Chapter 64 – 64. Year End
A midwinter day, no different than usual.
The voices of celebrities coming from the TV.
The air in the living room, which is slightly noisy but comfortable.
“Could you move away from using the sofa alone? Fold your legs.”
“No.”
At this hour, as always, my younger brother is taking up all three sofas and lying down.
I feel disgusted every time I see it.
“Brother, my belly is not a pillow.”
“Get out of the way.”
I lean my back against the hem of the sofa and tilt my head.
The warm, soft pillow flinches and slides out of the back of my head.
“⋯What is it?”
Instead, the weight is placed on the shoulders.
Soft and delicate skin texture touches the cheek.
You can also feel the breath in your ears.
“Light skinship.”
“You know when your mom will be back.”
“Your brother started it first. I am not wrong.”
How long will the excuse of ‘good brother and sister’ work?
Is it okay since it’s still light skinship?
“I’m just using my brother’s shoulder instead of a pillow.”
“I feel bad.”
“To lie.”
I get a little goosebumps at the feel of my hair brushing my neck.
I don’t hate the smell of shampoo.
“Why don’t you hide your ears?”
Slightly bitten ear lobe.
It was hot, as if blood was flowing.
“Stop kidding.”
“Is it better for you not to be joking?”
Exhaled breath rushes into the ear canal.
An ambiguous sensation creeping up from the back.
It was a little far from tickling.
“It’s not about playing along with my brother’s pranks.”
The arm that wrapped around her neck tightened.
It felt softer than the belly fat felt on the head.
The inner flesh of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil that I have tasted many times.
Because I know it’s soft and sweet,
It becomes even more unbearable.
“Does the one who succumbs to temptation feel less guilty?”
“Kim Winter.”
Untie your slender arms,
Turn her head slightly to the right.
Naturally, you close your eyelids too.
“⋯Is this a joke? Or did you see it?”
“It was a mistake.”
A light bird kiss that doesn’t even make a sound.
You used to like doing things to the point of suffocation, but
“⋯This isn’t a mistake.”
I prefer the side where the tip of the tongue touches the tip of the tongue,
“⋯Oppa is crazy.”
Seeing that you don’t even refuse
It seemed to be a common statue of each other.
“What do you mean?”
“So you don’t like it?”
“No.”
We were too close to be siblings,
“So does that mean you like it?”
“As much as you like me.”
“⋯Aren’t you ashamed to say that?”
“Take everything.”
Even if you define it as a lover,
“What are you ashamed of between siblings?”
It was a very close relationship.
***
Christmas passed, and the end of the year was approaching.
It’s been a long time. This year.
Until summer, I never even imagined that I would become such an asshole.
He was obsessed with his younger brother and showed possessiveness.
It could have been there. It’s just a bit odd.
However, at some point, I felt the attraction of the opposite sex and felt the sexual desire.
In the end, I couldn’t stand each light provocation and crossed the line.
Stealing the first kiss, stealing the first experience.
From siblings to lovers, from lovers to siblings close enough to be suspicious again.
⋯You have to take responsibility.
This is the decision I made, and the path I chose.
Even if you make a mistake that is not realistic, if you do it without thinking like a child dreaming of coping, it is certain that a catastrophe will happen.
So I needed to talk to my brother.
What to do in the future
“So, are you going to major in English?”
She removed her sister’s legs as she stretched out on the living room sofa.
I sat on the edge of her couch and put her brother’s feet on her thighs.
If mom comes back from shopping, there probably won’t be a big problem.
“Huh. To learn English. ⋯ We might have to go abroad, right? I’m not trying to learn only English, it will be easier to adapt if you learn English literature.”
“⋯That’s right.”
“And I’m going to go to a different college than my brother.”
“Why?”
“If you go to the same university, you might get caught. ⋯It’s hard to explain to others.”
⋯ Unexpectedly, I thought a lot.
It seems I’m not the only one worried.
Hey, there’s no way this could have happened without a countermeasure.
As well as studying English.
It’s like playing with me while pretending not to be on birth control.
Thanks to that, my restraint and patience were destroyed.
“And if you go to the same university, you’ll beg to go on your own.”
“⋯Trace?”
“Since you don’t have a car anymore, you would rather live on your own near the school. And I know that you will take me with you and have sex all the time, but how can you go to the same university as my brother?”
“When you come to our school, you either go to the dormitory or take non-face-to-face classes, so why do you stay on your own?”
“Even if it’s a lie, I’m going to try to catch myself. He even seduced the naive little sister. So boring. Everyday.”
He smiled at me while saying things that didn’t match at all.
⋯ Ha, I can’t stand it, really.
Now when I do dirty things with you, I won’t believe anything you say.
If it really happens, I’d rather take responsibility.
If my mom didn’t go to the grocery store, but she went to play, she would attack me right away.
“⋯First of all, let’s not get caught until we graduate from college. After that, if you can.”
“Ah, don’t get caught, don’t get caught. If my brother doesn’t do it like last time.”
“What am I?”
“You kissed in the living room. Crazy, really.”
“Is that what you mean? You attacked me when my sister came over to play.”
“That’s okay because it’s… Bedtime. My brother did that in the middle of the day.”
“Are you asking me to visit you at bedtime? You said in the past that if you feel lonely, you can go to your room.”
“⋯Are you in heat again?”
“You didn’t do it on Eve. You’ve been patient for three days already?”
Since he had nothing to hide anymore, he said it honestly.
⋯ I want to go out and live together.
It would be a lie if I said that I had no desire to mix until both of us collapsed from exhaustion.
We fall asleep together and wake up looking at each other’s faces.
Do it once more as soon as you wake up.
I would stick up behind my younger brother who prepares breakfast and bully him, then do it again after eating.
I don’t want to do it every day, but I want to do it at least once.
If you feel fine outside, you should ask to go on a trip together.
Overseas is good too. If not, domestic is fine, so find a suitable place.
“Three times a week… I won’t kick you.”
“Three times is a bit less. Not every day?”
“No. I am really sick.”
“You only have to do it once.”
“⋯I hate that.”
My sister, who has been answering NO more lately, raised her body.
Then he brought his lips to my ear and whispered softly.
“Because I like doing it like last time… You wouldn’t do that every day.”
“⋯Do you do that now?”
“No. I don’t know when my mom will come back.”
I wonder if I teased her enough to be satisfied, my little sister kicking away from me
She was ridiculously cute.
She knows for sure that tonight will be messy.
⋯ You have to harass just enough to make no noise.
Or should I shut her mouth up?
Various delusions were popping up in my head,
Everything got messed up as her brother continued her talk.
“⋯Because I said I would take responsibility. She’s telling me to take responsibility and not get caught. Overseas later with my brother. Because I want to live here with you two. Oh, and I want a cat too. Dog.”
“Why pets?”
“⋯I can’t have children, so I want to raise something instead.”
“⋯.”
“I want to do it too if possible… But it doesn’t work. ⋯Mom will collapse.”
“⋯If you just listen to what I am saying, you will collapse.”
⋯Can I stay unnoticed for the rest of my life? This relationship.
There was an unshakable confidence in the continuation itself.
A person who is more attractive than her sister died about 10 times.
It doesn’t seem like there will be a shortage of stimulation while living together. That’s because they’re real siblings that are connected by blood.
However, as for the question of whether you will be found out while living like this,
She couldn’t answer with certainty.
I don’t know if it’s strange that it won’t be caught anytime.
However, the level of tolerance was far exceeded.
“Winter.”
“Why, brother. You suddenly lowered your voice.”
“You said you were going to Anam.”
“Maybe?”
“Do you want to go to bed?”
“⋯Look at that. While doing so I’m right.”
“You sleep a lot, so if you go to school here, you must be tired?”
“Are you really asking why? ⋯Isn’t it because you want to be an older brother?”
“⋯Honestly, if we live here together, I think we’ll get caught someday. Whether you live alone or go out with me, that is another matter.”
Even if your brother goes out and lives alone, it won’t be a big problem.
On the contrary, it may be more comfortable if you have a room of your own.
To some extent, my fetish can be satisfied.
Even considering the risk, it’s much better that way.
It’s less likely to get caught than doing it at home.
“⋯But I don’t want to live apart from my brother.”
“Then, tell mom how a girl can live dangerously alone.”
“Your brother looks the most dangerous?”
“Why are you really scratching so gently tonight?”
“Ah, I look at you with dangerous eyes again. If you try to attack me, you have to scream.”
“⋯Can you even scream?”
“Wow, you talk like that to your brother. Dog trash. Perversion.”
I wanted to punish my brother who was lying on the sofa again and kicking me with his feet, but
Just in time, her mother came back, and it ended with me being beaten.
⋯You really should go out and live together.
It’s too dangerous here.
I’m not saying I won’t visit you at night.
