin, right? That my master’s arms are warmer and happier than the reality I will return to.”
“Oh, you… No, it’s not like that…”
“No, Hyomin, you know everything. Even if you go back, there will be no love that will satisfy you.
The love you have received so far is insignificant compared to the happiness He has given you.
Now, think about it. “The man who couldn’t embrace Hyomin and so coldly abandoned her, that small desire.”
“…”
Memories that come to mind even if you don’t like them, feelings that remain like bitter wounds.
A past that was miserable, sad, angry, painful, and regretful.
Hatred and fear towards reality and my former lover well up in my heart.
No, you can’t.
Don’t listen anymore.
That’s the past, I’m sure I can do it again.
It’s definitely true, but why does that bastard’s dirty face keep coming to mind?
“Think of it.”
The nun’s kind voice rings softly.
The emotions I was trying to bury come flooding out from the memories of her that bind me like sticky black slime.
’It wasn’t enjoyable at all.’
‘I wasn’t happy for even a single moment.’
‘I loved, but I don’t remember being loved.’
Ppadeuk─
It makes a sound like the molars are about to break.
The image of my lover in my memory suddenly stopped looking at me.
Betrayed, abandoned, unloved, left alone.
I feel empty, lonely, and don’t want to get hurt anymore. Why do I have to feel this way?
I stopped trusting reality and men with such dusty desires.
Also, I don’t like love that only happens to me.
I don’t want to be thrown away like a piece of used toilet paper.
“But the master is different.”
However, the master was different.
He responded to the love I gave him with pleasure and happiness.
He gave me faith, confidence, and a future when I was suffering from anxiety.
The master had such a huge desire that he could embrace me, Sujin, and the nun.
‘It felt good to have my pussy throbbed with the master’s cock♡’
‘Cock, I want to suck the master’s cock♡ I want to drink real semen♡’
‘I want to be held in the master’s trusty arms, I really want to be fucked by the master’s cock♡’
“Haa, haa…♡ Chureup, huuuuu…♡”
Eh, what?
I was so cold and scared just now that I was shaking, but now I feel fine?
Rather, is it so warm and happy that your head is buzzing? Huh? Huh?
Before you know it, your breathing has become rough, your cheeks are flushed, and your vision is shaking.
Just thinking about him makes my whole body and vagina feel numb.
Puzzle pieces fitting together on their own in my paralyzed mind.
I can’t, if I remember that warmth anymore, I won’t be able to go back──
”No more, please leave your body and mind to the master in peace…♡”
“Ah♡”
Every time I hear this voice, my mind goes blank…♡
…
“You were happier in the past month living in your master’s house than in the reality you had devoted your whole life to.
It feels good, it feels good, and now when I think of his face, my pussy starts dripping with pleasure.
In fact, you came to this cathedral today to become your beloved master.”
“… Ahaha♡ Yes, everything the nun said was correct…♡”
I no longer wanted to go back.
It has to be that way.
Now that I have decided to let go of reality and dedicate everything to my master, I feel so comfortable and happy.
I can feel sticky love juice flowing through the thin baptismal gown and the fabric that tightens my groin.
I put my hands on the floor, shaking not with fear but with excitement and happiness,
Show your respect by lowering your hot face and touching the red carpet with your forehead.
And──
“I will become your master’s house…♡ No, please let me be…!♡
Please, please forgive me for trying to turn away from my master’s love…♡”
──Crossing the irreversible river.
“Hehe, please raise your head. Sister Hyomin.”
“Yes, yes!♡”
The appearance of the nun standing before her changed.
Her horns rising above her head drew beautiful lines like angel rings,
A black tail, wriggling like another life, was brushing my chin.
I was completely entranced by the sight of the ‘saint’ who was more beautiful than anything else in the world.
“The master will not spare his love for you.
Now, as our sisters in the same arms, receive ‘holy water’♡”
Grumbling…♡
“Ah…♡”
White, sticky mucus flowing from the saint’s mouth.
That’s the master’s…♡
I immediately cupped my chin with both hands and opened my mouth wide to catch the holy water falling from the sky.
“Gulp, gulp, gulp… Gulp…♡”
It’s delicious, it’s happy, the feeling of warm, rich holy water spreading on your tongue and seeping into your body…♡
“Okay, smile…!♡ Ugh…!!♡”
I pour all the holy water that the saint has given me into my mouth, and twist my hot body as if it were on fire.
The strong smell of a man felt every time you exhale, the pleasure and happiness that can’t be compared to when you penetrate your pussy.
“Ugh, uhuhhh!!♡♡”
Ah, I was gone just by the smell…♡
The last sip, I don’t want to swallow it… I want to savor it more…
But in order to become the master’s dick, to become a ‘saint’──
“Gulp!♡ Puhaa…♡”
──No time to waste…♡
“Finally, Sister Hyomin’s eyes also have the master’s color in them! Welcome, sister♡”
“… Yes, thank you… Saint ♡”
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