Chapter 171 – Illya -2-
The answer to my question came after a while.
“First, there are facts you should know.”
What matters to me is the comfort of the world where the girls I love live.
That’s why I thought that if I couldn’t get a proper answer from the goddess, I wouldn’t move as she intended.
“As I said, the world repeats itself to near infinity.”
“Answer me from what I asked. I don’t care what happens to the other world.”
“What I am about to say will answer your question.”
Illya, who was about to continue talking, stopped talking midway, and the mirror that was reflecting me disappeared.
As the barrier between the goddess and me disappeared, I felt the pain in my heart once again.
Such an outward appearance that makes it difficult to maintain composure.
The doubt that had risen thanks to this grew even more, and she closed her eyes tightly.
“Is the goddess doing it to use the beauty world?”
I wonder if the existence in front of me is Ilya.
Then why is she dying?
I… Is there any way to help?
Even for a short time, sympathy, compassion, and affection surge through her head, preventing her from making normal judgments.
“That was not my intention. Rather, the question was what became of your world.”
The sound of blood gurgling and flowing reaches my ears.
Because I closed my eyes, I heard the death of the goddess more clearly because my hearing was more sensitive.
“The world you lived through no longer exists. The exact time is difficult to measure, but the world must have disappeared within a few days after you swallowed the evidence of the evil spirit.”
“What… Called?”
Disappeared?
She built a bond with them, awkwardly learned the feeling of love, and made sacrifices for it.
However…
“You think it’s gone?”
There was nothing I could do except open my mouth like a crucian carp at the absurd sound.
What did I sacrifice for?
If it’s going to end like this… It would be better to spend a little more time with them and face destruction together.
Fuck.
My heart was beating wildly and my vision began to narrow.
When the goddess says that everything is gone, when emptiness and emptiness begin to fill you with negative thoughts,
“The story is not over yet.”
I raised my head and looked at Illya.
What do you know? Look at you, as a goddess, on the verge of dying with scars.
Why… What can a being called God do?
That’s what I wanted to ask.
I wanted to jump right in and swing my fists at her to get rid of this anger, shouting that she would somehow revive the world.
However, it is very strange.
The anger and futility that had apparently boiled over began to melt away like snow when he faced Ilya.
I begin to feel that my dark core, which is essentially different from simply being attracted to the opposite sex, starts to change cleanly, and those positive feelings drive out the negative feelings that have remained in me.
Was it because of me that Ilya reappeared?
So that I don’t break, so I don’t go crazy.
“The world will repeat itself again. So, to be precise, your world doesn’t exist ‘yet’.”
I wanted to ask what does that mean?
Even if it is repeated, it is only the same appearance, but it means that the girls who built a bond with me eventually disappeared.
“I know what you are thinking. You’d think it doesn’t make any sense.”
Illya spit out my inner thoughts, as if she herself was aware of the essential problem.
“Meaning, there is. It’s just that you don’t remember her, because you and them are intertwined. Very tenacious and tight, like destiny.”
After all, isn’t it just a play on words?
But… You can’t just sit there like an idiot and do nothing.
It used to be, but not anymore.
“The same timeline has been repeated countless times. Now, those timelines that have disappeared without anyone remembering will have to be resolved by someone.”
Illya’s words started to slow down a little at some point.
It feels as if it is trying to convey again that there is not much time given to oneself.
“So I made up my mind. To expose this world, which was created apart from the original world, to a higher dimension. It was unintentional, but as a result, it was delivered as entertainment to your world, which has fallen into oblivion.”
One thing crossed her mind at her words.
“The Biography of Pure Love.”
“You’re right. The timelines that were floating in the dark were delivered to and resolved by an unspecified number of people in your world.”
That means that many people besides Hyeji and I have played the game Sunae Electric, and the errors in this world have been resolved a little.
But the question arises…
“Why me… You were thrown into this world?”
According to her, I… It must be Ed with a bad ending.
Ed succeeds in forgetting Lethe.
Subsequently, I become an orphan named Kim Chang-muk and live on Earth.
Honestly, it was hard to believe, but even if it were true, my story would have ended there.
But why?
Why did you call me to this world again?
“I don’t know. It is true that I condensed the timelines and distributed them as entertainment on your world, but I did not inscribe any dimension shifting devices into them. Even if it is a god, the lower dimension cannot unreasonably interfere with the upper dimension, so it would be impossible with my own power in the first place.”
It wasn’t Illya’s intention to call me to this world.
Come to think of it, the guy called the causal rate said that.
He said he threw me here.
“Tell me everything you know about the causal law.”
“Bloke… ?”
At my words, Illya tilted her neck with a creak.
It was very bizarre to see him bend his head while pouring out a large amount of blood.
It feels like seeing a scene where the ancients depicted God on the wall.
“The causal rate is literally the causal rate. A result inevitably caused by a cause. Therefore, it cannot be referred to as an individual.”
Unfortunately, Ilya didn’t seem to know much about causality either.
It got more and more complicated in my head.
I had to ask Illya a question to solve that complication, but… Now her condition was no different from her bounce sheet.
“You… No, why are you dying?”
There were still many things that were unclear.
However, I decided to have her minimal courtesy, so I decided to use her respect.
“It is for two reasons. First, by tying up all the timelines and sending them to your world for entertainment. … I had to pay a heavy price for interfering with the higher dimensions.”
It was now evident that her condition was not good.
The proof was that she breathed a little bit in the middle of her speech.
“The second… If an evil spirit appeared, and if that evil spirit is alive and well. It would make sense for God to disappear.”
“If it’s an evil god… Are you talking about me?”
“That’s right.”
Illya is dying because of me?
Complex emotions surged inside.
But there was no guilt in those feelings.
From the beginning, I didn’t come to this world because I wanted to.
Along with that, I lost everything I had accumulated.
If I hadn’t looked at Illya’s appearance, I’d probably have been shocked enough to ruin his mind, so it’s normal to feel anger, not guilt in the first place.
Whatever the process… There was only one option left for me now.
Even though all memories are gone, I still have them.
If the spirits are the same, I will try to help them reach a happy ending.
“Then… Now let me know What should I do?”
Once is hard, twice is easy.
It’s about sacrifice, it’s easy for me who already have a resolution.
“I, too, would have replayed it many times, but I don’t remember. What is certain, though, is that this will be the last time. It is up to you what the outcome of the world at the end will be.”
After her words, Illya lifts her arm with great effort at a very slow speed.
And where her fingertips pointed, there was an ordinary door.
“The beginning and the end, the end of the world. It must be what unfolds beyond that door. But…”
Illya took a hard breath and opened her mouth again.
“There is a very lonely place, and an eternity of pain awaits. Because it will go back to the first time that the world remembers. Thousands or tens of thousands of years must be endured.”
“Tens of thousands of years?”
The time that I dare not even guess came out of her mouth.
The time I’ve lived hasn’t been only 30 years, so it’s an unpredictable time.
“That’s right. If you endure the years, eventually, you don’t know if your mind will collapse. It is entirely your will to open the door.”
“What if I don’t open the door?”
“That must also be one of the ends of this world. If you do, the world will disappear. And only you will return to the higher dimensions, with your memories.”
Enduring the distant time of tens of thousands of years and returning to the earth where I lived and living a normal life.
If you go back to Earth, there will be wisdom.
Unlike me, she probably has no memories of this world.
“When you open the door… What should I do?”
Even if I did open the door, there was no guarantee that I would succeed.
Ed, the one-armed man who came to me, was like that.
He too would have opened the door, failed miserably and perished.
It was no different than me.
Because I was that Ed and Kim Chang-mook.
“You will naturally know what to do.”
Is it a thorny road that is like eternity, or is it to return to reality and settle down?
My reason, who has lived with a failure mindset, urges me not to pay attention at the door.
He knocks on her chest, asking Illya to send her back to Earth immediately and, if possible, erase my memories as well.
“Is it.”
Close her eyes and stretch your hands forward.
“… Every moment, you will regret your choice.”
“I guess so.”
Then he grabbed the old doorknob.
The answer was fixed from the beginning.
I will bring salvation to them.
I don’t know if salvation will come to me at the end, but that didn’t matter.
“Get your hands off me now. This is for you.”
“No.”
I turn my head and look at Illya.
A goddess whose eyes are now half-closed, endlessly waiting for death.
It wasn’t a choice for that existence.
“I’m ignorant, so I have to experience it myself to understand.”
I’ve been like that since I was little, and my tendency hasn’t changed even after I came to this world.
So it is also the same now.
“Thanks… Do.”
Illya closes her eyes.
After a while, as if even breathing had stopped, he pulled her arm, leaving behind the motionless figure of the goddess.
-Kiik.
A sound resembling a ghost’s scream echoes through the space.
Beyond the door was full of darkness.
I was afraid to step on her, and I wanted to close the door even now.
However, the subtle smile of the goddess gave me courage.
I have taken the first step toward a happy ending.
