Chapter 279 – IF Abduction. Older Sister Kim Winter, Younger Brother Kim Ga-Eul (22)
The summer vacation I hoped would last forever is over.
Autumn, who was by my side all day, went to school.
I am also by the side of my university classmates who are still at a loss.
The hot weather is starting to cool down,
Next to me grabbing my hair at school, instead of fall, fall approached.
The pleasant autumn breeze was not pleasant because a coat was added on top of the coat.
Unlike when I was walking around with Autumn, the autumn wind was so stuffy that I took off one layer at home.
Not wearing the cardigan I always wore around this time of year.
Throw away the leggings you always wear around this time of year.
Just like summer
Wearing the summer pajamas Gae-gae bought for me.
Wearing a T-shirt and shorts that Gae-gae glanced at.
I lay my brother on my bare skin.
Wishing you a refusal
I hope you don’t refuse.
After the autumn that was not rejected like that passed,
Before I knew it, I was in the middle of autumn.
“Happy birthday~”
“It’s okay. Stop.”
“Ah, why~ It’s your birthday, so I can give it to you~”
“You went to your father’s house and got it. What else?”
It must have been half a year already.
Living alone with my brother.
I wonder if more than half a year has passed.
What made me want to live alone with Gae-gae?
“Ah, noona, I want to congratulate you separately. I’ve already thought of all the dishes.”
“Do it tomorrow, tomorrow. It will be delicious.”
“Okay. I will do it tomorrow.”
My brother, who showed a shy smile with the setting sun on his back, stopped looking at me.
Always see or hear.
Thighs sometimes.
Often breasts.
When I swipe around and catch my eyes, I swallow her breath and avoid her head.
As long as I don’t know why
I was no fool.
“Ah, autumn. Let’s stop by somewhere before we go home.”
“Where is it?”
“I know when you come. For a moment.”
If I introduced the me from 10 years ago to the me now, wouldn’t they call me crazy?
If I introduce the me of last year to the me of now, I might be startled.
If I introduce the current me to the me half a year ago, for some reason I feel like I’m going to shed tears.
But now, that didn’t matter.
Because there are feelings that can’t be helped.
Ignore it and try to suppress it.
Because it just pops out with nausea.
Even if you can’t confirm it, you can admit it.
If you don’t admit it,
I will die, probably.
“… Picture?”
“You have to take out your ID card. Because it’s past your birthday.”
“Ah.”
Being an adult means taking responsibility for your actions.
Oh no.
It means you shouldn’t do something you can’t be responsible for.
It means you have to be patient even if you want to.
It means you shouldn’t do it.
“… I’m at an age where I can show my ID too.”
“Yeah~ My sister also felt very strange when taking out her ID card.”
“Why. Are you afraid that if you crash, you will be arrested?”
“Huh. There are fingerprints left.”
I know that Gae-gae, who has become an adult, wants to have time for herself.
I didn’t know the truth, but gradually I found out.
Listening to friends talk about boyfriends,
When I listened to a friend of a friend about my older brother or younger brother, I couldn’t help but know.
How to get rid of that tickling feeling.
Is that throwing up or holding back?
Are you enduring it?
Gradually.
“What, did you really intend to crash?”
“Hmm… , What if I don’t get caught?”
“Wow, you are a dangerous person. This.”
“Nuna is a dangerous person by nature, you bastard. That’s why you’re so calm.”
“What? Someone who has never tried it once in their entire life.”
“… My sister bought it and hit it once?”
“No, don’t, don’t. Something like that.”
Hold on until you can’t stand it
I vomit just enough so that it won’t explode,
Swallow the rising nausea,
Reference,
Hold out,
Endure it
How much longer can you endure it?
It’s a tough time though.
It’s not strange if your head explodes.
“Okay, okay, I won’t buy and play with you, so don’t buy and hit the autumn. Understand?”
“… Uh.”
“Come on, take a quick picture. Go back and sleep with your sister.”
“No, outside of those words…”
“Why?”
“It’s kind of like that.”
“… Are you okay inside?”
“…”
‘Cause I can’t buy
Because I’m an adult
Because I’m just responsible.
You couldn’t tell me what you wanted.
I couldn’t even say it.
Even if you are sure of your heart,
If you don’t tear your clothes to shreds to check,
You can’t be certain, autumn.
“… Boy. Why are you looking so flustered?”
“… No. Just.”
“If you don’t like sleeping with your sister, tell me. … I’ll sleep alone in the living room rather than watching TV.”
“How can I sleep alone when you talk like that?”
“Actually, you didn’t just want to hug your sister, did you?”
“… Then what will you do?”
“…”
Even if you pretend to be so determined,
Even if you open your eyes and look down at me,
If you don’t put a period in your words, noona can’t answer.
Because it’s your older sister.
Because I’m an adult.
“… I’m kidding. Joke.”
“… Really?”
“Ah, are you serious then?”
“Ah… , I am. I wondered if it was true because you said it so seriously…”
“I’m going to do that to my sister.”
“Ah, why? You really like me, Kim Ga-eul.”
“… I like them as siblings. Yes?”
“My older sister likes you more than siblings.”
“…”
“… And I like you even less than siblings, puhuh…”
What my sister can do
It’s just that you become the main character of the article that took a period.
Because my story is already over.
Because I am a character in the world you draw.
You can’t confess if you don’t want to.
You can’t say anything you don’t want to say.
You can’t see the ending you don’t want.
“… Sister.”
“Yes, autumn.”
“It’s okay to joke like that, but don’t do it to strangers.”
“What exactly is a strange person?”
“Everyone but me.”
“… He’s a strange little brother, really.”
With your hands,
With your mouth,
Give you the ending you want
If you want,
“Because the older sister is weird, doesn’t the younger sister also become weird? Yes? Winter Kim.”
“Ai, you blame your sister again. What did your sister do wrong? Huh?”
“… Let’s not talk, just.”
“Puhh…”
I’ll be your only sister.
Therefore…
… Please don’t sneak away at night.
Because my sister wakes up.
Come back,
Even if you embrace me
Because your scent only gets thicker.
***
ID Photo.
If you add your seal and address here, you get your ID.
Who I am, where I live,
If you look a little further, who is the mother and who is the father.
A photo that tells my fountain.
“… Stop looking at other people’s photos.”
“No, even looking at cancer, I don’t feel like autumn…”
“Wherever you look. Uh?”
“Yogi. Your chin is angular, but it has become slimmer.”
“Because of the angle.”
“Is it?”
I couldn’t face my sister’s gaze as she held onto it like a sticker picture and stared at it.
Even so, it was ambiguous to turn a blind eye.
A thin, see-through white T-shirt.
A bra close to your skin color.
Dolphin pants showing all panty lines.
I wear it like that every summer.
At least, I always wear the pajamas I bought for me when I sleep… ,
Even if I raise my arms a little, my belly button touches my clothes.
“… There, sister.”
“Huh?”
“It’s autumn, isn’t it cold? What if I wear clothes that thin?”
So I endured the hot summer with long pants.
Otherwise, I couldn’t fall asleep because my spine was cold.
The coolness you feel every time you enter the pool,
Every time I touch my sister’s bare skin, it runs down her neck to her brain.
It’s dangerous if you touch it.
Exciting.
You’ll be craving more
“Cold. It’s autumn.”
“Then why…”
“Because it is hot. … Autumn is you.”
But I guess my sister doesn’t.
You smell me like that,
Covet my warmth so much,
A curve that is ashamed to even reveal its silhouette to others,
Give me a taste of everything
Seduce,
Buried,
Face to face
Whispering
… Never cross the line
Well, it seems like that’s enough.
It’s like you don’t want more.
“If it’s hot…”
“No?”
“… Uh?”
“Don’t you like it? … Sleeping with your sister.”
That I don’t like it,
Knowingly
How I feel,
Obviously knowing
“… You said no.”
“Isn’t that what happened? Noona sleeps warmly, so it’s good… , Autumn is good because you sleep with your sister.”
“…”
… Why me.
Put to sleep
It happens often
Drink water
Vomiting nausea and excitement,
Knowing that you are chewing on endless guilt.
“… Winter Kim.”
“… Are you talking half-heartedly all of a sudden?”
“Can’t we?”
“That’s not right. You are my sister.”
I,
How much i
“… So, is it okay to hug like this every day?”
“…”
… Knowing that I care for you
“Don’t you think it’s strange? Really?”
“…”
“… You know, my sister too.”
You know I bury my face in your chest when it’s hard to bear it.
You know it gets hot when your ears touch your thighs.
You know my heart beats when I smell you.
If I hug you so tightly that I can’t breathe,
… You know how my body changes.
“… Hey there, autumn.”
“Answer me.”
“… What?”
“… To answer just…”
I want to vomit.
I want to vomit
Those dirty desires that have accumulated in your throat for months,
I want to spit it out.
No matter how much I swallow it, it won’t pass.
“… What can my sister say?”
“… What am I to you?”
“What? It’s autumn.”
“What the hell is that autumn?”
“Beside me… A person who stays with you all the time.”
“…”
“… I like the best… A person who ahs In many ways.”
“…”
“… My sister said it, so tell me too.”
That fills the throat,
I eventually
“… Sister.”
“Huh.”
“… Close your eyes.”
I spit it out.
“… Why?”
“Because if you open your eyes, you will be punished.”
“…”
… I hope to be punished,
My older sister’s eyelids that never close her eyes,
Close with my hand
Slowly.
To fall down on the bed
Should not be tasted
Want to taste,
That sweet fruit,
… Only the shell.
A little.
Ask the mouth
Because it’s soft,
The fruit of the knowledge of good and evil, whose flesh seems to spill out with just a slight bite,
Taste it.
My ribs,
Her butt to her.
