Chapter 16 – 016. Audio File (3)
-I told you to relax. With the condom on, it will be a little stiffer than before. I’ll release you.
-Ah, haha…Don’t pinch the nipples…!
My voice.
-Sigh, ugh…! Gipper, it’s deep…
-I feel like my heart is going crazy. I’m also a fan of Seo Ji-ah because she has big breasts, but there’s no comparison. You suck so much. Fuck my thighs too… Phew…
-Ha, curse, don’t…, Ugh…! Haaa!
His voice pretends to praise me, but harasses and tramples me.
-I want to kiss you. Can I do it? Your eyes are worse than your body. It’s sexy. I want to pounce on you. Ha-eun…
-Because I understand, just a little, slow hit, town… Chueup⋯.
What did you know, you idiot?
Men have been wanting to pounce on you since puberty.
-My hair is weird… Let me go. I’m strange…!
-It’s okay to be weird. Take off your strength. Lean on me. Because it’s okay to hang on.
A bitch with weird hair.
A bitch.
⋯You’re a bitch who’s hot enough to give up your body to a man like this.
-A little less than half went in. Can I add more?
-No, Ahn Dae-ae! Me, I’m strange. It hurts, no, it doesn’t hurt. Oh my…! Hmm…
-⋯Half. Breathe. I won’t add any more. Because it’s my first time.
If it hurts, kick it!
Or you could just grab that big, big, painful stick!
Don’t get raped like a fool…
-Ha-eun.
-Haa⋯, ha⋯. Stop, stop…
– Stick out your tongue. Then I’ll finish it.
-Tongue…? Hehe, bu… , Eup… , Chuu…
Anything is fine, so try resisting, you idiot…
-Yes… , Yes… ! Ugh! Huuuuu!
A low, deep groan that I have never heard before in my life.
The sound of scratching the vocal cords scratches my ears.
Additionally, Kang Joo-hyuk, who had been playing with me throughout sex, sighed deeply enough to be captured on the recording.
⋯No matter how inexperienced you are,
No matter how drunk I was,
What happened remains clearly in my memory.
It comes back cleanly without any blemishes.
I had sex with this man.
It’s his first experience his, but he feels like he’s on drugs.
Rather than rejecting it, I enjoyed the sticky sex.
The feeling of the male organ that was swollen inside me gradually comes back.
When I briefly lost my senses due to pleasure, I tried to blame it all on the drunkenness and forget about it,
For some reason, the more I listened, the clearer it became.
“Turn it off?”
“⋯Please turn it off⋯.”
When he finished recording the first sex of my life, he finally let go of my tongue.
I hated him so much for asking me questions with a smile in his unique confident tone, but I couldn’t shake his head.
This man must have recorded it after that.
If you don’t listen now, you may have to listen to that sound until the end.
It collapsed even more miserably than now,
A voice that makes you gasp and be violated.
⋯I don’t want to remember, but I remember.
“Ah, it’s more fun after this. I was really sick of begging for you to fuck me. It’s very cute.”
“Stop it, really.”
“Oh, that’s exactly what it felt like. But it was a little more erotic, just now.”
⋯I’m embarrassed.
I want to die.
Die, you idiot, you stupid bastard!
I wanted to cover my face with my hands and hide in a mouse hole, but I couldn’t even run away because of his touch him and his tight embrace.
They pet me here and there, as if I were a pet.
Massaging my chest and stroking my stomach.
Brushing my lips against the nape of his neck
I feel bad.
But you can’t hit it.
I’ve already done more,
Even if you tell them not to do it, they won’t listen.
“Bad boy…”
“What’s wrong? I said I did everything with consideration. If you ask me to take it out, I will take it out. If you ask me to take it slowly, I do it slowly. Do you know how difficult it is to listen to everything you say while looking at your heart?”
“Noisy! So just let it go… “
“Why. “Where else will I have a chance to touch you in the future?”
Kang Joo-hyuk changed from the voice that cruelly violated me to a sly voice and continued to tease me.
⋯Bad boy.
“Oh, don’t cry. Why are you crying. “There is no woman as happy as you.”
“What are you saying, you crazy bastard?”
“It’s not that there are always women that you feel from the beginning, but there are almost none, right?”
“Who asked you to feel it!? It’s a bitch, so just shut up… “
The man who was having such a hard time until just a moment ago that he felt like he was going to die has now stopped bothering me and not caring about other people’s feelings.
It was incredible, but even the things I had been struggling with because of my heartbreak were postponed.
After drinking and feeling a little better, he stopped listening to my complaints.
⋯The reason you vented your anger at me and blame it on my dad,
Probably really.
“Oh really. Crying makes people feel weird. “If anyone sees me, they’ll think I raped you.”
“강간 맞잖아, 개새끼야⋯.”
“You still say that. After hearing everything about how it was done.”
“You bastard, if you recorded it, you didn’t plan it all! Is it because you wanted to sleep with me from the beginning? Uh? I broke up with my girlfriend a long time ago! It’s all me, I… Because you’re the leader’s daughter… “
What on earth did I do wrong? Why are you doing this?
If I suffered any harm from you, I suffered it, I did not inflict it.
It’s all dad’s fault,
No matter how broadly you look at it, it’s my brother’s fault.
Why are you doing this to me…
“Seo Ha-eun.”
“⋯You bastard.”
“I’m asking just in case. Do you really have anything to do with me getting fired?”
“How many times do I say no? I don’t care! ⋯Really⋯.”
“Oh yeah? ⋯But why did you look at me with that expression?”
“Mmm… “
To me who has no fault or fault,
He tickled my eardrums again with his cruel voice.
“Every time I showed you my shoulder, you looked at me with an apologetic expression. “What’s wrong with that?”
“Is it wrong to feel sorry for the injured person?”
“No, whatever. “Whenever I run into someone at the club, I wonder if you act like an asshole equally regardless of whether they are injured or healthy.”
“At that time… Everyone just looked at my chest. Those bastards… “
“Then what was the thing you were looking at sadly just before you attacked me? Was it really an attempted rape at that time? “I just had sex because you gave me permission.”
“⋯.”
The reason I gave him permission, he pulls out from the corner of his chest.
And then, cutting them to pieces,
I am cutting off any moment of guilt I felt towards him.
“⋯Are you sure you know something but are just pretending not to know?”
“⋯If you know, what? If you know, is it okay to rape someone? Huh?”
“Oh, that’s because you said you’ve never been raped. Do you want to continue listening if I turn it off later? I really did it while holding back.”
“Tolerating it, fuck…” ” . You, you, from the beginning, were planning to attack me and seek revenge! Reported, even recorded to avoid being reported…”
“Have you done something to revenge deserve on me?”
“⋯.”
Something worthy of revenge.
I didn’t do it.
Ask me to do it⋯,
I never did it.
It wasn’t my fault that I was so annoyed that I complained to my younger brother, and the next day I suddenly heard an ugly voice at the dinner table telling me to send someone somewhere.
I knew he was a ruthless person, but I didn’t know he was a person who listens so well to his children.
A person who doesn’t even listen to what I say.
Why do you nod and immediately grant my wish when my younger brother speaks?
“Hey, look at your facial expression. What is there?”
“No, no… !”
“It’s a joke, why are you so upset? I’m behind you, but there’s no way I can see your expression. “Are you stupid?”
“⋯.”
I was so afraid of the voice of the man who penetrated everything about me and was playing with me.
I wanted him to disappear, and just because he happened to disappear doesn’t mean it’s my fault.
In the beginning, all my dad said was that he wanted to trade me to another team.
It’s no one’s fault that you got hurt.
It’s not my fault that he retired with a knife mark on his shoulder.
It’s not my fault, but why am I so afraid?
It’s not something worth being criticized for getting caught.
Why.
Could it be that I can’t help but tremble at that man with so many muscles?
“Ha-eun, don’t be so nervous. Would you like to turn around and look at me?”
“⋯.”
“⋯Let me see your eyes.”
The eyes of the man who forcibly turns my body over come into view.
They just open their eyes normally, but their eyes are so sharp and fierce that it makes my heart pound.
Wouldn’t it have been easier if this had been a case of falling in love?
Enjoy your first experience with the man you like,
How nice it would have been if we had just had a friendly conversation.
“Am I scared?”
But there was no such heartbreaking love story in my life.
The more I look at this man’s cruel eyes, the more my suspicions grow.
⋯Was he satisfied with the recording?
This trashy human being.
Is there any guarantee that my picture was not taken?
I took a selfie at the bar earlier.
“Why are you scared? “I don’t have any ill feelings towards you anymore.”
“⋯He, he⋯.”
Now, the word that doesn’t exist is translated arbitrarily and reaches my head.
It is said that it existed before that.
They say it was all planned out.
⋯I am saying that I know what I will do in the future.
“I’m not sure why you’re acting like this all of a sudden, since you were in such a good mood a little while ago. “Can you tell me if I did something wrong?”
“⋯That’s right… “
I’m becoming more and more afraid of the man who deceived me without even blinking.
How far did this man read my mind?
Because I know people so well,
How could he have come so shamelessly and held me in his arms?
“Ah, are you a little embarrassed to be caught by your younger brother? Well, it would be very embarrassing if your family caught you having sex. I understand.”
“Well, there is that too…” ” “
“But we can go together later and resolve any misunderstandings. Oh, I wouldn’t say it’s a misunderstanding, anyway.”
A man who knows me better than myself,
He naturally says that he has no intention of letting me go.
This relationship is only the beginning,
I naturally accept it too.
“Ha-eun.”
“⋯.”
“⋯Should I get up because the room is a little dirty? Let’s clean up and have dinner. “By ordering it.”
“⋯Ugh, yes⋯.”
On the cell phone in his hand his his his,
What may be contained,
I naturally imagine it.
⋯I can’t see it with my own eyes,
My obscene appearance,
It was playing freely in my head.
