Chapter 339 – 339. Sincerity Conveyed Under the Moonlight
※All characters are adults anyway.
“Get out of the way!!”
Seorin ran out.
Go straight without looking back.
As she placed her hand on the cheek that had been hit by Seorin, she inadvertently looked down at the floor,
There were traces of her tears that Seorin had dropped.
“What are you doing!? You’re not going to chase me!”
“…”
No words came out.
Her body didn’t move either.
Hoyeon with an urgent face called out to me, but I didn’t move, just slightly lifting my knees and hands.
No, I didn’t know what to do.
As her hair turned completely white, I just stood there and giggled, like an old machine that started and stopped again and again.
“Shouldn’t you do something? She’s your girlfriend!! Are you going to just stand there and watch like an idiot after only getting slapped once?”
‘It’s my first time seeing Seorin like that… Besides, I… Ended up disappointing Seorin…’
I made a miserable expression on Ho-yeon’s face, who was angry as if he was going to beat me up, and spewed out words that I couldn’t tell if they were excuses or atonement, but those excuses only murmured in my head.
In reality, I was just a fool standing pathetically and flinching.
“Mmm…”
ㅡJump-jump-jump-jump-jump-jumble
Hoyeon clenched his fists and gritted his teeth, then walked towards me.
When the most vicious expression on Hoenn’s face I’ve ever seen took over my field of vision,
“Pathetic guy!!”
ㅡWow!!
“…”
I got hit on the other cheek by Hoyeon.
“I’m disappointed! Han Seon-yul! I never thought you would be such a pathetic bastard!! Didn’t you say you would take care of everything, including your woman and all? Didn’t you say you would make her happy!? But, you who said that…! Mmm…! Is it really possible to remain in such a pitiful state…!”
Hoyeon’s hand, holding my collar, was shaking.
I was the one who got slapped… But for some reason, Hoenn’s face looked much more pained than mine.
After that, Hoyeon continued to say bitter things to me, who did not respond in any way.
Disappointment, telling me to chase after you, telling me to say something.
But I couldn’t hear Hoenn’s words.
No, although each one of Hoyeon’s words was painfully stuck in my heart, I was still sobbing like a corpse as Hoyeon shook me, recalling the feeling of my sore cheeks and Seorin’s tears.
“Kuh… Lie down!!”
-Tuk!
ㅡSharply
“With that look…!!”
-Chuck! Slam!
“Don’t just stay still with that face…!”
ㅡSrurruk
“I mean, try something!!”
“…”
With tears in her eyes, Hoyeon threw me down on the bed and took off my pants.
Hoyeon said, ‘Are you feeling good? Hurry up and get erect. What I’m saying is hug me like you always do and use that to regain your confidence. I want you to hit me confidently, just like the day you first held me and like you said you would take care of me!’ He said and continued to caress my cock.
“Stop…”
ㅡTub
“Ah…”
I held on to Hoenn’s hand.
Hoyeon’s face was more messed up than mine, so I felt a little guilty.
“… Thank you. You were trying to give me courage, right?”
“Ah…!”
At my answer, Hoenn’s face began to brighten.
Hoyeon tried to cheer me up somehow, and his feelings were clearly conveyed to me.
But…
“But I can’t live up to your expectations…”
“What…?”
But I couldn’t live up to Hoenn’s expectations.
Is it because he got slapped by Seorin, or because he made Seorin cry, or if not, is it because he feels guilty about Seorin losing her memories… Or all of them?
Right now, I couldn’t think of anything to do, and I didn’t have the courage.
She didn’t have the courage to look at Seorin’s face, and even if she caught Seorin, she couldn’t even think of what to say.
Probably for the first time…
It seems like he feels like he might have to give up.
“Then if I ask you to break up, will you break up with me too?”
“… What?”
Hoyeon looked at me with resentful eyes and said.
“You just sit there so stupidly, you become so weak that you’re not like yourself, you can’t even say a single word properly, and you don’t even come forward!”
“Now, wait a minute…”
“Was everything you showed before just a lie? That’s good! We’re breaking up too!”
“W-what are you talking about…?”
“Now I’m telling you that I’m sick of people like you! Everyone will leave you, starting with me!”
“What…?”
Hoyeon pushed me away, yelling in a voice that sounded like she was crying.
“Everyone will leave an idiot like you and find another man!”
“S-stop… I don’t want to hear it…”
“Me too! That kid from yesterday! Your sister too! And…”
“Stop… Tell me…”
“Hanseorin too!!!”
“…!!”
“I will be hugged by a man other than you…”
“I told you to stop!!”
ㅡTub!!
I grabbed Hoyeon’s wrist roughly.
When Seorin imagined being hugged by another man, her anger rose to the top of her head.
When I saw Hoyeon’s frightened expression, I relaxed my hold on her hand, but
“Han Seo-rin, that child will definitely meet and marry someone other than you.”
“… What?”
Hoyeon did not stop.
“Holding another man’s hand”
“Stop it!!”
ㅡaaaaah!
“Ugh…! I’m going to kiss another man’s lips!”
“Don’t do it!!”
ㅡaaaaah!
“Ugh!! Ha… I’m going to spread my legs for another man, I’m going to be hugged by another man, and I’m going to fawn over him!! I’m going to shake my waist and say it feels good!!”
“Kuh…! Stop it…”
“If you don’t like that!!!!!”
Hoyeon shouted loudly.
The sound felt like the shouting of a teacher teaching a disciple.
Soon, Hoenn’s distorted expression slowly relaxed, and he looked at me with pity and said.
“Go and bring that child. There are many issues that can be resolved with just a few words. Rather than worrying about whether this is really right, have a sincere conversation with each other and convey your true feelings.”
“Ah…”
“Ugh… Now, can you please let go of this arm? It hurts a little.”
“Ah!”
When I came to my senses after hearing Hoyeon’s words, I saw that his wrist was still being held by me, and his hand had turned pale.
“I’m sorry!!”
ㅡSeuugh
I hurriedly let go of Hoyeon’s wrist and apologized to Hoyeon.
When he thought about not only making Seorin cry but also hurting Hoyeon, he felt like an even more pathetic person.
But Hoyeon wasn’t even hurt, so he encouraged me and told me not to worry.
“I’ll ask you again. Will you break up with me?”
“No… I don’t want to break up…”
“Then Han Seo-rin, who is that child?”
“I don’t like it…”
“What about that child being hugged by another man?”
“I don’t want to die…”
“Then go quickly. Go and apologize, and convey your sincerity properly.”
ㅡSeuugh
Hoyeon smiled gently and caressed my face.
It hurt my heart to see the marks on his wrists as he stroked my cheek, but Hoyeon still smiled and encouraged me.
“It’s foolish not to express your feelings to the other person because you’re thinking about them. It’s also foolish to keep your mouth shut because you’re worried.”
“…”
“That child will definitely be waiting for you too. It may be confusing in many ways right now, but… That child’s love for you is sincere. So, say what you want to say, what you want to convey, what you have in your heart, and what you swallow without thinking. Go ahead and say it all. Please tell me and make peace with me properly. Teacher will be waiting for you here.”
The day we first met, Hoyeon said he would correct me, and I think he really did that.
Hoyeon helped me up when I was down, and he helped me move forward.
To meet a woman like this and a teacher like this, I feel really lucky.
And Seorin too.
To meet a child like Seorin, can I ever have such luck again in my life?
Obviously, I made Seorin cry, and she also hurt Seorin.
She still doesn’t know what to say to Seorin, but she wants to apologize to Seorin.
I want to meet Seorin and tell her my true feelings,
I want to start again with Seorin.
“… It’s just as the teacher said.”
“Okay, go back, you stupid disciple.”
ㅡTuk
Hoyeon smiled and pushed my back.
It is exactly as Hoenn said.
If we break up like this and Seo-rin falls into the arms of another man… There will be no greater regret than that.
I don’t know how Seorin will react.
But I’m going to see Seorin.
I met Seorin and asked for her forgiveness.
I will tell you my heart once again.
“Thank you, teacher… I’ll be back.”
I opened the door, leaving Hoyeon waving her hand on the bed.
.
.
.
ㅡㅡㅡ Han Seo-rin’s point of view ㅡㅡㅡ
It’s cold.
If I had known this would happen, I would have put on at least one of her outerwear and come out.
A sharp wind that seemed to cut her skin.
It feels even colder because I’ve shed a lot of tears and because it’s the beach at night.
However, what worries me more than that is…
“… My heart… Hurts…”
My heart hurts.
Although she didn’t really expect anything from him, she felt like she had been betrayed and her heart ached.
The smell of another woman I felt when he hugged me.
It felt like her heart was being torn apart.
Anger, frustration, betrayal, sadness.
All kinds of emotions came together and weighed down my heart, and I felt like I was betrayed by everything in this world, as the burden and sadness overflowed, making me want to vomit.
Moreover, another emotion of mine that had nothing to do with my will… No, a part of me was in love with him, so my heartache for him felt even greater.
However, rather than feeling heartbroken and betrayed by him…
“I’ve never seen that expression…”
I kept thinking of his face as he got slapped by me, and my heart tightened.
“I shouldn’t have hit you on the cheek…”
The man who was always confident, looked devastated.
I can’t forget that expression.
The expression he showed the moment he hit me.
The lonely expression that clearly conveyed that he was heartbroken kept flashing in his mind, and for some reason, his heart tightened.
As I was thinking about him like that, my steps started to slowly slow down.
ㅡJump-jump-jump-jump-jump-jumble
“…!!”
At that time, I started hearing footsteps from behind.
I got scared.
Such a remote road at such a late hour.
Besides, I’m alone now.
“…!!”
When I thought like that, an even bigger fear began to creep in.
Murder? Hijacking? As I started to feel afraid due to all kinds of thoughts, regrets began to come to me.
I should have worked a little harder, been a little more cautious, or…
For the last part, I wanted to be remembered by him smiling.
“…”
I fell into a moment of panic and stopped walking.
However, I could not hear the footsteps that had been heard a moment ago.
ㅡJump-jump-jump-jump-jump-jumble
ㅡJump-jump-jump-jump-jump-jumble
When I took another step out of curiosity, the footsteps that followed me began to move again.
“…”
I stopped walking again.
He also stopped walking after me.
I tried to retrace my steps again.
He also started walking again after me.
It felt as if the person whose footsteps were following me had something to say to me.
What to say?
The moment I thought that, the fear covering me disappeared.
ㅡUgh… Todok tok tok tok todok
ㅡTiriririririn
“Ah”
ㅡSeuugh
“Hello…?”
“Ha… Why are you following me around like a stalker?”
I proudly looked back and could see the face of the stalker who had been following me all this time.
“Sorry… I couldn’t get the timing right…’
“It’s dark…”
“Ugh…”
For a man, he has a white and beautiful face.
That’s it.
The identity of the stalker was him, Han Seon-yul.
“Why did you follow me?”
“I want to apologize…”
“I have no intention of accepting it. Let’s go back. Hmph.”
ㅡTick
“Huh? Now, wait…!”
I snorted and hung up the phone.
I ignored him and turned back and started walking again, and he started following me.
“… Don’t follow me?”
“Women walking alone at night are… Dangerous”
“… Strange sound”
He sometimes says strange things like this.
It is true that I was a little scared earlier, but it is common sense that it is more dangerous for a man alone at night, but it is different for a woman and a man…
It sounds like their values have changed.
But… I was a little happy about his worries.
“Go back. I don’t want to talk about it.”
ㅡJump-jump-jump-jump-jump-jumble
I coldly rejected him and hurried my steps without knowing where I was going.
But he kept following me.
I’m not sure if I’m being noticed or if I’m trying not to get caught, but I’m slowing down to my rhythm.
Honestly, it was a little annoying.
If you have something to say, say it, why are you hesitating to stalk me?
For some reason, I started to feel irritated with him, and I wanted to turn around and swear at him.
However,
On the other hand, I’m annoyed…
“… Sigh… Don’t follow me like a stalker, but walk ten steps behind me.”
“… Yes”
I was somehow happy.
I’m glad I was able to see him once again.
I’m glad he followed me.
There was a person who thought that way.
“… Walk five steps behind me”
He followed me because he was worried about me.
“Three steps”
You must have felt bad because you got hit by me,
“Two steps”
He must have been hurt by me too,
“… I’m so crazy, so just walk next to me.”
“Oh, yes”
He willingly followed me to catch me.
As he stood next to me, my heart felt itchy for some reason.
This is my first time feeling like this.
The anger and anxiety that had been covering me just a moment ago disappeared, and a strange tickling sensation suddenly began to linger in my chest, and I almost hummed without thinking.
He walked with me for a while, seemingly looking for an opportunity to talk to me, and we sat on a bench in the middle of a secluded walkway.
“…”
“…”
“The moon… Isn’t it pretty?”
“… I’m not interested”
He glanced in my direction a few times, finally raised his head to look at me, and said something nonsense about the moon being pretty.
“If you came here to say something like that, go back.”
“…! No…! I… Seorin”
He looked straight at me.
His eyes showed fear instead of confidence, but he looked at me with straight eyes.
“I was wrong, Seorin. I made you anxious, I left you without thinking about your feelings… And I think I failed to convince you. I should treat you more carefully… With words. I should have conveyed my feelings properly…”
He seemed quite courageous, probably because he wasn’t sure that I would forgive him.
“Pathetic…”
“Ugh…”
“Are you so scared that you can’t even speak properly, that you stutter, and that’s what you came to say?”
“Ugh… No… I… I wanted to apologize…”
Unlike usual, he looked very pathetic as he just stared at me.
But…
He came out to catch me after I told him to break up and even hit him…
Just a little…
It felt lovely.
“I’m really sorry… I hurt you”
“… Do you know? Didn’t you say that this trip was for me in the first place?”
“That’s right… I’m… A truly horrible person. I assumed that you would always be by my side, Seorin, and then I neglected you and made you angry. I hurt you… And did whatever I wanted.”
“Hmm…”
“I wish you would reconsider breaking up. I don’t want to lose Seorin. I want to stay with you. Furthermore, I don’t want you gone.”
“Hmm…”
When I heard those words, ‘I want to stay with you forever,’ I felt better for some reason.
Honest feelings that are different from usual.
The person who always forced things, the person who only did what he wanted, is waiting for my opinion and waiting for my permission.
For the first time, he is properly expressing that he needs me and that he likes me.
Seeing his earnest appearance, my anger eased a little.
For some reason, now…
Now that he’s shown me his sincerity, wouldn’t it be okay to start with him again…?
“Then can you promise to only look at me?”
“That’s… Difficult. Everyone is precious…”
“Hmph, that’s an answer that a trash person would give.”
This is the expected answer.
He definitely won’t give up on this.
He won’t be satisfied with just holding me, and like always, he’ll hold many women in his arms.
Because he is a special person.
Another me inside of me was that special person… No, I guess I was in love.
I wanted to be that special person, but… If I want to demand something special from that special person, I also need to understand him.
So… I’m not satisfied, but…
If only I had apologized and reflected to this extent…
It’s not okay to forgive at this level…
“But…”
“Huh?”
“But if Seorin says you really can’t accept it, if she says she really can’t accept it…”
“Huh?”
“Then I’ll quit the harem and everything.”
His expression was serious.
I was a little… Surprised.
I don’t know if that’s true, but he told me that he was willing to give up everything he had for me.
He told me that he was giving up things that were very important to him, things that he never wanted to give up, and that he was giving them up only because of me.
For me…
Just for me…
Then I…
Are you his ‘special person’?
“Ugh…!!”
ㅡSwift!
“Huh?! Trigrams, are you okay?!”
My heart feels tight.
My heart is pounding, and my face feels hot.
I felt the same way when I slapped him in the hotel, it was definitely the same feeling…
“Seorin? Are you okay…”
ㅡWheeik!
ㅡChamp!
“Wow?! Shirin?”
“That…! Is it true?”
“W-uh… Really? If Shirin wants it… I’ll only look at Shirin.
‘Only Seorin’
Just you… Can you please let go of this ball? I can’t speak properly…”
“Ahh!!!♡♡”
“Seorin?!”
It’s a completely different feeling.
Happiness, pleasure, satisfaction, joy, loveliness.
A good feeling covers the whole body.
Even though he didn’t touch my body or caress me, a large amount of dopamine was secreted from the brain and flowed through the blood vessels to various parts of the body, causing an orgasm throughout the body.
My whole body feels electric shock and my stomach jumps, I feel like I’m going to pass out like this.
Is this love?
Is this another special feeling I had for him?
My emotions are boiling over.
I want to monopolize him.
I want to love him.
I want to be close to him.
I want to feel him.
“Okay. I forgive you…!!”
ㅡSeueueueueueueueuuu
“… Really? Thank you, Seorin… I will never disappoint you from now on. I always think of Seorin first… Seo, Seorin?”
“Excuse me…!!”
ㅡHelp!
ㅡSharp!
“Haup!!♡”
“Seorin?! Ugh?!!”
Ah… His tongue comes in.
It’s warm.
It’s slippery.
Sweet…♡
It feels like my brain is being pummeled by his tongue and ejaculated inside my brain…♡
I couldn’t control anything about him, so I threw away my jacket and sat on top of him.
Then, he hugged his neck tightly, took his lips, and inserted his tongue.
My man.
Mine.
My special person.
I want everything about him…♡
“Puha! ♡ You know, do you like me? Do you like me? Side♡ Side♡ Side♡ Side♡”
“Puha! Ugh, huh? You like it? Tsk… Tsk… It’s a huge… Kiss baptism?”
“Ahhhhh!!!♡♡♡ Haa…!♡ Haa…!♡ More… Tell me more!! I love you…!! I… Furthermore, I’m your special person!! ♡”
ㅡClap, clank, clank
“Uh… Uh… Huh? Seo-rin is my special person. I love her the most. But… Wow, I suddenly don’t understand? Why are you taking off your pants?!! Wait a minute!! You’re not mad at me?! Stop it!”
ㅡGkekeoltteok!!♡
“Ah…!♡”
Ahhh…♡♡♡
It’s a dick…♡
His cock… Big, thick, hard… Soaring high into the sky…♡
It’s so thick, so hot, and the veins are so bright and colorful…♡
Is that why my kiss made you so excited?
Is it because of me… That you made me this excited?
I… Realized clearly.
This is not another feeling of mine, nor an instinct or feeling created by another me,
My feelings, what I want.
What I wanted was not a slave or a girlfriend, but the rights of an equal lover and the right to do whatever I wanted with him.
Also, I want him…
“Stay still!!♡ Don’t move!♡”
ㅡCow!♡ Cough!♡
“Now, wait a minute!! Just calm down a little! Ugh…! Ugh!! Stop…”
“Haup!!♡♡♡”
“Keuuuuu his? Its their mouth… It’s warm…!”
“Jurururup~!♡ Jurururup~!♡ Chupukchubbukchubbungchubbung~!♡ Chuoook~!♡ Juhooooop~!♡”
“Seo… Seorin… Ugh?! Ugh!! Wait…! Ugh!”
I want to eat it.
