Chapter 13 – 7. Chloe (2)
Inside the room.
Two people, Chloe and Vivina, are sitting facing each other across the gap between the two beds.
“…”
“…”
“…”
Chloe lowers her head and looks down.
It was also difficult to tell him to raise his head. It’s not like I’m interrogating you.
In the end, I decided that it would be better to find out why it was like this later and let it rest first.
After organizing my thoughts to that conclusion, I spoke.
“If you don’t do something right away, something big will happen.” “It’s not like that, is it?”
“…”
“You can’t even tell me that?”
“… No big deal.”
Chloe answers in a mutter.
I thought, ‘Okay, where is this?’ And continued speaking.
“Then that’s enough. If I ask you now, it feels like I’m being interrogated, so I won’t ask any more questions. “You probably don’t say anything because you have a reason.”
“…”
“… Still, us. Whatever it was, we traveled together for a month. I think it has become somewhat more comfortable. Of course, from your perspective, we are like guests who need to be served, so you can treat us badly.”
“…”
“But if I really only had the heart to treat guests, I would have used the word ‘yo’ and treated them with respect, and wouldn’t I have said to my sister, “Unni, unni, and me?” “It’s not like Dalkan and Princess Arwen gave an insignificant order to become friends.”
“…”
“And even after you arrive at Kela Camp and your mission is over, you will continue to live there. I wanted to continue to be close friends because I thought this was fate. Did I delude myself too much?”
“… No.”
“… You’re not a friend?”
“Well, that’s not it!”
Chloe looked up in surprise.
When his eyes met mine, he gave me a blank stare for a moment, then lowered his gaze again.
What…? Did I do something wrong?
Without even realizing it, I couldn’t control the devilish pervert, so I just glanced at him…?!
“… You’re not alone in your delusion.”
Contrary to my worries, I received a positive answer.
Feeling relieved, I continued speaking again.
“Then tell me later. When it hurts, it hurts. If it’s a problem, it’s a problem. As you know, my sister and I are gentlemen who worked as commanders in the military where all kinds of crazy people gather? I’m not surprised by most things.”
“Yes, that’s right. Chloe… You can say anything. Yes…!”
Bibina clenches her fists and helps.
But Chloe still had her gaze down.
“… That.”
Still, after waiting, he opened his mouth first. As expected, my Poongdun Agarisul is shit…
“A medicine that my sister takes sometimes. Is there…?”
“…”
Chloe’s words calmed me down from my premature joy.
When she saw me giving it to Bibina, she was curious, so I told her vaguely that it was a tranquilizer, and she seemed to remember that.
“There is.”
“…”
“… Give it to me?”
Chloe nods.
It was as if she was saying that she was having a hard time mentally.
“… I’ll give. Wait.”
So I couldn’t refuse or question any further, so I calmly took out the pill Chloe had mentioned.
I gave it to Bibina occasionally for a week or two while I was on the road, but now I don’t give it to her because I think it works better when I just hold her.
“If you eat it, you will feel dizzy. Eat and take a nap. “He said he couldn’t sleep.”
“…”
Chloe still lowers her head and reaches for the pill.
I gently squeezed the hand holding the medicine to stop him from taking it. And said.
“Instead, promise me that when you wake up, you’ll tell me at least a little bit about what’s going on. “As much as possible.”
“…”
Chloe nodded her head.
And when I opened my hand, he took the medicine.
“Woah, here. Water…”
“…”
Chloe, who swallowed her medicine with water brought by Bibina, immediately lay down with her back to us and spoke in a low voice that seemed to fade away.
“Sorry. “I’ll be fine when I wake up.”
“Then I’m glad. Instead, don’t pretend to be okay. “You don’t talk so kindly back then.”
“… Yes.”
After that answer, Chloe didn’t say anything else.
At the end of the long conversation, I sighed, feeling relieved, and Bibi held one of her hands and gave it a squeeze as if to comfort me.
“… Zzz.”
Soon, the sound of Chloe’s snoring resounded softly.
We thought we shouldn’t wake up after staying in the room for no reason, so we quietly left the room, leaving a note saying, ‘I’ll look outside and come back around dinner time.’
* * *
A quiet room.
Chloe woke up and looked around her room alone, wondering if it was all a dream.
I really hoped so.
However, when I saw the note left on the table that said, ‘I’ll take a look outside and come back around dinner time,’ I had no choice but to admit that it was all true, and I was devastated.
And fortunately or unfortunately, the despair did not last long.
This is because I once again felt the phantom limb pain and depression that suddenly came early this morning and that I couldn’t bear no matter how hard I tried.
Still, perhaps because of the medicine Perry gave me, I was able to endure it better than before, so I was able to ponder the question, ‘Why is this happening all of a sudden?’, Which I couldn’t touch before.
It was difficult from the beginning.
There was also an awareness that it was getting worse.
He suffers from phantom limb pain from time to time, and whenever he is alone, he takes off his clothes and lies flat, but he fiddles with himself.
The sense of self-destruction at seeing myself like that has already reached its limit.
The missing arm, the cause of all this, is so disgusting that I want to cut it off.
It seems like they are trying to control themselves as much as possible in front of me, but why do I feel so confused every time I see them unable to hide their flirtatious behavior? Fuck.
Still, it was worth holding on.
I was not a princess who grew up beautifully in a greenhouse, but a spy belonging to the royal family’s royal guard who saw everything she could see and experienced everything she could and could not do.
This means that even if you are a one-armed, freckled idiot who fiddles with you no matter how much you look, you can at least be a bright and cheerful carriage driver in front of two people.
But this morning, I just couldn’t bear it.
The phantom limb pain in my missing arm felt like it was on fire, and my heart, pounding with fear, refused to subside.
After stomping around the room and somehow calming down, I suffered from anxiety and depression, and even forgot that I had to leave until there was a knock on the door.
In the end, he couldn’t hide his distressed appearance and got worried from both of them.
I can’t figure out why it’s suddenly like this.
I can’t explain it unless a ghost with a grudge came to visit me all night and put a curse on me…
…
…
“… I’m really crazy.”
Throwing away the worries that should have been the first thing to do, I felt deeply disillusioned with myself imagining the face of Perry, who had looked so handsome earlier that I had stared at him blankly.
I’m not a shy girl, and I have no intention of denying my feelings.
Likes. Perry.
It’s good. Perry. He’s a good man.
He’s handsome. Tall and tall.
He has a friendly personality and speaks intelligently.
Above all, when I see her begging Bibi or her older sister, dripping honey, I unconsciously think, ‘Why don’t they do that to me?’
That feeling grew bigger and bigger.
In proportion to the time we travel together.
The sticky feelings that were a mixture of liking for the attractive opposite sex and jealousy toward the same sex as the opposite sex deepened as they dug into my anxious heart.
And now it has become a clear coalition.
“… Ha.”
She became the main character of ‘I fell in love with someone who owns’, which I had only heard about in novels and rumors.
She was disillusioned with herself.
Well, let’s just pull it off like the main characters in the rumor?
Do you have a conscience?
They’ve been together for less than a month, so they like each other so much that they want to get in between those two and make a fuss?
Could you have taken it away from that pretty girl in the first place?
Or should I just beg to be accepted as her concubine?
Is she a concubine because she is a spy? She is an asshole. It’s true that her brain was cut off when her arm was cut off.
No matter what I think, I continue to suffer the agony that leads to feelings of self-destruction.
‘I heard you’ll be living there from now on too. I think this is fate, so I want to continue to be close.’
What Perry said suddenly came to mind.
… Okay.
This is also fate, and we should get along well.
Perry and Vivi and her older sister are both nice people, even though they are a bit unique, and we are now from the same neighborhood.
Also, I have a duty to work at the embassy and report on how the two of you are doing. Yes.
Okay. So.
“I really shouldn’t do this…”
Chloe hugged her lower abdomen and soothed the empty space inside her that kept whining.
…
…
How long has it been like that?
There was the sound of a key turning in the door.
Chloe got out of bed and went to the door.
Soon the door opened.
Vivina, Peri, and Chloe’s eyes met as they held each other’s hands tightly as always.
“Did you sleep well?”
Perry asked.
Chloe answered, “Yes.”
“Are you okay?”
Followed question.
“… Even more than before!” Chloe replied, forcing a smile.
She tried to ignore the fact that Perry had slightly wet the spot where she was sitting earlier.
* * *
After leaving the inn, Bibina and I walked through the village with our arms linked.
I couldn’t get excited because what happened in the room was work. Still, I walked around leisurely and enjoyed the atmosphere of the countryside.
“I guess this town is famous for herbs. The smell is strong from the street.”
“Yes. It smells good…”
“Then shall we buy some? Dry it and eat it as tea. A scent like this would be helpful to Chloe now.”
“Joe, I like it…!”
I’m wasting my money by buying special products.
“Ohh.”
“Uh, do you want to eat…?”
“No.”
“…”
“… Shall we just have one bite each?”
“Yes…!”
She is not a grandmother who thinks that the world will be ruined if her grandchildren starve. When I admired the fire show at the food stall, she immediately tried to feed me, so she bought a skewer and shared it.
“How much of a house should I buy? It should be at least two stories, right?”
“I, I… Perry, if I like you, then everything is fine…”
“Don’t just say things like that again. Take your time and think about what you want too. If you go as far as you have come, you will get there.”
“… Yes.”
“The first floor is used as a store. The second floor has a living room, a bedroom, my studio/study, and my sister’s personal room… At least four.”
“(Nods).”
“… And the bed is made of solid wood to make it sturdy.”
“…(Nod nod nod)”
“My sister. Are your cheeks red?”
“Ugh…”
Talking about life in Kela Camp.
As the sunset began to set in the sky, we walked back to the inn.
And the moment the inn came into view.
“… Peh, Perry.”
“Huh? Why?”
“K-Chloe… Do you have this in mind…?”
My heart sank.
