Chapter 338 – 338. Let’s Break Up
※All characters are adults anyway.
“Let’s break up”
“What…?”
I am dumbfounded.
No, it’s a feeling I’ve never experienced before.
My chest is so tight that it explodes, I feel hopeless as if I have no taste for food or even the desire to move, and it feels like something is going back up, like I’m going to vomit, and my esophagus and chest are burning.
And one more thing, the feeling in my left cheek that was hit by Seorin is slowly coming back.
My skin feels hot as if I’ve applied a patch, and I feel something strange near my teeth. I think my cheeks are swollen.
“What do you mean…? Let’s break up…”
“Do you really think this is normal?”
“Huh…?”
“Holding this girl, that girl, any girl, having as many girlfriends as possible. Do you really think this is a normal way?”
“…”
“You can’t say anything. You know this is strange. I just can’t stand it. Do you know how I feel every time you whisper to another woman that you love her? And then you tell me you love me? Why on earth am I so anxious? Do I have to pay, get annoyed, wait, and endure it? I really hate it!!
Seo-rin screamed as if she was throwing out everything that was in her heart, and she gurgled a few times, then lowered her head and began to shed tears.
“Ah…”
Seorin’s tears made me feel like something in her had collapsed.
Knowing that I had made Seorin cry, her heart began to tighten even more than before, and her hand stretched out, not knowing what to do, went back to her thigh without being able to get close to Seorin. It stuck
Seorin doesn’t know what to do with her overflowing tears.
Seo-rin stood there, rubbing her eyes roughly with her clenched fists, pouring out words full of resentment such as ‘you bastard’ and ‘how bad I am’ that were hard to hear. 〉
How is Seorin feeling right now?
ㅡㅡㅡ Han Seo-rin’s point of view ㅡㅡㅡ
A room with no one in it is so quiet.
It almost felt like the world had come to an end.
To soothe her boredom, watch TV for a while, lie down on the bed and look at your phone, or sit on the terrace and look at the beach.
It’s empty.
It feels like there is a hole in her chest, something is missing and empty, and there seems to be an unquenchable thirst in her heart.
“… You said it as if you would do everything…”
Again.
When I have time to think alone like this, my head and heart become a mess with thoughts of that man, Han Seon-yul.
Han Seon-yul.
A shameless person with nothing but dirty things in his head.
A man crazy about his sexual desires who want to make this woman and that woman his own.
And…
“My boyfriend… Ji…”
To put it bluntly, that kind of guy is my boyfriend.
Moreover, before I lost my memory, I think I really liked that shameless guy.
“Ha…”
ㅡTok tok tok tok tok
Even if I pick up my phone and look at the gallery or look at various messengers with an unresolved feeling.
With that man and that man all around me, it occurred to me that I really loved him, and without even realizing it, my feelings became strange somehow.
To be more specific, I feel like something is constricting me from the bottom of my chest to the inside of my throat.
Moreover, when I look at a photo of another person whom I really loved, and think of his face, my heart becomes agitated for some reason, and my heart feels like it is tightening even more.
“…”
How long has it been since he left?
Just like last night, yesterday, and today too, a man who only has sex, sex, sex.
I’m sure he’s hugging another woman right now… Maybe the teacher he went out with.
“Ha…”
As I lie in bed and stare blankly at the ceiling, a scene is quietly drawn in my mind.
Shaking his back violently, moaning wildly and howling like an animal.
… Suddenly I feel irritated.
What is this irritation?
Are you anxious about your memories not coming back?
Because being alone makes you lonely?
Are you frustrated that you have a cheating boyfriend?
If not,
“You talk so much about how you take responsibility for me and all that… Are you just talking about it…?”
I’m not sure what it is.
It would be better if he stopped paying attention to me.
It would be a good thing to lose affection and be free from a man who is such a flirt and pervert…
Why on earth is my heart so tight?
ㅡTilirik Cheolkeok
“Ah”
“Huh? How are you feeling?”
That’s it.
He opened the door and came in with a casual expression and spoke as if he was concerned about my condition.
However, if it is still possible.
The clothes he was wearing were different from the clothes he wore when he left.
“Not really… It’s okay”
“Really? You’ve always been the type of person to hide things from me, so I don’t worry.”
ㅡSharply
“Is that so?”
I felt a bit displeased and gave him the cold shoulder, but he sat next to me as if nothing had happened and spoke as if he knew me very well.
His words seemed to know me well.
When I thought, “Are you worried about me?”, My frustrated feeling seemed to ease a little.
“Have any memories returned yet?”
“Well… I just vaguely know that before I lost my memory, I liked you…”
“… Are you still anxious?”
“Of course. I don’t know everything about the original me, the current me, and even about you.”
“… Don’t worry too much. Everything will be fine.”
ㅡKkoook
“Oh…”
He turned and hugged me gently.
It was confusing.
What? Why are you suddenly being so kind?
Normally, he would have attacked me lightly, as if telling me to eat and forget about such things, but now that I’ve done it, has my sex drive decreased?
Or is this also part of him?
I was a little confused by his kind behavior, whether I liked it or not, but in the meantime,
“Yes… Thank you…”
ㅡKkook
I found myself hugging his back and blushing, just like a teenager in love.
His embrace was warm.
His hand caressing my back wasn’t particularly unpleasant either.
It seems like the only memory I have of being hugged by him is of being hugged naked, but somehow my body accepted him, as if it was used to this feeling.
“… Are you doing it again?”
“Are you jealous?”
“… Not really”
I am an ugly woman.
After having been doubting and worrying about him just a moment ago, he was proud to have been hugged by him, so he showed jealousy towards him.
“Can Seorin do it too?”
ㅡKkook
“Ugh…! You’re like that again! Ha… That’s enough…”
He must have sensed that I was a little excited, so he hugged me a little tighter and played with me.
Even though it was a cheap prank, he was such a shameless person, but I didn’t really hate it. The moment I sighed and took a deep breath,
“… Huh?”
I could feel that another woman’s scent was faintly lingering in his arms.
“… Let go”
And her scent brought my mood down surprisingly quickly.
“Huh? What…”
“Let go!!”
ㅡTuk!!
I can see his surprised expression.
When I look at his face, many emotions come flooding back, including anger, suspicion, irritation, jealousy, and sorry.
I am an ugly woman.
Just a moment ago I was suspicious of him, just now I was jealous of him, this time I couldn’t control my anger and ended up pushing him away.
She was like this, she was like that, she was the worst.
But… But…
“Why, what’s wrong? What’s wrong? Did I hurt you?”
“Don’t touch it!!”
-Tuk!
This man is even worse.
To a subject who is so self-indulgent, a playboy who goes around with random women, a subject with a sexual desire, a pervert who always puts his actions before words, a sex maniac, and a foolish man,
Why are you being nice now?
And why are you showing that kindness to everyone else but me?
If he had been cruel to me, if he had been a playboy and trash man with no need to feel any remorse, my heart wouldn’t have hurt this much. Why…
Why does he make my mind so complicated, why does he come into my heart as he pleases, and why does he do as he pleases with me?
And why don’t you just look out for me?
“I can come back holding another woman and hug another woman.”
“What…?”
“Are you aware that you are a womanizer? Are you aware that this is something you shouldn’t do?”
Leaving the embarrassed man behind, I poured out my feelings toward him in a barrage of criticism.
“It’s strange that you’re dating multiple people.”
Why are you doing this?
“Do you really think everyone will accept this with all their heart?”
Your thoughts are strange.
“Even if one or two people say that, is it sane to say that there are more than 10 people?”
What on earth are you thinking?
“Seo-rin? Why…”
ㅡUgh…
“Don’t touch me!!”
ㅡWow!!
“… Ah…!”
The moment when a loud sound echoed in the room.
The moment his cheeks turned red.
The moment his eyes turned to the right and looked back at me.
I realized.
“… Let’s break up”
“What…?”
I wanted to be his special person.
This was jealousy.
I wanted to be the only woman for him.
And that cannot come true…
When I thought that, the emotions in my heart began to ask him various questions.
‘Why are you so nice to other women?’
“Do you really think this is normal?”
‘I’m right next to you, why are you looking somewhere else?’
“Holding this girl, that girl, any girl, having as many girlfriends as possible. Do you really think this is a normal way?”
‘Please only look at me a little more’
‘Hold only me, look only at me, tell only me you love me, hold my hand and hug my back, so I don’t feel anxious.’
“You can’t say anything, because you yourself know that this is strange.”
However, unlike the sincerity lingering in his heart, all that came out of his mouth were words of criticism pouring out resentment toward him.
“Ugh… Get out of the way!”
-Tuk!
“Ah…”
ㅡJump-jump-jump-jump-jump-jumble
Tears were falling from my eyes, words other than what I wanted to say were coming out of my mouth, and my feet were already heading towards the front door.
I myself don’t really know what I want to do.
I just want to get out of here.
I don’t want to face him right now.
I don’t want to show this kind of expression anymore.
ㅡTilirik Cheolkeok
“Hmm? What… What?! That face!”
“Ah…”
Red hair and fierce eyes.
I am a teacher.
“Ugh…!”
Looking at the teacher’s face, another ugly feeling creeps up.
Why does the teacher’s face look so refreshing?
Is that why you did it just a moment ago?
Is it because you were loved?
Is this the winner’s leisure?
Now I just hate everything.
I don’t want to see the teacher’s face, I don’t want to see that man’s face, and I don’t want to be annoyed because I can’t see because of my tears.
“Get out of the way!!”
-Tuk!
“Mhm?! Now, wait! Where are you going at this late hour…”
I can’t be his special person.
He can’t treat me special either.
Then we…
We have no choice but to break up.
