Chapter 126 – Piercing (1)
Exams taken over the past week.
Hyeji did her best on the test. Literally, with all her might.
Of course, just because she was herself, that didn’t mean she didn’t have any doubts about the content of her test.
The first night, I crawled into the cage and slept like a livestock.
The next day, after receiving Hyunwoo’s semen in a dog food bowl, he licked it like a dog.
She, too, felt anxious for a brief moment, but her cause was unknown.
No matter how much her reason ignores reality, her instinct reacts to the reluctance conveyed by the ‘rules’.
However.
She had no choice but to follow the rules Hyunwoo had given her.
These are rules that can only be kept by denying the human life that we have lived so far, but when you think about the consequences you will face if you break them, you can’t even breathe properly, so what can you do?
The person who first extended a helping hand to himself as he was left alone in the world. Without her grandmother or a friend she could confide in, she was the last person left.
Above all, my brother was the only person who recognized that I existed in this world. The only one who can fill his loneliness in a world where everyone turns their backs on him.
If she didn’t have a brother like her, she really didn’t have the confidence to live. Life without her brother is already the same as death, so what use is that respect and pride now?
‘My life has no meaning without you. If it weren’t for my brother, I would have already committed suicide, so my life is all yours, and, and… I can do anything for my brother…’
The earnest words she confessed her love to me every night before going to bed were all sincere without any doubt.
Therefore,
‘I… Deserve to be treated like this. Because I did something terrible to my brother.’
Even when it goes beyond a golden shower that simply soaks the body with urine, it is treated like a toilet that catches all of it.
‘You should be punished much more severely than this. Of course… Of course, it has to be that way. I can do even more than this.’
Even when he was truly treated as a ‘dog’ and was told to relieve himself on a large dog pad.
She thought over and over again in her mind. This is right, this is the right thing to do, so we should try harder.
As the enormous sense of guilt was added to the already excessive dependence tendency, any self-destructive act was instantly justified.
The discomfort I felt for the first time faded away as the days passed, and the awkward actions gradually became more familiar.
No, even her gratitude for her brother grew as time went by.
‘I made the mistake of doubting my boyfriend based on what someone I met for the first time said. She betrayed her brother, whom she promised to be together for the rest of her life, and left an irreparable wound in his heart.’
As she says in her reflection every night, she is a woman who has committed an irreparable mistake. She is a quiet woman who reveals her brother’s secret family history to anyone she meets for the first time.
‘I’m sorry for having a mentally ill girlfriend.’
She is a mentally ill woman who says countless times, “I love you, I believe,” But then suddenly changes, doubting her lover’s love and hurting her.
That’s all.
Her face and body are not pretty enough to be proud of being her brother’s woman. She doesn’t have enough money to buy everything her brother wants.
She really has nothing, and instead of being thankful for the undeserved love, she is a shameless woman who speaks rudely.
‘I will never make the same mistake again. From now on, I will only believe what my brother says. I will believe in your love. Please forgive me.’
But, nevertheless.
My brother gave even a worthless woman like himself a chance to be forgiven.
A woman who had nothing to offer but understanding, showed that she lacked that understanding, and yet again she was given a chance to prove her understanding.
Therefore, she had to do her best.
‘I will try my best to become a girlfriend who can make my brother happy today too. She will be the girlfriend who loves you the most in the world. Make me a woman just for you.’
Like the ‘resolution’ she said every day at the beginning of the day, she had to become a woman just for her brother.
She had to prove to her brother that she was a woman he could ‘play’ with and completely trust, and she had to become a woman who could be loved in her own way.
Thus began education and training.
‘I will learn everything my brother teaches me. Teach me everything. Really… I’ll really try.’
From gokkun movies, soap operas, and maid movies to soft SM movies and ultra-hardcore SM movies, she watched extremely male-oriented AVs and filled her head with sexual knowledge solely for the pleasure of men.
She learned various service skills by sometimes listening to gentle explanations and sometimes being harshly scolded, and expanded the range of ‘tastes’ she could understand every day by watching women being brutally destroyed in videos.
Thanks to you, I know now.
My brother has the tendency to be a Master, who feels pleasure in controlling and dominating the bodies and minds of others, and is classified as a Dominant, who is excited by orders and obedience.
Getting excited by hitting her buttocks or breasts with a hand or a whip, and making her say and do obscene things were just some of the ways in which her brother’s tendencies were expressed.
In fact, there were countless people in the community with the same tendencies as my brother, and there were hundreds or thousands of AVs dealing with such tendencies on the Internet.
In the end, it was a result of ignorance. The words she said that night, doubting her brother’s love, were illusions and intolerance stemming from a lack of understanding of her tendencies.
Her brother ‘loved’ her to her heart’s content in his own way, but this is narrow-mindedness in judging whether it is love or not.
Once his understanding of his brother’s tendencies came together, he finally realized what he had to do.
Beyond simply understanding her brother, she clearly knew what type of woman she should be.
As long as her brother is the owner, she just needs to be a pet-oriented woman. She can be a submissive slave, giving all her rights to her loving brother, and sometimes a spankee who gets excited by getting his body parts touched.
It was her priority to be a Degradee, especially when she made lewd remarks and shameful acts.
Cum bucket, onahole, dick house, cock case, walking hole…
Countless words degrading the genitals and vulgar postures such as submission posture, inspection posture, and waiting posture.
I guess she wanted her to be vulgar to a level that suited her brother. She had the courage to confess her tendencies that she had not shown to other women, hoping that at least she would be the woman who would spend her whole life with her brother.
If so, she wanted to become the imaginary woman her brother dreamed of.
If she could hold on to the person she believed to be her destined partner without making a single mistake, she could throw away the opinions of others and the common sense of the world hundreds of times.
Moreover, aren’t there other women around her brother who look up to her brother? She cheekily sent a note to her brother asking him to treat him like a dog.
She was so nervous about the girl that she endured a hard spanking, but this happened before the bruises on her ass even went away…
The more angry she became at her own foolishness, the more the will to do better burned within her.
And, in the tunnel where the only sense of accomplishment she could feel was Hyunwoo’s recognition, that recognition fueled her will every day.
My brother, he smiles when he obeys his commands. The more you put yourself down, the more you praise him.
How happy she was when, not long ago, she thanked her grandmother for raising her as a prostitute exclusively for Hyun-woo and regained her title of ‘baby’.
It was only that day that I fully understood my brother’s methods. I came to fully accept my brother’s tendencies.
As much as he loves his brother, as much as he trusts him, he wants to do his bidding. He is willing to spit out any criticism.
In other words, the amount of submission he can endure is the amount of true love he can show his brother.
So, if he wants to regain his brother’s trust, if he wants to be forgiven by his brother, he just needs to show greater submission. If she loves her brother more than anything in the world, all she has to do is become the woman in the world who can best understand her brother’s tastes.
All things such as useless pride and human dignity are left behind.
That was the conclusion she reached after a week of testing.
Just as she gives up fried food for her brother who likes seasoning, she broadens the scope of her concessions to suit her brother’s tendencies. Even if in the process his life up until now was torn apart and his personality was torn apart, the enormous desire for self-destruction driven by guilt included all of those things as mere objects of concession.
In this way, her sexual abuse and her selling became synonymous with her love and acceptance.
She is a woman who can understand everything about you. She shouts with her actions all day long.
She denied everything about her life up until now and put an end to her life as a human being.
All traces of her former status as ‘Jeong Hye-ji’ were gone, and she was reborn as a well-tamed domestic animal.
The result of the test was, of course, passing.
