Chapter 251 – Extraversion. Suspiciously Awkward Siblings (3)
“Ah… I want to wash…”
“It’s fucking hot, whoa…”
“I know.”
The vacation ceremony is over.
Summer vacation from today.
However, during the vacation of the senior year of high school, there is no change in life, just not going out of school.
Study today.
Study tomorrow too.
Study, study, study, at least for the next three months.
No matter how many people like studying, I don’t particularly hate it.
Since around this time last year, I’ve been living in the middle of studying, so it was only natural that my heart would feel stuffy and be at a loss.
What on earth does studying mean?
Oh, of course, I don’t mean to spread dog shit philosophy about what kind of education is.
Just a personal matter.
It seems like they are just studying, but their grades do not go up or down, and it is just confusing because they are on that vague line.
Everything you know is clear
There isn’t much you don’t know.
Mistakes… Or two problems?
That’s what humans can’t help.
I’m doing it well somehow within my ability…
It’s hard.
Aiming for a place higher than my ability.
“I can’t go to ~evil~ how can I~give you~”
“Oh, shut up.”
“What the fuck. I couldn’t go to Gwanak, so did you give me something?”
Me, tearing my hair out without saying anything,
Those three people over there singing for joy in the street,
I’m sure it’s the same that I’m stressed out in high school exam life, but why is it so different?
Actually, I’m the only one who works hard, and those bastards do it roughly, but isn’t it because they’re smarter than me?
⋯ No.
When they go home, they will go crazy with the stress of the exam.
Even if you forcefully pretend to be happy, you can’t hide the dark circles under your eyes.
Ha⋯.
In that sense, wouldn’t it be better for them not to go on vacation than to go on vacation?
When you go on vacation, you don’t even have time to have fun like that.
It’s me⋯.
“Autumn, what are you going to do on vacation?”
“What are you doing? I have to study It’s hot, so I’ll take a lecture at home.”
“No, that is normal. Can’t people just study and live?”
“I don’t know. I’ll sleep when I’m tired.”
“Ah, can’t you hear me? Anyway, a boring bastard.”
To be honest,
Because home is much more comfortable.
It was true that even though it was vacation, my heart was a little loose compared to my friends who were stretched out.
If you’re going to study the same way, home is better.
Sometimes my mother cuts the fruit,
If you’re tired, you can jump into bed and take a nap,
If you don’t have enough sugar, you can come out to the living room and have a cup of coffee.
⋯And
There was one more thing
“Oh, I want to fuck you…”
“You crazy bastard.”
“Is it crazy for a man to want to have sex?”
“It’s crazy to talk about wanting to have sex on the street. Isn’t that right, Autumn?”
“Uh.”
Ah, little sister.
There is also winter.
Well ⋯, she’s not a particularly good or bad little sister.
Compared to the friends who are trembling with sex on the street, it is certain that he is a quiet and well-behaved existence that gives relatively peace of mind and body.
Listen well.
Don’t even bother
When you hear her friend’s friend gossip about his sister, they say that she smells like shit.
Winter isn’t really like that.
It’s awkward, but something familiar.
It’s contradictory, but I think that’s the most accurate expression.
Sitting awkwardly across from the table,
The most familiar family.
“No, I can’t have sex, but you guys added it…”
“Shut up. Your voice is so big crazy bastard.”
⋯ Seeing those assholes put me to shame,
Seriously, I want to meet you right now.
Ha.
***
“I’m back⋯.”
Crawling into the house in broad daylight, with a dying voice, of course her mother was nowhere to be seen.
You must have gone to school, what?
Because freshmen don’t even have vacations.
“⋯.”
So instead of my mother, Winter, who took vacation a few days earlier than me,
Wearing cool clothes like summer, biting into an ice cream, he greeted me with a handshake.
To that greeting, I waved my hand in response, took my sweaty body into the room, grabbed cool clothes, and quickly entered the bathroom.
“Whoa… That’s cool…”
After adjusting the temperature of the hot water and rinsing off the sweaty hair and body, words like uncle started flowing out of my mouth.
When I was younger, I didn’t understand why people say it’s cool while eating something hot, but as I’ve gotten older, I think I’ve figured out what it means.
Of course, if I said this in front of my mother, I would be beaten on the back for saying something about a high school student.
To be honest, I don’t think there’s anything awkward about being a member of society if you’re this tall and your body is that big.
If I don’t wear my school uniform, no one sees me as a student.
When I visited Gwanak once to ignite my academic will,
I met someone who mistook me for a college student and tried to get my number, so I was both happy and sad.
⋯ It’s not my taste, but I declined.
I kinda… That.
My ideal type is an innocent type with big breasts.
“Oh, it’s okay to live. A little.”
Should I be sad about looking old for my age?
Or should I be happy that I look mature?
There is no time to ponder even those complex emotions, the life of an examinee who jumped into the race.
Of course, I’m saying this, but in reality I sleep well, exercise regularly, and rest well when I rest.
It’s just that it’s only a problem because there’s not enough time to dawdling.
Look
After washing and coming out, there is a stupidly stretched out human right in front of you.
I’m so jealous of you, really.
Being in harmony with the floor without thinking, falling into daydreams while being blown by the air conditioner.
“⋯?”
Maybe it was because I stared at her too closely while drying her hair with a towel, but my sister, lost in thought, started facing me.
I don’t know what to say to that expression full of question marks, so I shake my head for a while and then throw a light word at Winter.
“Is there ice cream in the freezer?”
“⋯I ate it all. Sorry.”
“…Is that so?”
Winter, who had eaten the ice cream and chewed on the leftover wooden stick, was apologizing to me with an apologetic expression.
Actually, I didn’t have anything to say, so I just threw out the line, so there’s no need to be sorry.
I didn’t say it in a scolding tone, but I’m sorry for all of you to shrink like that.
⋯It’s nice to be a good listener, but it seems that you’re too reluctant to me.
On my side, I’m still trying to take care of myself.
If you don’t take care of it, what will your mother say?
I feel a strange sense of distance,
As I was about to return to my room,
“⋯Ah, that. Brother. Then coffee…”
“What?”
“Coffee⋯.”
My little sister, who was trembling with anxiety, stopped me and jumped up and was walking towards the coffee pot.
⋯What is it?
“That, ice cream… Ate it all Because I’m sorry…”
“⋯Ah. No no no it’s okay.”
“Yes. Coffee, I’ll make it.”
⋯It’s an ice cream that anyone bought to eat in the first place.
I feel sorry for my younger brother with an expression as if he had committed a crime, and I am pouring boiled water into a cup.
⋯Ah, I’m not familiar with that expression.
The younger sister’s expression that I’m familiar with is a dull, awkward expression that shows little emotion.
It’s nice that you can feel the distance and it’s comfortable.
“⋯Coffee.”
No matter how I feel about it, my sister cracks open two bags of coffee mix, brews a strong cup of coffee, and puts a lot of ice in it and hands me something to replace ice cream.
When I accepted the cup, the heat I felt in a place that was still less cooled, and the coolness cooled by the ice, froze and thawed my heart over and over again.
⋯ Oh, really. I feel very strange.
I feel like I’ve become a very bad older brother, and this feeling of guilt creeping up is subtly unpleasant.
“Uh, what. Thanks.”
“⋯Sorry. I ate all the ice cream.”
“Ah, I bought it to eat. I will buy another one.”
“Yes.”
Wanting to get rid of that unpleasant feeling, I thanked her brother, and pretended to be a good brother for no reason, and put a plausible word on my lips.
⋯ Wow, fuck. I did say this
My friends will scream that they get goosebumps when they hear it.
‘This baby, we talk without cheap, look at her sister and look at her sister.’
⋯ Sneering voices echo from all directions, so she shakes her head once to get rid of that bad delusion.
Ugh.
This is why I shouldn’t do anything that doesn’t fit my fountain.
Because of that, goosebumps began to appear on the forearm exposed outside the T-shirt.
It was fortunate that her brother handed her coffee and ran into her room.
In order to rinse my oily mouth without eating anything, I take a sip of the coffee my brother prepared for me, spread it in my mouth, and swallow it down my throat.
⋯ Sweet.
Terribly sweet
And write
I rode very seriously
What⋯,
Still, I liked it because it was just the way I like it.
After taking a sip, he drank the last half of the remaining coffee, took a bite of ice, went back to his room, melted it in his mouth, and started eating it.
Is it because of the cold ice?
Is it because of the thick sugar and caffeine?
My head is clear, so I stop thinking about taking a nap,
I was able to focus on my studies for a few hours on vacation days.
⋯Yes.
Surely.
Home is more comfortable than school.
