Chapter 159 – 159. Reality
I must have fallen asleep with only an arm pillow on, but when I woke up, I was hugging her tightly as usual.
I mean, it’s amazing.
Did siblings swallow magnets when they were young as a pair?
Seeing that I don’t feel like falling, it seems like that.
I carefully pulled out my slightly numb arm and turned on my cell phone. It was already close to evening.
I was worried that my sleep pattern would be disturbed because of a good nap, but tomorrow morning there will be no classes, so it will be okay.
I have to organize the rest of my luggage and have dinner, but I still can’t get my head around and pinch the cheeks of my younger brother who is sleeping.
It was soft and chewy, so the taste of it was quite addictive to touch, but after squatting it a few times, he quickly covered himself with the blanket and yanked my hand away.
“Wake up. It’s already past 4 o’clock.”
I tried waking Winter, who was curled up in a blanket like a caterpillar, but he didn’t even make a disgusting sound or show any reaction.
I woke up just looking at it.
There was no sign of waking up by the end of the day just by shaking it, so I removed the blanket and closed my eyes tightly and pretended to sleep.
“Even if you close your eyes, those luggage won’t be removed by itself, right? Wake up, Kim Winter.”
“⋯.”
Still no answer.
I wondered how long he would pretend to sleep, so I blew air into his ear, and Winter hid his head in his pillow as his body trembled.
“Wake up slowly. Stop pretending to sleep.”
“⋯.”
Beyond blowing air into his ears, he inserted his little finger and gently tickled it, but it never happened.
I also got chills, so I lay down next to Winter and hugged my younger brother tightly from behind.
Biting my ears with my lips, I said, ‘Aren’t you waking up? Aren’t you waking up?” Over and over again, and then I opened my eyes and started looking back at myself.
“Stop it, brother. Really…”
“I’ll make you something delicious for dinner, so get up, winter.”
“No.”
“Why. You slept like that, but are you still sleepy?”
Even if you sleep a lot, isn’t it too much?
The moment I tried to seriously worry about it, wondering if I was that tired.
“⋯I told you I would make dinner for the rest of my life.”
For some reason, when I saw Gye-gyeol’s smiling face while making a special sound, I could not say anything but enjoy the feeling of something boiling in her heart.
I’m going crazy, really.
I rode a roller coaster, but it seems like I’m constantly going up, so I’m happy but also scared.
Is there anywhere else to go up here?
What if it falls, this?
I’m worried about this, but right now it feels like I’m flying through the sky.
I feel like I’m floating on clouds⋯
“Winter. I appreciate your words, but even if you pretend to sleep all the time and say that, there is no credibility.”
I almost forgot for a moment.
Even if I can’t do it, I’ll stick to the bed for 10 minutes, and now I won’t be fooled even if I try to pretend to be a wonderful and kind younger brother.
It would take an hour, if not impossible, to unpack all the bundles and put things in order.
You can’t use it if you don’t wake up quickly and are lazy.
“I pretended to sleep because my brother kept bothering me.”
“If you don’t bother me, you’ll sleep all the time.”
“It’s also your brother’s fault.”
“Why is it my fault again?”
“Because sleeping pills come out of my brother’s body, I get very sleepy when I lie next to him. Is the heart pounding a little too low frequency? I feel so sleepy.”
It was quite new to hear the words I heard when I was in middle school after serving in the military.
At that time, I heard a lot of comments from my classmates saying that being boring, serious, and hard-tongued was just like a math teacher.
I was quite uncomfortable at the time, but now hearing that I am sleepy from Kyeol-gyeol makes me feel more comfortable than uncomfortable, so I feel proud and thankful.
In fact, even if I said that I would be excited when I lay next to you, I think you would have been equally proud and grateful.
As expected, the speaker and the listener are important, not the message.
“Okay, wake up first. It’s hard to sleep at night if you sleep more.”
“⋯ Were you planning to sleep with me today?”
Look When you see something like that, the importance of the narrator is revealed.
I think it would be disgusting for me to say such a thing because I am a big distraction, but if you take out the place to protrude, the slender winter is wide-eyed and like that.
“Don’t be silly, wake up. It’s not night yet.”
“⋯Okay. I will wake up.”
To be honest, I wanted to put my hand on the bed again and go to bed.
I wanted to keep my mouth shut and thump it down, but I didn’t put a towel on it even though I had a waterproof cover on.
More than anything else, it seemed like I was going to get tired in the future.
My sexual desire is much stronger, and I am still superior in terms of physical strength, right?
If I go over every time I provoke it, there’s no way I’ll be able to do it myself, but I’m sure Kye-ryeol will be broken first.
“If you wake up, let’s put your stuff away. It’s rice, you just have to turn the stove and eat it, and there are side dishes.”
“Huh.”
“I cleaned everything up, washed up, ate, and took a break… When digested. Understand?”
In such a situation, it would be unacceptable for me to let go of the reins and reveal all my desires.
Even if you’re tired and broken, you won’t accept all of my sexual desire.
As a real older brother, I have responsibility, and I don’t deserve to see my mother who understands us with a feeling of shedding tears of blood when she exhausts her sister too much by being crazy about sex and then affects her schoolwork.
I need to know how to control myself and control myself.
It’s not just because I’m crazy about desire, but to prove that I can’t help it because I really love you.
“When I see you talking, I feel a bit upset because I think I’m impatient.”
“Right. You’re impatient.”
“⋯Are you going to keep doing that, oppa?”
As if knowing her brother’s agony to love so wholesomely, as soon as he woke up, Winter hugged me tightly and rubbed his chest against mine, urging me to cross the line.
⋯Eat a real meal and look forward to it. Dead, you are real
Winter, who had no idea what kind of feeling I was bubbling over in many ways, stopped flinching and quietly hugged me while talking to me in a low voice.
“I love my breasts so much. ⋯Not even touching.”
“⋯I’m barely holding back, so don’t touch me.”
“Really?”
“It’s true, did you check it?”
“That’s it… That’s what it is, of course. Is a physiological phenomenon. I can’t believe it.”
“Why are you doing that all of a sudden?”
“I’m a little anxious.”
Unrest?
Is there anything to worry about now?
Although I didn’t know anything about a woman’s heart, I thought I could penetrate her sister’s heart well.
While he paused for a moment without being able to answer, Winter started to recite an interpretation of his words.
“Oh, that… Oppa, you haven’t had anything to do with me for a while, have you? Of course, that wasn’t the case either. I know you didn’t even have a chance… Still, I can’t help it.”
“What can’t be helped.”
“There is such a thing, anyway. I have no change in my liking for this person, but is this person not attracted to me? When you get anxious.”
“Hey, Mr. What are you anxious about How long has it been?”
“It doesn’t matter how long it takes. ⋯Always listen except when you are hugged. I think it’s too bad, but it hasn’t changed much. I’m not anxious, it can’t be, because it makes me more anxious.”
When I saw Gye-gyeol talking softly with his ear on my chest, I somehow sympathized with him.
It was true that I was satisfied every time I saw my younger brother clinging to me at the boundary between dependence and will.
Even if Winter likes me all the time, he might not like me the way he does now.
If you ride a roller coaster and go up constantly, it is not strange that you feel anxious in a corner of your mind.
“Don’t worry too much. Because we either get cold or we have nothing to do.”
“Your brother is very confident.”
“When it cools down a bit, if you recreate what you did then while looking at the photos you’ve taken so far, it will warm you up again.”
“⋯Pervert, for real.”
In order to alleviate that anxiety, I openly sexually harassed her and brought out some mean words.
Because people can’t live without worrying.
It’s unavoidable.
Whenever you have worries, you just have to check each other’s feelings, resolve them, and release them.
Maybe worry can be used as a good medicine.
Because it was like that until now.
The more difficult and exhausting you are, the deeper your emotions go each time you resolve it.
“Let’s get away and clean it up. After doing this, I will eat.”
“Huh. Okay.”
“Can I wait for dinner?”
“There were no materials at home. Just having kimchi with rice is enough. Right?”
“Where is the meat, meat?”
“If you want to eat meat, even this… Oh, it hurts! Stop it, brother!”
When I bit into Winter’s forearm, which he held out instead of meat, he laughed and covered his mouth, and it was so cute.
To the extent that I would want to show it to my mother if I could show it to her.
It was a self-contained life that was overflowing with happiness from the beginning.
The tuna kimchi stew for dinner was much better than expected.
Of course, it wasn’t as good as the jangjorim that mom prepared, but when the day comes when you turn 50, you’ll be able to make it even more delicious than mom’s.
If you want to eat delicious home-cooked food, you have to take good care of it.
⋯Revenge later tonight is another thing.
‘Cause I’ve been bothering you a lot today.
Take it, winter.
So why did you touch me like that
