Chapter 281 – Han Ye-Ryeong’s Memories Returned
Around the time when Lee Jin-seok was dazed after realizing that Han Ye-ryeong’s mental vulva had been released.
“My head… Hurts so much…!”
In the meantime, due to her modified common sense, she was feeling great pain as her original common sense returned.
If she had normally released her abilities, she would not have felt this pain, but now the situation in which her abilities were forcibly deleted while the system was disconnected from Lee Jin-seok.
Since she was a private institution, the system should have intervened and managed it, but she felt pain because she couldn’t.
‘Ah ah ah ah ah’
Han Ye-ryeong, who continued to tremble in pain as she felt something forcefully stabbed into her brain, collapsed on the floor of her house and lost her consciousness.
After a while, the alteration of her common sense that her mind’s vulgarity skill put on was gone, and she woke up from her fainting.
“What was it…?”
She lost her mind in pain she had never felt in her life.
The pain was so severe that I was worried that something was wrong with my brain.
She says that if she is in real pain, she doesn’t even make a ‘billion’ sound, but she knows that it’s true today as she goes through it firsthand.
Now that her pain is gone, Ye-ryeong Han, who decided to visit her at the hospital when she had time later, led her weary body to her bed.
‘I want to see you…’
She has no one at home now because she is living on her own due to school.
Knowing that living alone, she is most saddened when she is sick, she missed Lee Jin-seok.
She seemed to burst into laughter when she thought of him, whom she had loved more than her friends since birth, except for her family.
As she tried to call Lee Jin-seok on the pretext of being so sick, a certain memory suddenly popped up in her head.
‘Friends… Jin-seok oppa…?’
That was when she introduced her own friends to Lee Jin-seok for the first time.
After having a second round at Lee Jin-seok’s house while having a conversation in a good atmosphere, she was confused when she remembered what had happened that day.
She remembers having sex with her boyfriend, her first date since birth, with friends of her own.
‘Why am I… Seeing my brother with my friends…?’
She recalled the memory of her 5P, something she would never have done if she was herself, and she knew until after sex.
Even though her friends were worried about her because she had sex with her boyfriend, I just ignored it.
Recalling things she would never have done no matter how drunk she was, she began to sense the strangeness in her.
‘I could never do that.’
No matter how many times she thought about it, Han Ye-ryeong doubted Lee Jin-seok when she remembered something that could never happen based on her own values.
The turning point that changed her from always living her life normally without any change in her personality.
Recalling that a lot has changed since meeting Lee Jin-seok, whom she is dating now, she thought of the first day she met him step by step.
Her first meeting was a funny one. She came to apply for transfer to the school, but the strange person and Lee Jin-seok met at that time.
It’s a familiar thing to get a number from men because of her pretty looks, so the moment she was about to roughly refuse, he showed up for the first time.
She remembered apologizing for being so rude, and that was the first time she could smell her.
That a person with talent, a rare ability of his own that he has since birth, smells good.
The man next to him didn’t smell anything, but Lee Jin-seok was different.
It is a rich and pleasant smell that surprises you as you have smelled quite a few geniuses.
The pleasant smell made her feel curious about men for the first time.
The second meeting with her was the day she came to pick me up as I was lost on the OT day.
I was always having a hard time going the other way even if he gave me the way, but he came to pick me up.
He didn’t come close to me with a harsh look based on his appearance like other men, but he always treated me the same way.
Because she is a pretty woman, she treats her as the same person without anything special.
At first, she thought that her curiosity was felt as a slight crush, but she felt a sense of incongruity here.
‘I… Have a crush on a guy I’ve only met twice…?’
Since her childhood, she has been quite sensitive to the gaze of others because of her appearance, and she has never been attracted to men no matter how handsome or well-mannered she is.
It’s different in that Lee Jin-seok exudes a pleasant scent that surpasses the geniuses he’s met so far, but that’s the end of curiosity.
I would never like something like that, but she felt like it that day.
Does she like the fact that a guy she’s only met twice, no matter how nice he smells, treats her disinterestedly?
It was something that could never happen within her values, which she has lived through her life so far.
‘Come to think of it, it was strange back then too…’
The third encounter was with him on the way to MT.
Saying that since we went to the MT together, we have the same destination, so we will take you there comfortably.
She honestly said that when she first heard it, she was gilded, so it was tempting, but if it were her original self, she would never have accepted it.
No matter how familiar she was, it was impossible for her to avoid all men who approached her.
But she got on. And with the thought that I really really want to get on and go with that man.
‘It makes no sense…’
I don’t even talk to men, and I’m an introvert, so I’m shy a lot, but I rode a car with a man and went to the MT place.
Even just the two of them.
Later, while thinking about a few things at MT, she remembered the first time she heard his confession.
She, who is shy, was feeling a lot of likes just by coming here in a car with him.
I was extremely shy, so it took me close to three months to become friends with the friends I’m dating now.
We became friends only after meeting for the third time and talking for over an hour in the car.
Of course, she would think that his way of talking was so great that they could get close quickly, but she was already suspicious of Lee Jin-seok.
When one starts to doubt, everything starts to become suspicious.
‘I confessed like that, but I accepted it?’
Going back to the main topic, she received a confession from Lee Jin-seok.
She drinks too much and she says she’s going for a walk for a while and she walks in the park and on her bench.
And the confession Lee Jin-seok made to himself was not an ordinary confession.
As she kissed herself, whom she hadn’t even dated yet, she lowered her hand down her pants and touched her breasts, which she hadn’t allowed anyone to touch since puberty passed.
It’s not at all a situation where you confirm the love you’ve always dreamed of and confess with a fresh heart.
A confession where a woman’s sensitive parts are touched while kissing without saying anything.
Wary of her men after learning about her own appearance, she gave her everything to a man she had only met three times.
‘It’s unconditionally strange, there’s no way I’m like that.’
She doesn’t know much about sex and what kind of pleasure sex gives her, so she can’t be herself.
Knowing that fact well, she started to find her sense of incongruity in her meeting with Lee Jin-seok one by one.
She seems even more aroused by the sight of her being hit outside the window of her hotel during her first time having sex with him in her motel.
The last time she met with her friends, she moved to her second house and had sex with her.
After turning around and returning to the starting point, she found many senses of incongruity.
1. Even if you’ve never taken on a man before, your curiosity is enough.
2. It’s only a second meeting, and you never have a crush on yourself.
3. Never allow your body on the third meeting.
4. I don’t have sex with my first boyfriend and friends.
Even after that, there were some more senses of incongruity, but they were minor and the biggest stems were these.
‘How… Is this possible?’
Come to think of it, when I had sex with her friends, their behavior was also strange.
No matter how much you like sex, do you have sex with your first boyfriend?
Even considering that they were drunk, they were never friends who would do that.
Would there ever be a time when friends who always make fun of themselves and care so much would have sex with their first boyfriend?
One example thought that she would never do that unless she was at least a lustful beast.
And even if they do reveal sex, it’s not possible because they’re not brutes to the point of becoming sexually inclined.
After much thought, she finally knew who the cause of this was.
In her heart, she had already come to a conclusion, but with the thought that it shouldn’t be, no matter how hard she thought about it, the outcome was fixed.
She said that Lee Jin-seok was the cause of her sudden change.
I don’t know how that’s possible, but the method he used must have been a method that she thought could change a person’s mind.
Her virginity, she allows herself to be her body on her third encounter, and has sex with her friends, but everyone passes as if nothing happened.
Realizing that this could not happen unless she manipulated people’s thoughts, she felt a deep sense of betrayal.
Her feelings, which she had loved so far, were false.
She was in a relationship for the first time in her life, and the feeling of being happy when she was loved by someone was false.
She thought she could always be happy with the person she really liked, but her feelings were false.
It’s all made up by manipulating his thoughts as he wants.
I was really happy then, I don’t even have to think about the feeling of feeling really good at that time.
Like a mirage that can only be seen in the desert, it wasn’t all the feelings he really thought of.
Of course, Lee Jin-seok had never touched that part, but it didn’t matter to her, who already doubted everything about him.
‘That was…A lie…’
The moment she realized that all the feelings she felt while meeting Lee Jin-seok were lies, Han Ye-ryeong collapsed.
With those feelings and the headache she felt today, she went to sleep, not wanting to do anything anymore.
The more I think about it, the more I feel like I’m going to lose my mind.
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By the time Han Ye-ryeong’s taint to her mind was released and she knew everything about her.
“System, can’t you tell what Ye-ryeong is thinking right now?”
[Absolutely impossible. I am currently disconnected from all women I have had relationships with.]
“Then is there no way?”
[It is impossible unless you meet and contact them in person and interlock again.]
“Haa… I really screwed up.”
She knew for sure that the taint in her mind had been released.
Then, the only way left is to tell her the truth and ask her forgiveness.
She thought that if she could know what she was thinking and how she was feeling, she would be able to ask for forgiveness in a better way, but it was impossible.
Then, all that was left was to go to her scene without doing anything and ask her forgiveness, but Lee Jin-seok was afraid.
‘If they found out that I changed that way because of my ability, they would despise me…’
At first, I just had the ability, so I had the mindset to use it, but as we spent time together, a lot of things changed.
What do you like or dislike? If you do this, you are happy, if you do this, you are sad, etc.
We shared a lot of time together, and I was truly in love with Ye-ryeong.
But the girl I love despises me, hates me, loathes me.
I really couldn’t think of anything if she gave that kind of look to the situation she was facing right in front of her.
However, all of this happened without thinking because of my desire.
Everyone thought that I was her karma, and I waited for her to come from her with her impatient heart.
