Chapter 582 – Attitude
We arrived at the restaurant Jinseok Lee had reserved to have lunch together.
Han Ye-ryeong, who had not said a word during her arrival, was feeling a little impatient.
‘I should say something…’
I originally didn’t plan on meeting you today like this. She thought that since it had been a while since they had met, they would be able to have a simple conversation, even if it was awkward.
While she was at home, she decided what topic she would discuss with him and even prepared answers to any questions he might ask.
But.
When I see Lee Jin-seok in front of me, I can’t open my mouth. It’s hard to even look at his face, let alone speak.
It’s really nothing, but it’s strange because I only looked at the face a week ago.
When I try to look at his face, my eyes naturally avert my eyes, and when I even make eye contact, my heart starts pounding so hard that I don’t think I can bear it.
‘It shouldn’t be like this…’
So, I become more impatient. I want to talk somehow, but I can’t open my mouth, and since I can’t open my mouth, the atmosphere becomes more awkward.
It was even more frustrating because even if Lee Jin-seok somehow opened his mouth first to start a conversation, he could only come out with a short answer.
As time passed, the thought that she had to say something dominated her mind.
‘But what should I say…?’
Until the day of her meeting with him, all the topics of conversation she had been thinking about while alone were erased.
As soon as we meet, her mouth becomes stiff, her mind turns blank with impatience, and she can’t think of anything to say.
Lee Jin-seok didn’t care at all, as if it was okay not to talk, but Han Ye-ryeong wasn’t.
Of course, he just didn’t show it because he thought he didn’t want to talk because he was in a bad mood because he was being forced to meet me.
But she didn’t know that, and it felt like she was just pretending to eat her food in silence.
‘What should I say? Won’t you feel bad if you did it now?’
It’s just a simple place to meet again, have a meal, and go on a date.
There is nothing here that makes her feel pressured.
Suddenly, Lee Joo-eun’s request came to mind, but it quickly disappeared.
I’m so focused right now that I can’t even say anything, but it’s not the time to worry about that.
In the end, the meal ended without even a single word being said. She tried to speak somehow, but it was impossible.
Han Ye-ryeong, who wanted to escape from this awkward and stuffy atmosphere, went straight to the bathroom as soon as she finished her meal.
She knows very well that it is impolite to go to the bathroom when you are about to pay after eating.
However, she was under such severe pressure that if she did not do so, she would vomit everything she ate.
“Haa… Haa…”
She wasn’t conscious of it, but she must have been automatically holding her breath because of the stuffy atmosphere.
As soon as she entered the bathroom, Han Ye-ryeong took a deep breath and was surprised to see her reflection in the mirror.
“I… I was eating with a face like this…?”
Her reflection in the mirror was so ruined that it seemed like a waste of her rare appearance.
Of course, the original version was so beautiful that other people would think it was beautiful, but Han Ye-ryeong had no time to think like that right now.
All she could see was her pale, listless face, full of her own shortcomings.
“Will we be able to meet again in the future?”
She’s like this even though she just ate, and I’m worried about whether she’ll be able to spend time together afterward.
She was worried that Lee Jin-seok might feel more upset or misunderstand her because she looked like this while they were eating together.
‘Now that I think about it, why doesn’t my brother say a word?’
Ye-ryeong Han, who was surprised to see her stiff expression, realized something strange when she calmed down to some extent.
It’s wrong that she can’t say a word right now, but isn’t there something wrong with Jin-seok Lee not saying a word?
Is she in a bad mood because I asked her to meet today and decide the outcome, even though she doesn’t like it?
Or is it because she tried to talk to her, but she ended it all with a short answer and didn’t say a word after that?
Worried. When he thinks that he may have been forced to come out even though he didn’t want to meet him, he loses confidence.
I’m more worried if he behaves like that because he feels bad because of what I did first.
It was really unfortunate that the other person felt bad because of my inability to open my mouth properly when we met in front of them.
‘What should I do…’
The more I think about it, the more I feel like I can’t find the answer.
It’s like being trapped in a maze where there’s no way out. In a situation where she seemed to have no way out, Han Ye-ryeong felt even more pressure.
“It’s late…”
She continued to think to herself and when she checked her watch, it was too late.
It’s already been 15 minutes since I came in. No matter how much time a woman spends in the bathroom, this was unreasonable.
‘I don’t want to be misunderstood.’
She didn’t want him to misunderstand that she was watching something big happen in the bathroom, so Ye-ryeong hurriedly came out before she had even made up her mind.
When she comes out, she sees Lee Jin-seok waiting quietly in the car with the engine running.
-Shock!
When I was looking at him for a moment, he seemed to feel my gaze and looked this way and made eye contact.
Ye-ryeong, whose heart was not ready yet, reflexively avoided eye contact with him and regretted it again.
‘I shouldn’t have avoided it…’
She wanted to make eye contact and have a proper conversation, but she couldn’t.
You are frustrated, and you know something is wrong, but you are disappointed in yourself because you can’t do anything about it.
“Whoa…”
After sighing once, Ye-ryeong Han couldn’t stand still and went into his car.
“Should we go back like this today?”
“Huh…?”
“I think you’re uncomfortable too, and I think it’s right to just break up.”
“…”
As she was alone worrying about this and that and wondering how she could become better, she heard something unbelievable.
Han Ye-ryeong did not properly understand Lee Jin-seok’s words as he was leaving today.
I think he said something after that, but the moment she heard him tell her to go back, her mind stopped.
‘Let’s go back…?’
Why is it going back? Is it because I made it too uncomfortable? Should I say something now? Etc.
Many thoughts pass through my head. But I couldn’t choose the right answer among them.
I don’t even know what he’s thinking, but he’s not worrying about what to say. I just couldn’t speak.
‘It doesn’t end like this…’
Ye-ryeong Han, who had been grumbling alone, was finally able to make up her mind and open her mouth with difficulty.
“That’s not possible.”
I wanted to say many reasons, but all that came out was one word.
I couldn’t open my mouth beyond that, and it was difficult to say anything beyond that.
Still, just when I was thinking that it would be a little better if I kept it like this, thinking that what I said would be meaningful.
“Let’s go back, I’ll take you home.”
This time, Ye-ryeong Han was surprised by her brother’s words, which were not a question but a definite answer.
Why is he doing this? Is it because he really feels uncomfortable meeting me anymore?
All kinds of negative thoughts dominate her mind. Still, I wanted to end it properly as it was the last time, but I didn’t want to part ways like this.
I have to open my mouth somehow. I want to say that there’s no need for that, that it’s because I’m still awkward, that I’ll say more, so you don’t have to go back, but I can’t open my mouth.
‘Please…’
Han Ye-ryeong, who was trying to open her mouth somehow, felt something in her snap as Lee Jin-seok continued.
“You don’t have to worry about what Jooeun says, I’ll take care of it myself.”
His words that you don’t have to worry about Lee Joo-eun.
When she heard those words, something broke in her head and she made a noise so loud that she didn’t even realize it.
“It’s not like that!”
No. I’m not doing this because I’m worried about her friend Lee Joo-eun.
Of course, I was worried at first. But it got better as time went by.
I didn’t want to spend my last days with him like this after breaking up with him because of something terrible.
However, I can’t open my mouth properly and my mind has turned completely white, so I can’t give a proper answer.
Even though I had organized everything in my head, I wanted to neatly organize the last lingering feelings in my heart.
But it was because of Lee Joo-eun, she was here now to end things properly, but when her friend’s name came up, she couldn’t say anything good.
‘Ah… I was wrong.’
Since it was her fault for yelling, she apologizes to him and chooses her next words.
But.
Her hair was still completely white and all she could say was no.
It’s not because of friends. I just showed that attitude because I was frustrated with myself.
These words don’t even come to mind. I want to make an excuse, but it’s impossible.
In the end, Han Ye-ryeong kept saying that she was not for Lee Jin-seok, and fortunately she was able to proceed with this meeting.
‘It can’t go on like this.’
She knew by his attitude.
She hasn’t said a single word until now.
The reason was because of myself. If you try to talk to them because they might make you feel uncomfortable, they might not like it because you only give short answers.
Because of these thoughts, he mistakenly thought I was uncomfortable and tried to end the meeting quickly.
Now that you know the reason, it’s not that difficult to treat it.
‘Let’s do it, we can do it.’
When she realized that Jinseok Lee did it to be considerate of her, she felt a little at ease.
Closes her eyes and remembers the time she spent with him. If it weren’t for the last time, the time he spent with him was happiness itself.
I was so happy that I thought if I could see the word happiness with my own eyes, it would be like this.
For the first time he felt like he was connecting heart-to-heart with someone. She knew that she could be so happy if she was loved by someone other than her family.
Closing her eyes, Han Ye-ryeong continued to try to somehow resolve this awkwardness in her head.
I don’t know how much time has passed. She just thought about her memories and didn’t want to open her eyes.
“Are you awake?”
Ye-ryeong, who slowly opened her eyes, heard Jin-seok Lee’s words next to her and immediately realized that this was a parking lot.
“Yeah…”
When she woke up, she said she was just sleeping without saying anything else.
It was because I was too embarrassed to say that I was calming my mind while recalling her old memories.
‘I think I’ve calmed down a bit…’
As I reflected on what happened in the past, it felt like the awkwardness had lessened a bit.
It’s still a short answer, but I didn’t feel uncomfortable as if my heart was constricting when I spoke.
“Where did you come from…?”
When she felt that she was okay, she felt relieved and for the first time, she asked him a question.
When I asked a question, my brother, who had only been answering questions, looked surprised.
This is our last date, and I still have some dislikes towards him, but I also have good memories.
Therefore, when Ye-ryeong Han faced this question properly, she made up her mind.
No one knows what happens next. She hadn’t made up her mind yet, and she didn’t even try to think about it.
‘Let’s end it without regrets.’
She wanted to end her meeting with him without any regrets. There is a high possibility that we will not see each other again.
So, for today, I decided to let go of all my bad feelings and just enjoy this time.
If you don’t like it, you can just go back midway. So I decide not to be too nervous.
When you let go of the great pressure of wanting to do something, you feel at ease.
The facial expression is still stiff, but as I get used to it, I think it will gradually ease up.
While thinking about that, Ye-ryeong Han looked into Jin-seok Lee’s eyes, something she had never seen before.
“Today… Let’s have fun…”
Since it’s the last time, let’s spend time with each other without any regrets. It’s okay to worry about the future later.
For now, I want to spend the moment in front of me as usual.
