Chapter 93 – 93. Contract
“Do you need more wet wipes?”
“Oh, it’s okay. ⋯But, oppa.”
“Why?”
“⋯At times like this, it’s a bit different, can’t we just look at it?”
“Why?”
“Why do you ask when you know, pervert.”
After the intense love affair, the two of them cleaned up together.
Even if I wiped my hands and teeth while going to the bathroom, I couldn’t wash my face at this time.
When you wake up in the morning, you should wash your face right away.
I tried my best to be quiet and careful, but that didn’t mean sweat or bodily fluids didn’t flow.
I opened the window for ventilation, but the wind was still chilly.
It’s mid-March now, but it’s still early in the morning.
I don’t know when it will get warm.
“It’s cold. Would you like a coat?”
“No, it’s warm when you sleep with a blanket on.”
“Okay?”
“Huh. Close the window when the smell goes away… Then I think it will be fine.”
Beer glasses and cans were placed on the table,
I’ve done all the cleaning up, so there’s no room for suspicion in that way, even if I actually sleep like this in my room.
“Winter. Let’s talk here for a bit… Then when we get sleepy, let’s go to the living room and sleep.”
“Living room?”
“I think the living room would be better. ⋯Rather than sleeping in my room while drinking, it’s more plausible to sleep together on the sofa. If you lie down with your head facing the other way and go to sleep, you will be fine.”
Still, there’s something about it.
Even if you’ve gotten used to lying, you have to minimize the possibility of getting caught.
It might even smell less.
⋯Winter might undress me in my sleep.
Even if it wasn’t that, when we slept together in bed, there were many cases where we always hugged and fell asleep.
To make up a story that made more sense, the living room was safer.
If you sleep cross-legged on the sofa, at least you won’t be hugging.
“Once you wake up tomorrow, pretend you have a headache from your hangover.”
Winter, who was distraught after hearing about her mother’s reunion, secretly drank at night.
Likewise, I, who couldn’t sleep because of my restless mind, came out to the living room and saw my younger brother sipping a beer in the kitchen.
Brother and sister openly share their concerns, drink on the sofa, and fall asleep together.
“I’ll take a deep breath and pretend I’m worried. ⋯ Let’s pretend to have a drink and stretch.”
“⋯Yes. Okay.”
A very plausible scenario.
If you ask me if I really need to do this,
Even so, I wanted to sleep together for today.
Actually, it’s not just today.
Every day.
“First of all, since it’s almost 2:30 now, let’s go out of the living room and sleep around 3:00. Let’s talk until then.”
“⋯What story?”
To hear my story, Winter digs deeper into my arms.
To feel this body temperature for the rest of your life,
I needed a much better story than I thought earlier.
If we can come up with a better story,
Maybe it’ll be okay if we sleep together all the time.
“We should talk about how to live. Even if the two of them live ⋯, you can’t really abandon her mother.”
I can’t leave my mother
It’s not just because it’s not morally right or because it pricks your conscience.
If I was going to care about that until the end, I wouldn’t cross the line with my younger brother.
“Even if we live on our own… Honestly, we haven’t saved a lot of money right now.”
Realistically, you shouldn’t throw it away.
Who abandoned whom in the first place?.
Even if this relationship gets caught, we are not abandoning our mother.
Mom kicked us out.
The rapport relationship has been reversed.
It is the mother who throws away, not us.
“Even if you go to college after receiving a scholarship, and even if you cover the deposit with the money you saved… Thinking about the monthly rent and living expenses, you have to work part-time again. If time is taken up while working, the possibility of not receiving a scholarship will increase, and if we live while being hit by work, we may not get along well.”
When the body is tired, the mind is also tired.
When the heart is tired, the consideration to give to others disappears.
No matter how much we love each other, I don’t think we won’t fight once when our bodies and minds are all sensitive.
“⋯And, if we say we are leaving because we don’t like Dad, I think Mom will stop remarrying. ⋯If we said no, they probably would.”
I hate my dad
I can’t possibly live together.
Either kick us out or don’t bring Dad in, pick one.
If her mother were given two options, she would probably choose us.
⋯Because you love us so much.
“Huh. So I don’t know until I get remarried, but I think I’ll have to stay still until I live with my dad.”
“Uh. Pretend you’re okay until you come to Korea, and from the moment you get home, show off your uncomfortable feelings… After the second semester, you’ll go back to college, so let’s say you’ll be self-sufficient from then on.”
The guilt that lingers in the corner of my chest.
Financial difficulties approaching reality.
The happiness you want to enjoy while living alone.
Reason to be independent.
This was the conclusion that came from mixing all the various factors.
Even though,
I can’t break ties with my mother.
⋯You can’t live without seeing your face for the rest of your life.
As much as my mother.
“It seems dangerous to let a girl live alone, so I will agree to live with her.”
“⋯After graduation?”
A grace period of about 4 years until Winter graduates.
After that point, there will come a time when you will get used to seeing them sparingly.
The day will come when I get used to living together with Winter.
If that day comes,
“I need to find a house and live with it. If you say that if you think about money, it would be better for the two of you to live together, your mother would understand. ⋯I’m not going abroad. I can’t see my real mother there.”
We can often say hello during holidays or condolences,
Because I can take care of you without meeting you.
That was the limit that could be compromised.
The moment you run away and give up even that,
You become the same person as your father.
I hated that.
“How do I get a house? We don’t have any money… We.”
“Are you going to ask me to buy it?”
“⋯To mom?”
“No, to ⋯Dad.”
Therefore,
If I was going to back off, I was going to back off her father.
No, it’s not like eating on the back if you look at it.
“Tell me to please, take care of my mother… And instead, I’ll rip out the house or whatever. To that person.”
I’d rather he owed us, because at least he didn’t owe Dad anything growing up.
It pays off with money for pretending not to know your children for over 10 years. Isn’t it incredibly cheap?
“⋯Brother, very…”
“Why. I was originally like this ⋯ It was fine only to my family, but to others, it was originally trash. I did not know?”
“⋯No. I knew oppa was originally trash. ⋯He’s dog trash who makes his little sister do naughty things, oppa.”
“It’s too much.”
At least,
It would be much better than realizing that those bastards committed incest.
Because I’ve given you love in exchange for money,
Keep doing that in the future.
If you wanted family love,
We should have acted like family.
“⋯Even if we take care of her for the rest of her life, she will feel left out. Unless we really give up and live as siblings, we should have time for ourselves.”
“Yes.”
A brother and sister who live together while taking care of her mother.
It’s great to hear.
But when it comes to weekends, she leaves her mother alone and disappears alone,
Suspiciously, the vacations always overlap, so you can’t help but feel alienated as long as the two of you travel together, sometimes to Jeju Island and sometimes overseas.
A situation in which it would be fortunate that it ends in alienation will surely come.
“It would be better for Mom to live with Dad. If she didn’t like her at all, she wouldn’t even care if she asked me to start over or not.”
So rather
It might be better to spend the rest of her life with the person you loved.
Even if she was a trashy dad to us, she might not have been such a bad husband to her.
⋯ Come to think of it, it seems like a bad husband, but
Maybe she wasn’t a bad boyfriend.
So you must have been married
Unless I’m a mother, I can’t know for sure.
“Anyway, I lived here until the first semester and traveled together during vacation… Starting from the second semester, let’s go to bed together. ⋯The two of us have been living together ever since.”
“Yes.”
“Do you like it?”
“⋯Extremely. I really like it.”
Where should I get a room?
Should I get a one-room or a two-room?
If you say self-inflicted, will her mother allow it?
⋯Would they understand if I told them that they would continue to live together after graduation?
There were still many problems left, but it seemed the most realistic of all the thoughts so far.
Mom won’t be left lonely in this house,
You can love each other to the fullest with little chance of getting caught,
The next best option that doesn’t have a big financial problem.
In fact, the plan I had thought of before was nothing more than a delusion with a flower garden laid out in my head.
I know it’s not possible, but I thought that if I didn’t think about it, my head would break, so I escaped from reality for a while.
The three of us live together, so you won’t find out?
Even if I get caught, will my mother understand?
Does it make sense
“So, why don’t you give me something like a reward?”
“⋯Reward?”
“You said you wanted to live together, but I thought hard about it when my head wasn’t spinning because of alcohol. ⋯ Won’t you give me a prize?”
“⋯You gave it to me earlier. Dog metamorphosis. Do you want to do that again?”
“That’s the advance payment I received when I signed the contract.”
“⋯Close your eyes for a second, oppa.”
I closed my eyes for a moment in order to get paid for going the way you wanted.
Winter, hiding in my arms, crawls out and exhales through my nose.
Then come close enough to feel the body temperature,
It disappears quickly, and this time I breathe into my ears.
⋯What are you doing?
I tried to open my eyes to stop playing around, but
Winter covered my eyelids with his hand and spoke calmly.
“Like my real brother said… 30 years old after graduating. 40 years old. ⋯Until I turn 100⋯if I live with you all the time⋯, I’ll keep giving you prizes.”
“⋯I’ll give you something.”
“Anything you need. ⋯ Is.”
“⋯ Everything?”
“If you want to hear that I love you, I will.”
“I want to hear it.”
“⋯I love you.”
Words of confession where the sound of breathing is louder than the vibration of the vocal cords.
So sweet.
“If you say you want to kiss⋯, I will.”
“⋯.”
He didn’t have to say anything, he just licked his lips.
The feeling of the lips that you can feel right away.
Still sweet
“The body… Or anything like that… If there’s something you want to do, I’ll listen to it all. Except for the dirty…”
“⋯I did that earlier, so today is fine.”
For the contract I made by falling for your temptations,
Each price was attractive.
Enough to make my heart thump this morning.
“Instead, oppa, please grant my one wish.”
“What?”
“Don’t cheat.”
“Do not open. Never.”
“If you protect that… I’ll give you a prize for life.”
“Okay. ⋯Shall we write a contract?”
“Hey. It’s okay. ⋯You’re a man, but you don’t need that kind of thing with your family.”
“⋯That’s right.”
There is no need for a contract between siblings.
A verbal agreement is sufficient.
There was nothing to show anyone anyway, so the promise between the two was full.
Reliability that will not be violated,
It was already piled up to overflowing.
“⋯Let’s go out soon, brother. I am sleepy.”
“Okay. Let’s go have a drink and pretend to be stretched out.”
“Huh.”
I made a dangerous contract.
However, it was a condition that could not be denied.
It was worth risking your life.
Risk your life,
It became an obligation to trick at least two people.
