Chapter 30 – Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (2)
1.
Hyunwoo stroked the pale Hyeji for a while longer.
Soon, some color returns to her face. She barely manages to lift the corners of her mouth and smile faintly.
However, that would only be a temporary incubation rather than an improvement in symptoms. If a broken mind could be restored with a few words like this, all mental hospitals would be closed.
There is now less than an hour left until work. For now, it was necessary to calm her down, at least as a temporary measure.
“Look right at me, baby. “Do you still think I’m angry in your eyes?”
She spreads her arms and shrugs her shoulders in a gesture of resentment. She blinks her eyes innocently, a playful smile playing on her lips.
“No, it’s just me, I’m that sorry, so…”
As was her habit, Hyeji kept saying only her words of apology. Her heart was still pounding, and she didn’t have time to think of anything else.
“Why do you keep apologizing when I say I’m fine? “I said I’m completely relieved.”
Hyunwoo gets tired of that reaction and ends up subtly scolding her. Then she opened her mouth as if she had become mute.
There was something strangely addictive about not being able to do this or that with a single word.
‘Shall I bother you a little more?’
An impulse that was completely opposite to my original intention arose in an instant. A sadistic greed flashes in Hyunwoo’s eyes.
He opened his mouth without realizing it.
“Do you think I’m someone who is behind the scenes? “Do you think I’m such a narrow-minded man?”
Complaints made lightly with an expression of regret. He grumbled in a monotonous tone, like a child whining.
It was a blunt word that did not set her off, but Hyunwoo had somewhat expected that these blunt words would crush her once again.
And she reacted as expected.
“No, no, absolutely not. What a good person your brother is. “I didn’t even think about that.”
He is startled and hurriedly waves his hand as if he is about to start a fight. He is pounding so earnestly that his breasts are shaking.
We are only focused on making the other person feel better, putting aside the anxiety we felt until now. That sight further ignited Hyunwoo’s heart.
“Even though I say I’m fine, you keep saying it, so it makes me anxious too. Although they say they are not disappointed in words, I wonder if they are upset on the inside…”
As you continue speaking, gradually lower your voice. If you look at it from the outside, it looks like a gentle man who is always watching his girlfriend’s thoughts…
Hyunwoo hesitated for a moment before continuing the rest of his words.
“I even woke up this early in the morning to make him feel better… But he keeps doing this, and I’m upset.”
Hyunwoo’s face looked very intimidated as he said those words.
And surprisingly, with just one word, the perpetrator and the victim are switched in an instant.
A paradoxical situation where you have to feel sorry and ask for forgiveness rather than being comforted for your anxiety.
As always, Hye-ji is forced to be cast in the role given by Hyun-woo.
“Oppa, I was wrong. I’m anxious so I… Uh… Um…”
She urgently grabbed Hyunwoo’s hand and appealed in a desperate voice. I was heartbroken because I couldn’t think of anything else to say that I was sorry for her brother’s scolding.
“I’m really not sad at all, I’m just thankful that my brother woke me up. Really. I was completely moved.”
After she stopped saying she was sorry, what she came up with was saying thank you. She pours out those words in a hurry and looks at Hyunwoo’s notice.
Her heart was anxious as she felt like she had made a mistake. It felt like she was losing her mind little by little.
Hyunwoo held back his laughter at that sight and stared into her eyes.
Then she opened her mouth with a serious face, as if asking for an answer.
“But why were you so restless, like I did something?”
What kind of words will come out of this woman’s mouth this time? Hyunwoo’s body trembled with anticipation.
Even with this question, I had no idea whether I would blame myself, or if I would belatedly turn the arrow back to the perpetrator in front of me.
She flinched at Hyunwoo’s sudden words and rolled her eyes pitifully to find the answer she deserved.
“Uh… It’s just that I just woke up, so I guess I was a little out of it.”
Hyeji hesitated for a moment and finally came up with her excellent excuse. She nods her head, dismissing the anxiety from just now as mere sleep talk.
Her rationalization was already well out of her control.
I just did whatever I could to get her anxiety tolerated.
Hyunwoo could no longer hold back the laughter that was bursting out of his mouth and smiled to his heart’s content.
“Hey, what is that? Then was it just like sleep talking?”
Only then did Hyeji awkwardly laugh along and straighten her shrunken shoulders.
It was a relief to know that her brother was laughing out loud.
‘Should I stop at this point and comfort you again?’
I was very satisfied with the situation up until now.
I was worried that yesterday’s corporal punishment might have been excessive, so I even set an alarm. If the passion of last night was washed away while she was sleeping, her mind might become clearer.
However, the symptoms of PTSD she revealed gave her unexpected results.
The original goal was to direct her first emotion of the day in a positive direction, thereby covering up yesterday’s negative emotions.
She thought that was enough, but she also received another confession that it was all her fault.
Even when she woke up in a normal state of mind, she even added a funny comment that her anxiety just now was talking in her sleep.
Hyunwoo decided to play one last little prank and end the game.
“Then smile brightly at me. Saying that you love me so that I can feel at ease.”
As soon as Hyeji heard those words, she lifted the corners of her mouth enough to reveal her pure white teeth. I can barely make out a big smile with my trembling cheeks.
“Oppa, thank you for today’s morning event. I love you so much “You know I’m yours, right?”
A terrible tragedy. I feel sorry in situations where I should be angry, and I smile in situations where I should cry.
Maybe the word comedy would be more appropriate.
Hyunwoo really liked the current ironic situation.
Urge an anxious person to apologize in return. And then he even forces laughter. I couldn’t help but be happy.
“I love you too.”
Hyunwoo gave her a light smile and kissed her lips. This was a pretty neat ending.
“Are you feeling better now? Would you like to go in and take a shower?”
“Ah, yes. Then, I’ll wash up first and then come out.”
Hyeji hurriedly got up and ran to the bathroom at Hyunwoo’s words.
With the water running in the sink, she looked at her mirror and caught her breath.
Until just now, she couldn’t understand why she was so anxious.
When I think back, it feels like I was standing in front of my drunk father when I was young…
‘Hey, what kind of nonsense is this? What a kind person you are.’
She shook her head vigorously, as if trying to shake off the foolish thoughts she had just had.
My brother loves himself. The sweet morning greeting just now is proof of that.
Hyeji smiled as she recalled her gentle touch and her voice that woke her up. There were some small and minor troubles, but it was a pleasant morning anyway.
Hyunwoo lay down on the bed listening to the sound of water coming from the bathroom.
Just now she had lightly teased a woman’s soul with the tip of her own tongue. She gave me the bottle and then gave me her medicine.
He smiled deeply, savoring the small feeling of omnipotence rising from deep within his heart.
Between his lying legs, his dick was erect as if it was touching the ceiling.
2.
Hyunwoo followed Hyeji and went out together. Her destination is the store where she works.
On the surface, he insisted that he wanted to see off his beloved girlfriend, but in reality, this was nothing more than double duty.
As far as pouring love into her head, what I’ve done so far is enough.
Hyunwoo had some work to do after dropping her off and returning to her house.
“Are you so happy that I go with you? “Are we really excited?”
Hyunwoo’s smiling face shone under the late spring sunlight. Even though he simply wet his head with water, he didn’t look the slightest bit shabby.
Even the small beard sprouted a strangely masculine charm.
And a good-looking shell has always been a good camouflage that hides the ugly inside. Hyeji blushed without even the slightest guess about Hyunwoo’s intentions.
My heart flutters once again at the thought that this man is my boyfriend. He leaned in close and hugged his strong forearm.
“Yes, this is my first time doing something like this. Every time I go out, my brother always sleeps in, and it makes me think that we are really dating…”
“I? Was it like that?”
“I do not remember? How disgusting it was to see this! “I deliberately resisted the urge to shake him and wake him up.”
Hyeji spoke grumblingly, but contrary to her words, her face was full of smiles.
Although it was the road I always walked to work, everything felt unfamiliar and exciting, like the road I walked for the first time. There was no need to say that it was because of Hyunwoo walking next to him.
Hyunwoo stroked her hair and said playfully.
“Honey, then, does the world seem beautiful now?”
“Huh?”
“No, there is a saying like that. “When you fall in love, the world seems beautiful.”
Hyeji looks around the street after hearing Hyunwoo giggling softly.
Hyeji knew that she couldn’t deny Hyunwoo’s words even if she didn’t have to look around her.
She had clearly felt that the world she knew had changed 180 degrees.
“That’s right. It looks more beautiful. “I guess I really fell in love.”
Hyeji nodded her head and smiled. She is now even humming a song and playing with her feet cheerfully like an excited child.
Hyunwoo smiled silently with an expression that said he really loved her.
In fact, leaving home as early as now was something unplanned until yesterday.
Originally, I had planned to let Hyeji go and enjoy a nap in the morning, and then wake her up when she got hungry.
However, Hyeji’s anxiety symptoms just now changed his plans.
In order not to waste the hidden piece I was lucky enough to obtain, I needed to go home and think about a plan for the future.
Therefore, when she came out after washing up, she willingly said that she would take her there.
Although the plan was modified due to unexpected variables, everything went back to his plan.
“Everyone is here. “It’s across the street, right?”
Hyeji frowned at Hyunwoo’s words without realizing it. She was so sad that she had already arrived that she couldn’t bear it.
She said something that wasn’t in her heart without letting go of her hand.
“You don’t have to cross the crosswalk together, so let’s go get on the bus right away. “Are you going to your brother’s house?”
Hyunwoo chuckled after hearing that. Contrary to the words she spoke, her hands and body showed no signs of leaving.
“No, I’ve come this far. I’ll take you to the front of the store.”
Then, Hyunwoo also added strength to his clasped hands as if confessing that he would never let go of these hands.
Hyeji must have sensed that as well, as she nods her head with a smile on her face.
In front of the store we arrived soon. It took a while for Hyeji to cross her crossing because she was dragging her feet.
She seemed unable to soothe her regret and hugged Hyunwoo and muttered.
“Oppa… Should I just work part-time today? “I want to stay with you, but… Tell me you’re sick?”
The look in her eyes made it seem like she wasn’t just saying it. As soon as Hyunwoo nods, he seems ready to turn away.
“I can see you again after work. “Buy me something delicious for dinner later with the money you earned from working today.”
Hyunwoo was a little annoyed by her, but she tried to hide her feelings and gently pushed him away.
It felt like forcing a kindergartener who didn’t want to be away from her parents to go to school.
It was nice to see that this woman’s obsession had grown to the point where she was throwing away her daily life, but she had other things to do today.
She gently pulled her delicate waist to say her last goodbye.
“Baby, do your best today too!”
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In the middle of her speech, she lightly kissed her lips. And this time she said something she didn’t even mean.
“Shall I come pick you up later at night?”
Hyeji smiled and opened her mouth, as if just hearing her words made her feel good.
“Hey, why bother? You don’t have to. I’m impressed enough just by taking you there.”
“Okay. Send me a KakaoTalk before work ends~ First, I’ll go home and get some rest.”
Hyeji put her regrets behind her and hurried her steps toward her store. But she doesn’t take a few steps before she turns her head again.
Hyunwoo was still waving his hand with a bright smile on his face.
She smiled broadly and shook her head in response.
Eventually, when Hyeji’s appearance completely disappeared from sight, Hyunwoo turned his back without any hesitation.
After taking off his mask, his face was frowning.
No matter how much he decided to do it, he couldn’t help the annoyance.
The more it happened, the stronger Hyunwoo’s decision became. He wants to destroy her as quickly as possible.
Fortunately, the clue was visible. Symptoms likely to be PTSD. The cause and method of causing the symptom will be a good clue.
