Chapter 108 – I Got Proposed
Two days have passed since I met Ian at the square.
“Fuuuuu…”
I just lowered my head and sighed again.
It was ruined.
It was completely ruined.
I’m talking about a test.
I was the one who ruined both the second day’s exam and the third day’s exam spectacularly.
The reason is obvious. Ian, because of Ian. I was so absorbed in talking with Ian that I didn’t even cram.
For this exam, I absolutely did not study enough…
It’s all because of Ian. I hate you. Furthermore, I hate you to death.
I hate you to death. They are smart and successful for no reason, so they do well on tests. I’m going crazy with jealousy…
With those thoughts in mind, I’m just sighing as if the earth is falling apart,
A familiar figure approached me from far away and spoke to me.
“As expected, there is one.”
“Oh, you’re here.”
Of course it was Ian.
Since the day they gave me a knee pillow, we have met every day in this square.
It’s as if we made a promise.
It’s strange.
At home we don’t say anything to each other…
After enduring and enduring our desires, we lay down in a dazed state with our backs to each other,
When we wake up, we want each other so much that we cling to each other and hug each other tightly,
The man and woman, who were like beasts waiting for the test to be over with almost stubbornness, came to this place and looked at each other as if they were crazy and were able to have a normal conversation.
It’s not that special of a place.
It’s just quiet and secluded.
When I’m sitting on a sunny bench and deciding what to do next,
There are times when accumulated desires completely disappear.
“What are you looking at so intently?”
“No. “I suddenly remembered what happened last night.”
“… “Last night?”
“Hmm. No. It was a slip of the tongue.”
“… Uh, last night, what was it…”
I thought about what happened last night, but there was nothing unusual enough to make me notice.
It’s something that has always happened.
I, who had already surpassed my limit, cried and begged if I could do it just once, just once, and when Ian stroked my head as if he was having trouble, I put my mouth in to suck at the tip of his finger, and then kissed him… It was nothing special as Ian, who was laughing and looking at me sticking out my tongue, mistaking it for a kiss, consoled me by telling me to be patient.
I cried so much that I couldn’t even cry anymore and sobbed with stuffy eyes and asked if I wasn’t that attractive, I liked him, I really liked him so much, I couldn’t bear it anymore, but Ian said, “Isn’t that the case? I was wrong,” And then he freaked out. Even though I tried to fawn over it with all my might, saying, “I’m sorry, please use it,” It was nothing special, only to be rejected in the end.
I was completely hurt, depressed as if the world had collapsed, and rather than blaming Ian for not hugging me, I ended up beating myself up as a habit, but it wasn’t until Ian, who was amazing that he noticed this, whispered in my ear that I liked him over a hundred times. I was just able to fall asleep in peace,
… It was nothing special that happened last night.
“…”
“Did you do well on today’s test?”
“Of course I didn’t see it. Because of whom.”
“Is it because of me?”
“… It’s not because of Ian, but…”
I said it without thinking, but it was embarrassing to blame someone else.
It’s just because I’m an idiot. Ugh.
“It’ll be over tomorrow, right?”
“Huh. “The only thing left is alchemy.”
“I’m confident about that.”
“Of course… !”
This is almost the only field where I can shrug my shoulders as I have no self-esteem.
Ian was proud of me, as if he was proud of me.
I stare blankly at his shining face…
… Why do I feel like I am being trained by him more and more?
Just like not allowing your dog to exercise, it also stops with your dog. As if teaching you to do something…
If you persevere until the end of the test, I will give you a reward… It seems like they are doing it.
It’s like this every day, since I don’t do anything at home, I go out to the square and wait for him, and although I didn’t promise, when he comes, I hurriedly get up to greet Ian, as if I’m wagging a tail that isn’t there, and touch his thigh…
But this kind of life can’t last forever.
Maybe I gave him my heart too easily.
It would be nice if I was a little bit smarter.
The body was given away immediately, and the mind was easily captured,
I knew I would get tired of this easy-going girl quickly.
“Eve?”
Ugh, then, if I get abandoned by Ian someday,
What should I do for a living?
I failed the exam, and with a score like this, it’ll be hard to find a job,
As a result of failing this exam, I found myself at a loss when I graduated from the academy.
Like Senior Dern, being chosen by professors and working as a graduate student would be my last chance.
Maybe she will be rejected even that.
So, I resented Ian.
I can’t believe that one day I will abandon the subject that ruined my exam and my life.
That’s bad.
You have to take responsibility. If you ruin someone else’s life…
“Ah.”
“?”
I don’t want to go back to the same life as before.
So, I hatched a dark plan.
You just have to make it, so they can’t throw it away.
Even if his heart completely leaves me one day,
Like I just said, all you have to do is make it impossible to throw it away, make it impossible to throw it away, and make it responsible.
With Ian’s head still resting on his thigh,
I suddenly spoke into the air.
“Ah… I’m definitely a good poet, a bride, I guess…”
It was clearly talking to myself.
But there’s no way Ian couldn’t hear it.
I take a quick look at his thoughts.
He just twitched his eyelids as if he didn’t understand the situation at all.
“I’m not good at cooking, but I’m also good at cleaning, hmm, I’m not particularly good at anything, but I don’t refuse to work at night…”
“Eve?”
“Well, sometimes, if there’s something you don’t like, you can pick up a stick and hit it…”
“… ?”
“…”
Ah.
I can’t eat it.
After all, I had rejected his sincere marriage proposal once before.
It was a self-evident fact that even if I tried to subtly appeal to her to make me his wife, it wouldn’t be heard.
At that point, I decided to give up my role as his wife.
I thought it was too windy, I thought I was arrogant, and I didn’t think I could do it well… No, I definitely couldn’t do it.
As long as I get attention, praise, and pampering, I might be perfect for the role of a pet that I like and cling to.
I want that myself, and I am a child with a strong desire to be owned, so if I could relieve the anxiety of being abandoned one day, then yes, I liked the relationship we have now, where we call each other master and master.
Ah.
I think I said it for no reason, being a bride and all.
But it was impossible to pick up the words that poured out.
I was only looking at Ian’s thoughts for no reason.
The raised corners of my mouth make me feel anxious, so I end up glancing from the corner of my eye.
I regretted it and just watched for a while,
At some point, Ian opened his mouth and spoke.
“… “My mother is kind.”
“Yes?”
“He is wise, he is merciful, and he hates lies.”
“Suddenly?”
“Father, I think Eve will be scared when she first sees her. Because you are solemn outside. Ah. You don’t have to worry too much. “Once you get inside the house, it’s just money.”
“Ah, if you tell your father it’s a penny, you can’t use it…”
“But it’s true. But that doesn’t mean we have a bad relationship with each other. A little more than a father… Should I say it feels like a big brother?”
I had to work hard to follow the context of the conversation.
Was there a chance that the story of Ian’s parents would suddenly appear? And so on.
Horses are different from insects like ants, so it was natural that if you looked at them separately from their heads, hearts, and stomachs, you wouldn’t be able to tell what they were, and as someone who wasn’t particularly sociable, I couldn’t even figure out what Ian’s intention was when he brought up this story.
I was wondering if he was trying to brag about something I didn’t have, or to be jealous. It was literally too random, so I couldn’t help but listen to his story, a little confused.
“I have a sister up there. Ah. “I saw it last time.”
“Lisa?”
“He’s the troublemaker in the family. “I even declared non-marriage.”
“…”
“That must have been why you were worried. They both know very well that I am the type of person who builds a wall around women. There was a risk that the Ernest family would be cut off.”
“Well, I didn’t see it like that…”
“Now that Eve will give birth, it’s resolved.”
“….”
“Eve.”
“Yes. Yes…”
“Why do you think you’re suddenly saying this?”
“I don’t know… Yes.”
“Really?”
“…”
No matter how foolish I am,
At this point, I couldn’t help but notice.
Of course, I could pretend not to notice, but I didn’t want to.
After the exam is over and vacation comes, I plan to formally introduce it to my parents when I go home.
She is the woman who will continue the family line.
What Ian was saying to me now was like another marriage proposal.
Of course, I didn’t do it as directly as last time, but in the sense that they didn’t ask for my intention, it was a bit of a coercive decision, so I could never refuse.
I’m so indecisive that I don’t like it. It’s so clever that they made it so that I couldn’t do it.
If you had said marry me like last time, you would have at least pretended to think about it…
So it’s better.
I’m glad you lead me.
It makes it impossible for me to make wrong choices,
It was much better than the last marriage proposal.
Before I knew it, my face was bright red.
My heart was pounding so hard that my eyes were filled with tears that came from a completely different path than last night.
As I was sobbing profusely inside, Ian scratched the corner of her cheek in embarrassment,
You suddenly speak like a squirming wolf.
“Why is my senior so soft?”
“… Ugh, suddenly?”
“I want to touch you. Sure.”
“Oh, no.”
“… “The reaction is so different from last night.”
“So, that’s why. How did I hold back last night? How did I endure it…”
“Huh, really. So you’re saying I won’t be able to touch it either?”
“B-it’s a bee… ?”
Ian burst out laughing at my spiteful remark,
He gave me a strong threat, telling me to come straight home after the exam tomorrow.
As for me, yes… And I smiled with a face full of blush.
