Chapter 11 – I Want to Eat Strawberry Cake Because My Junior Is Not a Pervert
The next morning I ate pasta for a late night snack.
I was lying on the bed and laughing sinisterly.
“Whoop whoop whoop…”
And I was lying still and thinking about what happened last night.
The truth is, the truth is, the reason I cried in front of my juniors was, um, acting.
Huh. Performance. It’s a lie that doesn’t contain any real intentions.
There’s no way I, who decided to break down, crush, and trample on such a brilliant person and make him the same as me, can’t help but cry over the slightest touch of my hand, right?
So I can’t help but laugh now.
Whoop whoop whoop. You caught it. Like this stupid junior guy. Do.
“… Whoop whoop…After…”
That, really, really. Oh right. In fact, it was a lie that my hands were weak.
I can’t even speak at first. What about a hand? There’s no way such a shabby body could exist in real life. Aren’t you stupid?
“… After… Whoa…”
Like how I liked the hard fingers pressing down on my skin, or how it felt good when they passed by as if they were barely touching me, or that I had sad expectations like, “Please touch me more, please touch me,” Or whatever, of course nothing like that happened.
My juniors did the same thing to me, so I thought you were a human being who could be just like me after all, and I just smiled quietly.
Conversation casually, procrastinating, and then suddenly saying sorry and saying things that would be incomprehensible to juniors, Pueeng Anyway, it was your fault because I cried. It was never my intention to make him uncomfortable, as if I was doing something that even a 10-year-old would not do.
That stupid, over-emotional,
There will be people, there will be people, there will be people who will laugh at the deliciousness of the pasta that they stubbornly obtained after a long time.
…
I was here…
“Haaaaa…”
My laughter turned into a sigh someday.
My hair had been pulled out and I was almost hairless. The moment I acknowledged the reality, I had no choice but to pull the blanket over my head.
Lord, I want to die.
Want to disappear
I want to become dust in the universe.
“Embarrassing…”
How should I look at my junior’s face?
I’m sure you think I’m a strange woman,
I’m a little depressed.
Even while I was doing that, time passed steadily,
The time has come for my junior to wake me up.
Inadvertently checking my watch, I hurriedly tidied up the futon that I had put up to the top of my head and was messed up by my kick from the inside, and pretended to be asleep.
I was afraid to see your face, so I closed my eyes and waited for my juniors.
Then, from the living room, I started to hear the sound of jabuk, jabuk.
“…”
But even though I waited for a long time, my junior did not enter my room.
I can hear a small but distinct movement of people pacing right in front of the room, but I don’t know what the hell they’re thinking about.
It was about three minutes after that that the junior did something.
“Senior.”
Knock knocking on the door, my junior called me.
“Time to wake up.”
The junior who said that knocked a few more times when I did not respond, and then opened the door slightly.
I pretended to sleep at the squeaking sound of the hinges, but… The junior never came into the room.
And not long ago,
From the kitchen attached to the living room, I heard the clicking of cooking utensils.
It meant that my junior was preparing breakfast.
“To.”
I finally had to get up on my own.
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…
…
My junior is weird.
Having spent the morning in a very heavy atmosphere, I couldn’t help but think that way.
He didn’t come into the room as usual and wake me up, he served me breakfast, but there was no act of handling the tableware and putting it on the plate in front of me. I left for the academy first.
The feeling that something is being treated extremely difficult.
I wondered if he was angry, but judging by the expression on his face, it didn’t seem like it.
“…”
Maybe it’s simply that he’s tired of me.
You might have thought that it was a headache to see me making all sorts of fuss over something I had barely touched.
Come to think of it, my junior was a year younger than me, but he was definitely an adult.
A good-looking, good-natured, well-paid and well-to-do junior would of course have a lot of experiences like that.
There must have been girls all over the place who would allow their bodies if they just looked at them…
“Body, permission…”
Hey, I tend to have a lot of imagination…
Just imagining it, the scene that makes my eyes go round and round won’t leave my head,
In an instant, I had to rub my hands with both hands to cool my face.
But once I imagined the scene, it showed no signs of leaving my mind.
On the way from home to the lecture hall,
In my own way, I began to infer the life my juniors have been through so far.
… Mostly naughty things.
You should only do that with someone you really like.
Uh oh, even that raunchy and lewd thing…
I was very interested in it, so even in the magic studies class I listened to carefully, I didn’t stop imagining or delusion.
Messed up Changing women several times a week,
If you have a lot of money and are handsome, that’s all. Joy…
Ah, in such a beastly posture. Pervert, totally pervert.
What are you doing to the girl?
How pervert-like you have to make her lie down naked and then forcefully apologize and then pull the leash…
“Geeek…”
I am ashamed of myself just by imagining it,
I passed the time like a person who lost my soul with strange noises.
There was no way I could listen to the academy’s lectures,
In the end, having completely ruined the day, I had no choice but to resent my juniors once again.
And from now on,
In my delusion, my junior has become unscrupulous that I can’t imagine.
A bad boy who only sees women as toys for lust.
My face was so hot that I thought steam was about to rise from the top of my head, but somehow I was able to return home.
“You are here.”
“Cow.”
“… Senior. Why do you look like that?”
“… Transformation.”
“Yes?”
“Oh, nothing…”
And the evening that followed.
As always, I changed into a maid outfit and had dinner with my juniors and had a conversation.
“Once again, I’m sorry about yesterday.”
“Yes?”
“I was mistaken. I have a senior who… Well, I know you like it.”
“It can’t be.”
I responded in a cold tone without even realizing it.
I like you? Who who
I don’t know if I hate you to death.
No matter how misunderstood it was, it was severe.
The junior flinched slightly, but
She nodded her head as if she already knew.
“I see.”
After the junior spoke so bitterly, he became quiet.
And then there was a moment of silence.
The conversation was cut off, and there was no sound except for the sound of handling dishes and chewing food.
The junior lowered her head slightly and became Yin Young-jin’s face, and she couldn’t help but look at her expression thanks to her.
But she looked kind of gloomy, like a puppy in the rain.
As soon as I saw that scene, the absurd imagination that had been bothering me since morning disappeared like a bubble.
Wherever you look, this is the look of a person who plays with women like toys.
I’m timid, but I don’t know if it’s a big dog with a big body.
The delusions I had,
Actually, maybe I showed up because I was a pervert, not a junior… The moment you think of
My face went red hot.
“Sir, your face is red.”
“… You never did anything dirty, did you?”
“Yes?”
“That kind of thing, change, pervert.”
“Who is it?”
“To.”
Even in the joking tone of conversation, my juniors have been looking at me with rather vague eyes.
As if the smirking and bold junior from last night was someone else,
As if the image of the junior I had been thinking about all day was just an imagination in my head,
I felt that he was looking at this side with the utmost care, as if he were handling a fragile glass craft, as if it could break even if he glanced at it,
Only then did I fully wake up from the illusion.
And I had no choice but to admit it.
That the juniors I thought of all day was just a delusion.
If my juniors were really like that, they would have touched me first.
Well, well, I don’t know if you don’t see me as a woman at all…
“Omg.”
“?”
Is it like that?
Am I a human outside of his defense range?
What is the relationship between employer and employee? Because you don’t like how it looks? Or the sullen personality? Because you don’t like maid clothes? Do you keep bothering me?
It wasn’t for any reason that I couldn’t understand either way.
Too many thoughts at once
I was about to explode.
“Senior?”
“Ugya gyakyan…”
“… Senior?”
I can’t seem to organize the thoughts in my head
I said anything.
The first thing that comes to your mind the most.
“I want to eat cake.”
“Suddenly?”
“Strawberry cake.”
“I have to go out again to buy it.”
“… Ah. Just because I just said something…”
“No. I’ll be back.”
“That’s not it. Hey, really, I just said something… ?”
However, the junior dropped my words into one ear,
She tidied up the tableware she had used for dinner and tried to head outside.
Because I don’t know what
I held the end of my collar as if I was stopping a junior holding the doorknob.
“Same, together.”
“… ?”
“I want to go out with you… ?”
My junior said, she laughed as if she was very happy.
But she didn’t suddenly have a completely serious face and said that.
“I can’t do it with that outfit.”
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…
…
In the end, I was the one who changed clothes and went out with my juniors.
However, I couldn’t help but feel a bit regretful about the people overflowing on the crowded streets.
“Hick… There are a lot of people.”
“Because it’s a busy time.”
“… Please hold me.”
“Yes?”
“Hey, that’s it, the cow, the hand…”
“… Aren’t your hands weak?”
“Gilchira, it will be difficult if we separate from each other. I don’t like making eye contact with people I don’t know while shouting to find the owner… I don’t like to draw attention to this…”
“Are you okay?”
“It’s not okay, but it’s okay for the master now.”
“Why?”
I don’t even see her as a woman anyway, so I’m the only one who loses if I overreact to useless things.
What do you ask when you know yourself?
I was offended by my junior, so instead of explaining the reason,
As I bent her neck and looked up at her junior, she stuck out her bright red tongue and looked like a mongrel.
