Chapter 274 – IF Abduction. Older Sister Kim Winter, Younger Brother Kim Ga-Eul (17)
His legs were tingling, but he didn’t want to pull these frizzy hairs off.
My mind was calm enough that there were no distractions, but my heart was beating just a little bit more than usual.
The air in the room was a little thicker than usual, but the usual smell was much more human.
“… Your ears are really soft, you.”
“Just touch him.”
“Nope?”
“… Done.”
“Oh, look at you talking inappropriately to your sister.”
Gae-ga, who rebelled a few times at first, eventually fell in love with her sister’s touch and lay down quietly.
He slaps his cheek against my thigh, very comfortably.
The only soft ear he gave away defenselessly.
“… Oh, I’m sleepy.”
“Are you sleepy, Autumn?”
“I’ve been lying down after eating, but I’m sleepy.”
Maybe it’s thanks to the comfort of her older sister’s lap,
Or is it just because the night is getting closer?
Gae-gae’s eyes gradually grew darker, and today’s warm day drew closer to the last paragraph.
Without thinking, she just ate and lay down and watched TV.
I can add an adjective, ‘It was warm’, to today without a period.
So good.
“Sleep if you are sleepy. Noona will be sleeping soon anyway.”
“Still, I have to lay down a blanket and go to the closet to sleep…”
“Just sleep here. … Sleeping on the floor hurts your back.”
I must have slept alone from the age when I learned Hangeul.
Even though it’s just been a long time since I’ve been labeled as an adult, I feel like I’ve become more childish than I was back then.
“… Where will you sleep, sister?”
“My sister should sleep here too. … The bed isn’t that narrow anyway.”
If it’s not warm, I can’t sleep.
If you are lonely and lonely, rice will not go over.
It’s only been 3 weeks since I lived alone.
… I had no idea that I could be such a weak woman.
I like to rest alone in my room,
It’s really not easy to live alone.
“Sister, what? I hate sleeping alone… ?”
“… Did you catch it?”
“No, what is it? Really?”
“No, something like that…”
Gae-soo’s eyes flash open, and in an instant, Ga-gae looks at me with eyes full of worries.
My heart is warmed up by the sincerity of her sister’s eyes, but there was nothing dangerous enough for Ga-gae to worry about.
It was just a busy day like a normal college student.
After the schedule was over, I just didn’t want to be left alone at home.
“… What’s wrong, sister?”
“No, no, nothing special… Isn’t it lonely living alone? … A little depressed?”
“… Driving me crazy.”
She hated eating dinner alone,
She hated eating with classmates she wasn’t even close with yet.
With someone you know well,
With someone I’ve known all my life.
Because it’s better not to laugh and talk,
I just wanted to eat with you.
“Is it that hard to live alone?”
“… Huh.”
“… Why don’t you lie about this?”
“Nuna, you never lie…”
I know it’s night, so I’ve become needlessly emotional.
Even when I was at school today, there really was no problem.
Yesterday and that day too.
As long as you’re not left alone at home, it’s really no big deal.
But lying in bed, covered in blankets, and listening intently to the ticking of the second hand,
It becomes unbearably lonely.
I get scared.
What should I do if I suddenly get sick?
Who should I call, should I rush to my side?
Mom?
Dad?
Brother?
… Until when?
“You should have told me if it was really hard. Or come home.”
“… I waited because you said you were coming, you idiot…”
No tears come out
Not even crying
However, he didn’t want his brother to find out about his stupid expression, so Autumn covered his eyes for no reason.
I was so happy just a few minutes ago, but why is my heart suddenly pounding?
It was a warm and happy Friday, but did it turn into a gloomy and wet Friday in an instant?
I don’t know why.
Maybe it’s because I ate poorly because I was living alone,
Maybe it’s because your period is coming soon and your body hurts in advance.
It could be because of all the people I met in college, there wasn’t a single person I liked.
There may be other causes, but
I don’t even want to know why.
Let’s find out
Because there will be no meaning or answer.
“Sister.”
“…”
From my thighs, wispy hair and warm cheeks fall slowly.
Then, my cold brother’s hand, warmed by his ear, overlaps mine.
“… Are you really okay?”
“…”
Whistle whistle.
My slightly longer hair sways from side to side.
“What’s the matter. A person who didn’t do that even when he took the exam again.”
“… It’s just, eating alone in the evening is so lonely…”
“Ha, true. Really…”
Autumn, who seems troubled, cannot face each other properly.
How to explain it, I don’t know.
Not my brother,
Would it have been easier to explain if it was a slightly different relationship?
No.
If it wasn’t for my brother
There was no whining or whining.
Nothing happened,
You don’t mind
Please don’t encroach on my territory.
I would have drawn a line
“Well, it’s not like you’re stalking your sister, right?”
“No.”
“… Are you really just being lonely?”
“… Huh. Soon that… It’s a day, it seems like that. … It’s just that my sister is a little strange today… Sorry.”
How annoying it must be for an older sister to be so sloppy towards her younger sibling simply because she is lonely and lonely.
“… I’m still young, so I don’t know what to say… It’s not just me. You have mom and dad, and you have cousins. If you feel very lonely, at least contact your family and try that. You do it to me often.”
“… After the phone call, I’m more lonely, so…”
“Then, even if it’s a promise… , Ah. … Sorry. You should have come a long time ago.”
If you’re so lonely, go see a friend,
At least try dating a boyfriend.
I could pass it off with such simple words,
I know how annoying it would be to try to listen to everything I have to say.
Not like a younger sister, Ga-gae carefully accepts her older sister’s complaints.
So that I don’t get hurt
Don’t hurt yourself either.
“… Tell me when you calm down now. It’s the weekend tomorrow, so if the two of us go somewhere to play, it’ll be fine. The last time we went on a trip, you and I had a lot of fun together.”
“… Calmed down.”
“Really?”
“Huh. … A little bit okay.”
Do not push me away, who is full of foolishness,
Carefully.
Lay him down on the bed and cover him with a blanket.
Locked in a warm blanket, until I fall asleep,
I’ll be watching you all the time, just like you said.
Autumn’s eyes full of worry,
Look at me affectionately
“Don’t blink, come on. Sister.”
“… Turn off the TV.”
“Oh sorry.”
I haven’t done anything wrong, but my brother who apologizes and strokes my hair is so trustworthy.
If I tell you I’m sick, I’ll pick you up right away and take you to the hospital.
If I say I’m happy, I think I’ll turn my head and smile while pretending I’m not.
If I do this, Autumn will react like that.
If Ga-gae did that, I would react like this.
What do you think,
What do you think of me,
Just having someone by your side who knows how you lived,
My mind is calm and I don’t feel any anxiety.
“Autumn you don’t sleep… ?”
“Oh, I should sleep too. I see you sleeping.”
“… I fall asleep while watching, so bring in the blanket. Let’s sleep with my sister.”
“…”
Even with a slightly troubled expression on her face, Gae-gae, unlike usual, does not grumble and comes into my blanket.
My sister’s body, which has grown so much before I know it and is much bigger and harder than mine, sneaks up on me.
Warmer than my hands, colder than my cheeks, lightly touch my chest, and let me hear the sound of my thumping heart.
“… Isn’t it really bad? Would you like some warm water, sister?”
“It’s okay.”
“Whatever happens.”
“Because it’s okay…”
Surprised by the heartbeat transmitted through their skin, Gae-gae quickly turns around and looks at me.
My heart pounding, it’s not that strange.
That’s healthy
If you’re with the most comfortable person in the world, you can.
“… Sister.”
“Huh.”
“It’s okay to be like this because I’m your younger brother, but don’t go around like this in front of people you don’t know. Are you ashamed of yourself as a younger brother?”
“… You’re doing this because you’re my brother.”
“So, don’t do this in front of other people. … I think you must have been drinking.”
“I haven’t been drinking.”
“No, you know that’s not the sound.”
“… Yes…”
“Ah, sister laughed. Now.”
“What…”
You seemed happy when we met,
I was suddenly depressed,
When I lay down, I suffocate again.
A day that goes back and forth without getting a sense of it,
Because the only thing that doesn’t seem strange and understands is autumn.
Heart pounding hard and slow,
Or the shallow and quick beating,
Entire.
“Kim Ga-eul.”
“Why, again. Are you feeling better, a little?”
“… Hug me.”
“… Yes?”
“I want a hug. … When you were sick in Singapore, your sister acted as a pillow.”
“That’s mind-boggling… , … No.”
No matter how foolish you may be,
No matter how much you complain,
My brother, who is three years younger than me,
I can’t help it
Because it’s my sister
With those words clearly in my eyes,
I listen to each and every one.
“… It’s okay?”
“… Huh.”
My brother’s arms clumsily wrapped around my back.
In line with that, I put my arms in and hugged her tightly.
Warm, cozy and
It’s a little hard, but it’s autumn’s arms that can be buried.
“My arms don’t numb, Autumn… ?”
“Asleep.”
“… In times like these, lie a little.”
“Even my sister can’t do it.”
I don’t want to fall at all
I don’t want to cause any trouble,
But even if it causes a lot of trouble,
This time I never want to fall.
We’ve lived together all our lives, but we’ve never hugged each other.
As if you were holding me every day,
I wonder if my brother’s arms are so warm.
“Then lie down straight. … My sister will sleep on her stomach.”
“What, how are you going to sleep?”
“… Like this.”
Whether you use Gaul’s arm as a pillow,
Whether you use your hard chest as a pillow,
Whether his nose touches my hair and catches all the smell of shampoo.
Why do you have no hesitation?
… At OT, I reflexively shrank at the sight of strangers.
“… Wrap your arms around I think my sister will fall.”
“… Really, you have a lot of demands.”
“Sorry. Hehe…”
“I do everything because my brother is kind. Do you know, Kim Winter?”
“You know, you know. … You all know that our autumn noona loves you so much…”
Because it’s a kind autumn that only sees me as an older sister,
Because he’s my brother
Is it so comfortable and comfortable?
‘Cause you never make me feel like a woman
Like other men, I don’t have to glance at my breasts.
Because I lack affection, nothing happens even if I act foolishly.
“… Sister.”
“… Huh.”
“Will you get mad if I say you come every weekend?”
“Huh.”
“… I’ll move the load slowly. Empty the closet.”
“No.”
“Why.”
“… Sleep like this so you can sleep well. Sister.”
… Hug me like this,
Rubbish,
Even if I smell my brother’s body full of the smell of the body wash I bought,
Because there is no problem
“What do you mean by being alone all your life?”
“I don’t know, just… Listen to my older sister…”
“… Okay.”
Anxious,
Shaking,
Anything that can support me, which is not strange even if I fall down,
There was only autumn.
… By the end of autumn,
There was no one to lean on.
