Chapter 101 – Senior (Yoo-Dong) – What The Hell Is With This Bastard?
* Senior (Yoo-dong) – What the hell is with this bastard? (6)
Indeed, what kind of answer would she give?
Just as I was smiling in anticipation,
“Hwa… Hwa…”
“Hwa?”
“Hwagan… it is…”
“……………”
“I… I have never been raped…”
The atmosphere turns cold.
What was it, that thing?
Well, if a person has any sense, they’d know that I asked that on purpose, so of course, I knew this kind of answer would come back, but actually hearing it made me feel deflated. I know that having these kinds of feelings will eventually turn me into a piece of trash like my father, but I can’t help but sigh.
“Haa~!”
“Young Master…?”
“Why?”
“Why are you so dissatisfied?”
“Of course, I’m dissatisfied! You’re totally ruining the mood! Seriously, you know it’s a joke, but you give me a textbook answer, what the hell!”
After gulping down some alcohol, I kicked the table where that idiot was sitting.
“Kuh?! Hii! Hieuk!”
*Thud!*
I didn’t even use direct violence, but the policewoman was already shedding tears as if she was about to die. If it were the old me, I would have felt sorry for the woman in front of me, but thanks to Sister Ha-eun’s teachings and the influence of visiting the village, I didn’t feel much of anything.
Or am I suppressing it, not planning to show it even if I do feel it?
I don’t even know which it is, damn it.
Since when was I such a good guy that I’d feel sorry for a random woman’s situation? If I were that emotional, I would have stopped my parents from fighting and tried to make our family better. But the result of abandoning everything in my young mind and stopping thinking is this, isn’t it? My father left, and I met a new family, grew attached to them, and even found my way to the village through a USB. Now, I have no intention of acting like a nice guy; I just want to have fun.
I came here to deal with my sexual urges in the first place. Why the hell should I worry about someone who isn’t even my family? It’s already a pain in the ass to worry about how to keep my own family together. I came here to change my mood, but the woman in front of me can’t even provide any entertainment, she’s really disappointing. She’s not even trying to be cute, she’s just begging for her life, and then she changes her words at the end, it just kills the mood.
Damn it, damn it, damn it, damn it, daaamn it…
Am I drunk?
Suddenly, I feel like shit.
Father, what the hell were you doing here, you bastard?
“You fucking piece of shit.”
*Thud!*
I kicked the table again.
“Are you perhaps drunk?”
“I’m drunk!”
“Ahem…”
My violent behavior made the women gasp, and all the men, including the bald one, widened their eyes. Come to think of it, all the guys in this VIP room are the same ones who guided me to the slaughterhouse. They know what kind of guy I usually am, so they seem surprised by the gap, and they’re slightly distancing themselves from the table.
“It’s annoying… It’s only been a few days… I just went to that crazy village for a bit… and I’m already full of stress… I feel like I’m going to die, it’s so fucked up…”
“Isn’t that why you came here to relieve it? Here, have another drink.”
“Okay…”
Even I think, was it necessary to kick the table and get angry like that? But it’s been a long time since I’ve been this honest with myself, so I can’t bring myself to hold back. I’m accepting the drink the bald guy is pouring and expressing my anger while half-conscious. I know, even without looking in a mirror, that this is a face I could never show in front of my family.
“Young Master. Is it perhaps because of the slaughterhouse business?”
“That’s part of it, but after going to the village and sorting things out with my family, there’s, there’s, there’s something else, damn it, around me. What the hell is it? What kind of crazy bastards are trying to mess with me and for what reason? No, forget it, I don’t know, I don’t know, daaamn it. Whether it’s the one who killed my father or whatever, what do I care?”
“Young Master?”
“That Young Master, Young Master, Young Master thing. You don’t even want to use honorifics for a brat like me.”
“That’s a misunderstanding. The guys outside might, but the guys here would never think that way. Don’t mess with our guys.”
“Shit! Then who the hell am I supposed to mess with?!”
*Thud!*
“Hick?!”
The policewoman, still showing her pathetic state on the table, is frozen stiff, unable to get down. But I don’t even pay attention to that pitiful woman, and I put my head on the bald guy’s shoulder and glare at his subordinates. Even I think I look ridiculously drunk.
“I heard you were going home to rest with your family, so why did you suddenly come here? Maybe it’s just me, but it seems like you were in a bad mood even before you got drunk.”
“No, listen to my story~!”
The bald guy was surprisingly knowledgeable about me. At those words, I couldn’t help but reveal my true feelings. If not now, I wouldn’t be able to tell anyone else how I feel.
“I went to the village this time because of my family, right?! Huh?! Even if we’re not blood-related, they’ve been good to me, so they’re my real family. You know that, right?!”
“Yes.”
“So, I had to go through an internal organ show from head to toe in that fucked-up place, and I even had to say that I’d raise my family as pets while demeaning them in front of the old men! So, what the hell, I got their approval! So, what, what was it? I thought everyone would welcome me home, but when I crawled back home, some crazy bitch was causing a ruckus in front of my house! And when I went inside, all three of them were naked and groveling like sex slaves! I, damn it… I just… just…”
I felt like my tongue was twisting because of the alcohol, but I managed to spit it out.
“Still, still, even if we’re not blood-related, they’re family… so, so, damn it… I just wanted to be hugged and patted~! I’m so emotionally deprived, damn it!!!! A mama’s boy!!! OK?! But, damn it?! Instead of affection, they’re all over me trying to have sex, how am I supposed to feel good about that!!!! Just like those old men said! They really became sex slaves and whores with unknown bloodlines!!!!”
“Indeed…”
“Emotionally deprived, you’re saying that yourself?”
“It’s surprising to hear even after knowing.”
“What’s so surprising? I’ve only ever felt family affection from those women. That’s why I acted like a grandson and begged them not to mess with my family.”
At those words, the bald guy put his glass to his lips and took a refreshing sip, then added,
“They all know that.”
“I know.”
“They probably allowed it under the guise of being pets because they don’t want to be on bad terms with you.”
“I know.”
“So, you demeaned your precious family with your own mouth to get their approval… and now you’re angry because they’re actually acting that way…”
“I would have liked it normally, but today it just feels like shit. Ah, ah, ah, no. To be precise, I was having fun at first, but now that I think about it, it feels like shit. If I could go back to the day I first lost my virginity to Mother Yeo-won, I might have just been happy and stupid. But it’s not like that anymore, is it?”
“Because you know everything now, Young Master.”
The bald guy clicked his tongue and laughed. With that, the atmosphere relaxed again. Maybe it’s because the reason I was angry was more ridiculous than they thought, but the smiles returned to the faces of his subordinates.
“Mama’s boy Young Master. So, how was it with the Madam you met after a long time? Did your family bond grow stronger?”
“If it had, I wouldn’t have come out here right away. It’s not like there’s none, but right now, my family at home comes first. Once this is settled, and I take my family into the village, I want to get along with my grandmother too, something like that?”
“So, you don’t dislike her?”
“Why would I dislike her? We didn’t have any real conflict, and she was so good to me. I just want to be with her for a long time.”
As I took a sip of my drink and turned my head, the subordinates burst into laughter, “Heh heh heh.” I was so pissed that I kicked the table three times, but the reason was family-related, which wasn’t something to talk about among gangsters. But it wasn’t like they were laughing at me from the bottom of their hearts; it was a laugh that seemed to understand to some extent, so I felt less embarrassed.
“Hey, our Young Master is feeling all sentimental, so what the hell are you guys doing? I gave you a chance to make him laugh, but you’re all serious and talking about ‘consensual sex’. All you’ve offered is alcohol, and you’re still just standing there.”
“Would the Young Master have felt better if she had said she was raped and we beat her up?”
“You have no sense.”
“Hey, it’s sickening. Get off the table now.”
“Yes! Yes!”
While the other women were busily moving to set the table without a word, the policewoman looked at the others and went down to where she was supposed to be. She seemed relieved that she hadn’t been beaten badly today, and as she mumbled to herself, she looked around and met my gaze.
“U-um, excuse me…”
“What.”
She’s talking to me while trembling like that. I don’t know if she’s brave or stupid, but I answer roughly.
“Can I leave…?”
“……………”
It was a natural question from her perspective, since she didn’t seem to have anything to do, but the reaction from me and the men was cold again. A look that said, “What the hell is this woman saying?” was exchanged, and soon everyone, including me, burst into laughter.
“Heh, heh ha, hahahahahaha, hahahaha!”
“Seriously~! This one’s a mess today~! Ha, damn, the mood is really fucked up~!”
“It’s only been a few minutes since she said she ruined the mood, and now she wants to leave, you bitch.”
“If it were me, I would have done everything to please the Young Master, but she’s trying to leave right away.”
“Oh my god, I’m going crazy.”
Amidst the men laughing loudly, the policewoman realized her mistake and turned pale. But it was too late to take back her words. As if it was already decided who the main event of the day would revolve around, rough hands forcefully reached out to her.
