Chapter 102 – I Have to Restrain Myself Because the Exam Is Coming Soon.
I lost.
I just feel like I lost.
To the subject who cried out so much that I hated him to death,
I told you that I liked you.
I tried to pretend I didn’t remember and pretend it didn’t happen, but it was all in vain.
That persistent bastard immediately caught my slightest mistake and said he would torment me until I remembered it, which he did.
I had already been held in his arms dozens of times, and all my body’s weaknesses were known, so there was no way I could handle it…
‘I like it, I like it, ahak, heuk, ugh, Ian, I like it, ugh, I did it wrong, I like it, but I lied, yeah, I wrote it wrong, ugh…’ Ah, I really like it, I like it so much… !’
Ah.
Oh my god.
Sober mind, I’m actually not sure if it can be called sober mind,
Anyway, while I was not drunk or on drugs, I confessed several times that I liked him and was rewarded with a lot of blows, which made me feel good.
Ah.
I’m depressed.
It’s only been about two months since I met Ian,
From the very first moment I met him, the initial mindset that I thought would last the rest of my life disappeared.
“Haaaaa…”
It’s miserable.
I was just this much of a kid.
Meanwhile, one ironic thing is,
Even though I admitted that I liked Ian, the reason why I felt so sorry for him and hated him was that it was the same as before.
Is it just jealousy towards a man who is close to perfection?
Since hating doesn’t mean hating, it’s possible to hate and still like.
I’m not sure, but I like it anyway, but I still hate it.
Ah. Another one.
I think it’s true that Ian is good,
Actually, I don’t know what liking means.
Maybe it’s because I’ve never felt this way before, either in my previous life or in this life.
My feelings for all the people I liked arose from admiration.
I was envious of his beauty and kindness, and I used to fall in love with his pretty nature that showed kindness without any hesitation, but the feelings I have for Ian now were never of that kind.
So I don’t know.
Actually, I may be mistaken.
When I see Ian, my heart races, I want to be close to him, I feel anxious when he leaves, I always want to kiss him, and I’m not mentally ready for sex yet… I just want to do it someday, raise a baby who looks like him, and spend time with him, but it seems like I’m going overboard to say that I like this.
“Why are you looking at me like that?”
“It’s nothing.”
“Do you want to kiss me?”
“… Joe, a little… ?”
“Come here.”
Chook, chook, chouwooop…
Even the moment he sucked the inside of my mouth, I didn’t stop thinking about what happened before.
Ian also likes me.
As someone who is very skeptical, I naturally didn’t believe it, but even after taking the medicine to be honest, they said the same thing, so if I didn’t believe that, it would be the same as denying my own ability to manufacture the medicine,
Yes, I had no choice but to believe it.
“Uuung, hoo, euung, side, squeak, huuuuup…” .”
Moreover, once I thought that Ian liked me,
I realized once again that every single thing he did for me was filled with affection… ?
I still see it now.
Even while mixing our tongues, he touches various parts of my body to help me feel better,
Hmm, hmm, he’s looking at me with deathly loving eyes as I let out loud moans.
Because such a handsome and perfect person is like this,
How could it be that I, an insignificant person, cares for me with all my heart and sincerity?
As someone who is hungry for affection, there is nothing I can do.
I have no choice but to say that I like it.
I had no choice but to give up my whole body and soul and lie down beneath him like a loser…
“Eve.”
“Yes…”
“It’s pretty.”
“Huh, tsk, ugh, good, I like it…”
Ian made a habit of me.
Whenever I received a compliment saying that I was pretty or sexy, I had to tell him I liked him.
At first, I was embarrassed and didn’t like him, so I ignored him a few times, but every time he did that, I was tormented to death by him, so now I almost reflexively say that I like him.
If your entire body is tied up and only the area around your areolas is continuously stroked, and your sexual feelings are heightened, but you are unable to go for hours, or if you are constantly subjected to things like kissing your lips without making any movement while being inserted, it may be a little more difficult. Even if it’s embarrassing, you end up saying you like it or not.
So I said it one more time, thinking he might not have heard.
“I like you…”
“Huh. “I know.”
“Joy… !”
“Uh? “Why are you glaring at me like that?”
“You don’t have to know!”
Chi.
I can’t be this sad, no matter how sad life is, to fall in love with someone who seems like I’m going to hate them and turn away just by looking at them.
…
I was so miserable because I resented the world and felt so sorry for myself,
At some point, I felt that a change in thinking had come to me.
It completely overturned my thoughts until now.
If you think about it carefully, just because you like it doesn’t mean you lost, right?
By torturing this brilliant person to death, grabbing him by the ankles and dragging him down to the same level as me, asking what kind of person I am and what you just dared say.
I want to inform you clearly,
Today, you said something pointless to me for no reason,
I want to make you regret it for the rest of your life.
My initial mindset was definitely that kind of promise.
“Uh, huh?”
“What’s wrong?”
“Ian, um, how much… Do you like it?”
“As much as my senior likes me.”
“… !”
If so,
It may have taken a slightly different direction, but I think it was achieved anyway.
Because, just as much as I like him, yeah, Ian seems to like me too, because he said so,
The reason why such a perfect junior has the same feelings as a woman like me,
In fact, it doesn’t make sense.
At best, Ian was only that much of a man.
No, he was originally a more perfect and noble person.
But I crashed it.
I corrupted a woman like me so that she couldn’t help but feel that way.
It was created by clashing our bodies and conveying our hearts.
Kick, kick, kick…
I couldn’t help but laugh darkly.
The joy rising from deep in my heart fills me.
I lifted my heels and wrapped my arms around Ian’s neck.
It’s a sign that you want to kiss.
The foolish guy who liked me kissed me again without any doubt.
I wonder if he will leave me behind and fly back to the surface.
I put more pressure on the arms and legs that were wrapped around him, as if to tie him up, and passionately mixed my tongue with him.
I hope he comes to his senses and doesn’t even think about abandoning me,
It will make you like it even more.
I’ll seduce you by bumping your body and make you feel so good that you can’t help but fall for me even more.
That day, Ian was so obsessed with me that he couldn’t wake up until lunch the next day.
…
…
…
A week has passed since then.
“Kiss…”
“Yes.”
Even though a week had passed, our lives were no different from before.
When we make eye contact, we kiss, exercise, kiss after eating and exercise, sleep and wake up and kiss and exercise…
If there is one thing that has changed,
I guess I’m completely used to doing it without a condom now.
The feeling of raw skin touching each other without the interference of a thin rubber membrane felt so good that I was willing to take a little risk.
Danger… Even so, Ian always held back and endured the ejaculation, and even when I inadvertently wrapped my legs around his waist and couldn’t let him out, he would shake me off and cum outside, so I didn’t have to worry about getting pregnant.
I don’t know how strong your patience is.
It was clear that I wanted to cum inside, but I didn’t make a single mistake.
When he realized that I had subtly prevented him from releasing the insertion, he smiled mischievously and fed a huge amount of food into my upper mouth…
Ugh, yeah, anyway,
I feel like this life is slowly coming to an end.
I looked at my calendar and schedule and put on a serious face.
Academy vacation is coming.
And there was something coming a little faster than that.
Test.
Is it so. The exam was just around the corner.
But it was clear that if I continued like this, I wouldn’t be able to get a good score.
I just exercise all day and don’t study at all.
I have decided.
And I told Ian what I had decided.
“Oh, starting today. Exercise is prohibited…”
“Yes? “Why?”
“The exam is coming, so I have to study.”
“Ah. Already…”
We even got so caught up in coveting each other’s bodies that we ended up skipping school often,
It was clear that if I continued like this, I would not have enough credits at the end of the semester.
There are limits to being rude to professors.
“… “Can’t you just do it a little bit?”
“No!”
“Wow, there’s no need to scream.”
“… I can’t study with that mindset. Master, you know… ?”
“I don’t know.”
“It feels so good that I end up doing it all day. Because I won’t be satisfied if I don’t wash it until nothing comes out…”
“It’s because Eve is sexy.”
“Oh, uh, I like it…”
“That’s right. I haven’t forgotten. It’s pretty.”
“Ian, I like you…”
“Huh. Me too.”
I blushed bright red because I was embarrassed that I had almost reflexively said that I liked his compliment.
He naturally comes closer and wraps his arms around my waist while also holding my shoulders.
Let’s kiss.
But the moment my lips approached, I suddenly turned my head.
“Kissing, no kissing.”
“Yes?”
“When I kiss, I feel dirty. Because then it’s obvious that I won’t be able to endure it again…”
“… Are you serious?”
“So?”
“You’re saying we can’t even kiss?”
“Of course… !”
“…”
Maybe it’s because he’s a year younger than me,
Ian was upset like a child.
No, it would be more accurate to say I was angry rather than upset.
He is now full of gloomy energy and even speaks in a lower tone of voice.
“Test. “Next week?”
“Uh, yeah, but… ?”
“You’re saying we can’t have sex or kiss until next week?”
“… Three, it’s not sex… ?”
“Don’t obscure the point.”
“Huh, huh, is there something wrong?”
In my own way, I was a little, very, very mean to my juniors who did not understand my feelings.
You’re a student at the academy. It’s natural to try to get a high score on the test.
“Hey, why are you reacting like that… ?”
I asked while carefully looking at Ian’s eyes.
I don’t know why I should be embarrassed, but ugh…
I wonder if he felt sorry for me looking like a small octopus.
Ian erased all the gloomy expressions and twisted smiles he had shown just now.
“What. Okay.”
“Yes, once the exam is over, vacation will come, so we can continue like before…”
“I’m prepared.”
“Well, what… ?”
“I’ll make you regret not making it happen.”
“Eh?”
Feeling that something is wrong,
It must be my mistake… ?
