Chapter 108 – Now I’m Going to Meet You
“Mom… Mom?”
“Lanelle.”
My mother suddenly got up and got on top of me, putting me under her. Both hands are placed next to my face as if to prevent me from running away, breaking my will to run away.
If you try to lift your leg, it gets stuck between Lennon’s legs, and you can’t move. My mother, who had just woken up, seemed to be out of her mind.
The face looked like a hungry beast that had caught its prey.
Naturally, I was the prey.
“Lanelle…”
Calling my name, my mother began to move her face closer and closer. The attention is naturally focused on her soft lips on her white face.
She pushes her mother’s face away with her bare hand, preventing her from getting closer.
‘How much alcohol did you have to drink last night to be like this now?’
I felt this as I was held in my mother’s arms, but I was curious about how much strong alcohol I had to drink to be in this state. His face looked as if he couldn’t come to his senses and was looking for someone in me.
I miss you and want love.
“Mom!”
“…”
Soon, I shouted loudly at Lennon, and his lifeless eyes began to come back to life.
His black eyes seemed alive, and he must have come to his senses, but he just blinked as he looked at me underneath.
I slowly twisted my body and got out from underneath.
“Son… I’m sorry.”
“Hmm, it’s okay… I didn’t encounter anything particularly dangerous.”
My mother, perhaps feeling guilty, could not keep her eyes on me and sat on her bed, covering her face with both hands.
For a moment, I thought about comforting my mother by telling her that I was okay, but I thought approaching her now would have the opposite effect, so I quietly left the room without saying a word.
‘But who on earth did my mother see me as?’
I guess she attacked me because she was out of her mind, but I wondered who on earth she was projecting onto me that made my mother so excited.
“Could it be… Dad?”
Father.
It was one of the facts I was curious about, having only seen my mother since I was young. I clearly remember that I was born in this house, but I never saw my father’s face.
Rania even came out yesterday and said that they are not biological siblings. What happened to her?
I slowly walked down the hallway with doubts in my head.
As I walked down her hallway, I noticed that Rania had woken up and was looking out her window.
As I got closer, he turned his head slightly as if he heard footsteps and smiled at me.
“Did you sleep well, Ranel?”
“Ranell? “What are you talking about to your brother?”
As I got closer to her, Rania put her hands around my waist, hugged me, and kissed me on the lips.
***
Guilt.
I thought that guilt was created when people did something wrong or did something they should not have done, impulsively mixed with regret and disgust for what they did.
I don’t know if what I’m feeling right now is disgust for myself, regret for not coming to my senses, or even just guilt.
It felt as if various emotions were mixed together to create black color.
‘Ranell… Ranell…’
I shouted his name in my heart and thought about the past.
A happy moment. A time when we whispered love to each other. And when I had Rania, the happiest day in the world.
The more I thought about all those moments, the more I began to feel regret about what I had done in the past.
We fought hard to save Ranel. I wanted him to be happy, so I wanted Ranel to not meet me, but to meet another woman and live happily.
However, there was a feeling I always felt while raising young Ranel. Feelings of maternal love and love.
It was clearly an emotion that should not be mixed, but it polluted my mind, which was starting to mix little by little, and gave me an opportunity to hate myself.
He started to grow faster than I expected and soon became the Ranel I knew from my Leeds days.
“Mom, I want to become a knight.”
What would have happened if I had refused when I heard this?
Instead of becoming a dangerous knight, did Ranel just go around social circles, seducing noble children with her good looks?
Otherwise, at some point, Ranel, who was looking for the prince, caught the princess’s eye and found out about everything.
The more he thought about the various possibilities, the more his heart began to hurt.
The more I looked at the possibilities, the more there was no reality in which he wouldn’t leave me.
I lay down on the bed for a moment and looked at the ceiling.
“Whoa…”
To be honest, I don’t want Ranel to get married or go on a trip.
No, to be honest, I just wish I never met a woman.
I just wish he could remain the Ranel I knew… But fate didn’t leave him alone.
Perhaps because of his beautiful appearance and easy-going personality, many women are attracted to him. No, perhaps because he just went around showing off his charm, he ended up bewitching many women.
In fact, his younger sister… No, his daughter Rania also fell under Ranel’s charm. I felt it the last time I saw him, but the warrior party members were already touching him.
This is because their bodies exude a unique masculine scent that can be felt just by approaching them.
The moment I first saw him, I was angry to the core, but I couldn’t kill the warrior, so I just gave him a proper scolding and returned.
‘But Ranel is a member of the warrior party… I will come back to get you someday.’
I don’t want to let you go, but they will try to take you back under the pretext of a mission or fate.
Then again, a catastrophe will occur in which Ranel will have to be sent away.
If he really wanted to, he would have no choice but to let it go later, but he didn’t really feel like letting it go right now.
It would have been better for me, the stronger one, to come back… Why did God choose Ranel and not me?
Because he’s a man? Or talent? If not, are we really bound by the shackles of fate?
If that fate took the form of a human being, I would sincerely intend to punch it.
“But I have to get up again.”
I’m worried about Ranel and I don’t want to let him go, but my name is Lennon Ryhart. I have to go back to being a serious family head, worthy of the name Raiheart.
I slowly left the room and walked down the hallway.
‘I’ll have to apologize to Ranel later… I’ll have to warn Rania again that yesterday’s story is a secret.’
As I walked down the hallway, I thought about what I would do today.
Of course, until something happens that makes those thoughts fly away in an instant.
“Oppa’s lips… I like them.”
“Stop it, Rania, um… Um.”
At the end of the hallway, Rania and Ranel were hugging and kissing each other.
Yesterday, it was a little less impressive because I only saw everything done, but today, seeing Ranel hug and kiss another woman’s daughter, I realized one thing.
The fact that the emotions I feel include, in addition to regret and guilt, the harsh emotion of jealousy.
***
“Then, how about eating a lot today and going to Leihat Street the next day?”
“Well, I’m good!”
Emil, who was frightened by the queen’s sharp impression, was as nervous as the youngest member of the knights and only answered in agreement to all conversations.
Although they couldn’t get used to Emil’s unusual appearance, her colleagues accepted that they had no choice in front of her queen.
“Oh, it’s delicious…!”
“Hmm, something white and soft suits my taste.”
“Meat!”
It was the first food eaten in the capital and the food of the kingdom’s top chefs was a fantastic food that would immediately replenish the physical strength and stamina of the exhausted warrior party members.
Shio was crying and drooling from how delicious it was, while Erina and Aya were just quietly putting food into their mouths.
On the other hand, Karen had an expression on her face as she was sweating profusely.
“Karen, where are you hurt?”
“Whoa, whoa… This is so spicy, haaah… Ugh!”
I guess it was because I just ate the red noodles in front of me.
Karen, unable to come to her senses from the spicy taste, was sticking her tongue out of her mouth and breathing heavily like a puppy.
Toup.
“Hmm!? Yiheo hahuhehyo!”
When I saw her soft tongue, I wanted to play a trick on her, so I grabbed it with my fingers and pulled it out.
“Woah! Let go!, Ah, ahayo.”
“Now, who is in charge now?”
“Eil, Ehilimhi!”
After such a delicious and happy meal, we relaxed in the VIP room or took a shower to relieve our body fatigue.
Meanwhile, she met Shio in the hallway, whose face was red as if she had just come out of the shower.
“Hehe, it’s cool…”
“Have you showered already?”
“Heh… Yes… The shower here is amazing.”
Um, is it correct that I just took a shower?
“Emil, do you want to take a shower too?”
What kind of shower did you take?
